Oct 12th, 2012
- *I've decided to tell you about my never ending story
- *In 7th grade I would go with friends on webcams
- *Meet and talk to new people.
- *Then got called stunning, beautiful, perfect, etc...
- *Then wanted me to flash...
- *So I did... 1 year later...
- *I got a msg on facebook
- *From him... Don't know how he knew me..
- *It said... If you don't put on a show for me I will send ur boobs
- *He knew my address, school, relavives, friends, family names.
- *Christmas break....
- *Knock at my door at 4am...
- *It was the police... my photo was sent to everyone
- *I then got really sick and got...
- *Anxiety, major deppersion and panic disorder
- *I then move and got into Drugs + Alcohol....
- *My anxiety got worse... couldn't go out
- *A year past and the guy came back with my new
- *list of friends and school. But made a facebook page
- *My boobs were his profile pic...
- *Cried every night, lost all my friends and respect
- *people had for me... again...
- *Then nobody liked me
- *name calling, judged...
- *I can never get that Photo back
- *It's out there forever...
- *I Started cutting...
- *I promised myself never again...
- *Didn't have any friends and I sat at lunch alone
- *So I moved Schools again...
- *Everything was better even though I sat still alone
- *At lunch in the library everyday.
- *After a month later I started talking to an old guy friend
- *We back and fourth texted and he started to say he..
- *Like me... Led me on.. He had a girlfriend...
- *Then he said come over my gf's on vacation
- *So I did... huge mistake....
- *He hooked up with me....
- *I thought he liked me....
- *1 week later I get a text get out of your school...
- *His girlfriend and 15 others come including Hiself...
- *The girl and 2 others just said look around nobody likes you
- *In front of my new school (50) people...
- *A guy than yelled just punch her already
- *So she did... she threw me to the ground a punched me several times
- *Kids filmed it. I was all alone and left on the ground.
- *I felt like a joke in this world... I thought nobody deserves this :/
- *I was alone.. I lied and said it was my fault and my idea
- *I didn't want him getting hurt, I thought he really liked me.
- *but he just wanted the sex... Someone yelled punch her already.
- *Teachers ran over but I just went and layed in a ditch and my dad found me.
- *I wanted to die so bad... When he brought me home I drank bleach...
- *It killed me inside and I thought I was gonna actully die.
- *Ambulence came and brought me to the hospital and flushed me.
- *After I got home all i saw was on facebook - she deserved it did you wash the mud out of your hair? - I hope shes dead.
- *Nobody cared... I moved away to another city to my moms.
- *another school... I didn't wanna press charges because I wanted to move on.
- *6 months has gone by... people are posting pics of bleach, clorex, and ditches.
- *tagging me... I was doing a lot better too... They said...
- *She should try a different bleach, I hope she dies this time and isn't so stupid.
- *They said I hope she sees this and kills herself..
- *Why do I get this? I messed up but why follow me.
- *I left your guys city... Im constantly crying now..
- *Everyday I think why am I still here?
- *My anxiety is horrible now.. never went out this summer
- *All from my past.. lifes never getting better.. cant go to school
- *meet or be with people... constantly cutting. I'm really depressed
- *Im on anti deppresants now and councelling and a month ago this summer
- *I overdosed... In hospital for 2 days..
- *Im stuck... whats left of me now... nothing stops
- *I have nobody... I need someone :(
- *My name is Amanda Todd....
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