With the recent state of events (plus all the gossip happening behind my back), I figure I should try to acknowledge all the bad stuff I've done online over the years in a self-callout post.

I take full responsibility for everything that happens below, and I do not intend to write this as an excuse for my actions and impulses, but moreso to tell other young and starting creators/entrepreneurs/whatever on the internet to not follow in my footsteps.

We can kinda start in 2013 when I joined AGDG and was really one of  those "for exposure" types in addition to constantly asking the steam chat for help with stuff rather than googling it on my own. Being one of those for exposure types also expanded to tumblr where I would

contact a lot of artists asking to collab on ideas I had and ultimately annoying them. I've definitely made up with some of them over the years, but ultimately there's still whispers of like "keep an arms distance away from this guy."

Being defensive has also been a point of contention for many, and you can probably hear bits of it throughout this thread. When I was trying to improve my drawing ability, I often lost my temper with artists who critiqued my work w/o giving me the exact steps I'd need to improve.

Back around 2014 I was collaborating with a new animator on a small game for a scholarship, and they didn't feel confident in their animation skills so I gave them a pep talk over skype. Eventually I showed others the prototype and they told me the animation

wasn't very good, so I relayed it back to the artist. I didn't have a problem with their animations, and to me it was more just me relaying feedback and trying to improve on the prototype. However I now realize how insensitive I was to that sorta thing.

One of my greatest regrets is the transphobic/homophobic stuff I've said in the past. I've been working the past 3 years to atone for all of it, and I've apologized to those who were affected by it that don't have me blocked.

Around late 2015 to mid 2016, I often hung out in the stream chat of this artist and more often than enough butted heads with a majority of the users over values and tastes and etc. Normally I would have just left, but because they streamed some Atari Jaguar promos or w/e, I kept

thinking "as soon as you leave they're gonna stream all your favorite stuff behind your back," or that some internet VIP would show up b/c the latter would actually happen a couple times.

When I started using discord more, I would often join some servers just to talk to or dm a few users and occasionally promo whatever I wanted in a designated promo channel.

While I wasn't necessarily violating any of their rules, I kinda see how it can be considered rude to only use a server for that. Additionally, I've had a bad habit  I've been trying to curb of pinging people I want to see a specific thing just because I don't like using @here

and also don't like shouting into the abyss, as i call it. I realize also I can be kinda pushy with some people, including the influencers and content creators I contact. I also tend to interrupt people mid-sentence in calls and irl and I've been trying to unlearn that as well.

I've done a lot of "hey person a, can you let person b know xyz" or asking for favors like that in general without having any regular conversations, or only wanting to talk about work stuff or projects with certain people.

I tend to be kinda selective with who I have causal convos with and otherwise I kinda have a hard time connecting to random people if they dont initially reach out to me. Focus on your friends and realize that unless you're outright paying someone, no one owes you their time.

There was a point where I asked a programmer if they could put something I commissioned from them on the unity asset store with me getting a small percentage of the profits. I didn't realize this was a bad deal for them at the time, nor did I realize it unnerved them.

I apologized for it and I'm still sorry. Finally for now, I haven't really been that good at managing A.A. Post-AGHR, I essentially went on an ego trip and expanded A.A way too quickly. Projects suffered because of that plus my impulsiveness and occasional neglect towards feedbac

I've lost a few friends and the respect of others I looked up to in the process. I don't think running a large dev or managing a large team is for me, and I can say that the projects are in much better hands now. I mostly just prefer to code stuff and solve problems.

There's probably a lot that I'm missing that I didn't even realize was going  on, so if I've ever done something that bothers you please feel free to message me directly about it. Improving social awareness is a process, and it's one I've always been working at.

I may not be going as fast as I'd like, but I'm doing the best I can, so apologies if I'm going about it to slowly or whatever. What I can ultimately say is don't let your anxiety/paranoia get the  best of you, realize who your true friends are,

and ultimately not everyone has to like you for you to be successful in life. Also being popular and its direct consequences suck, really not worth your time.