You explained things well on Friday but it still is hard to understand when you're getting ready for one night away and you say you're too busy for me to be part of your night, outside of dinner which you rushed along. Even after I make plans to make your night more simple in bringing dinner over and helping you pack, if you feel like there's a problem with that, If I'll distract you or drag you away from your plans too much tell me, you can easily just say at the time you need X done by Y time and I'll help you to that point then go home or leave you alone. My goal is to make your life less stressful and in general better and more supportive. I'd hate for you to ever consider me a burden or unnecessary stress. I understand how you feel and what you thought would happen, but I will and always will try to work around what you have planned. As you'll always be the one to have a fuller schedule than I and I'll try to make my life suite your plans. But it's things like Friday when you make me feel like you're too busy to include me in your life yet you manage to immediately respond to Josh after spending an entire day at work with him. How I send you messages on Saturday and you straight up leave me on read from for an entire day and did not say a thing to me. It makes me feel like you don't want me to be a part of your life. I've spoken to friends about how you've responded to me since I went to Melbourne and they have all said it feels like you're either not interested in me any more or there's something going on in your life that you don't want to share with me.
What makes that worse for me is that between now and 3 weeks ago you've not kissed me or initiated any romantic relations with my but you've managed to mention 3 other people you've been interested in the past. You even shunned away from me when we had dinner at Charlestown together and I tried to kiss you in the carpark and before that when I said goodnight at yours before Melbourne and you ran up the stairs away from me. I know you really don't like PDA's, especially in front of your parents but there comes a time in life where you should be happy enough with the direction we both have in life and our relationship to kiss me on the lips, even a peck to say hello in public. I really feel like you're pushing me away and not wanting to include me in your life. When I was saying bye to you after you picked your car up from mine, I mentioned work to you and you said you've not been too busy. Then on Friday I made the anecdote that you've been busy this week, just in general. And you told me that last week was the busy week despite telling me that it wasn’t busy when I commented on it previously.
It makes me feel like I'm walking on eggshells with most things I say to you which I really don’t appreciate. Before I went to Melbourne I asked if you could try make some time for me before I go away and your response was “I'm sorry you feel that way”. That has to be by far the most painful thing anyone has ever said to me and not something I'll let go of easily. Even last week and leading into your trip to Canberra, you never invited me or initiated any conversation with me and just left me on read. But when you were out for dinner with me on Friday you managed to instantly respond to Josh. Which just further makes me feel like I mean nothing to you and you feel like you can just brush me aside.
After you previous exam and before I went to Melbourne I really wanted you to make time to give me a kiss or a  hug but you ran up the stairs, you had an early start with Baseball the following day and wanted a good nights sleep. You've mentioned in the past that you get focused on something and have tunnel vision when you're working on an issue in your own life. The last time we spoke about life and what's going on you mentioned multiple times about how shitty I make you feel guilty when I try make plans with you. But now it's at the point where you say lets make plans for Friday through Sunday then say you're too busy, which makes me feel like you can't be bothered with me.
You told me how you feel like I baby you or put pressure on you that you don't appreciate and makes you feel like shit, you've mentioned extensively in the past how shit you find text messages to be at conveying intention. But when we do text and I say I want to help you and you respond saying things like “nope I'm too busy” then in person you tell me you need to pack (for one night away) and if we do anything we'll watch a movie etc and it'll get too late because you want a good nights sleep. I understand this is just an example, but you say you're busy and need pack and get an early night even know you're away for one night, but then we go to dinner and you make time to have a long chat both at the table and in person with Josh then basically rush out of there and say a simple goodbye to me.
You said in the past “IDK I just hope you'll be there for me at the end.” I'll always be here for you but it feels like when ever your life gets busy you just push me to the side and I become an insignificant part of your life. So much of what you've done over the last few weeks when I've spoken to friends about it or given it any thought it's raised so many red flags, either you not wanting to talk to me or making me feel like I mean nothing to you. From simple things like you pushing me away when I try to make dinner plans to you not responding to basic messages from me. I've put my heart on the line to you multiple times now with some serious mental shit and basically explained to you how things work in my head. I try to be as open as I can be and as honest as I can be with my life to you. I'm actively making huge changes to how I mentally react to things and making sure I can have the time to organise my life around yours, to have time for events that you organise. To make sure I remember things we talk about and plan.
Everything I do in life I try to plan around you and make sure I better myself. All I want to do is spend time with you.
But you always make me feel like I'm not doing enough or you make me feel like I'm asking too much of you over simple shit like dinner or even a 5min phone call after work. There was a time where you would make an effort to make time for me, even if it's a quick call or letting me know that I can drop in for dinner. I can't understand how me bringing or cooking you dinner then going home can add any substantial stress to your life.
I don't know how me bringing you takeaway over both of us driving out for dinner can add a significant time to your day.

I don't understand what's going on in your life at the moment. All I can ask is that you try to explain things better and set plans for how your week is looking and what we can manage. Because I honestly feel like all you're doing lately is pushing me to the side and avoiding me.
I'm not asking for constant updates on your day to days. I'm just asking that you try to include me in your plans. I'll never force you to do anything you don't want to do. If you feel like you're too busy to make plans with me and you need to organise things on your own go for it – you have your own life and I have mine. Nothing I say or do has negative intentions. I'm just worried about our future together. I'm worried about what will happen if we move in together and I really don't want anything to go poorly together as we both move forward in life. I love you truly, more than I have loved anyone else in my life. I'm willing to follow you through everything that's throw at you and support you during every issue that comes your way. I'm wiling to reshape me entire life and structure around yours and try to put my best foot forward but I really don't think you feel the same way. I'll continue to reiterate it. I know you're busy. I know you're studying. I have ultimate faith and trust in you. The issue I have is that you seem to think that anything I say is directed negatively at you. I've grown up in a house where anything and everything is discussed. There's nothing that Mum, Dan and I don't talk about. We've always had a really mature and positive discussion about life, death and everything between. I know all families are different and things that are normal to me can be extreme or obscure to you. You just tend to find the negatives in everything I say or do lately. You explain parts of it but I still can't fully understand it as it's something that comes so naturally to me. Even fights or discussions between us. I try to absorb any information or negatives you have and learn from them. I want to grow, learn and develop your interests over time and continue to build upon strong connections that we have. You said to me in the past that you find it weird how I'm so romantic and you're so independent. I'm confused as to how you can draw parallels on that as they're not polarising personality traits. You enjoy playing piano, reading novels such as the notebook, watching musicals and in general you do show me a lot of love if it's the right situation and you do make me feel wanted, but more often than not the way you talk and react to me in text or in person.
 I know it will get better in time. I know that in the past you always try to include me in your plans but it feels like so much has changed between us over the last few months and I'm still trying to process what's happened to cause this. You're an amazing person to talk to when we're face to face and It's not something I'll ever take for granted. I want to spend all the time that I have with you do as much as we can together, but lately I've struggled to understand what we are and what I mean to you.

You went to Canberra, told me when you arrived and that's all I heard from you all weekend, not even a response to anything I sent yet you replied in the group chat with the gays to them.

We're meant to be in a long term relationship. But it feels like you just want me around when it suits you and you can push me off into obscurity when you're busy or make plans with other people. It honestly feels like you're taking me for granted and don't appreciate me at all. I've put a lot of effort into bettering myself and changing what I do to work with your life and your plans in the best way and I don't feel like you've done anything to accommodate me in your life anymore.

Lately you make me feel like I'm a burden to your life, like you don't want me around your or that I'm the major cause of stress and inconvenience in your life.

I called because I hadn't heard anything from you.
I knew you'd dodge the call and say you're watching TV. I knew you'd be too busy for me, I knew you'd say you're super busy.
At what point do in become enough of a factor in your life that you can bother to spare 2 seconds to send me a text?