j_001-to-002

Day 001, 28 March 2025:
The actual first day on the job finally happened after being sent home on the 21st and coming down with the flu on the 24th. That was fine, though -- even though it seemed like I missed a lot, I really did not. If anything, it felt more like a back-to-school experience, only with a duller lesson and a teacher five years my junior but with far more experience. This is the reality I'm faced with, and it doesn't help that much of this is still alien to me. Fortunately, AC is here, and the completed crew are all wonderfully welcoming people. If nothing else, the budding culture is beginning to form as a picture, one that is encouraging given the sheer banality of what I eventually saw on the training room floor five floors down.

The things I've seen still reinforce my belief that I want to be out of here as soon as I dare -- as late as January, ideally -- but if it takes slogging through nightmarish call quotas to establish cash flow, so be it. I must be patient in a way I've never thought I could be so far. Maybe they can help with that.

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Day 002, 31 March 2025:
First: I'm sorry if I came off as rude, Veronica. This is but my state of being as a low blood pressure man: drowsiness and internal confusion lead me to reactions that seem weirder than usual. I'm still new here, still acclimating, still asking all the negative questions, still dreading work. Fortunately, the recaps have helped establish some semblance of footing, a knowledge base I can use to at least not look like I retained nothing from Coach Belle's lessons.

There's so much to take in and no way to reliably bring these facts and methods home to read when bored. This company simply expects you to somehow learn how to sell these products. After the second time I watched the little chicks at the nesting floor, my frustrations only grew. I almost want to bomb it -- and maybe I will, deliberately -- but I still can't risk losing another source of income before December. I can't make that same mistake twice. There has to be a way to turn 15k of take-home pay a month into massive money now. But that impatience is going to kill me faster. I need to wait.