laughing out loud

This is likely just me yelling into the wind here, but I'm advising every single one of you still with sd to seriously reconsider if this is the path you want to continue down on. Ask yourself, "Am I happy to have spent the last 6 years of my life 'socializing' with shut-ins that pride themselves in trolling a children's video game simulator? Do I truly want to continue to reduce my free time, attention span, and happiness?" There is nothing of quality nor wholesomeness to be found within sd. You are driving yourself to a slow, bitter end.

You are not happy. You are not having fun. You are shutting yourself out from the real world and grinding away your humanity bit by bit. You are aborting any potential you have as a person each minute spent with sd (and to be frank, with each minute spent on 4chan, too). You have latched yourself onto an illusory comfort zone because you cannot handle the pressure of real social interaction. This is not healthy.

Get out. While you still can. Leave this cesspit and find real joy for yourself. Take up a hobby that's worthwhile. Take a  walk. Live your life so you don't lie on your deathbed regretting the years you wasted away online. Get out of your comfort zone and be gregarious. Find clubs that fit your interests.  Easier said, yes, but don't let your fear drive you away from joy. Don't drown in ennui.

I wish you all the best.

-eli