weeny baby rage

The session organized by MCAST to help us organize a group was not ideal for me, there were too many people in a tight space and the activities organized felt silly. One aspect of the reasons why I didn’t find a group was that I did not feel comfortable walking up to random people alone and asking them if they were interested in forming a group or looking for members. The limited breathing space and the silliness upset me and caused me to behave abnormally and erratically; making me unwilling to participate in the activities or find a group. Another reason why I wouldn’t have liked to willingly find a group was because of people that I did not want to work with for various reasons, such as thinking they’re lazy or will be a pain to work with. I decided that it was best to leave the group organization was better in the hands of the organizers themselves, so I would have a group primarily made up of people I don’t know to avoid past confrontations hamper groupwork. The idea to not partake in the activities was not in bad faith, but I could have been a bit more positive and at least tried to enjoy activities, even if I felt that they were silly.

When the time came to start working with my teammates, our very first conversation was not very nice. I had just come home after an 8-hour shift at work and was told to get on the group chat so we can decide what will happen. I was tired and decided to make a joke, one of the people decided to take the joke seriously rather than as a joke; this caused some trouble and an improper first impression. I like to tell jokes, but maybe I should have made the joke either more obvious or at the very least lighthearted. I was not too ecstatic to work with people, but eventually things smoothed out