KrisToday at 2:36 PM
Convince your family to come here my dear.

AzzyToday at 2:37 PM
I doubt we'd have the money, let alone the anchor to remove
I know it couldn't happen till the day my grandparents pass
Or I do it on my own

KrisToday at 2:41 PM
Yeah..

AzzyToday at 2:41 PM
We can't rush things all the time, but I understand your goal and desire
Yet don't put yourself own about it

AzzyToday at 2:54 PM
If it upsets you, i'm sorry. I do think i'm a burden sometimes with this stuff

KrisToday at 2:55 PM
I know. It just seems that I've only caused ripples to people from far away, but not where I am. Friends have much character, especially. But not much of that is here, y'know?

It's my fault for not being a grown man and decide to go out more.
Don't get me wrong.

AzzyToday at 2:56 PM
Hey, I don't go out much either, so I'm not from any exception

KrisToday at 2:57 PM
I love you so much, I just hate on how the risks make things wistful than they should be.

AzzyToday at 2:57 PM
I love you too, I really do. I just wish the distance didn't seem so...endless
Yet there will be a day where this ends.

KrisToday at 2:58 PM
If anything, I feel single. I know my responsibilities for you - for us, but the change and exuberance isn't convincing me.
You feel that, too, don't you?

AzzyToday at 2:59 PM
Now I feel guilty

KrisToday at 2:59 PM
We both are.

AzzyToday at 2:59 PM
Yet i'm not fucking giving in.
It took guts enough to even try this in the first place and dammit, i'm not killing it
All this does is spark me

KrisToday at 3:04 PM
Now that I think about it, maybe that's why the rash incidences we had happened. Because if we were truly close, we wouldn't share our penises to the world.

But that doesn't mean that I love you any less. I still feel bad for giving in to my urges, but I felt pain.

AzzyToday at 3:05 PM
I hate to say it, but all I feel right now is an urge to be cold

KrisToday at 3:05 PM
I get it.
I don't want to go back there either.

AzzyToday at 3:06 PM
It feels with the way this is being said, it's almost as if it's intentional harm

KrisToday at 3:07 PM
We're at fault for what we've done.
Not you, not me, us.

AzzyToday at 3:08 PM
Do I have to make this worse than it needs to be?
If all you want to do is boil me, you're starting to actually get that.

KrisToday at 3:08 PM
I'm just saying what I need to say.

AzzyToday at 3:08 PM
If that's the case
I think i've made it clear here then

KrisToday at 3:13 PM
Clear?

AzzyToday at 3:14 PM
Yes.
Just the very mood that this has set up.

KrisToday at 3:16 PM
I'm only expressing what I feel. I'm sorry if it seems that I harmed you.

AzzyToday at 3:16 PM
If it seems?
Now you're making it worse.
I'm almost ready to explode

KrisToday at 3:17 PM
Okay, I'll just shut my mouth.

AzzyToday at 3:17 PM
I fucking get that it's emotional and shit, but my fucking god
Bring it all down to suicidal levels?
I almost wanted to just cut everything off.
Just out of stress and misery.
I know that's not your intention, but it doesn't help when it's a "It's our fault" ordeal and with so little context to any of it other than what we did before was a rough thing to get past for normal people
I don't deal with stress well.
I expected you to know this.
Did you not?
I seriously don't want to hate you or end it, but I can't work with this if that's all I am to deal with
Yet, I can see why they all left.
I'm not exactly a "Us" person when stress hits
So my apologies if I have made this way worse than it needed to be.
I won't blame you for hating me for this
Just don't do anything drastic, please
I'm sorry I failed you as a boyfriend..

KrisToday at 3:31 PM
No. It's fine..

AzzyToday at 3:32 PM
No, it isn't
I blew up like a dramatic spaz for little reason that shouldn't be justified

KrisToday at 3:32 PM
It seems that it's designed for me to take it all, while I treasure you for the rest of our time together

AzzyToday at 3:33 PM
When you put it that way, it sounds more abusive than legitimate

KrisToday at 3:33 PM
I'm abusing myself.
It's okay.
AzzyToday at 3:33 PM
No, it's not
Abusing yourself isn't going to improve a thing

KrisToday at 3:33 PM
I Don't care.

AzzyToday at 3:34 PM
Now you fucking listen to me!
You're not abusing yourself, you're not going down any more of those paths, you hear me?!

KrisToday at 3:35 PM
I'd rather not stress you out because of me.

AzzyToday at 3:35 PM
Life hasn't been the sweetest to either of us, but dammit, i'm not going to let you drown like this
Even if i'm blinded at times by my own selfishness

KrisToday at 3:36 PM
I'm the one who's clearly selfish. So whatever.

AzzyToday at 3:36 PM
Stop talking like that.
You have evidence for this belief
I can't blame you there, even if it hurts me.
You told me I needed to stop putting myself down, but so do you
I hate seeing you like this as it is
I want to give you the best I can, but I don't even know anymore if I am doing just that at this point with how i've acted
I feel as if i've neglected you
Haven't I?
I've neglected and abused, just like they told me long before..
This.Is my fault.
I broke one of the many keys to a relationship and that's to express between one another
I accept the responsibility of my actions. I've hurt you and I shouldn't have done such a thing.