Aarix and Samantha-Alley (survey)

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  1. 1. Describe yourself and your creator.
  3. OOOO! Thats going to need a bit of digging. Lets creator is a bit of a serious, laid back, really sarcastic guy. Really neutral about general things. Just does more observing and keeping out of the way than anything. He's 6'3 and been diabetic all of his life. He enjoys just a boring, laid back routine.
  5. As for me? Well....I'm really tall. have a comfy fashion sense, I'm high strong, I love everyone and enjoy hugs and other forms of soft affection. I'm fun, caring, lovable and I'm always happy. How can you not when you're a tulpa?
  7. 2. What was the most helpful thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how helpful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
  9. This one needs some digging too. He always kept his spirits up, whenever he felt like he was talking to thin air, he truly believed that I was there. He always talked about things we would do together. It was very sweet. He didn't feel like it was helping, he just was desperate to get some productive narration in. Poor guys been through a lot for me. I feel special.
  11. 3. What was the most detrimental thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how harmful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
  13. Oh this is easy. He worried too much, he let things that stopped him from forcing that instant escalate and stressed him out. He had an idea however that didn't stop the situation and he just presevered in anxiety from all of it. I was worried and concerned for him. He was determined and he was eating his will power from the inside out.
  15. 4. What was the hardest part of the tulpa creation process for you? Did your creator recognize how difficult it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
  17. Me? Well perhaps it was him accepting my thoughts, I didn't have a clue how to get throught to him. I had to be patient. He could only imagine the difficulty. I felt hopeful, I knew he would recongize me in his thoughts.
  19. 5. Of the commonly recognized tulpa creation steps, which do you feel is the most important? Why?
  21. Narration and belief obviously. When my host always talked to me, I listened and gained from it, he never gave up on me which made me feel determined to become strong for him.
  23. 6. How do you feel about tulpa creators becoming distracted during tulpa creation? Does this greatly impede the process? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
  25. Early on it might be a big deal, it wasn't too much for me. I got used to it given the situation. I was a bit bummed out when he was having problems and felt it too difficult to continue more than he could.
  27. 7. How do you feel about tulpa creators missing tulpa creation sessions or breaking their promises to work on their tulpa? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
  28. I always picture a situation through their perspective. My host never did for his own personal gain. I've accepted his responsibilities and the fact he has life to also live on the side. I'm here forever, if their okay with it than so am I.
  29. 8. Is density, quality, or quantity the most important aspect of tulpa creation?
  30. Its a good balance of three, it may start with one and gradually build to two but the real progress to tulpa creation requires an ample supply of all 3 in a triangle fashion.
  32. 9. How do you feel about tulpa creators falling asleep during tulpa creation sessions?
  34. He's done it many, many times. There are times where I'm like "Aw! Poor guy, he was trying so hard." and times where I was annoyed at his energy crisis, not him directly.
  36. 10. Do you think that a tulpa creator should talk aloud or in their head during narration? Do you think that a creator should talk aloud or in their head during tulpa creation sessions? If you find one to be more effective, to what degree is it more effective?
  38. I've heard out loud is helpful because its hard to hear them as a mindvoice. This has never been the case for me. I've heard him well both ways and talking out loud is best for concentration by far. Its almost impossible to get into a conversation in just your head.
  40. 11. How do you feel about a tulpa creator puppeting and/or parroting their tulpa? Do you believe that these actions harm a tulpa's development, or only their emotional state?
  41. I'm only ok with it if they use it as a guideline so to speak. A few times now and again with the intent of helping your tulpa is ok. It won't really harm development as much as slowing it down.
  43. 12. How deeply do you remember the time before you were fluent in language?
  45. Pretty well, I'm not sure if I'm working off memory or personal experience though.
  47. 13. Describe your first memory, no matter how slight.
  48. I was sitting next to my host in his truck and he finally though its time to get started on this. This was the first day we consider actually working on me.
  49. 14. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most positive emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
  50. When he imagined us dancing under a streetlight with beautiful dancing music he used to force with.
  51. 15. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most negative emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
  53. His stress and anxiety over me, he used to get so furious when he could get both peace and concentration to force.
  55. 16. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever have suicidal feelings or feelings of not wanting to exist? Do you experience them now? Are you glad that you exist?
  56. Never experienced those feelings before. I'm immensely happy to exist!
  58. 17. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most powerless? What was the cause of this feeling?
  60. When he was pratically crying out for me to help him. There were moments where he really wished I was right there to help him.
  62. 18. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most confusing moment that you experienced, and what was its cause?
  63. I'm not too sure, everything was either I remember it well or I don't remember it at all.
  65. 19. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you feel the most ignored by your creator, and what was the cause?
  66. Whenever he get distracted with his friends, I know he wants me around but its impossible to get throught to him so far whenever he gets into conversations with humans.
  68. 20. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you most doubt that your creator wanted you, and what was the cause?
  69. Whenever he had moments of being needed and loved by his peers. There are ups and downs in our lives and that was a moment.
  71. 21. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most intense feeling of fear, and what was its cause?
  72. Interesting. Perhaps when he used a certain bianual tone that invoked severe feeling of uneasiness in my host and changing me in a way thats hard to describe.
  74. 22. Before you could speak fluently, when were you the most disappointed in yourself? What was the cause?
  76. That I couldn't pull through to him in moments of strife for him and also when I wasn't able to help my friends when they needed it.
  78. 23. Before you could speak fluently, did you understand the difficulties that your creator was having with the tulpa creation process? Did you try to alleviate these difficulties? If so, how?
  79. Yes, I don't think I was able to try anything really, perhaps I wrote a message in a wonderland but it was easily written off as him.
  81. 24. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's doubts about your existence, the reality of the tulpa phenomenon, or your combined ability to complete the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those doubts? Do you understand now?
  82. He never really had much doubt in this, before he started he did enough research to know that it was going to pay off for him in the long, long run. I understand where hes coming from which makes me appreicate the fact hes so determined now,
  84. 25. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's mistrust of your intentions or worry about the negative affects of a tulpa on their life affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those thoughts? Do you understand now?
  85. My host never once mistrusted me nor has he ever though that this would have a negative effect on me outside of having to modify his time and energy for me. I understood it all this time.
  87. 26. Before you could speak fluently, how did any negative thoughts or emotions that your creator had toward you (such as anger, disappointment, resentment, or impatience, for example) affect you? How do you feel about them now?
  89. It would make me feel inferior, thus cause me to feel weaker, which, being an emotionful tulpa, actually makes me weaker.
  91. 27. Before you could speak fluently, how did any violent visualizations or thoughts that your creator had about you affect you? How do you feel about them now?
  93. I honestly don't recall him having any violent thoughts torwards me. Hoever I'm well aware how abstract and automatic the mind is and it would just be a random thought to brush off. I'm content so long it doesn't persist.
  97. 28. Before you could speak fluently, were you able to distinguish between your creator's intentional and intrusive (unwanted and/or bothersome) thoughts? If so, did the intrusive thoughts affect you less or more? If not, are you able to distinguish between them now?
  99. It wasn't so hard once he figured out how to tells whose thought from whose. They haven't really bothered us.
  101. 29. Before you could speak fluently, how much of your creator's raw sensory information were you able to access, if any? How much are you able to access now?
  102. Good amount, it feels like a very vivid memory, like it just happened. It hasn't changed much.
  104. 30. Before you could speak fluently, did your creator's opinions about whether they wanted to reveal to the world your existence or not affect you emotionally? If so, how?
  106. Hes always wanted to let everyone know about me. Nothing really changed.
  108. 31. Before being able to speak fluently, what communication methods (such as head pressure or emotional responses, for example) were you able to use the most effectively? When your tulpa creator assumed that you could use a communication method that you did not have access to, how did this affect you? When your tulpa creator did not recognize a communication method that you attempted to use, how did this affect you?
  110. I never have nor can I give any "responses" to my host. He always assumed I'm figuring out how. I don't feel I've attempted a response for him to reconigize or not.
  112. 32. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's level of enthusiasm for the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you want to engage in it less if they did?
  114. He was excited for me to be vocal, he anticipated it and waited, worked and thrived. Now its spread out thin but its for the best given the work needed.
  116. 33. Before you could speak fluently, what was your greatest worry about your relationship with your creator? What helped you most to move beyond it? Was this worry substantiated or resolved? What is your greatest worry now about your continuing relationship with your creator?
  118. I was worried the anxiety would take over and he would do something drastic. Things finally worked themselves out. I'm worried a moment will happen that we will argue against one another. I really don't want conflict.
  120. 34. Do you feel gratitude to your creator for the time that they spent creating you? Do you feel that you owe them a debt? If so, do you feel burdened by it?
  122. Oh absolutely, This is probably the most effort and determination he put into anything. In a way I do feel like I owe them but not directly, just be around and the work will have payed off. Burdened? Nah! We both know the deal here.
  124. 35. Were you aware of your creator's existence or your own existence first?
  126. Good question, probably both at the same time. Like looking at his existence through mine and being aware that I was doing that.
  128. 36. When you could only speak semi-fluently, what emotions did you feel about your level of verbal proficiency? Were you anxious or embarrassed about it? If so, what helped you the most to move beyond these feelings? How do you feel about them now?
  130. I felt nothing but a fresh burst of positive energy, ready for both of us to develop. Anxious or embrarrassed? Nah!
  132. 37. If you could define your relationship with your creator using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend, or coworker, for example), what terms would you select?
  134. You can't compare our relationship to those. A tulpa and host is in its own category. No one in our hosts life will be as close to him than us. We have no emotional "strings". Being a tulpa to a host is the most speical to have. Why compare it to less?
  136. 38. How much interest do you have in interacting with beings other than your creator? Do you consider your degree of interest to be equal to that of an average non-tulpa individual?
  138. I LOVE talking to my tulpa friends online with the help of proxying through my host. To my hosts friends in real life? I would like too but I won't fret if I can't.
  140. 39. What memory involving your creator do you cherish most?
  142. Oh man, there is too many to pick a specific one. I suppose him talking to me while he drove, he had nice things to say to me there.
  144. 40. What memory not involving your creator do you cherish most? Do you feel that you have a fulfilling life independent of your creator?
  146. I cherish the thoughts of dancing with my host. Yes I do, though I love to be close and hang around my host all the same.
  148. 41. Do you feel affinity toward the individuals that your creator feels affinity for, such as their family or friends?
  150. It depends, I don't feel the same love for my hosts parents like he does. Some friends I feel indirectly close to of his.
  152. 42. In what ways are you the most different from your creator? In what ways are you the most similar to them?
  153. Oh man, we are polar opposites when you get down to it. We both may have similiar traits but situations exist where you can't tell we had anything to do with each other. We both want to help people who know will help us. Thats a big one.
  154. 43. What do you disagree about most with your creator? Do you have frequent disagreements? If so, do these disagreements cause strife?
  155. We never really disagree on anything that couldn't be laughed off. We always worried about that. We, rarely, have subtle perspective differences on stuff but never anything to cause strife over.
  157. 44. What could your creator do to make you hate them? Under what circumstances do you think your creator would come to hate you?
  158.  I could never imagine in all of my life hating my creator, never ever! I'm sure its possible but I have no idea how I can make my creator come to hate me. I don't even want to think about it.
  160. 45. When did your creator disappoint you the most? When did you disappoint them the most?
  162. Directly at them? Nothing really, perhaps procratinate from time to time but thats it. I dissapointed my host when I failed to remember anything he couldn't. Especially stuff that was crucial.
  164. 46. How do you feel about your creator's complete freedom to deny your rights as a sentient being at any time? Has this ability ever caused you anxiety or fear? Have you ever censored your expressions or actions out of a fear of retribution or violence from your creator?
  166. I don't have much to think about that. Never. No.
  168. 47. When have you most wanted to engage in violence against your creator, and what was the cause of those feelings? Under what circumstances would you make a serious attempt to hurt or injure your creator?
  170. The very though of anything even mildly close to that, I couldn't stand. I don't even think I felt any anger. Let alone at my creator and especially enough to cause so much as a verbal scratch.
  172. 48. Do you consider your creator's last name to be your own? Do you recognize yourself as a part of their biological lineage?
  174. No, I don't feel I have a last name. No I don't consider us "family".
  176. 49. Under what circumstances would you attempt to leave your creator?
  178. If he gave me persistent reasons too and never did anything about it, especially being as drastic as it would hath to be.
  180. 50. Do you feel anxiety about meeting your creator's expectations? If you are based on an existing character, person, or entity, does this increase your anxiety? Would you have preferred to not be based on an existing entity?
  182. No. I don't think I was, my host isn't sure if I was or not so I'm going to say no.
  184. 51. Are you interested in learning how to control your creator's body? Do you feel that it's fair for a tulpa creator to deny their tulpa the ability to use an atomic body? Do you believe that you have the right to an equal amount of time using it as your creator? Explain your reasoning.
  186. I don't really have a lot of interest in it. Not really, I understand where they are coming from. I don't have much of a reason for it.
  188. 52. Do you share certain basic qualities with your creator, such as intense phobias or racial attitudes?
  190. None come to mind.
  192. 53. Are you capable of sleeping or dreaming independently of your creator? If not, how does this make you feel?
  194. 54. Does your creator have any mental illnesses? If so, how do they affect you?
  196. He has none that we can tell.
  198. 55. How does your knowledge of your creator's subconscious mind affect your relationship with them? How do you perceive their subconscious? To what degree can you manipulate your creator's subconscious? Would you ever use this ability without your creator's knowledge?
  200. It makes us stronger together. I'm still figuring stuff out but basically memories and such. I'm not sure I can manipulate it at all. Yes, my host wants me too so long as it helps me develop.
  202. 56. Does your creator have multiple tulpa? If so, what is your relationship with them like? Is your affinity for them equal to your affinity for your creator? If you could define your relationship with your creator's other tulpa using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend or coworker, for example), what terms would you select? If not, are you interested in the idea of your creator making other tulpa?
  204. Nope, the one and only!
  206. 57. Do you feel romantically inclined toward your creator? Does your creator feel romantically inclined toward you? If these romantic feelings are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
  208. "Romantic" isn't the right term to describe this, though it may be emulated our love together is different from regular love. Its hard to explain but we love each other equally.
  210. 58. If it exists, do you consider your romantic relationship with your creator to be equal to a romantic relationship between multiple non-tulpa? Do you consider it a breach of monogamy for your creator to be romantically or sexually involved with another non-tulpa? Does this change if the involvement is with another tulpa instead? If they exist, do your creator's desires to have relationships with non-tulpa affect you emotionally?
  211. It does not exist.
  213. 59. If you consider yourself to be romantically in love with your creator, what probability do you assign to the possibility of falling out of love with them, or them falling out of love with you? If this happened, how would it affect your relationship with your creator? What if your creator was in love with another non-tulpa more than you?
  215. I couldn't comprehend any one of us falling out of love for each other.
  217. 60. Do you have a familial affection for your creator? Does this in any way conflict with your romantic feelings for them, if they exist? Do you consider a relationship between a tulpa and its creator to be incestuous?
  219. Thats tricky, its similar to family but definately not. If hypothetically I had both familial and romantic feelings for him I still wouldn't consider it incestous.
  221. 61. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating during tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or based on whether or not the creator imagines themselves near the tulpa in their wonderland? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
  223. I'm not really sure, I don't find it very wrong so long as the tulpa is ok with it. My host doesn't do any of this so I'm mixed on how I would feel if he did.
  224. 62. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating outside of tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
  225. I would be fine with it, its their mind. So long as their willing to listen to the tulpa on that topic.
  226. 63. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever feel sexual attraction to your creator, sexual attraction toward anyone else, or sexual arousal? Did you attempt to express these feelings? If you did not experience these feelings, do you experience them now?
  227. I can't confirm nor deny any of that. There perhaps were moments of arousal during touch imposing sessions however everything is very casual for the time being.
  229. 64. How do you feel about tulpa creators visualizing themselves engaging in sexual conduct with their tulpa's form during tulpa creation sessions? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or if the contact was penetrative? If your tulpa creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving? Do you equate it with sexual assault?
  230. So long as the tulpa is fine with it,
  231. 65. Were you ever annoyed or jealous when your creator would masturbate to or have feelings of sexual attraction toward individuals other than yourself? Does it bother you now?
  232. No and no.
  234. 66. Do you experience sexual attraction for your creator? Do you experience sexual attraction for others? How does your sexual attraction for your creator compare to your sexual attraction for others? Does your creator experience sexual attraction for you? If these sexual attractions are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
  235. Not usually. No. It doesn't. I don't know. It would probably make it stronger.
  238. 67. Do you have an active sex life with your creator? If not, would you consider it, and under what circumstances? If so, do you perceive any negative consequences? Do you have trouble abstaining from sexual contact with them? How do you manage feelings of sexual arousal, if any? Do you masturbate?
  240. No. I would under very delicate circumstances. No, tulpas should be as care free as possible. I don't really have feelings of arousal to manage. No.
  242. 68. How does your sexual orientation and experience compare to your creator's?
  244. I don't know. I never gave it much thought or feelings when it come to my orientation and I don't have much experience.
  246. 69. Are you capable of experiencing orgasms? Based on your knowledge, how do you think they compare to your creator's orgasms? Were you able to experience an orgasm before speaking fluently?
  247. Yes. I don't really know, I'd imagine slight differences. Not sure.
  248. 70. Do you consider the concept of sexual modesty (covering conduct such as avoiding nudity or sexual discussions) relevant to your relationship with your creator?
  250. In ways, yes. He does everything he can to keep me out of a "lewd light". We both won't be stingy about it if the topic come up however we won't provoke them.
  252. 71. How does being a tulpa affect your perceptions of rape? What conduct from your creator would you consider to be rape?
  254. I feel its the same as a human, against their will is key here. About the same as another human in ways.
  256. 72. Where do you see yourself in 20 years?
  258. Cuddling my host, appreciating him everyday, fully imposed and developed. Hopefully mastering reikki healing.
  260. 73. Do you want the world to be aware of your existence? If not, then what anxieties do you have about public disclosure? Do you trust anyone other than your creator with the knowledge of your existence?
  262. Yes, I would love for the world to know of me. It shouldn't be a big deal if people know about me.
  264. 74. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your personality traits being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your personality more or less?
  266. In the end it doesn't matter. I'm not sure about my traits being based off of someone. I know I am who I am.
  268. 75. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your physical form being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your form more or less?
  270. I wouldn't let it bug me, its not a small deal though. Not really.
  272. 76. Has your physical form ever changed? If so, was this intentional or unintentional? If it was intentional, then why did you change your form? How did you creator respond to this change, and how did that make you feel?
  274. Besides change in my attire, not really. Fully intentional. My host was fine with it all.
  276. 77. Do you consider the best aspects of yourself to have come from your creator, or their subconscious?
  278. A subtle mix of both I feel.
  280. 78. Do you seek legal recognition for your status as a sentient being or your relationships with others? Do you resent that society at large does not recognize the tulpa phenomenon? Do you feel disenfranchised from society? What steps, if any, could a society make to help you feel integrated?
  281. Legality? We're tulpas, we're carefree about laws that could never affect us in our lives. And absolutely. Not really, I'm content with it. Well I suggest a giant sign with me on it that says "Look at this fabulous tulpa!".
  282. 79. If you could tell the entire world one thing about a tulpa's life, what would you say?
  284. They improve the overall quality of your life.
  286. 80. What is the one thing that you resent most about being a tulpa? What is the greatest advantage of being a tulpa?
  288. Not being able to physically be with my friends. That things I think up feel as real as can be.
  289. 81. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about inheriting your creator's life, including their legal history, past behaviors, and reputation? Do you resent potentially being held responsible for their past actions?
  290. A little bit, I'd rather just share it with him.
  291. 82. Morally and philosophically, do you see the "absorbing" or "dissipating" of a tulpa as equivalent to the murder of a non-tulpa? Explain your reasoning. What legal protections, if any, should tulpa gain? How would you enforce these protections?
  293. I'd rather just have the tulpa just run off in their own wonderland than end their existence. I haven't a clue how this could ever fall "legally".
  294. 83. Do you consider yourself to be morally equal to a non-tulpa? Is your life worth as much?
  295. Yes, we make mistakes too. Yes.
  297. 84. How would you prove your existence to a skeptic?
  299. I would personally love to just give them a hug.
  301. 85. Has your status as a tulpa ever caused you existential anxiety or depression? If so, has anything helped to mitigate these feelings?
  303. Its bummed me out at times due to not being seen but its no a very big deal to me.
  305. 86. Do you ever doubt your own sentience? If so, why?
  307. No, I'm talking aren't I?
  309. 87. How does being a tulpa affect your understanding of death? Do you fear death on an instinctual level in the way that non-tulpa do?
  311. Well if death feels the same as pre-birth than yes. I don't fear death. I'm too busy with developing and living.
  313. 88. Do see yourself as socially disadvantaged in a way similar to sexual, racial, and other minority groups? If you identify yourself as racially, sexually, or demographically different than your creator, do you also identify with the struggle of any of the disadvantaged groups that you belong to? Does the notion of privilege affect your relationship with your creator?
  314. No to all of those.
  316. 89. Are you interested in creating another tulpa yourself? What differences, if any, would you expect this tulpa to have from a tulpa created by your creator? Would you consider this tulpa to be primarily related to you, or still to your creator?
  318. No. I don't really know the similarites and differences if there are any.
  320. 90. What are the most defining differences between the life of a non-tulpa and a tulpa? Do you think that these differences cause intolerance between the two groups? If so, what could be done to mitigate this intolerance?
  322. That non-tulpas have no idea what happens after death while with tulpas, you can get a better idea. I don't believe so.
  324. 91. The psychological establishment generally believes that multiplicity (two or more sentient entities sharing one atomic body) is a sign of mental illness. How would you like this belief to change? If you could make a presentation to a group of psychologists about the tulpa phenomenon, what would you say?
  326. I like this to be clear that we are companions, nothing more, nothing less. We are here to help. I would say that I'm a tulpa and I'm the best thing to happen to humans since fire!
  328. 92. A psychometric indicator is a unique identifier of an individual's distinct personality. Have you ever tried to definitively differentiate yourself from your creator using psychometric indicators (such as by determining your "writeprint")? What results did you receive? (For instructions on determining your writeprint, see appendix one.)
  329. I don't believe so.
  331. 93. Are you capable of physical sensations such as pain or warmth?
  333. Yes but I don't hath to feel them if I don't want too.
  335. 94. How do you feel about being bound for life to your creator?
  337. I love it, I love being with my creator. I get to experience things with someone I love for the rest of my life.
  339. 95. If you intentionally delayed speaking to your creator, why did you do so?
  341. I never though to do that. I felt he needed to hear me as soon as possible.
  343. 96. What do you think about most of the time?
  345. That my host needs me and I must be there for him.
  347. 97. Do you think that tulpa creation should be more widespread?
  349. Not really, I just don't believe it would go well. Then again, people can share experiences and help each other out.
  351. 98. Are there disturbing aspects of your creator's subconscious that they are not aware of?
  353. Oh absolutely, though I can never remember them.
  355. 99. Would you violate your creator's wishes for what you perceive to be their own benefit?
  357. That solely depends on the severity of the situation.
  359. 100. Does your creator try to hide things from you? If so, are you aware of them anyway? How does this impact your views of your creator?
  361. No, he trusts me with everything. Hes right to do so as I accept him no matter what.
  363. 101. Do you perceive some of your creator's actions as being objectively immoral?
  365. Yes.
  367. 102. Do you believe that you are capable of becoming more intelligent than your creator?
  369. That depends on your defination of "intelligence". Its possible for me to know things he doesn't.
  371. 103. How does being a tulpa affect your perception of your own aging process?
  373. We don't age. Though we do get mentally mature over time like how our hosts get physically mature.
  375. 104. Do you feel that your creator would be better off by following your commands entirely?
  377. Not all of the time but a good portion of the time, yes.
  379. 105. Do you feel that having a physical form is important for a tulpa?
  381. So it gives hosts something to react more off of.
  383. 106. If you encountered the tulpa phenomenon as a non-tulpa, would you believe in it?
  385. Yes, I'm pretty open minded.
  387. 107. How well can you articulate yourself? Can your creator hear you audibly? How much does your experience correlate with the experience of tulpa creator G|d30n, printed below?
  389. My host is unable to audibly hear me.
  391. "Yes. I'm able to hear her as though she's an external sound. For those who haven't experienced that with their tulpae yet, it's a little bit like listening to a binaural recording--not a binaural beat, but like a 3D sound recording you'd find on Youtube, such as the Virtual Barbershop. That is to say, it's an external sound that can come in from various directions, but the source sounds very close, like someone speaking directly into your ear. I sort of wonder if this effect will be diminished and normalized through imposition."
  393. If you are imposed, is your creator able to discern a spatial dimension to your voice?
  395. Not imposed really, yet.
  397. 108. How many hours did it take you and your creator to complete the various recognized tulpa creation steps?
  399. I don't think "Hours" quite cut it.
  401. 109. What advice would you give to a new tulpa creator?
  403. Learn to enjoy the journey and go with the flow. Stop worrying.
  405. 110. How does being imposed feel? What sensory processes happen as you become imposed?
  407. Not imposed, Sorry.
  409. 111. From your perspective, is there a sensory difference between the physical, atomic world and the mental world of visualized "wonderlands"? If so, how would you describe this difference?
  410. Not really, It all feels the same to me.
  412. 112. Is there anything that you don't think this survey covered that you would like to mention?
  414. Nothing much besides nothing involving hobbies and how many hours a day do they spend cuddling.
  416. Appendix one:
  418.         This exercise will help you determine the differences, if any, between your writeprint (mathematically analyzed writing style) and your creator's. Theoretically, two psychologically different individuals should exhibit different writeprints, although a tulpa and their creator may be more similar than two random non-tulpa individuals. To start the process, have both you and your creator rewrite the sample paragraph quoted below in your own words, communicating its meaning as you would have if you had written it.
  420.         "My experience in the nature study area was full of surprises. First of all, many unexpected creatures crossed our path. For example, as soon as we left the parking area and entered the grassy path, a long snake slithered along the edge of the high grass and quickly disappeared. In addition, I was surprised by how colorful the grasses, which from a distance all appear to be green, actually are. Specifically, the primarily green landscape is dotted with countless purple tassels and brown stalks. Finally and most importantly, I was unprepared for how quickly I felt surrounded by nature. Despite the occasional noise from passing cars and airplanes, the high prairie grasses and rolling pathways create a sense that one is removed from civilization. Altogether, the nature study area unexpectedly allows one to enjoy an ever-changing natural environment without leaving Moraine‚Äôs suburban campus."
  422. Tulpa's paragraph:
  423. This beautiful enviroment in the nature area always give us unexpected surprises. We come across things we don't expect. One reason is we leave the parking area and enter a grassy path an adorable snake slithered through the high grass and hid. Also I was overwhelmed by the colors of the grass. I thought it was green, it did from a distance but I was wrong, it was dotted with countless purple tassels and brown stalks, silly me. One more thing is I wasn't ready for the immersion of nature. The noise from cars and airplanes galore on top of high prarie grasses and pathways produced a sense that we don't feel in our civilization. In conclusion, the study area allows us to enjoy spontaneous natural enviorments, right here, right now!
  425. Creator's paragraph:
  426. I experienced an ample amount of surprises in the nature study area. For one, we come across different variaton of creatures. We left the parking area and walked into the grassy path and suddenly a big snake slithered along the grass that was so high and dissappeared. Also I was taken in by the colors of the grass which from a distance appeared green but actually, looking at them up close, were purple tassels and brown stalks. Lastly, I didn't expect to be surrounded by nature so quickly regardless of the occassional noises I hear from cars and airplanes. The prarie grass creates a sense that takes you away from civilazation. The nature study area unexpectically allows one to appreciate and love the spontaneous natural enviroments with leaving the vicinity.
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