Exmuslim from Pakistan full story

Hey Abdullah.😊

I am --redacted--. I live in Karachi, Pakistan. I am an engineering student.
I want to thank you from the depth of my heart and also tell you why. I had been a devout Muslim for 22 Years of my life. At the age of 18 i personally started to read Quran and Sunnah with translation and interpretation because i was fed up of mullahs belonging to different sects, and sects within sects, claiming their version of Islam to be the right one. The purpose of my life was to follow the actual Islamic teachings and correct other people if they had any misconception about Islam, as 95% of the muslims in Pakistan don’t even bother reading and understanding Quran and Sunnah and believe whatever the mullahs tell them. And when they read it they recite it in Arabic without understanding a single word. I also planned on becoming an Islamic scholar after completing my engineering degree so that I could preach the God’s only true religion and covert every single living person on the planet to islam and save them from hell fire. Even though i had always been a student of science i never ever doubted my position as a Muslim or the Quran and Hadith because i was indoctrinated since the day i was born and was conned by leading muslim scholars and preachers into believing that there cannot ever be a contradiction between Quran and Science.

About an year and a half ago i saw your video “Leaving Islam After Promoting It For 15 Years”. It was the first time i saw someone criticizing islam who had been a Muslim, i was shocked. My first thoughts after watching your video were like “Astaghfirullah, this Muslim brother has gone astray, how can someone be a doubter if he’s a Muslim?” But then slowly i started to realize that the things you mentioned about in the video, i had already read some of those things myself but was blinded by faith and suppressed doubt and rationality as much as i could while reading the Quran and Sunnah.

I thank you Abdullah because you’re the first person who made me question my beliefs and made me read again whatever I had read before with a different perspective. As i kept on looking into things more and more, i started loosing my faith slowly. My everyday life, my family, my neighbors, my friends, my culture, my identity, everything about me was Muslim. It was very difficult and heart breaking in the beginning for me as my faith was the most precious thing to me in this world. But as i moved from a theistic worldview to an aesthetic worldview, it turned out to be the most amazing, most self educating and most liberating experience of my life. It was a gradual and slow process but was worthwhile at the end.

I am sharing my story with you because i cannot share this with anyone as most of the people here are not tolerant at all and can’t stand a single word against Islam, not to mention the blasphemy laws of Pakistan. Thank you Abdullah for helping me to take the first step of self doubt and through my journey. Keep making videos. I love your content and i hope that you always stay awesome and happy.