SahrendToday at 6:58 PM
I never wanted to abandon you, Storm, it's just whenever I see shit go down, despite what ....No, it's the fact that I was too tired to get both sides again, so it's my fucking fault. My drinking is out of control as it is again now....
Whatever...I already inflicted the damage saying what I said earlier, so it's too late....

StormTheWyvernToday at 7:00 PM
Sahrend

SahrendToday at 7:00 PM
Tears up...

StormTheWyvernToday at 7:00 PM
I'm worried for you

SahrendToday at 7:01 PM
I'm getting help for my drinking if that's what you're worried about...awr..

StormTheWyvernToday at 7:01 PM
When i saw you mention drinking problems again a few days ago
I was worried
Though I said nothing

SahrendToday at 7:02 PM
Okay, literally the only reason why I kicked you from my server is so my friends could have a safe haven, but I'm a fucking hypocrite even doing that
Namely Dark, and yes, Adracon....

StormTheWyvernToday at 7:03 PM
That was... my first guess when i saw I wasn't in it anymore

SahrendToday at 7:04 PM
:sahrenddespair:

I just want my fucking friends to get along.....why?....


StormTheWyvernToday at 7:04 PM
Me and Dark at this point are back to neutral
As for Adracon
Sahrend, it's extremely complicated

SahrendToday at 7:05 PM
A-Awr...............

StormTheWyvernToday at 7:05 PM
Even now, we are back to talking....
We can't fucking get away from each other
Even if we inflict tons of pain on each other

SahrendToday at 7:05 PM
I feel that way towards Dark, he's a true brother to me....
I'm sorry Storm!..... Cries

StormTheWyvernToday at 7:06 PM
Adracon was my first true love
He still loves me
I still love him
We can't deal with that
It's alright Sahrend...
Hugs softly
If you want to know a bit of my side, he became horrible with me yesterday
It broke me, and I became horrible with him in response

SahrendToday at 7:10 PM
Awr.....................
I'm...so sorry.......

StormTheWyvernToday at 7:10 PM
I don't want you to destroy yourself over this
You deserve better

SahrendToday at 7:11 PM
Dude, I always fucking try to get both sides as it is....And I've been fucking that up lot....

StormTheWyvernToday at 7:11 PM
If i have to get away for this, so be it
I'll accept it

SahrendToday at 7:12 PM
I don't want to lose you...or any of my other friends...damn it...

StormTheWyvernToday at 7:12 PM
I haven't even been much present...
What usefulness do I have to you ?

SahrendToday at 7:13 PM
You've been a good friend to me..

StormTheWyvernToday at 7:14 PM
I never wanted to bring you in any of this bullcrap, but you always ended up involved in one way or another

SahrendToday at 7:14 PM
This is me struggling between friends because I fucking hold everyone close!...

StormTheWyvernToday at 7:14 PM
I never wanted you to suffer over any of this
I'm sorry Sahrend

SahrendToday at 7:14 PM
What did Dark even fucking do to first set you off????

StormTheWyvernToday at 7:15 PM
Sahrend, it doesn't even matter anymore, we let go of that

SahrendToday at 7:15 PM
.....Awr......

StormTheWyvernToday at 7:16 PM
We even dmed a bit today, though it wasn't much of a discussion

SahrendToday at 7:16 PM
I'm not gonna lie, after everything and all of this...I wish I could just knock myself out for the night.......and hope for better tomorrow....

StormTheWyvernToday at 7:16 PM
I sank so deeply last monday
I don't even care about it anymore
Ah, I don't think I ever mentionned to you, what happened last monday. Not like you needed more things on your back

SahrendToday at 7:18 PM
No, I'm a poor sod who is a relatively stable spot living with family, having a good PC and a job that actually cares for me...
Not nearly as bad as the shit you're going through...

StormTheWyvernToday at 7:19 PM
Hah, I have an easy life... I shouldn't complain about any of it

SahrendToday at 7:19 PM
I have no fucking right to be whining, but yet I am...

StormTheWyvernToday at 7:19 PM
I'm the one who shouldn't be whining about anything
Yet I reached suicidal levels last monday
Pathetic

SahrendToday at 7:20 PM
:sahrendsad:

StormTheWyvernToday at 7:20 PM
I nearly left Discord, left every server, drove downtown, and just walked alongside the large river there
Thinking about stupid shit like jumping in it, or slipping
I was only held down by one person

SahrendToday at 7:21 PM
A-Adracon?...

StormTheWyvernToday at 7:21 PM
Actually no. He tried at first, but did not insist

SahrendToday at 7:21 PM
A-Awr...

StormTheWyvernToday at 7:21 PM
The person I am now with
Though Adracon was heavily affected as well
He was nearly begging for me to stay

SahrendToday at 7:23 PM
What even went wrong to begin with between you two?

StormTheWyvernToday at 7:23 PM
He cheated on me

SahrendToday at 7:23 PM
With who?

StormTheWyvernToday at 7:23 PM
Pavel
We'd been together for 3 months at that point

SahrendToday at 7:24 PM
Of course...that's why both you and Pavel were the targets of the shit I've been seeing...

StormTheWyvernToday at 7:24 PM
We hit kind of a rough patch, Adracon was a bit untable emotionally

SahrendToday at 7:24 PM
God forbid we all get the fuck along...
Just...
No, I can hold on ffs
I need to be stronger...
I just....If there's a way I can help for any of my friends and stuff...

StormTheWyvernToday at 7:26 PM
Nobody can help me and Adracon. We're stuck in a cursed state
He fucked up, cheated on me and stayed with Pavel, and yet still considers me the love of his life
And beats himself over it constantly

SahrendToday at 7:26 PM
I helped him with Dark earlier playing some Monster Hunter World at least...

StormTheWyvernToday at 7:26 PM
Yeah, he mentionned that

SahrendToday at 7:27 PM
I take back what I did, but you don't have to rejoin my server unless you want to...

StormTheWyvernToday at 7:27 PM
I guess I'll just stay off it for now

SahrendToday at 7:28 PM
Holds close, shaking head and feeling really bad again.

StormTheWyvernToday at 7:30 PM
Hugs
It's fine Sahrend

SahrendToday at 7:30 PM
Awr...