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- It hurts me so much that we broke up over my temper flaring again, looking back on it you didn't
- really have a role in it and it was just Kasey and Jannell trying to get involved into someone
- else's relationship. I don't want to take you back because how many times have I done this? But
- I'm so lost and miserable without you always being by my side, the real reason I went to the
- Hospital was because I was under suicide watch from how alone I felt, and the days only have been
- getting worse. You're having so much fun without me and if you're happier without me I will gladly
- stay out of your life. I'm far from perfect and I have many flaws within me, wether that's being a
- complete asshole or a multiple felony criminal, and I hate to admit when I'm in the wrong. Kasey's
- and Jannell's decision was very immature and my hate for them has grew far beyond belief. But I
- didn't really see your role in it, it almost seems like their goal was to make me angry and break
- up with you when I really didn't want that. I was frustrated with you, yes, but I left it alone
- because I needed time alone to think. Then they just come after me like that when I'm trying to
- cheer myself up and make my day better. But in the end, I don't give a shit on what happens to me,
- I just want you to be happy; with or without me. I could have the worst life ever but as long as I
- know you're happy, that's already a big plus to keep continuing life. I never want to leave you in
- a situaion of despair where I'm not there to help you. I'm embarassed as fuck to say this but I'm
- a really big fuck up. You are for a fact, better off without me, it may not feel like it but you are.
- And I can't love anyone else because I nobody understands me the way you did; and I don't understand
- anyone as well as I did with you. I have no hate towards you or anything which is why it's killing
- me to not be with you for a dumb reason. People really dislike us being together so much to the point
- do where they would tell a lie just to see how I would react. In case you're wondering, no I don't have
- feelings for Jannell; and now I most definently don't after what she did, I don't want to see their
- faces ever in my life again. However I want yours to be the only one I see. You changed me, you made
- me see that there is good things in the world, and how I could never give up on anyone. I will always
- have these feelings for you and they will never subside. I could die today and still love you in the
- after life hoping that you persevere and come out on top. It's already killing me enough that you guys
- want to act pity over it when they're the ones who started the situation. But in the end, no matter how
- long I hate you for, I will always go back to adoring you. I still find it weird to this day on how I
- felt the need to approach you and talk to you in science sophomore year because I never do that. I must
- really be attracted to someone in order to do that in person. You probably are fucking pissed at me for
- writing this much but I've had the worst nights of my life hoping that I would be okay, but I knew every
- second laying in that hospital bed that I wasn't going to be okay. Because you weren't there for me because
- I pushed you away out of sheer anger. Well basically since I'm a fucking idiot, what I'm trying to get at is,
- I will be here waiting if you want to come back to the asshole person that I am. I don't give a fuck what
- other people would think, I'll be here, because I'm definently not cuffing an ordinary bitch. You're beyond
- extraordinary and I hope you realize that. I don't know how you're feeling at all or if you even want to see
- my face again but I just want you to know, I love you.
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