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My 'real name' outside of church is Cieran Desouza.

Most of the trouble started around 2009-2010 I think, when I was involved with left-wing politics after

being introduced to political documents and such online. I was involved with a fairly innocuous left wing

group that just did local politics, but, online at least, I was always suspected of something more sinister

by the left-wingers..I think. It's possible the authorities suspected me at this point as well, as I was

quite a naive late-teen and got into a lot of arguments, threatened others and got threatened etc.


Anyway, I left the groups of far-left anarchists and joined a bunch of stalinists; they were a rather

intriguing bunch. I managed to fall in with particularly unpleasant character who named himself after one

of the Stalinist satellite state's intelligence services (God knows who he was involved with, idk who any

of them were involved with). I think the first stage of the targeting started when I echoed the thoughts of

some of the stalinists and said that it was "good", that a certain anarchist had died at the hands of the

police (killed). In retrospect, this was a very nasty thing to say and it's certainly not something I

*really* believed. Anyway, they banned me and I noticed small things started happening after this. All of

that happened in Jun/Jul 2010.

Shortly after that (the forum nonsense), and I think these things are linked but you can decide for

yourself, I was having a lot of lustful thoughts and 'fiddled' myself frequently, but in too-close

proximity to a Catholic statue of Jesus. But I started noticed increasing health problems from that point

onwards..... I was also interested in 'experimenting' and ended up having a one-time tryst with a pretty

gross crossdresser. I've got no sexual diseases or anything, but I noticed my health problems increased

massively just after these things happened, in quick succession of each other.... which I don't think is a

coincidence. That happened in Dec 2010.

I think the next stage started after I got banned from another political forum in early 2011 for starting

arguments with one of the administrators, I was being a pain and started filing lots of spam complaints via

the system. As I said, I was an irritating, naive kid.

After that, I left all that online political stuff alone for a year or two.

My life wasn't good in 2011-12, but it started to get really bad in late 2012; life was tough and random

people were becoming increasingly aggressive for no apparent reason, they also seemed to know random things

about me, but it wasn't so bad.

In Feb 2013, I became homeless for a brief period of time (maybe 5-6 months in total, only about 1 month

actually out on the streets). After that, I went back to live with my Mum/Brother (Jun 2013) and felt very

bitter about the entire experience. I started being really nasty online once again, like I was around 2008

-2011, I ended up getting involved with a crowd of very evil, very nasty online trolls who go on chatrooms

etc... The main guys in the crowd's pseudonyms were 'roy' and 'matt'. There was also another group of

trolls who in a seperate chatroom; their names were 'kun', 'whizz' and a few others; I managed to piss them

off too, by making a 'whizz' jealous by half-chatting up his fiance (not really, because we were just

friends but he wanted me to stop being friends with her). That was around Oct-Nov 2013. My computer

'mysteriously' died as did the second one I bought after all of this. I didn't realize how evil the first

group of guys truly were until about Mid-2014; they had shared some literature about a 14 year old girl

being raped by her brother. Then they started verbally abusing a chatter who said he was an 8 year old boy.

This was evil, sick stuff... so I called them out on it and turned on them, I pissed a lot of them off.

In Mid-2014, I was still bitterly trolling chatrooms like an ass despite having turned on those other

posters, but I think I had already been targeted by then, it wasn't so bad though. In July 2014, I started

posting homosexual jokes in a gay chatroom, jokes that would be construed as violent, nasty and anti-

homosexual etc.....  anyway, I posted a fake advert saying "any gay lads up for meeting a wheelchair-bound

jihadi suicide  bomber in bradford? pm me". I got a message saying "your not funny, stop what your doing",

but being a bitter troll I just fronted it out and kept telling him to get lost, he threatened me with

prison and the security services etc but I thought he was just joking at first, until he said something

really nasty that involved personal info (I have an insecurity about my Dad ruling over my life....), he

said something like "you fuck your dad". After that, I just said the truth...that my life is terrible, that

I go and troll these chatrooms because I'm bitter about everything, hate everything etc. He offered me the

chance to stop (I think) and I said I'm going to post it again (I was stubborn, bolshy, obnoxious,

irritating etc) and I did. After that, he said "now you're going to have it, I know a guy in the security

services (mi5 etc) and they're going to do stuff to you". I suspect the guy behind this was a friend of the

guy who got jealous of me.. his name was 'kun'. He had the exact same posting style as 'kun'.

After that, the online and offline harassment became very extreme, I had all kinds of people turning on me

and it's lasted to this day. What can I say, I was very irritating, obnoxious and arrogant and didn't know

when to just stop for my own good, but at the time I just thought "well, these people are more evil than I

am, who knows what's right anymore..". The extreme harassment has lasted from 2014 until today and it's the

worst it's ever been today. They have targeted all my phones, all the computers I've had, they've sent

countless actors/stalkers after me, they've told my family things about me/coerced them into attacking me,

they've coerced everyone else I know, friends, church etc. They're essentially very evil people; even

though I was bad/a troll, I know that these people drag people into bad situations and encourage them to do

nasty things. They are to be completely opposed at every turn; they can corrupt people and drive them to do

bad things that they wouldn't otherwise even consider. I never considered trolling people until I was drawn

in by the trolls themselves; they encourage you to "one up" them in nastiness by egging you on. Their

mentality seeps into your own; they make concerted efforts to 'turn' you; and I'm referring to people like

'roy' and 'matt' not the other group, the other group were all about power, abuse and instilling fear in

people, they were less insidious; but I believe the second ('kun', 'whizz') group were more powerful and

had connections etc.

I tried joining a political forum and just posting about that, but was quickly driven off by the extreme

trolling (people were registering as different names just to troll me etc). So from Oct 2014-Aug 2015, I

remained in the same flat/apartment. I mostly isolated myself and refrained from too much posting online,

just read books and stuff and exercised etc, tried to improve my health and tried to improve my mentality;

get over my bitterness etc. I did say to the guys "ok what I did was wrong, you were probably right to warn

me",  but naturally they completely ignored me and continued regardless.

In Aug 2015, I moved out into my own apt/flat; they had already pre-warned my new flatmates about me. So my

flatmates were acting funny towards me straightaway, but it was mostly ok, they were mostly quite nice

actually, except for one of my flatmate's friends.

I was still being stalked, harassed etc online but I re-started posting about politics on the old forum

(whilst trying to refrain from being abusive, despite being consistently hounded and trolled..), needless

to say this didn't last long; after continuous abuse I relapsed into abusing people after they abused me

and was removed from the forum around Jan/Feb 2016. Then I was attacked for my political beliefs

continuously. I had also joined a seperate political forum around Oct 2015; left the forum though. In Dec

2015, I had a temporary flatmate; a girl, she left after 2 weeks and a new flatmate moved in, a decent

bloke who I got one with really well.

In Feb 2016, I had also joined the orthodox church; everything was fine and life was really good; it felt

like the harassment was almost non-existent from about March 2016 - Jun/Jul 2016; then my flatmate moved

out and a new guy moved in.....  I noticed life turned sour again. The extreme harassment began in Jul 2016

a month after the new flatmate moved in; I was posting about politics online from March - Jun 2016 without

issue; and I remained on there until about Oct 2016 without much of an issue; but again the trolls started

to become very abusive from Jul.. and I retaliated, I ended up leaving because the trolls were being passed

so much personal information about me and were attacking me with every fibre of their being; they were

registering multiple accounts on the site just to try and attack me etc....

My flatmate started constantly trying to harass me throughout this period as well, but we were sort of

friendly at the same time; I'd bite back and he'd back down, so we kind of kept things level. The

harassment outside, at the church, online, at other places etc was still fairly bad, but it was getting

worse; things came to a head around April 2017 when people started being openly abusive an I had to delete

a lot of facebook friends and stop talking to quite a few people I knew in real life as well. I also

avoided church from april/may - aug; when I started going again I noticed the harassment increased 200%;

they must have been passed a lot of exaggerated/faked information about me because they started being

pretty nasty for no apparent reason, and they knew things about me that they shouldn't have known. This has

continued and is at its worst at the moment; in Sept/Oct they made a real effort at poisoning my Mum/Bro

against me (but I believe my brother has been in on all of this since 2014...) and it seems it started to

have an effect; because they started saying things to me that they shouldn't know, they also started

getting very nasty for no apparent reason.

Last sunday (29th Oct), a guy came to the church saying he was homeless; he started telling me all kinds of

things he knew about me, that I had said in confession; things that I had told very few people, he refused

any kind of aid I or the church offered him. Someone took a flash-photo (it was a massive flash) from the

balcony whilst me and the apparently homeless guy were standing outside in the street. I also think someone

tried to run me over a few weeks ago when I was walking down a dark country lane.. I have been sent death

threats, have been repeatedly trolled, had all kinds of electrical devices damaged/disabled, have had

people shout threats in the street, have had people attempt to come up to me and physically intimidate me,

have had things changed on the computer, so that I'm listening to edited material; I've had websites edited

to look different on my screen, they've even modified bible passages so that they say different things!

This is an extreme type of harassment/stalking/killing.

I admit that there are times when I've lashed out, after being heavily insulted and attacked, both against

innocents and against perps. I've also, in anger, abused a homosexual orthodox man; but I apologised for

and retracted that. In most cases, I wasn't entirely sure what was going on at the time, but now I'm dead-

certain of what's happening and I can see clearly why, how this is happening and I'm very certain of who is

carrying this out.

I can't believe that most of this harassment started over a suicide bomber-themed joke I posted in a gay

chatroom, it's completely ridiculous and out of all proportion....