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eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
so uh
hey kar howwvve you been
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
HEY!
NOT TERRIBLY TERRIBLE, IF I'M HONEST.
IT'S NOT GETTING ANY COLDER, AND THE DRONES HAVEN'T CAUGHT US YET, SO THERE'S THAT.(edited)
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
that doesnt relievve me all that much if im bein honest but alright i guess at least theres that
just
try and not get killed alright
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
HEY, WE'RE THINKING THE SAME THING HERE.
I MEAN, I'M NOT RELIEVED AT ALL, BUT IF ANYTHING ELSE, I'VE STILL GOT MY LIFE, HAHA.
FUCK, YOU KNOW I'M LITERALLY A FUGITIVE RIGHT? LIKE IF I WAS ON YOUR ALTERNIA, HOW LONG DO YOU THINK IT'D BE FOR A DRONE TO MATCH MY PROFILE UP IN THE DATABANKS AND SWOOP DOWN TO CARRY ME OFF IN ITS GRUBBY LITTLE CLAWS?
LIKE I'LL TRY, BUT HEY.
NO PROMISES.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
yeah ill
nevver bring you to alternia thats for sure
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
I'M ACTUALLY KIND OF LOOKING FORWARD TO THE EARTH TRIP, HONESTLY.
I'VE BEEN DOING "RESEARCH". IS IT TRUE THE SUN DOESN'T BURN YOUR SKIN THERE????
WHAT DO THE HUMANS DO AT NIGHT? IS IT TOO COLD, THEN, FOR THEM TO THRIVE? IS THAT WHEN THEY SLEEP, OR IS THAT WHEN THEY GET THE MOST OF THEIR WORK DONE?
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
god you really are excited for it huh
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
FAR BE IT FROM ME TO SHOW ACTUAL EXCITEMENT, YOU KNOW.
HEH.
DEFINITELY, THOUGH.
WHY SHOULD I NOT BE?
I'M SPENDING TIME IN A NON-MURDEROUS PLACE WITH AN ACTUAL, HONEST TO GOD, NON-MURDEROUS FRIEND.
LIKE HOLY ACTUAL FUCK, THAT DOESN'T HAPPEN OFTEN ENOUGH.
EXCITED? EVERYTIME I THINK ABOUT IT I KIND OF JUST... THROW MY HANDS IN THE AIR.
WHAT AM I GONNA DO? I GOT NO FUCKING CLUE.
BUT IT'LL BE GOOD, I'M SURE.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
wwell good ill try my best to make it good for you so you get to havve a fuckin break for once
but yeah its kinda flipped on earth wwhich i still cant get used to to be honest i havve the wworst sleepin problems
the sun feels great there but i still cant bring myself to sleep normally at night
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
ALLOW ME TO SHOW A SMIDGEN OF CONCERN AND CARE FOR YOU BUT, HEY, I DON'T CARE IF WE DON'T EVEN LEAVE YOUR HIVE. I'LL RAID YOUR FOOD STORAGE BLOCK AND CRASH ON THE COUCH AND MAYBE WATCH YOU DO SHIT AND WE'LL BE GOOD.
HELL, IT FEELS "GREAT"? CAN'T WAIT TO FIND OUT WHAT THAT FEELS LIKE.
OUR SCHEDULES ARE KIND OF FLIPPED ANYWAYS, HONESTLY.
WE TRAVEL DURING THE DAY A LOT, BECAUSE MOST TROLLS (ORPHANERS AND THE LIKE,) WON'T TRAVEL DURING DAY, SO WE GET A HEADSTART ON THEM.
CAN'T OUTRUN THE DRONES THOUGH. MISERABLE EXCUSES FOR ORGANICS.
JUST HAVE TO HOPE THEY DON'T CHASE US, DOESN'T SEEM LIKE IT SO FAR.
I THINK WE LOST MOST OF THEM WHEN THEY RAIDED KANAYA'S HIVE AND RAZED IT TO THE GROUND?
BACK WHEN I GOT MY SECOND CONCUSSION... OR FIRST, I'M NOT SURE, THAT PART IS KIND OF. BLURRY.
IT WAS A LOT OF WAITING IN A DARK, WATERY CAVE.
NO, SECOND, ACTUALLY. OR MAYBE, AN EXCARBATION OF THE FIRST, BECAUSE I GOT THAT ONE WHEN I GOT SLAMMED INTO A WALL BY A DRONE, EARLIER THAT... WEEK? LIKE THREE CYCLES BEFORE THE HIVE-RAZING, AND THEN I GOT HIT IN THE HEAD AGAIN WHEN WE WENT DOWN THE ROCKY WATER SLIDE OF DEATH WHEN THE DRONES ATTACKED THE HIVE.(edited)
OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT. LIKE I SAID. BLURRY.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
ok this is a lot
first off wwere absolutely gonna go outside and do cool shit ill showw you the city and stuff like theres this space needle that ivve honestly nevver been on evven though ivve been livvin here for a wwhile but you should see it its like a huge towwer wwhere you can see the entire city from its supposed to be real pretty but its also real pricey so i wwas nevver interested
second howw the fuck do you evven travvel at day dont you get burns or anythin isnt that shit dangerous i mean yeah its dangerous already for you to travvel at night but like
i dont knoww
be safe ok
readin shit like this makes me wwanna practise usin my rifle again honestly
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
IT WAS WORSE WHEN WE HAD TO TRAVEL THROUGH THE DESERT.
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
I BOUGHT REALLY NICE SUN GEAR BEFORE HAND, AND I ALREADY HAD MOST OF MY BLISTERS IN THE TWO-HOUR TREK TO TEMP'S HIVE BEFOREHAND.
I GUESS, ONCE YOU BLISTER UP ENOUGH, YOUR SKIN GETS USED TO IT.
THEN YOU JUST SWEAT TO DEATH.
I'M STILL 99% SURE WE'VE ALL SHORTENED OUR LIFESPANS BY SOME DEGREE, THOUGH.
UNFORTUNATE BUT COULDN'T BE HELPED.
BURNS GET CAUSED BY THE CONTACT OF THE HEATSOURCE TO YOUR SKIN- IF YOU GET TOO HOT, YOU BAKE AND BLISTER UP BEFORE YOU ACTUALLY BURN, WITHOUT ACTUAL EXPOSURE TO THE RAYS OF THE SUN, LIKE WHEN YOU WEAR HEAT GEAR.
WITHOUT IT, OH YEAH. HELL YEAH, YOU ABSOLUTELY BURN AND IT'S HORRIFIC, BUT WE'RE ALL PAST THAT POINT.
WE'VE BEEN ON THE ROAD FOR.... ALMOST HALF A SWEEP?
WE TRY TO FIND SHADE WHERE WE CAN. RIGHT NOW IT'S COLD AND PATCHY SNOW SOMETIMES, WHEN THE SUN ISN'T OUT.
IT'S SOMEWHAT TOLERABLE THIS FAR NORTH, THE SUN I MEAN.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
howw the fuck are you not dead yet holy shit
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
TEMP REFERS TO ME AS A "BRICK WALL SHITHOUSE".
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
pretty accurate
can i ask you somethin though
howw did all of this start
the runnin i mean
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
I ACTUALLY PASSED OUT ONCE IN THE DESERT, WHILE WE WERE TRAVELING TO KANAYA'S HIVE, AND TEMP HAD TO CARRY ME.
ALSO, YEAH.
THIS IS TOP SECRET SHIT, OKAY?
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
god
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
DON'T JUST GO TELLING THIS SHIT TO JUST ANYONE.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
i dont evven knoww wwho to tell honestly
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
I GUESS TEMP PINGED HER BATTLESHIP.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
they cant really do much wwith this information
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
GOT EVERYTHING. LOCATION COORDINATES, CABIN ROSTER, EVEN THE FUCKING MENU FOR THE FOOD LINE.
ANNNDD I GUESS TEMP FIGURED OUT HIS ANCESTOR IS THE UNWILLING PILOT FOR THAT SHIP.
OBVIOUSLY SHE DIDN'T LIKE THAT SOMEONE GOT THROUGH THE SECURITY ON HER SHIP.
BUT BEFORE SHE DID ANYTHING, TEMP CAME TO ME, AND I NOT-SO-LIGHTLY SUGGESTED WE LEAVE TOWN.
AS WE LEFT HIS HIVESTEM, WE SAW THE GAGGLE OF HIGHBLOODS IN UNIFORM FORCING ALL THE PSIONS THEY COULD FIND OUT OF EVERY BLOCK IN THE NEARBY VICINITY AND INTO CHAINS.
TEMP DIDN'T THINK SHE WOULD BE THAT QUICK IN PINPOINTING HIS LOCATION BUT I FUCKING KNEW BETTER.
ANYWAY, HE COULDN'T SIT WITH THE IDEA THAT HE'D CAUSED THESE THIRTY-SOMETHING PSIONIC TROLLS TO BECOME ENSLAVED OR TO REACH AN EARLY ASCENSION AND RITES OR WHATEVER, SO I BASICALLY WENT IN AND KNOCKED THE SHIT OUT OF SOME OF THE FUCKS, BROKE THE BINDINGS, AND JUST FUCKING RAN.
BUT THEN THEY KNEW WHAT I LOOKED LIKE, SO WE WERE BOTH RUNNING FROM HER AND FROM THE LOCALS.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
so basically it wwas your mate bein a curious idiot that got you into this situation
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
WE WENT BACK TO MY HIVE, RAIDED MY SHIT, AND THEN WE  CROSSED THE CITY IN THE SEWERS FOR THE DAY AND THEN HEADED OUT OF TOWN, STAYED AT A MOTEL FOR A FEW NIGHTS, AND HEADED OUT TO THE DESERT, AND THERE'S JUST A BUNCH OF BULLSHIT I'D RATHER NOT TALK ABOUT FROM THERE.
IT'S MOSTLY BULLSHIT ABOUT THE COVERUP OF WHAT I'M DUBBING THE ANCESTRAL REVOLT AND THE WRONGFUL IMPRISONMENT AND SLAUGHTER OF THOSE WHO PARTICIPATED IN IT.
TEMP'S JUST ALL WOUND UP BECAUSE HIS ANCESTOR IS STILL ALIVE AND SUFFERING AND GOD.
I MEAN DIP'S ALL WELL AND GOOD, HE'S GOTTEN US OUT OF A FEW PICKLES SO FAR.(edited)
BUT MESSAGES ARE SPARSE, AND IT WORRIES TEMP, I GUESS.
BUT YEAH, BASICALLY.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
so wwhats your plan are you just gonna run forevver
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
DO YOU WANT THE LONG ANSWER OR THE SHORT ONE.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
givve me the long one im invvested
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
WE JUST RECENTLY LEARNED THAT SHE'S CALLING ALL THE PSIONS TO HER IN A CLASS-ACT LEVEL OF BULLSHIT, EVERY SINGLE!! FUCKING!! PSION!! INTERPLANETARY SHIPPING IS HALTED, SHE'S LAID SIEGE TO ALTERNIA ITSELF IF WE CAN'T GET THE RESOURCES WE NEED FROM OTHER PLANETS EFFECTIVELY. SHE'S REARRANGED THE CLASSES OF THE STELLAR-CLASS PSIONS AND BASICALLY RESTRUCTURED THE ENTIRE ALTERNIAN TRANSGALACTIC FLEET'S INFRASTRUCTURE JUST TO KEEP DIPSHIT ALIVE.
SO RIGHT NOW, WE'RE SCRAMBLING TO GET THE MESSAGE OUT.
ANYONE WITH POWER NEEDS TO GET OUT OF THEIR HIVES AND GET UNDERGROUND BEFORE THEY GET BROUGHT UP INTO THE STARS TO BE USED UP AND THROWN AWAY.
SHE'S EVEN TAKING EGGS, IF DIPSHIT IS TO BE BELIEVED. NO PSIONICS ARE TO BE LEFT ON ALTERNIA, AND EVERYWHERE ELSE THEY'RE ABOUT TO BECOME A CLASS A SCARCE RESOURCE.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
wwho the fuck evven is that dipshit youre talkin about
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
WHICH MEANS TEMP AND AA JUST BECAME SUPER VALUABLE TO ANYONE LOOKING.
HE'S HER PILOT, THE ONE TEMP CONTACTED. I'D SAY HIS PROPER TITLE BUT I'VE GOT TO BE CAREFUL WITH BUZZWORDS.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
wwell alright
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
ANYWAY! SO WE'RE TRYING TO GET THE WORD OUT TO HIGHBLOODS ABOUT THIS CLASS A RESOURCE THING, SO THEY WANT TO KEEP THEIR PSIONICS ON THE PLANET, AND TO THE REST, TO KEEP HIDDEN.
ANYWHERE IS BETTER, BUT IF THEY GET INTO ORBIT, THEY'RE BASICALLY DEAD IN THE WATER.
IT'S THE GENOCIDE OF AN ENTIRE FUCKING CLASS, IT'S WHAT SHE'S TRYING TO DO, ALL TO KEEP HER PRIZE FROM SAID ANCESTRAL REVOLT.
ANYWAY!! MY PERSONAL GOAL IS TO LEARN MORE ABOUT MY OWN ANCESTOR AND HOW HE TIED INTO ALL THIS, BUT I GUESS WE'VE GOT MORE IMPORTANT THINGS TO PLAN, LIKE HOW WE'RE GOING TO GET NEWS LIKE THIS SHIT OUT ON A MASS SCALE. I'M THINKING OF GETTING SOME SORT OF RADIO TRANSMITTER AND GETTING THE WORD OUT FOR OUR STATION NUMBERS OR WHATEVER.
LONG TERM, TEMP WANTS TO FREE DIPSHIT.
SO I GUESS WE'RE GONNA BAIT THE EMPRESS PLANETSIDE.
AND THEN... I DUNNO. WE'LL FIGHT, I GUESS.
SHE'S SO FAR OUT, THOUGH, THAT'S THE PROBLEM.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
do you really actually think youvve got a chance against the condesce
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
IT'LL TAKE /SWEEPS/ TO BRING HER THIS WAY, PROBABLY, UNLESS SHE PUTS DIPSHIT AT RISK, AND TEMP DOESN'T WANT THAT AND NEITHER DO I.
MAYBE NOT NOW, BUT BY THE TIME SHE GETS HERE? I'M HOPING.
I MEAN, IF ALL ELSE FAILS, I'LL STAND IN THE DIRECT SUNLIGHT IN MIDDAY, WITH ALL MY RESISTANCE TO IT, AND CHALLENGE HER OUT? HAHAH.
... HONESTLY...?
I THINK MY PRIORITIES LIE MORE WITH THE REST OF ALTERNIA.
TEMP CAN WORRY ABOUT DIPSHIT ALL HE WANTS.
BUT FOR THE REST OF US? I THINK THAT'S GOING TO BE MY MAIN CONCERN.
ALL INTERPLANETARY SHIPPING IS GOING TO STOP FOR A WHILE- WE'RE SWITCHING TO FOSSIL FUELS FOR FUCKS SAKE!!
SO RESOURCES ARE ABOUT TO BECOME EXTREMELY RARE, AND I NEED TO STOCK UP AND MAKE SURE WE HAVE WHAT WE NEED TO SURVIVE THE NEXT FEW MONTHS.
I'VE ALREADY PUT THROUGH MY ORDER THROUGH SOME OF MY LESS REPUTABLE CONTACTS, SO I THINK WE'LL BE FINE, BUT IT'LL BE ROUGH, PROBABLY.
SO THAT'S THE LONG VERSION OF THE MAIN PLAN.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
this is
this is fuckin stupid
howw can you think you can change somethin wwhy do you think its YOUR job to help evveryone your biggest concern should be that you and maybe youre friends are safe like fuck the rest they nevver did anythin FOR you and i doubt they evver wwill
just get out of this fuckin place this plan is bound to fail and youll pay wwith your fuckin life
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
YOU MISUNDERSTAND ME, DAC.
I DON'T GIVE A SHIT ABOUT ANYONE BESIDES MY GROUP, AND THE PEOPLE MY GROUP CARES ABOUT.
TEMP HAPPENS TO CARE ABOUT THE CODEJOCKEYS, THE ONES I SAVED EARLIER FROM THE HIGHBLOOD ROUNDUP?
AND I CARE ABOUT FAVORS.
YOU GIVE ENOUGH INFORMATION OUT, PEOPLE ARE GONNA WANT TO KEEP YOU AROUND.
IT'S... INSURANCE.
DO YOU UNDERSTAND ME.
WE NEED A NETWORK.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
wwell then fuckin knock that care out of him and get off this stupid fuckin planet before you actually die
you dont need a netwwork you need a safe place
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
WE NEED PLACES TO STAY, THINGS TO EAT, PLACES TO RUN, AND YOU CAN'T GET THAT WITHOUT GIVING SOMETHING.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
this is not goin to wwork do you understand me
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
DAC.
I HEAR YOU LOUD AND CLEAR, BUT I LOVE HIM, AND I'M GOING TO STAND WITH HIM.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
youre goin to die for it
both of you
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
I MAY WANT TO GET THE HELL OUT OF DODGE A WHOLE HELL OF A LOT MORE THAN YOU THINK.
BUT HE WON'T. HE'S HERE FOR THE LONG HAUL, AND I... I THINK HE CAN DO IT.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
if you really cared about your mate youd get him to safety
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
BUT HE NEEDS SOMEONE TO BE BY HIS SIDE.
DON'T SEND ME ON A GUILT TRIP, BECAUSE I'VE BEEN THERE ALREADY, I TRIED THAT.
I KNOCKED HIM OUT SO HE WOULDN'T FIGHT THE DRONES, AND SENT HIM DOWN THE WATERY ROCK SLIDE OF DEATH SO HE WOULD SURVIVE AND I WOULD FIGHT THEM.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
try harder maybe
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
HE JUST GOT MAD AT ME.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
temp is insane
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
YEAH, HE IS.
BUT I BELIEVE IN HIM ANYWAY.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
yeah cause youre goddamn stupid
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
I'D DO THAT FOR ALL OF MY FRIENDS.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
stupid is wwhat you are both of you
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
INCLUDING YOU, YOU KNOW.
ALL YOU'RE DOING IS MAKING ME FEEL BAD, AND IT'S NOT GOING TO YEILD ANY RESULTS OTHER THAN "I CAN'T TRUST DAC WITH PERSONAL INFORMATION".
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
im makin you feel bad cause i
i
nevvermind
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
I MEAN... I WANT TO BE ABLE TO TELL YOU SHIT WHEN YOU ASK, BUT I DON'T WANT TO BE ABLE TO FEEL LIKE YOU'RE JUST GOING TO TELL ME THAT WHAT I FEEL IS STUPID AND THAT I'M STUPID. BECAUSE THAT'S NOT A GOOD FEELING, KNOWING I'VE GOT TO DO THIS SHIT REGARDLESS, BECAUSE HE'S MY FRIEND AND... GOD, THE LENGTHS OF SHIT I'LL GO TO FOR HIM, I DON'T THINK YOU UNDERSTAND.
IT JUST DOESN'T FEEL GOOD IF I TELL YOU SOMETHING AND YOU TELL ME THAT IT'S DUMB AND POINTLESS.
 I ALREADY KNOW THAT.
I DON'T CARE, I'M NOT DOING IT FOR THE POINTLESS ASPECT OF IT, I'M DOING IT BECAUSE MY BEST FUCKING FRIEND, DUMPTRUCK OF SHIT THAT HE MAY BE, NEEDS ME TO.
ANYWAY.
YOU'RE RIGHT, THOUGH.
IT IS STUPID, BUT LIKE I SAID. I DON'T CARE.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
yeah alright
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
SOMEONE'S GOTTA, AND I GUESS IT'S GOING TO BE ME, BECAUSE WITHOUT ME, TEMP WILL /DEFINITELY/ DIE.
KANAYA MIGHT MAKE IT ON HER OWN, BUT SHE'S STILL TOO SECLUSIVE TO KNOW HOW TO HANDLE A BIG CITY, SAME WITH TEMP.
BOTH OF THEM COULDN'T WEASEL THEIR WAY INTO AN UNDERGROUND FIGHTING RING IF THEY TRIED, AND I'D GET IN BASED ON MY LOOKS ALONE.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
yeah ok
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
TEMP SEES... THE SMALL PARTS OF THE PICTURE. HE'S GOOD WITH CODE AND GOOD WITH KNOWING HOW TO DO THINGS ON A SMALL SCALE. KANAYA'S GOOD WITH WEAPONS AND HAND TO HAND COMBAT, AND SHE'S A JADEBLOOD, WHICH MEANS SHE GETS EASIER ACCESS TO FOOD.

PERSONALLY, I KNOW HOW TO FIGHT, AND I KNOW THE DREGS OF THE CITY LIKE THE BACK OF MY CALLOUSED HANDS. I CAN WANT TWO CRATES OF HIGHLY ILLEGAL SHIT AND KNOW EXACTLY WHO TO TALK TO AND WHERE TO GO TO GET THEM, I'VE ALREADY GOT A LITTLE NETWORK IN SOME CITIES WILLING TO BET BIG MONEY ON ME IN THE FIGHTS, AND MAKE SOME GOOD CAEGERS THAT WAY, AND I SEE THE BIG PICTURE. WHERE TO GO, ULTIMATELY. WHAT TO ASK. WHO WE NEED.

WE ALL PULL OUR WEIGHT.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
alright
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
NEXT QUESTION?
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
howw did you twwo start datin
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
I GOT AN ANON MESSAGE ON TUMBLR SAYING HE WANTED TO KISS ME, AND THEN IT KIND OF SNOWBALLED.
HE HID FROM HIS FEELINGS FOR A WHILE AND WE TALKED IT OUT, AND I ENDED UP STORMING OUT THE DOOR BECAUSE SOME PISSFACE WANTED TO TALK TO ME ON ANON ABOUT THAT SORT OF NSFW BULLSHIT. YOU KNOW HOW THEY CAN GET.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
yeah
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
HE ENDED UP CHASING AFTER ME AND UH, HONESTLY I'M KIND OF A SUCKER FOR PEOPLE SHOWING THEY ACTUALLY WANT TO BE WITH A HOTBLOOD LIKE ME.
MOST OF THE TIME PEOPLE... DON'T. I GUESS. PROBABLY.
I ASSUMED IT WAS BECAUSE I WAS HEMOANONYMOUS BACK THEN, AND THAT SPELLS TROUBLE TO ANYONE WITH EYES?
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
guess you got lucky there
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
BOY I THOUGHT I WAS HOT SHIT BACK THEN, ALL GREYED OUT AND SPECIAL.(edited)
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
yeah
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
NOW IT'S JUST BECAUSE I'VE GOT A TINY-ASS LIFESPAN AND I'M A DEAD MAN IF MY COLOR EVEN COMES UP IN A SCANNER.
AKA; TOO DANGEROUS TO WANT TO BE WITH, APPARENTLY.
IT'S... NICE TO BE ABLE TO TALK TO SOMEONE ABOUT THIS SHIT, THOUGH.
TEMP SOMETIMES BRUSHES IT OFF AND I FEEL WORSE. DON'T THINK HE WANTS TO FACE IT EITHER.
YOU'RE A GOOD LISTENER.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
i try
guess im good wwhen im not makin you feel like shit for openin up huh
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
YOU GOT IT, YEAH.
ANY OTHER QUESTIONS, I GUESS? I'M OPEN TO ANSWERING.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
i cant really think of any to be honest
you answwered evverythin i needed to knoww
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
ALRIGHT, WELL IS THERE ANYTHING YOU WANT TO KNOW
LIKE, I DON'T KNOW. HOW TALL I AM. LIFE EXPERIANCES. WHAT'S THE BIGGEST TROLL I'VE EVER FOUGHT. THE MOST CAEGERS OR BEETLES I'VE EVER WON.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
howw old are you
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
NINE, NEARLY TEN.
WHAT ABOUT YOU?
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
wwell then youre evven younger than me
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
ALSO, YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT I LOOK LIKE, DO YOU. FUCK.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
recently turned ten though
and yeah no i dont
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
I'LL UPLOAD SOMETHING TODAY OR TOMORROW OR SOMETHING.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
i wwas alwways satisfied wwith my imagination of you but yeah id like to see it
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
courtingGrievances [CG] sent file > https://i.imgur.com/wWzIKy1g.png < to (whatever eri's handle is) at ??:??
Imgur
DOES THAT SATISFY YOUR IMAGINATION?
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
oh
oh huh
you dont
you dont look as bad as i thought you wwould
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
WHAT DO YOU MEAN?
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
you look good is wwhat i mean
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
DID YOU HEAR THAT?? THAT WAS THE SOUND MY HEAD MADE AS I DROPPED MY PALMHUSK ONTO MY FUCKING FACE.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
wwhat
wwhy
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
NO REASON. MY FINGERS ARE COLD. I'M SLIGHTLY TIRED. THERE WAS A WIND. I DON'T TAKE COMPLIMENTS WELL APPARENTLY.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
oh uh i mean i didnt say anythin really
you just dont look bad you knoww and its a relief
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
A... RELIEF?
HEY, WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY THAT?
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
im not friends wwith ugly people
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
WAIT, SO IF I WAS UGLY YOU WOULDN'T BE FRIENDS WITH ME? o:B
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
probably
i havve standards you knoww
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
I THINK THAT SUCKS. I'D MISS OUT ON YOUR PRESENCE BECAUSE I'D BE UGLY.
NOT TO BE A FUCKING DOWNER OR ANYTHING.
BUT I LIKE TALKING TO YOU, AND NOT BEING ABLE TO WOULD KIND OF SUCK.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
wwell you can be glad youre not then but really im not all that special
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
BUT ALSO, I DON'T THINK YOU MEAN THAT, BECAUSE YOU THOUGHT I WASN'T AS GOOD AS I LOOK. AND YOU STILL WANT TO BE FRIENDS WITH ME.
WANTED, I MEAN.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
people are glad wwhen they dont havve to talk to me
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
OKAY, LISTEN.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
wwell i thought you looked avverage
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
WE'VE BEEN TALKING PRETTY STRAIGHT FOR TWO WHOLE HOURS.
IF I DIDN'T WANT TO TALK TO YOU, I WOULDN'T BE.
WELL, FUCK.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
i mean youre doin most of the talkin so
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
SOOOO I'M RIGHT.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
shrug wwhatevver you wwanna think honestly
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
I TIHNK I'M RIGHT, AND I WANT TO TALK TO YOU, BECAUSE, OCCASSIONAL JACKASSERY ASIDE, I THINK YOU'VE GOT POTENTIAL, DAC.
ALSO; IF OCCASSIONAL JACKASSERY WAS A PAYING JOB, WE'D BOTH BE RICHER THAN THE EMPRESS HERSELF.
HAHAH.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
i mean to be fuckin honest but also i really doubt and evven if i do havve potential it wwent to wwaste already
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
STILL HERE, AREN'T YOU?
DOESN'T THAT POINT TO SOME INNATE SENSE OF NEED, OF WANTING TO BE MORE? THERE'S STILL SOMETHING LEFT IN YOU, BUD.
PROMISE.
EVERYONE'S GIVEN YOU SHIT AND SOMETIMES RIGHTFULLY SO, AND YOU GET KNOCKED DOWN A LOT, BUT YOU ALWAYS GET RIGHT BACK UP, YEAH?
YOU'RE LIKE A FIGHTER.
LIKE ME.
I KNOW THIS ISN'T ALL YOU'VE GOT TO GIVE, YOU'VE JUST GOT TO FIND THE RIGHT PEOPLE TO GIVE IT TO.
GOD. I NEED TO STOP TALKING, PROBABLY.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
no youre fine but uh i dont knoww
i dont feel like much of a fighter wwhen i just you knoww do wwhat i gotta do
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
you actually fight people and protect your friends and such wwhile i just
do nothin
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
YOU FIGHT FOR YOURSELF.
AND PROBABLY EVENTUALLY, SOMEONE ELSE TOO.
YOUR QUADS, OR WHATEVER.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
wwhenevver i do its just outta place and unneeded and people get mad at me
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
I GET THAT.
IT'LL CHANGE, EVENTUALLY.
I'M RUNNING OUT OF WORDS, SORRY. IT'S BULLSHIT O CLOCK, BUT LISTEN... PEOPLE ARE ALWAYS GOING TO HAVE A PROBLEM WITH THE WAY OTHER PEOPLE DO THINGS.
IT'S NOT THEIR JOB TO CHANGE YOU.
IF YOU LIKE WHO YOU ARE, BE THAT.
EVERYONE WHO CARES WILL LIKE YOU FOR YOU.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
evven if its my owwn kismesis gettin mad at me for protectin her
a feww people called me manipulativve too
just cause i wwanted her to be ok
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
WHAT DID YOU DO?
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
someone wwas makin fun of her in public and tellin her howw she rules is awwful just cause she uses a lot of gifs of marie antoinette
so i got mad and told him off but more people joined his friends probably
and evventually she told me to shut up but i didnt wwant to
and then i just got called manipulativve for wwantin to help her
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
THAT'S NOT HER GETTING MAD AT YOU FOR PROTECTING HER, THAT'S HER GETTING CONCERNED ABOUT YOU MAKING A FOOL OUT OF YOURSELF.
WHEN THAT HAPPENS, YOU SHOULD MAKE YOUR STANCE KNOWN, BUT YOU SHOULDN'T PUSH IT. STAND UP FOR HER AND TELL THEM OFF, BUT DON'T REPLY FURTHER BEYOND SCORNFUL AND LAUGH-INDUCING GIFS RAGGING ON THE PEOPLE TRYING TO GET THE ONE UP ON YOU.
WHAT PEOPLE ARE DOING WHEN THEY KEEP TRYING TO GET A RESPONSE OUT OF YOU IS TRYING TO MAKE YOU SLIP UP, MAKE A MISTAKE. GIVE THEM GIFS, NOT EFFORT, AND YOU SHOULD BE BETTER OFF.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
i still got a screenshot of wwhat someone said to me that kinda
hit me
https://gyazo.com/7cee73e22a941c972692c37965269d1e
Gyazo
Gyazo

all i wwas tryin to fuckin do is protect her
and evveryone wwas just against me suddenly
it felt awwful karkat
and i still cant get ovver it

Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
YOU REMEMBER HOW YOU WERE MAKING ME FEEL BAD FOR DOING SHIT I FEEL LIKE I'VE GOT TO DO AND YOU WENT "IF YOU LOVED HIM, YOU'D DO THIS?"
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
so next time i just back dowwn and let them make fun of her or wwhat
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
HOLD ON, LET ME FINISH THIS TRAIN OF THOUGHT FIRST.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
alright sorry im just
ugh
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
THINGS IN THAT SORT OF FORMAT, LIKE "IF YOU LOVED HER, YOU'D DO THIS", AND "WOE IS ME, THIS BULLSHIT IS HAPPENING BECAUSE OF YOU" THAT MAKE SOMEONE FEEL BAD FOR THINGS BEYOND THEIR CONTROL, THAT'S GUILT TRIPPING. IT'S MAKING THEM FEEL GUILTY ABOUT THINGS THEY CAN'T CONTROL, OR THINGS THAT AREN'T THEIR FAULT.
IT FUCKING SUCKS WHEN SHIT HAPPENS, BUT MOST PEOPLE DON'T CARE, AND THEY JUST GET OFFENDED AND PUT OUT WHEN YOU TRY TO TELL THEM SO LIKE THAT.
YOU COULD TRY WORDING THINGS BETTER, LIKE... INSTEAD OF "YOU'RE GOING TO TURN ON ME TOO", YOU COULD SAY "I FEEL LIKE I'M ALONE HERE, ARE YOU AGAINST ME TOO?" OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT.
 OR FOR THE SHIT WHERE YOU WENT, "IF YOU LOVED HIM, YOU'D DO THIS" BIT, YOU COULD JUST HAVE SAID "BUT DON'T YOU WANT TO SEE HIM PROTECTED TOO?". MOST OF THE TIME, PHRASING IT LIKE A QUESTION KEEPS THE GENERAL PURPOSE ALIVE WITHOUT BRINGING GUILT DOWN TO THE OTHER PERSONS HEAD.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
so the wwhole thing wwith her wwas actually my fault and i got wwhat i deservved
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
NEXT TIME THIS BULLSHIT HAPPENS, JUST GIVE THEM ONE RESPONSE OUTLINING YOUR THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS ON THE SUBJECT; IE, YOU'RE NOT HAPPY WITH THE WAY THEY'RE TREATING YOUR MOIRAIL AND SHE CAN POST WHATEVER SHE WANTS, IT'S NOT THEIR JOBS TO JUDGE HER STYLE OF RULING BASED ON GIFS OF SOME FICTIONAL WOMAN. IF THEY TRY TO BRING IT FURTHER, RESPOND WITH A GIF OF SOMEONE YAWNING, OR ACT BORED OF THE CURRENT CONVERSATION, AND DON'T GIVE THEM MORE FUEL FOR THE FIRE. PICTURES ARE WORTH MORE THAN WORDS.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
shes my kismesis but yeah alright
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
AS FOR THE WHOLE THING WITH HER, I WASN'T THERE SO I CAN'T SAY FOR SURE, BUT IT SOUNDS LIKE YOU WERE IN THE RIGHT TO PROTECT HER, BUT WRONG TO CARRY IT SO FAR, AND YOU SHOULD HAVE QUIT WHILE YOU WERE AHEAD.
I DON'T THINK IT WAS YOUR FAULT, THOUGH.
ROSEREDMUTANT SOUNDS LIKE A FUCKING JACKASS.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
shrug
evveryone sounds like a jackass wwhen they talk to me
evveryone just treats me like dirt
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
THE MOST IMPORTANT THING YOU NEED TO LEARN, I THINK, IS WHEN TO STOP.
THERE'S NO POINT BEATING A DEAD HORSE, AND IF YOUR KISMESIS SAYS STOP, YOU SHOULD SAY WHY, AND ASK HER TO BE HONEST.
AND IF SHE TELLS YOU WHY, AND SHE'S HONEST AND TELLS YOU WHY AND IT'S A GOOD REASON, YOU SHOULD STOP, REGARDLESS, OR ASK HER TO COME MAKE YOU STOP.
SHE'S YOUR KISMESIS FOR A REASON, IT'S HER JOB TO HELP KEEP YOU FROM FIGHTING WITH THE RIFFRAFF, TO DISTRACT YOU FROM OTHER FIGHTS AND MAKE YOU FOCUS ON HER.
HER JOB TO HELP YOU IMPROVE YOURSELF THROUGH LEARNING WHAT BATTLES TO PICK, TO HELP YOU LEARN YOUR LIMITS, IN ARGUMENTS AND OTHERWISE.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
so i just kinda
trust her and stop next time
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
IF SHE'S "BEGGING YOU TO STOP" AND NOTHING ELSE, SHE NEEDS TO LEARN TO USE HER WORDS, ALSO. THERE IS NOTHING IN THIS MULTIVERSE THAT CAN'T BE SOLVED THROUGH SOME SORT OF ARGUMENT OR CONVERSATION.
YEAH, BASICALLY.
SHIT SUCKS SOMETIMES BUT YOU DO WHAT YOU HAVE TO.
TRUSTING HER WILL SHOW HER THAT YOU VALUE YOUR RELATIONSHIP.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
she didnt beg she just told me multiple times to back off and that its fine and she can deal wwith it on her owwn
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
HERE'S WHAT YOU SHOULD DO NEXT TIME.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
guess she doesnt like my help
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
OKAY, HOLD ON.
YEAH, NO, THAT'S NOT RIGHT
I MEAN.
IT COULD BE POSSIBLE THAT SHE FELT LIKE YOU WERE VACCILATTING PINK, AND SHE FELT EXTREMELY DEFENSIVE ABOUT IT.
YOU SHOULD TALK TO HER ABOUT THAT.
BUT NO, IF SHE TELLS YOU TO STOP SOMETHING, SHE SHOULD AT LEAST HAVE A REASON, AND YOU'RE FUCKING QUADDED, SHE SHOULDN'T HAVE TO DO ANYTHING ALONE, AND NEXT TIME THAT SHIT HAPPENS.
WHEN SHE TELLS YOU TO "STOP DEFENDING ME, BACK OFF, I CAN DO THIS ON MY OWN", YOU NEED TO TELL HER SOMETHING LIKE "I WILL BACK OFF BECAUSE YOU WANT ME TO AND I TRUST YOUR JUDGEMENT, BUT I NEED YOU TO TRUST ME ALSO" AND MAYBE SOMETHING LIKE "I NEED YOUR HELP TO BACK OFF, CAN YOU COME DISTRACT ME".
BECAUSE, HAHA, THAT'S KIND OF HER JOB, AS YOUR KISMESIS, IS TO DISTRACT YOU FROM GETTING INTO SHIT YOU MIGHT NOT BE ABLE TO HANDLE.
EMOTIONALLY OR PHYSICALLY.
THAT'S THE WHOLE FUCKING POINT OF KISMESITUDE.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
huh alright i nevver kneww that to be honest
yeah i
i guess ill havve to talk to her
i dont knoww
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
HERE.
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eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
i dont wwanna dig it up again but it might happen again and shrug(edited)
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
I SENT SOMETHING IN TO THIS E-ZINE AND I GOT THIS BACK, AND IT HELPED ME LABEL TEMP AND I INTO AN OMNIQUAD.
YOU SHOULD READ IT TOO, ALRIGHT?
AND EVEN IF YOU DON'T. HERE'S THE BASIC GIST.
MATESPRITS PROTECT, KISMESIS' IMPROVE. MOIRAILS SOOTHE AND AUSPISTICES INTERVENE AS A TOPLEAF, AND WANT TO BE INTERVENED ON AS A BOTTOMLEAF.(edited)
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
yeah i just got to that part
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
I'LL BREAK IT DOWN FOR YOU EVEN FURTHER IF YOU WANT, THIS SORT OF SHIT IS WHAT I USED TO THRIVE ON A FEW SWEEPS BACK, MARATHONING ROM-COMS LIKE THEY WERE THE HOTTEST NEW GAMEGRUB OF THE SEASONAL VENTURE.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
thats not all too surprisin to be honest hahaha
but no i dont wwant to think about this more or else i just end up realisin i got flush feelins for my kismesis or somethin like that thatd just ruin things and make it evven wworse
i just wwanted to be there cause i felt like as kismesises wwere a team you knoww
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
YOU WOULDN'T RUIN THINGS BY TALKING ABOUT YOUR EMOTIONS.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
yeah wwe hate eachother but also wwere still datin
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
EVERY, EVERY QUADRANT IS SUPPOSED TO TALK ABOUT THEIR EMOTIONS, JUST IN DIFFERENT WAYS.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
huh
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
IF YOU FEEL LIKE YOU VACILLATE, THEN TELL HER, GENTLY. IF SHE DOESN'T RETURN THEM, ASK IF THIS CHANGES ANYTHING.

AND IF SHE SAYS YES, ASK HER, SPECIFICALLY, WHAT IT CHANGES. ASK HER (IN A DIFFERENT SENTENCE,) IF THIS CHANGES YOUR KISMESITUDE, AND IF SHE STILL /WANTS/ TO BE KISMESIS' WITH YOU.
AND IF SHE SAYS NO.
COME TO ME.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
no im not goin to do that
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
AND IF SHE SAYS YEAH, SHE STILL WANTS TO BE BLACK WITH YOU, THEN YOU'RE GOLDEN, AND NOTHING CHANGES.
YEAH, NO, I DON'T BLAME YOU THERE.
BETTER TO WAIT UNTIL YOU'VE GOT YOUR FEELINGS SECURELY LOCKED IN A BOX OR SOMETHING.
THAT SHIT'S HEAVY.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
this could evven cause problems wwith my husband and im not into that
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
FAIR.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
ill just
i guess talk to her about that stuff wwith that one fight that got out of hand
but nothin more
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
JUST... ASK HER TO HELP YOU MORE WITH DISTRACTING YOU FROM FIGHTS YOU CAN'T HANDLE.
USE THOSE WORDS.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
yeah ok
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
IF YOU CAN, APOLOGIZE FOR MAKING A SPECTACLE OUT OF YOURSELF.
USE THOSE WORDS TOO.(edited)
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
i dont like apologisin
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
ME EITHER.
IT FEELS GROSS, DOESN'T IT?
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
yeah
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
IT FEELS ALL... VULNERABLE AND SHIT.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
yeah i dont
i dont like doin that
so i rarely evver apologise
i dont apologise if i dont gotta
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
YEAH.
YEAH, YES. THAT BULLSHIT.
IF I APOLOGIZE, I'M GENUINELY FUCKING FEELING IT, AND DITTO FOR YOU I'M ASSUMING?
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
yeah
actually
lets start wwith it already
sorry for uh
dumpin this on you
its not your job to do this i just
i guess i cant help it i kinda wwhine to evverybody
i dont knoww
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
DUDE, YOU'RE NOT WHINING.
YOU'RE ASKING FOR HELP.
THAT'S ALL A COMPLAIN OR A WHINE IS.
IT'S THICKLY VEILED BUT THAT'S REALLY, WHAT IT COMES DOWN TO.
YOU'RE HOPING SOMEONE WILL LISTEN AND DO SOMETHING TO STOP THE SOURCE OF YOUR WHINING, OR TO CONSOLE YOU AND HELP YOU FEEL BETTER ABOUT THE BULLSHIT THAT CAUSED THE WHINING OR COMPLAINING IN THE FIRST PLACE.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
i mean yeah but like its still not your duty you knoww
i should be able to deal wwith my problems alone i guess
god
im just so pathetic

Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
I SPENT HOURS WATCHING SHIT LIKE THIS AND YELLING AT THE CHARACTERS ON SCREEN, HONESTLY, I'M THE BEST PERSON FOR THE JOB, HAHA.
UH, ALSO?? FUCK NO.
DEALING WITH PROBLEMS ALONE FUCKING SUCKS.
IT FEELS BAD AND YOU JUST GET FRUSTRATED BECAUSE YOU BURN OUT ON THAT SHIT.
ASKING FOR HELP IS KEEPING YOU SANE AND KEEPING YOU SAFE.
JUST FROWNED UPON IF YOU ASK ANYONE OTHER THAN PEOPLE CLOSE TO YOU.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
youre not my moirail though or evven my mate i shouldnt be talkin about this wwith you of all people
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
I'M NOT YOUR MOIRAIL OR YOUR MATE, YEAH, BUT I'M YOUR FRIEND.
A GOOD ONE, I THINK, AT THIS POINT.
FRIENDS GOTTA BE THERE FOR YOU.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
yeah i guess
thanks
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
IF MATESPRITS PROTECT, KISMESIS' IMPROVE. MOIRAILS SOOTHE AND AUSPISTICES INTERVENE, FRIENDS LISTEN. THEY'RE THERE WHEN YOU NEED SOMEONE TO JUST LISTEN, AND MAYBE OFFER ADVICE.
HONESTLY, I WISH I'D OFFERED THIS KIND OF ADVICE WHEN I WAS YOUNGER.
MAYBE I COULD HAVE KEPT MY OLD FRIENDS BACK TOGETHER.
MAYBE I'D ACTUALLY KNOW WHERE SOME OF THEM ARE. IF THEY'RE EVEN ALIVE.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
wwell at least you learnt from it and youre better noww
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
I HOPE I'M BETTER.
I KIND OF FEEL LIKE EVERYTHING I'M SAYING IS GOING IN ONE FIN AND OUT THE OTHER, BUT YOU SEEM HAPPY WITH WHAT I'M GOING ON ABOUT.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
i dont knoww howw you used to be but i knoww youre good noww
shrug
still youre doin better than evveryone else i met before you so i guess theres that
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
... BETTER AT BEING A FRIEND?
SHIT, I'M SORRY.
YOU MUST HAVE HAD SOME PRETTY SHIT ONES BEFORE NOW, THEN.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
i dont just forget the things you say i got better about hemoism and i remember you havve a mate and i wwanna talk to fef about the shit and stuff
friends relationships just evverythin
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
(:B
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
but yeah
thanks i guess
im gonna take a nap i think
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
ALRIGHT.
I... HOPE THIS WAS A GOOD CONVERSATION.
SEEMED LIKE ONE TO ME, AT LEAST.
SEE YOU LATER? I'M ALWAYS REACHABLE HERE... AND IF I DON'T RESPOND, SOMETHING'S PROBABLY UP.
I'LL.  UH.
I'LL ADD YOUR MESSENGER HANDLE TO A LIST OF HANDLES ASSOCIATED WITH OUR DEADMANS SWITCH.
SO IF SOME BULLSHIT HAPPENS, YOU'LL KNOW WHEN AND WHERE.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
oh
wwell thanks thats good to knoww
but yeah see you around
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
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DUDE.
DUDE.
WHAT ARE YOU DOING.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
huh
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
RULE NUMBER ONE; DON'T DO THEIR JOB FOR THEM. PUTTING YOURSELF DOWN IS MAKING THEIR JOB EASY. THEY DON'T HAVE TO THINK TOO HARD TO FIGURE OUT WHAT THE FUCK THEY'RE GOING TO BELITTLE YOU FOR.

NUMBER TWO; PEOPLE TEND TO LIKE CONFIDENCE. IF YOU DON'T LIKE YOURSELF, LIE. AND DON'T BELIEVE THEM WHEN THEY SAY SHIT LIKE "YOU'VE GOT NOTHING TO OFFER" BECAUSE THAT'S A DAMN LIE.
):B
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
i just
im sorry
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
AND IF YOU ARE GOING TO BELITTLE YOURSELF, MAKE IT MORE SARCASTIC AND WOE IS ME SO YOU CAN TURN IT INTO YOUR FAVOR, MAYBE?
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
im sorry but it really hurt
and it hurts to see and read that literally evveryday
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
LIKE WITH THAT PERSON, IF YOU'D GONE THE FULL MILE, INSTEAD OF GOING "ALRIGHT", YOU COULD HAVE GONE LIKE "I WAS BEING SARCASTIC, BUT I GUESS YOU HAVE NOTHING BETTER TO DO WITH YOUR TIME THAN PICK ON PEOPLE".
... YEAH.
IT HURTS TO READ THAT TOO.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
i used to do that but it wwouldnt make em stop
they only stop as soon as i agree
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
THEN JUST DON'T TALK TO THEM.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
but i cant just sit there and do nothin
damn it
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
NO, YOU'RE RIGHT. STICK UP FOR YOURSELF.
YOU AREN'T WORTHLESS, DAMNIT.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
sigh
but yeah noww that wwe knoww i got nothin to offer apparently
i talked to fef about the thing
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
HEY, YOU SHOULD CHECK THE DASHBOARD IF YOU HAVEN'T ALREADY.
DID YOU? WHAT HAPPENED?
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
theyre goin to come after you for that are you awware of that
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
ARE YOU EVEN AWARE OF WHOM YOU ARE SPEAKING TO?
I'VE HAD THE WHOLE WORLD BREATHING DOWN MY NECK WITH AN AXE WAITING FOR ME SOMEWHERE EVER SINCE I WAS BORN.
I THINK I CAN HANDLE A FEW BULLIES.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
sigh ok i guess
just be ready for some of them to come to you and tell you howw awwful i am
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
I'M GOING TO TELL YOU THE SAME THING I'LL TELL THEM.
ARE YOU READY?
HERE IT COMES!!
I DON'T CARE. A BULLY IS A BULLY IS A BULLY. IF I CAN TAKE YOUR WORDS OUT OF CONTEXT AND SEE THEM AS DEMEANING, DEROGATORY, OR HURTFUL, THEN YOU'RE JUST DOING IT BECAUSE YOU WANT TO, AND NOT BECAUSE IT BENEFITS ANYONE ELSE.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
yeah i guess
i dont knoww wwhat their argument alwways wwas i kinda forgot
but they wwere convvinced they wwere doin the right thing until the end
Court (Kam) - 11/06/2017
WHEN YOU FORGET WHAT YOU'RE FIGHTING FOR, IT ISN'T JUST ANYMORE, IT'S JUST BULLYING. FIGHTING TO FIGHT.
eridan | mags - 11/06/2017
shrug
im just your local punchbag
alwways there to make you feel better cause im alwways wworse than evverybody
November 12, 2017
eridan | mags - Last Sunday at 1:48 PM
hey kar are you busy
Court (Kam) - Last Sunday at 1:48 PM
GROGGY, YES, BUSY, NO.
eridan | mags - Last Sunday at 1:49 PM
did you sleep bad or
Court (Kam) - Last Sunday at 1:49 PM
I JUST ATE A BOWL OF NOODLES THOUGH SO I'M NOT BAD.
I DIDN'T.
YET.
eridan | mags - Last Sunday at 1:49 PM
oh
wwell then
do you uh
havve time slash energy to listen to my problems
November 13, 2017
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 6:12 AM
YEAH. NOT MUCH ELSE TO DO ANYWAY. WHAT'S UP.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 6:13 AM
im thinkin about breakin up wwith fef
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 6:16 AM
WHAT? WHAT HAPPENED. WHY.
WELL I MEAN. I KNOW WHY. BUT WHY.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 6:18 AM
cause first off its obvvious im not good for her evverybody knowws it and tells her all the time and secondly she doesnt seem like she wwants to be wwith me anywway evverytime someone says im a shit kismesis she just ignores it instead of fightin against it wwho knowws wwhat she says in privvate
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 6:24 AM
OKAY. FIRST. LET HER TELL YOU THAT YOU ARENT GOOD FOR HER. THAT SORT OF THING ISN'T UP TO YOU TO DECIDE.
SECOND. BRING THAT ISSUE UP TO HER. TELL HER HOW YOU FEEL. SHARE YOUR INSECURITIES ABOUT HER DISLIKING YOU AND LOSING HER HATE FOR YOU. THIRD. UNLESS SHE SAYS SOMETHING TO MAKE YOU THINK SHE'S TALKING SHIT ABOUT YOU BEHIND YOUR BACK, I THINK THAT MIGHT JUST BE YOU BEING PARANOID.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 6:25 AM
all our convversations just end wwith an unsatisfactory result she just tells me that im paranoid ovver and ovver again and asks me wwhats wwrong but she doesnt DO anythin and im just
kar im so sick of it im sick of the pressure
i cant do this anymore
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 6:32 AM
WHAT DO YOU TELL HER? WHEN SHE ASKS WHATS WRONG, I MEAN.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 6:33 AM
i tell her evverythin is wwrong and that its not really any of her business since shes my kismesis
see the issue is she just generally asks me wwhats wwrong wwith me and theres too much i dont havve any clue wwhere to start
i dont evven WWANT to talk about most things
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 6:35 AM
OKAY. LETS BREAK IT DOWN, THEN? IT WILL HELP.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 6:36 AM
break wwhat exactly dowwn
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 6:38 AM
WHAT DO YOU THINK IS THE BIGGEST PROBLEM IN YOUR RELATIONSHIP? HER NOT ACKNOWLEDGING YOU AS HER SPADE WHEN PEOPLE TELL HER LIES ABOUT YOU OR WHATEVER?
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 6:38 AM
i think the fact she just seems to brush me off in public
wwhen someone says some shit about me she just doesnt care
she doesnt seem like
proud of bein wwith me
and it hurts
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 6:46 AM
AND THAT'S COMPLETELY VALID, DUDE. YOU HAVE A RIGHT TO FEEL PROUD OF YOURSELF FOR BEING WITH SOMEONE AND FOR THEM, TOO. HOW YOU FEEL, THATS NOT NORMAL. BUT IT HAPPENS. IT SUCKS. BUT IT HAPPENS. IF SHE ISNT PROUD OF YOU, THEN THERES AN UNDERLYING PROBLEM THERE. YOU TWO NEED TO TALK. FOCUS ON THAT ISSUE ONLY. A QUADRANT, ANY QUADRANT, SHOULD FEEL PROTECTIVE AND DEFENSIVE OF THEIR QUADMATE. OTHERWISE IT JUST FEELS EXACTLY LIKE THAT, LIKE THE OTHER PARTNER JUST DOESNT CARE.
AND THAT SUCKS.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 6:47 AM
so i should just
tell her that
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 6:47 AM
YEAH. EXACTLY WHAT YOU SAID TO ME.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 6:48 AM
wwhat if she just brushes it off again
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 6:50 AM
THEN TELL HER THAT YOU TALKED TO A COUPLE OF FRIENDS ABOUT IT AND THEY AGREE WITH YOU. AND IF SHE STILL BRUSHES YOU OFF. ASK HER TO PLEASE RESPECT YOUR FEARS.

AND IF SHE STILL BRUSHES YOU OFF?

THEN SHE DOESN'T RESPECT YOU. AND YOU TELL HER THAT.
TELL HER TO STOP INVALIDATING YOUR FEELINGS ABOUT THE ISSUE IF SHE DOES.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 6:51 AM
ugh
i dont wwanna talk about this i just wwanna run
its so much easier
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 6:52 AM
QUADRANTS TAKE WORK, MAN.
IT SUCKS BUT ITS TRUE. YOU KNOW THAT, YOU'RE NOT DUMB.
YOU'VE GOT THIS, DAC.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 6:55 AM
you see all ivve done before is just break up wwith evveryone wwhenevver it got difficult
i just ran
i dont wwant to wwork
its so difficult
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 6:55 AM
YEAH. THATS NOT GOOD.
NOT GONNA LIE. THAT'S KIND OF SHITTY.
THAT BURNS TRUST AND BRIDGES TOO.
NOT EVEN TRUST BETWEEN YOU AND THE OTHER PERSON, BUT EVERYONE ELSE WHO SEES IT.(edited)
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 6:56 AM
shrug i do it in privvate so it doesnt matter
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 6:57 AM
BUT PEOPLE DONT KEEP THEIR MOUTHS SHUT.
I GUARANTEE THE FIRST THING THE PEOPLE YOU RAN FROM DID WAS TELL THE PEOPLE CLOSEST TO THEM. AND NOT IN GOOD WAYS. YOU'VE GOT QUITE THE REPUTATION, HONESTLY.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 6:58 AM
i mean its no secret i havve a shitty reputation so
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 6:58 AM
BUT IF YOU WORK FOR THE RELATIONSHIP, YOU CAN SAY YOU AT LEAST TRIED. AND THEN ITS NOT ON YOU ANYMORE. ITS ON HER.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 6:58 AM
ivve gotten used to it
yeah but i just
dont havve the energy for it
im so tired
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 6:59 AM
UGH. ALRIGHT. I MEAN THAT FUCKING SUCKS BUT IT SURE IS A MOOD.
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 7:00 AM
JUST... EITHER DO IT AND GET IT OVER WITH, OR LET IT SIT FOR A BIT.

MAYBE TELL HER YOU NEED A SMALL BREAK TO THINK ABOUT SOME SHIT AND GET SOME ENERGY BACK
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 7:04 AM
i dont knoww i just wwant it to be ovver
this relationship already started shaky to begin wwith
i wwant somethin that is stable like the thing wwith cas and not somethin that is just a rollercoaster the entire time
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 7:18 AM
HMM. SO YOU JUST DON'T ... LIKE HER ANYMORE?
OR YOU JUST DON'T WANT TO PUT THE EFFORT INTO IT?
HONESTLY MY OPINION IS FOR YOU TO GIVE IT TIME, AND CONMUNICATION.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 7:37 AM
i dont knoww
i just dont knoww
i kinda
i
i alwways sometimes havve this phase wwhere i push people awway and then i let them close again its just howw i am
so i really cant tell for sure
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 7:43 AM
SO TELL HER THAT. IT SOUNDS MORE AND MORE LIKE YOU NEED TO JUST TAKE A BREAK.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 7:43 AM
i mean i alwways need a break from about anythin
im just so tired of life
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 7:44 AM
DON'T... DONT SAY THAT.
):B
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 7:45 AM
im not gonna kill myself im just so tired of it
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 7:45 AM
UH HUH.
I DON'T BELIEVE YOU
NOW I'M FUCKING WORRIED.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 7:46 AM
yeah a lot of people wworry about me so thats nothin neww
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 7:47 AM
YEAH STILL. NONE OF THEM ARE ME, EXCEPT RIGHT NOW.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 7:47 AM
shrug
so im talkin to fef right noww and she doesnt evven wwant a break
she doesnt evven see wwhats wwrong

Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 7:50 AM
DID YOU TELL HER WHAT YOU TOLD ME?
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 7:51 AM
im doin it right noww
https://gyazo.com/56a27e028ac98fa82bc23ce7cabd4aa9

Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 7:52 AM
SAVAGE, BUT ACCURATE.
MAYBE PUT IN SOME ERNESTY. "CMON, FEF... YOU DON'T REALLY THINK THAT DO YOU??" ETC
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 7:54 AM
i cant im just mad at her noww
i told her shes wworried about her owwn reputation and not about me
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 7:54 AM
HEY HOLD ON.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 7:54 AM
she accepted it and asked me wwhat to do to fix this
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 7:54 AM
STOP.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 7:54 AM
hm
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 7:55 AM
TAKE A BREATH DUDE.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 7:55 AM
alright
wwhat noww
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 7:56 AM
JUST BREATHE. TAKE A MOMENT OR TWO.
TALK TO ME.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 7:56 AM
breathin doesnt make me less mad
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 7:56 AM
WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LIKE, BY THE WAY? I'M PUTTING TOGETHER A THING.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 7:56 AM
i wwant to get this ovver wwith kar
i told her i wwant a break
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 7:57 AM
OKAY. ALRIGHT.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 7:58 AM
but yeah i uh
i listen to indie a lot i guess
troye sivvan is my favvourite singer

eridan | mags - Last Monday at 8:13 AM
hey kar
dont you think this is
wwrong
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 8:36 AM
WHAT?
WHAT, SPECIFICALLY.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 8:36 AM
this
wwhat wwere doin
like
wwe arent datin
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 8:38 AM
HONESTLY? I GUESS IF YOU HAD TO CALL IT SOMETHING, I'D GO WITH ASHEN. BUT I DONT HONESTLY THINK SO. I'D HAVE TO BE TALKING TO HER TOO.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 8:39 AM
i dont knoww i feel pale about this
it goes into a grey area cause i havve a lot of relationship problems
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 8:39 AM
YOU'RE RIGHT THOUGH, WE AREN'T DATING. BUT I STILL FEEL LIKE I'VE GOT TO HELP YOU THROUGH THIS SHIT. IT'S NOT RIGHT HOW SHE TREATS YOU.
IT'S PROBABLY YOUR RELATIONSHIP PROBLEMS THAT MAKE YOU FEEL LIKE THIS. TOWARDS ME I MEAN.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 8:40 AM
no i just
i
you remember i havve a crush on you right
this just
it gets my hopes up
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 8:41 AM
YEAH.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 8:41 AM
and i dont like it
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 8:41 AM
HOLD ON.
WAIT A SEC.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 8:41 AM
wwhat
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 8:41 AM
I'M SWITCHING TO THE HUSKTOP.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 8:41 AM
alright
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 8:41 AM
JUST HOLD ON.
OOOKAAYY.
ALRIGHT.
OKAY.
ALRIGHT.
FIRST.
YEAH.
YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON ME.
NO FUCKING KIDDING.
YOU'RE ERIDAN AMPORA, YOU'LL FORM A CRUSH ON BASICALLY ANYONE WHO SHOWS YOU ATTENTION. AND THE ONLY REASON I DON'T RETURN YOUR FEELINGS RIGHT NOW IS BECAUSE, AND LISTEN CLOSELY HERE!!

IN TWO WEEKS, YOU'LL EITHER BE OVER YOUR CRUSH OR YOU WON'T, AND THAT DIFFERENTIATES THE STAGES BETWEEN PUPPY LOVE OR AN ACTUAL INFATUATION.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 8:49 AM
are you kiddin ivve been crushin on your for months
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 8:50 AM
WHAT, LIKE MORE THAN PUPPY LOVE? SHIT.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 8:50 AM
thats like
its
the hugest pale crush ivve evver had before
but its alright i just
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 8:51 AM
NO, NO.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 8:51 AM
all im tryin to say is just wwe should like
huh
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 8:51 AM
IT'S... I DON'T KNOW. I'M FLATTERED I GUESS.
I'M NOT SHOOTING YOU DOWN, BUT THERE'S NO WAY IN HELL I'M READY FOR THIS- AND PART OF ME BELIEVES YOU'RE JUST REBOUNDING FROM FEF. I DON'T KNOW THOUGH.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 8:52 AM
again im not askin you out
im just sayin i need distance cause obvviously you dont feel the same wway and you dont look like youre gonna anytime soon
i just need distance and this wwhole talkin about our problems to stop it just hurts
im sure youre havvin fun bein all flattered and shit but it just fuckin goddamn hurts me
it hurts wwhen i spill all my problems to you and you just call me a good friend afterwwards
it HURTS
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 9:00 AM
I DON'T. I DON'T WANT TO HURT YOU. I REALLY DON'T.

YOU'VE ALREADY CUT ME OFF TWICE, LOSING AND GAINING MY FRIENDSHIP LIKE YOU'RE JUST DROPPING OFF A WRIGGLER AT SCHOOLFEEDING AND THEN PICKING THEM UP.
I DON'T WANT TO GET HURT, EITHER.
THIS IS WHAT I MEANT WITH THE TRUST THING.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 9:01 AM
yeah alright i knoww i cant be trusted
i knoww im not suited for relationships i knoww im awwful
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 9:01 AM
MAYBE NOT, BUT I DON'T THINK YOU'RE AWFUL, AND I THINK YOU'D BE A GREAT PALE.
I DON'T WANT TO DRAG YOU INTO MY BULLSHIT, EITHER.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 9:03 AM
kar i am NOT askin you out i knoww you dont wwant nor need this
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 9:03 AM
THIS WHOLE REVOLT THING. WE'RE JUST STARTING OUT!! THERE ARE SO MANY UNKNOWN FACTORS, AND I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU IN A PRISON CELL SOMEWHERE. ):B
YEAH, I ACTUALLY DO WANT IT, BUT DAMNED IF WE ALL WANT FOR THINGS WE'RE NOT ALLOWED TO HAVE.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 9:04 AM
yeah ok
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 9:05 AM
IT'S SO, SO, SO FUCKING HARD, TO PUT MY EMOTIONS INTO WORDS HERE.
I DON'T WANT TO STOP TALKING TO YOU.
I GET WHAT YOU'RE TRYING TO DO.
BUT UNLIKE YOU AND UNLIKE FEFERI, I WANT TO PUT IN THAT TIME AND EFFORT TO KEEP THIS RELATIONSHIP UP.
I DON'T WANT TO JUST... NOT TALK. DO YOU REALIZE HOW LITTLE PEOPLE I TALK TO (ACTUALLY TALK, WITHOUT YELLING OR LYING.) DO YOU?
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 9:06 AM
wwere not gonna stop talkin just like you knoww talk about other things
somethin less goddamn pale
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 9:07 AM
YEAH, LIKE?
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 9:08 AM
i dont fuckin knoww
just smalltalk
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 9:36 AM
CAN YOU HANDLE SMALLTALK?
IT SEEMS VERY MUCH LIKE YOU JUST KIND OF. YOU LIKE TO TALK ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS, AND THAT'S ALRIGHT.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 9:45 AM
yeah wwell ill havve to get used to not talkin about them anymore
at least not wwith you
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 9:46 AM
IF THAT'S WHAT YOU WANT.
I WANT IT SAID RIGHT NOW THAT I NEVER FELT LIKE IT WAS A BAD THING.
HONESTLY I THOUGHT IT WAS HELPING US GROW CLOSER TOGETHER AS PALS.
BUT WHATEVER.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 9:49 AM
all it did wwas rip out my emotions and make me feel awwful for havvin a crush on you and it sucked
it wwas like takin advvantage of you bein unawware wwhat this all means to me
and it wwas nice for a wwhile but afterwwards it alwways ended wwith me unsatisfied and upset
but i guess its good to knoww you had fun wwith it
cause gettin my hopes up for nothin wwasnt fun to me
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 9:51 AM
I'M SORRY.
I DIDN'T WANT YOU TO FEEL AWFUL AND I WASN'T HAVING "FUN" WITH IT, I WAS HAVING FUN WITH YOU.
I NEVER EVEN SAID I WAS HAVING FUN. I DON'T KNOW WHERE YOU GOT THAT.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 9:53 AM
i dont fuckin knoww wwhere i got it from all i knoww is that evveryone is just toyin wwith my emotions and im sick of it
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 9:53 AM
I WASN'T TAKING ADVANTAGE OF YOU, AND I DEFINITELY WASN'T TRYING TO MAKE YOU FEEL TOYED WITH.
I JUST WANTED TO HELP.
HELP YOU.
I DUNNO.
THOUGHT YOU HAD POTENTIAL.
I SAID THAT EARLIER, RIGHT?
THAT I THOUGHT YOU HAD POTENTIAL.
FOR WHAT, YOU ASK?
FUCK IF I KNOW.(edited)
I KNEW WHAT IT WAS FOR THEN.
YOU CAN'T HELP SOMEONE WHO DOESN'T WANT TO BE HELPED, YOU KNOW?
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 9:56 AM
yeah i dont wwanna be helped no i dont i dont wwant any of this anymore
i dont deservve relationships i dont deservve friendships i dont deservve anythin anymore
my potential is wwasted on me and im just
im just a wwaste of space
a wwaste of energy
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 9:56 AM
EVERY VISCERAL EMOTION I HAVE RIGHT NOW IS TELLING ME TO TELL YOU THAT YOU'RE WRONG.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 9:57 AM
i am though and people tell me evveryday
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 9:57 AM
BUT THAT GOES INTO "FEELINGS" TALK. SO...
YEAH WELL. THEY'RE WRONG TOO.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 9:57 AM
i havve nothin to offer i havve nothin to givve and i just take and take like the egoistic fuck i am
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 9:58 AM
DID I GIVE A SHIT ABOUT THAT BEFORE, ERI.
DO I LOOK LIKE I CARE.
DO I SOUND LIKE I CARE.
YOU HAD TO SEE SOMETHING IN ME TOO, HAHA, BUT I GUESS I'VE LET YOU DOWN LIKE I'VE LET DOWN EVERY OTHER POTENTIAL PALE-MATE OR FRIENDSHIP I'VE EVER HAD, SO! HAHAHAHAHA!! ALL ABOARD THE LOSER TRAIN TO FUCK-UP VILLE, POPULATION, US.
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 10:00 AM
I'M NOT GOING TO TALK ABOUT FEELINGS ANYMORE. OR RELATIONSHIPS. OR WHATEVER.
YOU CAN DECIDE FOR YOURSELF IF YOU STILL LIKE ME AFTER A FEW DAYS OF IT.
BUT I DOUBT IT. BECAUSE, YOU KNOW, FOR SOME REASON, PEOPLE SEEM TO LIKE IT WHEN SOMEONE LIKE ME SHUTS UP AND PUTS UP, AM I RIGHT?
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 10:01 AM
you see the problem is ill probably alwways like you
ill
my memory is shit yeah but i wwont forget you
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 10:01 AM
YOU WILL.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 10:01 AM
no one has helped me like this before and no one has made me feel like this
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 10:02 AM
STOP TALKING ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS.
WE AREN'T DATING AND IT'S FORBIDDEN, BY YOU.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 10:02 AM
iknoww but i hate that its forbidden i hate evverythin
im so tired
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 10:02 AM
YOU DID IT TO YOURSELF.
WE WERE JUST FINE EARLIER.
YOU'LL FORGET THE FEW GOOD CONVERSATIONS WE HAD AS SOON AS YOU START THINKING I'M AN ASSHOLE AGAIN AND TRY TO TELL ME YOU DON'T WANT TO BE FRIENDS.
SO YOU KNOW, IT WON'T LAST.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 10:04 AM
i jsut dont knoww wwhat i wwant
i dont knoww
i dont fuckin knoww wwhat to do
i feel like im about to burst and im tryin evverythin i can to make it stop
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 10:05 AM
GUESS YOU'RE GOING TO HAVE TO FIGURE THIS ONE OUT WITHOUT MY ADVICE, THEN.
SINCE THAT TIES INTO "FEELINGS" TOO.
YOU KNOW. WHICH YOU'VE FORBIDDEN.
YET SOMEHOW KEEP TALKING ABOUT.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 10:06 AM
i dont wwant this
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 10:06 AM
I'M SUPPOSED TO PRETEND LIKE I DON'T CARE.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 10:06 AM
UGH are you havvin fun wwith this are you havvin fun wwith makin me suffer for wwhat i said
usin my wwords against me noww to ruin me
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 10:07 AM
NO. I'M REALLY FUCKING UPSET, ERIDAN.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 10:07 AM
im upset too
ivve been upset for the past feww days
i juts cant deal wwith anythin anymore
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 10:09 AM
AND WHAT, AM I SUPPOSED TO KEEP PRETENDING THEN?
"HEY, I DON'T CARE ABOUT YOUR PROBLEMS, ACTUALLY, I LIED, IT'S ACTUALLY TEARING ME UP INSIDE???"
NO, WAIT, I'VE GOT A BETTER RESPONSE.
MM HM. GO ON.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 10:12 AM
im sorry alright im fuckin sorry
im sorry
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 10:12 AM
I SEE.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 10:12 AM
im sorry

Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 10:13 AM
I'M LISTENING.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU'RE SORRY FOR, ACTUALLY.
YOU DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT FEELINGS. SO DON'T TALK ABOUT THEM.
IT'S NOT THAT HARD.
I MEAN, MAYBE FOR ME.
FOR YOU IT MIGHT BE.
IT'S A DOUBLE STANDARD WHEN YOU TELL ME THAT I'M NOT ALLOWED TO TALK TO YOU ABOUT FEELINGS, BUT KEEP TRYING TO PUSH YOURS INTO MY LAP.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 10:14 AM
ok im sorry
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 10:15 AM
EITHER WE BOTH TALK OR WE BOTH DON'T. AND IF YOU'RE GOING TO CUT ME OUT, DON'T HALFASS IT. JUST SAY IT OUTRIGHT THAT YOU DON'T WANT TO TALK. IT'S OKAY TO TELL PEOPLE YOU WANT TO TAKE A BREAK. EVEN FROM FRIENDSHIP.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 10:15 AM
ok
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 10:15 AM
FIRST OF ALL.
YOU'RE IN WAY OVER YOUR FUCKING HEAD.
THAT'S WHY YOU FEEL LIKE YOU'RE DROWNING.
THERE'S SO MUCH SHIT HAPPENING ALL AT ONCE, AND YOUR PAN IS JUST GOING, "WHAT THE FUUUUCK, WHICH ONE DO I FOCUS ON.".
MAKE A LIST.
PRIORITIZE YOUR THINGS, AND YOUR EMOTIONS, AND EVEN THE PEOPLE YOU TALK TO.
NOT EVERYONE NEEDS TO BE ANSWERED RIGHT AWAY.
FEFERI TAKES PRECEDENCE BECAUSE SHE IS YOUR QUADRANT (OR WAS? DID YOU TWO ACTUALLY TAKE A BREAK?)
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 10:17 AM
wwhyre yoz suddenly nice to me afain
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 10:17 AM
AND I DON'T TAKE PRECEDENCE, BECAUSE I AM NOT IN YOUR QUADRANT.
WE'VE BOTH ESTABLISHED THAT YEAH, WE LIKE EACH OTHER.
AND I'M NOT DRAGGING YOU AROUND ON A BULLSHIT STRING OF LIES.
ALSO, I'M BEING NICE TO YOU BECAUSE YOU APOLOGIZED.
AND BECAUSE YOU'RE MY FRIEND.
AND I'M NOT GOING TO LET YOU DROWN.
NOT EVERYTHING NEEDS TO GET DONE IN THE SAME SOLAR CYCLE, EITHER.
FOCUS ON DOING ONE THING, TWO THINGS A DAY.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 10:18 AM
ok
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 10:18 AM
RESOLVE YOUR ISSUES WITH FEFERI. TAKE A BREAK, KEEP DATING HER, BREAK UP WITH HER PERMANENTLY, MAKE A CHOICE. THAT'S YOUR ISSUES FOR TODAY.
WHAT ELSE DO YOU HAVE TO DO?
I'LL BUNDLE IT UP FOR YOU, PRIORITY WISE.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 10:19 AM
wwe decided to take a break
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 10:19 AM
THEN YOU'RE DOING FUCKING FANTASTIC, LOOK AT YOU, ALREADY GOT YOUR TASK DONE FOR THE DAY.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 10:20 AM
i put the grouo chat on hiatus so i havve a vreak from people
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 10:21 AM
YOU CAN CHOOSE TO DO TWO THINGS ONCE YOU GET YOUR TASK GONE.
YOU CAN RELAX, OR YOU CAN PREPARE FOR YOUR NEXT TASK.
MAKE A LIST. WHAT DO YOU NEED TO GET DONE?
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 10:22 AM
i dont knoww wwhar i need to get done my head is just empty
i cant think i just wwanna nap
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 10:22 AM
OKAY SO SOMETHING I'VE LEARNED- YEAH BASICALLY.
BUT DON'T JUST NAP.
EAT, FIRST.
EVEN SOMETHING SMALL.
IF YOU EAT BEFORE YOU NAP, WHEN YOU WAKE UP YOU'LL HAVE SOME ENERGY BACK.
PUT A JOURNAL BESIDE YOUR COON.
I GUARANTEE YOU, AS SOON AS YOU LAY YOUR HEAD AGAINST THAT SOFT, SOFT INNER WALL, YOU'LL THINK UP TWENTY THINGS TO DO.
YOUR PAN WILL PHRASE THEM LIKE "HEY, YOU SHOULDN'T BE SLEEPING, YOU HAVE X TO DO."
IGNORE IT. WRITE IT DOWN.
THEN WHEN YOU'RE UP? YOU HAVE SOMETHING TO DO.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 10:24 AM
oh
huh ok
thats a good tactic i guess
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 10:24 AM
NOW HERES THE TRICK.
DON'T EAT STARCHY FOODS BEFORE NAP. NO PASTA OR GRUBLOAF OR ANYTHING WITH GRAINS.
OTHERWISE YOU WILL BE EXTRA TIRED WHEN YOU WAKE UP.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 10:25 AM
wwhat do i eat then
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 10:25 AM
YOU'RE GONNA FUCKING HATE ME.
VEGETABLES, DAC.
YOU'VE GOTTA EAT VEGETABLES.
VEGETABLES, MEAT, OR FISH.
THINGS HIGH IN PROTIEN BUT NOT IN CARBS.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 10:26 AM
alright fine ill havve some sushi
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 10:26 AM
FANTASTIC.
SET YOUR ALARM FOR 110 MINUTES INTO THE FUTURE.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 10:27 AM
ok
thsnk you
im sorry
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 10:27 AM
THE BEST NAPS ARE BETWEEN 90 AND 120 MINUTES.
ANYTHING LONGER AND YOU BEGIN TO FALL INTO THAT THRESHOLD OF "SLEPT TOO LITTLE" AND YOU'LL FEEL LIKE YOU JUST GOT TWO HOURS OF SLEEP AFTER A FEW DAYS OF AWAKE.(edited)
IT DOESN'T MATTER IF YOU SLEEP IN NAP INCREMENTS FOR A WHOLE SLEEP CYCLE.
AS LONG AS YOU WAKE UP EVERY 120 MINUTES.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 11:31 AM
uh alright ill do that then
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 11:35 AM
ALTERNATIVELY, YOU COULD FILL THE EMPTINESS WITH SOMETHING ELSE. NOISE? MUSIC, A MOVIE, OR SOMETHING. I ALWAYS PREFERRED MOVIES.
HENCE THE ROMCOM BULLSHIT.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 11:42 AM
ah yeah
makes sense
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 11:43 AM
THE WOODS ARE PRETTY QUIET SOMETIMES. I BOUGHT A SPEAKER SO WE COULD LISTEN TO MUSIC WHEN WE'RE SURE WE'RE ALONE.
RECENTLY I'VE BEEN ON A 'FOSTER THE PEOPLE' KICK.
YOU?
YOU DID SAY YOU LIKED TROYE SIVVAN.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 11:54 AM
yeah foster the people is nice too
i mean i only heard like twwo songs but i liked them
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 11:55 AM
WHICH TWO HAVE YOU HEARD?
I WONDER IF ANY OF THEM ARE MY FAVORITES.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 11:56 AM
i only remember pumped up kicks wwhich pretty much evverybody knowws
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 12:01 PM
YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO "DOING IT FOR THE MONEY".
THAT'S MY FAVORITE.
I GOT AN ASK ABOUT MY FAVORITE SONG THE OTHER DAY, BUT I HAVEN'T ANSWERED IT YET.
DO YOU WANT TO HEAR SOME OF THE LYRICS?
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 12:02 PM
wwhy dont you showw me the song wwhen wwe hang out
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 12:03 PM
SURE! BUT DO YOU WANT TO HEAR SOME OF THE LYRICS ANYWAY, FOR THE PURPOSE OF CONTINUING THIS CONVERSATION TOPIC?
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 12:03 PM
sure
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 12:07 PM
THIS IS MY FAVORITE ONE, I THINK! IT TOOK SOME HARD THINKING.

"I said it doesn’t matter where I go I am
Staring down the barrel of a gun we are
Shouting to the world let them know that we are
Not afraid to step into the fight
When you can’t see the light"
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 12:08 PM
oh yeah
that ones nice
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 12:08 PM
ALTERNATIVELY; JUST THAT WHOLE PRE-CHORUS IS REALLY GOOD.
THE LINE RIGHT BEFORE IT, TOO, THE "NEVER GOING TO CHANGE WHO I AM, I WONT BEND UNDER PRESSURE WHEN MY BACK'S ON THE ROPES", THAT ONES GOOD TOO.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 12:09 PM
its vvery upliftin
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 12:09 PM
I DON'T KNOW, SOMETHING ABOUT IT JUST LIGHTS A FIRE IN ME. IT'S A GOOD SONG.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 12:09 PM
yeah its good
its good it triggers such feelins
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 12:10 PM
(:B
HEY, DID YOU NAP.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 12:11 PM
yeah i accidentally fell asleep before but noww im gonna take a good nap just like you told me
wwith eatin somethin light beforehand and such
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 12:19 PM
ALRIGHT.
YOU DO THAT, OKAY?
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 12:19 PM
ok
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 12:19 PM
I... GUESS I MIGHT AS WELL, ALSO.
SEE YOU IN A FEW HOURS, MAYBE??
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 12:19 PM
sure alright
sleep wwell
Court (Kam) - Last Monday at 12:19 PM
I DON'T KNOW IF I'LL BE ONLINE THEN BUT... YEAH.
GOOD TALK.
LATER, DAC.
eridan | mags - Last Monday at 12:19 PM
later
Court (Kam) - Today at 7:58 AM
-----

HEY.(edited)
DAC, YOU THERE?
eridan | mags - Today at 8:21 AM
huh yeah i am
Court (Kam) - Today at 8:21 AM
TOOK YOU A WHILE.(edited)
:eyes:(edited)
eridan | mags - Today at 8:22 AM
wwhat do you mean
Court (Kam) - Today at 8:24 AM
USUALLY WHEN I MESSAGE YOU IT'S A PRETTY QUICK RESPONSE. WHAT'S UP? EVERYTHING OKAY?
eridan | mags - Today at 8:25 AM
wwell its not like i sit there all day and wwait for you to message me you knoww
i got stuff to do sometimes
Court (Kam) - Today at 8:26 AM
YEAH, FAIR.
WHAT'S GOING ON, THOUGH.
WITH YOUR MORNING.
OR NIGHT.
OR WHATEVER.
eridan | mags - Today at 8:26 AM
its early mornin but its dark outside so both wworks to be honest
im just exhausted and sleepless
the last feww days wwere
a trip
Court (Kam) - Today at 8:27 AM
YEAH, IT'S EARLY MORNING HERE TOO.
A GOOD TRIP OR A BAD ONE.
eridan | mags - Today at 8:29 AM
bad
vvery bad
Court (Kam) - Today at 8:30 AM
SHIT SUCKS, MAN.
DO YOU WANT TO TALK ABOUT THAT SHIT OR WOULD YOU RATHER JUST FUCKING NOT.
eridan | mags - Today at 8:31 AM
i dont knoww
i did somethin stupid
Court (Kam) - Today at 8:43 AM
WE ALL DO STUPID SHIT.
UNLESS YOU MEAN YOU DID SOMETHING EXTRAORDINARILY STUPID.
IN WHICH CASE.
:popcorn:  GIVE ME THE DETAILS.
eridan | mags - Today at 8:45 AM
the most stupid thing ivve done in my entire life and trust me theres been a lot of stupid decisions
but this one is just
god
i dont knoww wwhy i thought this wwas a good idea
guess im just too fuckin impulsivve
you remember wwhen i took the nap right wwhen you told me howw to nap right
Court (Kam) - Today at 8:46 AM
YEAH?
eridan | mags - Today at 8:46 AM
so i did that and wwhen i wwoke up i just had this sudden idea in my head and i couldnt shake it off
for some reason my head decided it wwas a good idea to go to a club to distract myself from evverythin thats been happenin
and really thats all i remember
goin into this club and gettin all kinds of wwasted
ivve nevver had a hangovver before but the next day wwhen i wwoke up in the club and got throwwn out by security i sure had one
im not
im not sure wwhat really happened
but i think theres photos and vvideos on my phone that could help me remember but i
i really dont wwanna look at it
cas wwasnt exactly happy about me disappearin for an entire night and comin back at like 9 am
Court (Kam) - Today at 8:48 AM
HOW SCARED ARE YOU OF WHAT YOU'RE GOING TO SEE?
eridan | mags - Today at 8:49 AM
extremely so
i mean there
there could be anythin on there
Court (Kam) - Today at 8:49 AM
ALRIGHT.
eridan | mags - Today at 8:49 AM
like
Court (Kam) - Today at 8:49 AM
DO YOU TRUST ME.
eridan | mags - Today at 8:50 AM
maybe i cheated on cas again or maybe i got punched or people did some other gross things to me my dress wwas ripped the next mornin or maybe i took some heroine and noww im fuckin addicted to it i dont fuckin knoww
but uh
i mean i guess
i dont knoww
Court (Kam) - Today at 8:50 AM
I'M GOING TO SEND YOU MY CURRENT COORDINATES.
YOU'RE.... WELCOME TO SEND ME YOUR PHONE.
eridan | mags - Today at 8:50 AM
no no no
i dont wwant anybody to see me like this
no
Court (Kam) - Today at 8:51 AM
I'LL LOOK AT THE PICTURES, DELETE THE ONES YOU DON'T WANT TO SEE, AND TELL YOU WHAT HAPPENED THAT I CAN GLEAN.
HEY, HEY.
SHH.
IT'S ALRIGHT.
LISTEN.
THIS SHIT IS EXTREMELY MESSED UP, ALRIGHT?
AND WHAT YOU DID WHILE DRUNK- OR WHAT OTHER PEOPLE DID TO YOU- ISN'T YOUR FUCKING FAULT.
EVEN IF YOU DID CHEAT ON CAS.
OR TOOK DRUGS, OR WHATEVER.
PEOPLE SHOULD KNOW BETTER, BUT THEY DON'T. YEAH, IT WAS WRONG TO PUT YOURSELF INTO THAT SITUATION, BUT THERE HAD TO HAVE BEEN AT LEAST ONE PERSON WHO SHOULD HAVE CUT YOU OFF AND TOOK YOU HOME.
THIS SHIT ISN'T YOUR FAULT, AND YOU DON'T DESERVE TO BE SADDLED WITH THE BAD MEMORIES OF A DRUNKEN PARTY TO GET YOUR MIND OFF OTHER STRESS.
GIVE ME YOUR PALMHUSK AND I'LL LOOK THROUGH IT. AT WORST, I'LL SEE SOME PICTURES OF NAKED STRANGERS, AND AT BEST, PICTURES OF NAKED YOU.
COME ON.
eridan | mags - Today at 8:53 AM
i
at best
oh my god
listen im not all that excitin to look at naked but uh
i dont knoww
like
i do wwanna knoww wwhat happened but i also dont
Court (Kam) - Today at 8:54 AM
LET ME MAKE THE JUDGEMENT CALL, DUDE.
eridan | mags - Today at 8:54 AM
i just wwanna forget wwhat happened but i think i only can wwhen i knoww wwhat happened
Court (Kam) - Today at 8:54 AM
IF IT WAS NOTHING, I'LL TELL YOU, AND IF IT WAS SOMETHING, YOU KNOW I'M THE BEST ONE TO TELL YOU.
BECAUSE I'M GOOD WITH WORDS, RIGHT?
AND YOU TRUST ME, YOU SAID IT.
eridan | mags - Today at 8:54 AM
yeah
yeah you are
and i mean
i dont trust anybody completely but you havve part of my trust a big part yeah
fine ill
ill send it to you
Court (Kam) - Today at 8:55 AM
ALRIGHT.
HERE'S MY COORDS.
-- CG sent over file (temp.019284) --(edited)
eridan | mags - Today at 8:55 AM
alright sent it
good fuckin luck
eridan | mags - Today at 9:39 AM
>And there it is, the phone. Nothing unusual about it at first glance, you even quickly turned off the passcode so he can easily access it. The real awful shit is buried in the gallery. The first few photos and videos are endless selfies of yourself, you really felt the look that day. Confident smile, flawless makeup, a wonderful outfit. Next there is more selfies, now in a dim setting - presumably in the club - and you with a shot glass. Then there's videos of you downing more and more shots in a row like it's nothing, and some crowd cheering in the background. You already look a bit out of it afterwards.
Then, more photos. Random strangers putting their arm around you, touching your hands, your thighs, your waist. Your sclera is having a violet tint to it at this point. Still, you look comfortable, happy, and also a lot like you're not entirely realising what's happening around you.
A photo of you with more strangers sticking your tongues out, on each of them some ominous pill. Probably more drugs.
>This is where it actually gets interesting. A dark video, a few minutes long. On it are you with someone else on top of you; someone else is filming. You two are making out, with the person on top of you visibly being into it and groping and touching you, while you are slow at reacting, but still trying to return the affections. It goes on like that for a bit, until you start whining and mumbling something into the kiss. A few more moments and the stranger above you finally stops and asks you what’s wrong. Some slurred words come out of your mouth and the camera moves closer to catch what you’re saying. “I can’t” you keep repeating, until one guy asks you why. The answer is an awfully hardly intelligible “’Cause I got a husband.” More whining and then “I hate bein’ in love.” The person behind the phone gives an audibly frustrated sigh and that’s when the video stops.

>Then, another photo of you among a crowd of strangers. Doesn’t look like the person from the video is there, though. You used salt and arranged it in a line to make it look like cocaine, just for fun. It looked real enough to you, and so there’s an actual goddamn video of you trying to sniff salt. Everyone is laughing at you regretting that decision immediately. Another noticeable thing is that’s when your dress is suddenly ripped, your makeup a bit smudged and some weird marks on your throat. The marks look like they come from hands pressing down on you a bit too hard.

>The last few photos are of you throwing up and passing out on the bathroom floor. Then it stops.
Court (Kam) - Today at 9:44 AM
... ACTUALLY, THESE... AREN'T BAD. I MEAN. THEY'RE KIND OF ENDEARING. NOT SWEET, AND IT'S STILL FUCKED UP, BUT.

AT ONE POINT SOME SHITHEAD TRIED TO MACK ON YOU BUT YOU TOLD HIM NO, BECAUSE YOU HAD A HUSBAND, AND HE LEFT YOU ALONE. YOU WERE THE LIFE OF THE PARTY, AND YOU MADE A BUNCH OF PEOPLE LAUGH WHEN YOU TRIED TO SNIFF SALT, THINKING IT WAS COKE OR SOMETHING. EMBARRASSING, BUT NOT TERRIBLE.
YOU DID TAKE DRUGS. BUT NOT HEROIN OR ANYTHING, THEY'RE PILLS, BUT I'M NOT GOING TO TELL YOU WHAT TYPE, IN CASE YOU ARE ADDICTED YOU WON'T KNOW WHAT SORT OF ONES YOU NEED TO FIND. BUT I KNOW THEY'RE NOT SOME HUGE ADDICTIVE SORT OF THING, IF YOU AREN'T CRAVING THEM NOW, AT LEAST.

I DON'T THINK YOU GOT INTO TOO MUCH TROUBLE YOURSELF? YOU DEFINITELY LOOK OUT OF IT.

I'M DELETING THE VIDEOS AND PHOTOS I DEEM BAD FROM YOUR PHONE AND I'M KEEPING THEM ON MY HUSKTOP FOR MY OWN PERSONAL RECORDS, OR IN CASE YOU NEED THEM. I'M ALSO SINGLING OUT FACES FROM THE CROWD AND PUTTING THEM IN A FILE FOR YOU, BECAUSE...

I DON'T KNOW, DUDE. I THINK YOU NEED TO HUNT DOWN SOME OF THESE FUCKS AND MAKE THEM TELL YOU WHAT HAPPENED. IT LOOKS LIKE SOMEONE MANAGED TO GET THEIR HANDS AROUND YOUR THROAT AT ONE POINT AND... MAYBE THAT'S WHY YOUR DRESS IS RIPPED.
I JUST WANT TO SAY YOU GOT IN A FIGHT, BUT I DON'T ACTUALLY KNOW.
eridan | mags - Today at 9:48 AM
that i
alright i guess
the fight wwould make sense i think
i dont knoww
god im so embarrassed
i cant believve i actually did any of this
i feel awwful
Court (Kam) - Today at 9:49 AM
YOU LOOK LIKE YOU HAD A GOOD TIME OTHERWISE.
LOTS OF SELFIES.
HAVING SOME FUN.
JUST WITHOUT THE SALT SNIFFING THING.
YEAH, SHIT SUCKS LIKE THAT. YOU GOT BLACKOUT DRUNK AND IT'S GOING TO FUCKING SUCK FOR A WHILE.
... LISTEN, LET ME GIVE YOU SOME ADVICE.
WHAT LIQUOR DO YOU HAVE ACCESS TO?
ANY VODKA?
eridan | mags - Today at 9:52 AM
i still cheated on cas i cant fuckin believve this
but uh no wwe dont havve any alcohol in the house anymore
its a rule i put up
also wwhy do you wwant to keep the files
Court (Kam) - Today at 9:55 AM
GO FIND YOURSELF SOME VODKA AND SOME TOMATO JUICE, ALRIGHT? SOME LEMON OR LIME SLICES TOO.
I WANT TO KEEP THEM IN CASE YOU EVER DO WANT THEM BACK.
YOU DIDN'T CHEAT ON CAS!!
YOU KISSED SOMEONE WHILE YOU WERE DRUNK, THAT'S NOT CHEATING ON CAS, ESPECIALLY SINCE YOU TOLD THEM THAT YOU HAD A HUSBAND AND YOU DIDN'T GO ANY FURTHER.
DON'T YOU HAVE LIKE... A RING OR SOMETHING, LIKE HUMAN ROMANCE?
eridan | mags - Today at 9:57 AM
wwhy wwould i need those things but yeah no the only thing i wwant is the selfies from before the party cause i remember i looked bomb
and yeah wwe do havve rings and i wwore the ring but i also had a bunch of other rings too so i suppose they didnt really think much of it
and i mean i
isnt kissin already cheatin
Court (Kam) - Today at 9:58 AM
ALRIGHT, I'LL SEND THOSE BACK WITH THE PHONE.
eridan | mags - Today at 9:58 AM
cause ivve done it before and cas wwasnt happy and i apologised so much
Court (Kam) - Today at 9:58 AM
==> Take a selfie of you giving a thumbs up, make it his phone background, and then send the phone back. <==
KISSING CAN BE, SURE. BUT YOU WERE DRUNK!!! YOU DIDN'T EXACTLY KNOW WHAT THE FUCK YOU WERE DOING. FOR ALL WE KNOW, SOME FUCKER COULD HAVE JUST COME UP AND STARTED KISSING YOU UNTIL YOU REALIZED WHAT HE WAS DOING.
DRUNK ISN'T CONSENT, DAC.
Court (Kam) - Today at 10:01 AM
YOU FEEL BAD ABOUT IT ALREADY. JUST BE OPEN AND HONEST WITH YOUR MATESPRIT, AND TELL HIM THAT YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU DID LAST NIGHT, TELL HIM YOU THINK YOU KISSED SOME PEOPLE, YOU'RE AFRAID YOU MIGHT HAVE, AND ASK HIM TO HELP YOU, BECAUSE YOU FEEL REALLY BAD ABOUT IT. GETTING RID OF THE BOOZE IS A GOOD STEP, THE NEXT STEP IS TO MAKE SURE IT DOESN'T HAPPEN AGAIN. SHOW CAS THAT YOU MEAN WHAT YOU SAY AND THAT IT WON'T HAPPEN AGAIN.
eridan | mags - Today at 10:02 AM
uh ok
yeah ill
ill havve to talk to him about that once i can bring up the courage
i feel disgustin
Court (Kam) - Today at 10:03 AM
YEAH.
YOU WILL FOR A WHILE.
TAKE A LONG ABLUTION, EAT SOMETHING HEALTHY.
WATCH VIDEOS OF BABY ANIMALS.
YOU'LL FEEL BETTER.
PERSONALLY I'M LEARNING ABOUT "HUMAN CULTURE" BY WATCHING THIS ONE SHOW WITH PUPPETS. IT'S EXTREMELY KIDDY BUT VERY INFORMATIONAL.
eridan | mags - Today at 10:04 AM
god
i can teach you a thing or twwo too to be honest
in return you teach me stuff about alternia cause god knowws i forgot a lot
Court (Kam) - Today at 10:05 AM
"GOD"? WHAT EMOTION ARE YOU MEANING, THERE.
eridan | mags - Today at 10:05 AM
i think a positivve one
you knoww like
wwhen you sigh ovver your cat doin somethin stupid but in a lovvin wway
anywway uh
thank you
for helpin me out and shit
i dont knoww wwhat i wwouldvve done wwithout you
probably just freaked out
Court (Kam) - Today at 10:07 AM
WHAT DID I SAY EARLIER?
I'M NOT GOING TO JUST LET YOU FUCKING DROWN.
MAYBE SERKET MIGHT, OR ANYONE ELSE BUT FUCK, NOT ME.
eridan | mags - Today at 10:09 AM
i
thank you
you uh
youre good
im glad youre here

Court (Kam) - Today at 10:18 AM
YEAH, WELL. I'M JUST GLAD YOU'RE ALRIGHT.
THAT WAS... REALLY FUCKING DANGEROUS OF YOU TO DO.
eridan | mags - Today at 10:18 AM
i guess that wwas the point
Court (Kam) - Today at 10:19 AM
YEAH.
I KNOW.
IT'S LIKE HOW I FIGHT.
I GO IN THESE UNDERGROUND RINGMATCH WHERE USUALLY, IF I LOSE, I DIE, OR GET CAPTURED OR SOME SHIT. JUST TO FIGHT SOME SUCKER, OR GET SOME CASH, OR LOSE THE EDGE OF MY TEMPER.
eridan | mags - Today at 10:20 AM
yeah that makes sense
the danger just givves you this sense of dread it
it just relievves you and distracts you
Court (Kam) - Today at 10:20 AM
BUT THE STAKES ARE PRETTY FUCKING HIGH, REGARDLESS.
YEAH.
YOU GET A CLEAR HEAD.
THE RUSH OF ADRENALINE IN YOUR BODY JUST FEELS FUCKING. GOOD.
eridan | mags - Today at 10:21 AM
yeah
evven if you knoww its stupid and dangerous its just addictin in a sense
uh
karkat
Court (Kam) - Today at 10:22 AM
WHAT.
eridan | mags - Today at 10:22 AM
i
i wwant to date you
Court (Kam) - Today at 10:24 AM
YOU KNOW WHAT?
I'M DOWN, YEAH.
BUT I'M IN AN OMNI.
I'VE GOT TO ASK TEMP, AND HE DOESN'T LIKE YOU.
SO LET'S DO THIS SHIT.
eridan | mags - Today at 10:25 AM
wwh
really
are you
are you serious
i mean i
i could talk to temp myself
explain things
Court (Kam) - Today at 10:25 AM
GET TEMP TO LIKE YOU, AND UNDERSTAND THAT YOU'RE TRYING TO BE AN ACTIVELY BETTER PERSON AND YOU'RE NOT GONNA BREAK MY HEART OR WHATEVER, AND THEN YEAH, I'LL CONSIDER IT.(edited)
BUT LET ME TALK TO TEMP FIRST, AND BRING IT UP.
eridan | mags - Today at 10:26 AM
you dont evven let anybody break your heart youre like
so strong
i
fuck im out of it i didnt think youd say yes
Court (Kam) - Today at 10:27 AM
I SAID I'D CONSIDER IT, AND THAT I'D BE DOWN FOR IT.
THAT'S NOT A YES, THAT'S A MAYBE, WITH CONDITIONS THAT ARE PROBABLY GOING TO BE PRETTY HARD TO FULFILL.
BUT YEAH.
eridan | mags - Today at 10:27 AM
i mean yeah i just
i
i didnt think youd be interested is wwhat i meant
i
ok
ok yeah
Court (Kam) - Today at 10:27 AM
DUDE!!!
I'VE LITERALLY!! BEEN TELLING YOU!! THIS WHOLE TIME!! I'M INTERESTED!!
JUST NOT READY. AND WORRIED.
AND CONCERNED.
AND AFRAID.
eridan | mags - Today at 10:28 AM
are you still not ready and wworried and concerned and afraid
cause like
wwe uh
wwe should talk about it then
Court (Kam) - Today at 10:28 AM
YEAH.
I'M AFRAID THAT I'LL PUT YOU IN DANGER. I'M WORRIED I'M STEPPING ON CAS'S TOES. I'M CONCERNED THAT TEMP WON'T BE OKAY WITH IT.
eridan | mags - Today at 10:30 AM
ok so lets start wwith the first one then
wwhy put me in danger
Court (Kam) - Today at 10:33 AM
I'M A FUGITIVE FROM THE EMPRESS BECAUSE WE SPECIFICALLY HAVE HACKED INTO THE DIPSHITS SHIP, OUR COORDINATES COULD BE REVERSE-HACKED IF OUR EYES IN THE SKY, THE DIPSHIT, I MEAN, GETS CONTROLLED BY HER. SHE COULD GET EVERYTHING FROM OUR TECH, COORDINATES, COORDINATES OF WHERE WE'VE BEEN AND OF WHO HAS COME OVER. MULTIVERSE COORDINATES ARE DIFFERENTLY FORMATTED THAN OUR REGULAR ONES, IF SHE GETS THEM SHE'S BOUND TO TAKE A LOOK, SHE'S A WARMONGERING EMPRESS WHO JUST FOUND AN ACCESS POINT TO THE REST OF THE CODAMN MULTIVERSE, IT WOULDN'T MAKE SENSE FOR HER NOT TO INVESTIGATE.

ONE OF THOSE COORDS WOULD BE BOUND TO LEAD TO YOU, SINCE YOU JUST SENT ME YOUR PHONE, AND IF SHE HAS EVERY OTHER BIT OF INFORMATION, SHE'D KNOW WE WERE DATING, AND WOULD PROBABLY KIDNAP YOU TO BAIT ME INTO GIVING MYSELF UP. AFTER WHICH SHE'D KILL YOU, OR TORTURE YOU TO ENSURE MY COMPLIANCE INTO HER WARRING SCHEMES AND METHODICAL PLANET-CONQUERING BULLSHIT.