Advertisement
Not a member of Pastebin yet?
Sign Up,
it unlocks many cool features!
- AnathemaYesterday at 9:08 AM
- Hey
- BlueJake_PLYesterday at 9:09 AM
- Heyooo
- AnathemaYesterday at 9:09 AM
- Whatcha up to?
- BlueJake_PLYesterday at 9:10 AM
- Ah, nothing much. I'm just listening to music
- AnathemaYesterday at 9:10 AM
- Alrighty
- Got a few minutes to talk?
- BlueJake_PLYesterday at 9:11 AM
- Sure thing
- AnathemaYesterday at 9:15 AM
- Alright well. No easy way to say this so I'm just gonna jump into it. I think it'd be best if we split up. You know I'm looking for a full time job and I'm never gonna have any time. So our relationship would pretty much consist of good morning/good night for a pretty long while. And I don't really want to make you wait for me, because I feel like we don't actually know each other as well as we think we do. We've never seen each other, never really heard each other's voices. We've only ever had a few real conversations and we've known each other since November. So I just don't feel like it's in either of our best interests to move forward with this as a relationship.
- BlueJake_PLYesterday at 9:16 AM
- Oh...
- AnathemaYesterday at 9:19 AM
- ... I love you jake but I just can't see how this could work out for us. I want you to be happy, but I know you're not going to be if we never got to spend time together. So I think it's best if we end this before it goes too far so it hurts less for both of us
- BlueJake_PLYesterday at 9:26 AM
- .. I don't want to lie.. I had 2 relationships before. They didn't end well too. But since I have got a crush on you... Since I told you about it... For first time I had hope. I thought that this relationship is going to last forever. I could handle that you didn't have much time for me. I just love you so much that I didn't care about time zones, the fact that you don't have a lot time for me... I understand your decision. If you want to then I will try my best to forget about this... But honestly... This is the most painful hit I have ever got.. But don't worry, I will try to handle it..
- AnathemaYesterday at 9:28 AM
- I'm so sorry... But I think we really rushed into this. I think we should've gotten to know each other more
- I just learned your real name a few days ago... and I really don't know too much about you. And you don't know all that much about me either. I'm very attracted to your personality. But I think we're both more in love with... and idea we have of each other.
- And I honestly don't think that super long distance online only relationships are a good idea, because they're doomed to fail. The odds are stacked against you when you're in one...
- But I just can't in my right mind keep you in a relationship with someone you don't really know for years with very little interaction. You'd be happier finding someone else who could be there for you, someone else you you really know and you really have a very personal connection with.
- BlueJake_PLYesterday at 9:34 AM
- ... I guess there's no hope for us in the future then?
- AnathemaYesterday at 9:34 AM
- I'd love to stay friends with you
- I'd love to get to know you better
- That's up to you
- But I don't want you restricting yourself to a relationship with me right now
- Maybe years off in the future, some day when we could meet in real life and really really get to know and be with each other.
- But don't wait for me please
- If you find someone else, pursue that
- Make yourself happy
- But at the same time please truly consider if you want to have an online relationship with someone you've never seen. And please don't rush into something because you've formed feelings for a person before really getting to know them.
- I made the same mistake
- BlueJake_PLYesterday at 9:44 AM
- Okay, I understand.. I know you want me to be happy, but for now I can't imagine being with anyone else, I'm sorry. As long as there's still at least small hope for us to be a thing in the future, I won't let myself down.
- If it's really what you want to do then alright
- AnathemaYesterday at 10:29 AM
- I’m sorry, had to run to work.
- Just... don’t count on it, Jake. I’m not saying it’s impossible but it’s really really improbable. It’s going to take years before it could possibly happen. Please don’t wait for me if you meet someone
- BlueJake_PLYesterday at 10:55 AM
- I know, Nick. The main reason why I rushed it, was because I kind of get jealous easily.. I just didn't want anyone to take you away from me.. Because back when I told you I promised myself that I will wait for you. I know, you don't want me to wait for you, but currently I just can't think about it, I'm sorry for that again.. It will take some time before I will be actually able to think about this.
- I hope this won't change a lot between us.. I mean like, playing sometimes, talking for a while daily, at least to say goodnight or something.
- I want to be best friends with you or at least friends. I also want to get to know about you better. Though I think it's kind of my fault that I didn't let you get to know more about me.. Don't get mad at virus, but he told me that you would love to vc with me. I would love to, it's not like I don't want to. I'm just still not confident about my both speaking and listening in English. I just never vc'ed in English.
- But anyway. Again, I understand your decision. And as long as there's still hope, I will be fine.
- AnathemaYesterday at 10:36 PM
- Hey I’m sorry
- I didn’t say anything cause I didn’t know what else to say and I was busy at work
- Still don’t really know what to say but please don’t take me not responding the wrong way
- I still care about you
- If you need to talk please tell me
- BlueJake_PLToday at 12:02 AM
- That's fine.. I'm sorry too, for ignoring you for a bit. I just needed to calm down.
- AnathemaToday at 12:05 AM
- It's all good.. take however much time you need
- But if you have any questions or anything let me know
- Or if you just want to say anything
- BlueJake_PLToday at 12:14 AM
- Okay. All I want is just be able to talk with you daily, at least for a small while. Because I'm going to miss talking with you frequently just like we used to do. I don't force you to do so, but even a simple goodnight will be enough for me.
- AnathemaToday at 12:19 AM
- i'll happily still talk to you but... just as friends, alright? and, honestly we didn't really talk frequently in my opinion... frequently would be if we talked to each other as often as possible, but we've never really had much to talk about...
- BlueJake_PLToday at 12:21 AM
- Yes, as friends.. And well.. You were trying your best to talk to me as often as possible, so in my opinion it was frequently. And yeah, we didn't have much to talk about together..
- AnathemaToday at 12:22 AM
- And I really think that was one of our biggest issues, stemming from us not really knowing each other well...
- Because most people who are in relationships talk to each other all day, just about random stuff
- But we really jumped into it fast
- BlueJake_PLToday at 12:24 AM
- Yeah, you're right about that..
- AnathemaToday at 12:25 AM
- ...like, I don't mean to be rude by asking this but... what do you really know about me..? what is it that you like, or that you love, and why are you so set on me?
- BlueJake_PLToday at 12:30 AM
- We seem to have a lot of in common.. in my opinion at least.. I always enjoyed when we got a while to talk, you're a great person to talk with. And I love your personality. You're a caring, nice, generous person.. You just seemed.. perfect for me. Even though we have known each other only for 3 months back then..
- AnathemaToday at 12:32 AM
- ..and I guess that’s what I meant when I said we’re in love with the idea we have of each other
- BlueJake_PLToday at 12:34 AM
- ..Huh
- AnathemaToday at 12:35 AM
- We don’t really know each other as people
- Like I completely agree with everything you said
- Same applies to you for me
- But, we’re really just, barely starting to get to know each other
- BlueJake_PLToday at 12:40 AM
- ..I know you want the best for me and want me to find someone who will treat me better and have more time for me.. And I know I asked about this already, but.. If we really get to know each other well and that won't change feelings between us.. I mean, we will still be in love with each other then, uh.. will there still be, at least a small chance for us?
- AnathemaToday at 12:43 AM
- I think if this could ever work it would have to be way off in the future. Once I’m established on my own. Once you’re done with all of your school. Once we could be together and spend a lot if time together. But there are so many obstacles in the way of that...
- BlueJake_PLToday at 12:48 AM
- Yeah, I know.. Especially the distance.. And I'm not sure will I go to the university as well.. That would take even longer... But, as long as there's still at least a small chance then I will be fine. This is all I want to hear to make me feel better
- AnathemaToday at 12:51 AM
- Anything can happen Jake. But don’t wait for me. If you find someone irl, or someone more local to you online who’s schedule lines up with yours more. Pursue that. Make yourself happy. I know being with me is what you think will make you happy, but you can’t hold on to that forever when it’s just not at all likely and would take so so much work. Please, do it for yourself Jake
- BlueJake_PLToday at 12:54 AM
- I know, Nick. I will remember that..
- AnathemaToday at 12:57 AM
- Alright
- I’m not really sure what else to say, so...
- BlueJake_PLToday at 12:58 AM
- Eh, me neither..
- AnathemaToday at 12:59 AM
- Well, goodnight then I guess
- I’m sorry about today
- BlueJake_PLToday at 1:00 AM
- Ah, you're going to sleep. Okay. Don't worry about it, I will be alright
- AnathemaToday at 1:00 AM
- Are you sure
- BlueJake_PLToday at 1:02 AM
- Well.. I always have my other friends just in case if something happens to me.. So yeah, you really don't have to worry. You can sleep peacefully
- AnathemaToday at 1:02 AM
- Well
- Like I said
- I still care about you too so don’t be afraid to come to me
- BlueJake_PLToday at 1:03 AM
- I know, Nick. If you're online and something happens to me then I will come to you
- AnathemaToday at 1:04 AM
- Alright it’s just
- I know you’ve gone through a lot of thoughts and emotions today and have had very low moments and I’m just worried
- But if you say you’re fine then I believe you
- BlueJake_PLToday at 1:06 AM
- Good. Now go get some rest
- AnathemaToday at 1:06 AM
- Alright
- I hope you have a good morning
- BlueJake_PLToday at 1:06 AM
- And I hope you have a good night
- Sleep well. I will talk to you later
- AnathemaToday at 1:07 AM
- Thank you. Cya
Advertisement
Add Comment
Please, Sign In to add comment
Advertisement