From you (39 minutes ago)
I don't know what I'm supposed to do.
 From you (37 minutes ago)
I just know that I keep wasting most of my days. Today I actually cooked a meal for myself and it gave me no satisfaction. It's like getting 20 dollars when you're in debt of 10.000: it makes such a little difference that it basically doesn't matter.
 From Barbara Dunn (31 minutes ago)
Tell me if any of the days I posted will work for you, I will schedule it in.
We need to set some goals for you to help motivate you and get you up and moving. Making that meal was a good step, but only one step. You didn't get in this position in one day, be patient with yourself, we will work through it.
 From you (30 minutes ago)
I'm afraid those times won't work. They're all around 3 AM here in Italy.
 From you (30 minutes ago)
I'm going to reread some of the posts you made and try to answer them. I want this to work. I want to get help.

 From you (29 minutes ago)
-Will your masters help you in your goals or is it a stand alone goal?
Theoretically, it should help me bet a better paying job. I don't actually have much in the way of goals beyond "not starving." I decided to study Chinese, back in the day, because my best subject was English, and I figured if I could communicate with so many people (English and Chinese) I could surely find a decent, maybe even fun job. Also I had no idea what else I could do, but I felt like I needed to pick something.
My father told me a couple of times that so long as he and Mom are alive, I'm going to be alright as far as money goes, but after that it's up to me. He says this because he does not believe that I'll be able to survive on my own.
 From you (26 minutes ago)
-Also reflect on whose goal the Master's degree is, yours or someone else's?
I was basically told by my parents that my bach degree wasn't going to land me a job and that I should specialize with a master's. In that sense, this degree is more for them than for me. But the thing is, I can't exactly tell them "Mom and Dad, I've decided that instead of doing that, I want to do something else" because I don't know what else to do. I want to not starve, to be able to write and chat with my friends in peace. I just need food, a home and an Internet connection.

It doesn't really matter. I don't have a choice.
 From you (23 minutes ago)
-What sort of chores are you messing up on? Is it because you are not focused on them while you are doing them?

When I told you that I had forgotten to remove my clothes from the washing machine for a long while, and they were soaked. My flatmate opened the machine and asked me how long ago I had used the machine, and I was feeling ashamed.
I do mess up from not being focused often, but in that particular case I knew that teh clothes were there, I just... never bothered to pick them up.
 From you (23 minutes ago)
Gonna scroll up and read some other ones. I think I haven't answered many other questions

 From you (17 minutes ago)
-What do you want for yourself? To tell you the truth, I don't use my first degree at all now. For years I couldn't find a job in that field, so I found other work. What do you really want to do?

I partially answered this but: I want to be able to pay for my own bills. To mantain contact with my friends (who I only know online; I don't have anyone in real life that I'd consider a friend, outside of family) and.. I don't know. Basically this. I think I could be happy with just this.

-What is the possibility of getting a part time job? The money you earn may not be a lot but it will give you some sense of self reliance. Do you still want to work in the field of your degree or are you completing it because you don't want to "waste the degree"

It would be nice to get to work within my degree; to do translations. At least I'd get some measure of satisfaction with my Dad's belief that I'm pretty much useless.
I mean, I could get a part-time job, but considering that I haven't even managed to go to university these last few weeks, is that really a good idea?
 From you (12 minutes ago)
Part of the reason I'm angry and depressed right now is that:
-my flatmate accused me of burning his bonsai, that he keeps in the kitchen for some godforsaken reason, and is now starting to droop. I told him that I haven't even cooked yesterday and that I didn't remember burning it. I have terrible memory so I can't in good conscience guarantee that it wasn't me.

-I had a small fight with my mother when I told her about what happened with my flatmate. I told her that I hadn't cooked at all yesterday and she got suspicious and asked me about my diet. I'm supposed to be working on losing weight. I have stopped trying lately because depression. I let slip that I think I got fatter; she started to say that I'm not dieting to fit in my shirts (there are some nice shirts I didn't fit in after getting fat) but because I have a bigger liver and I need to lose weight before it becomes a serious issue.

-I ate a bunch of cookies in the afternoon because I was stressed. This is after making an attempt at eating healthy for lunch (rice and tomato sauce) so to the standard guilt you can add an extra measure of disappointment.