Well... It's that time again, time for an update, and one which I quite honestly really hate to have to make, because I honestly really hate the topic, but it had to be done.
At the start of september, I announced that I quit, and that will still stay, however since then, it's really only gotten worse. I've reached a point where I don't feel like I belong anymore, and that's not the fault of the community, it's because of me. For nearly a year at this point, I've had an opinion about the server, one that I feel is something not a lot of people talk about and one which I will not be making public, as I worry it could start controversy. Anyway I've been trying for quite a while to change it, however I've been unable to, though I'm not sure if it's because people don't see what I see, they don't take me seriously, or I'm simply one of the few people who feel it's an issue, either way I've reached a point where I don't feel happy the way things are going, and I simply can't play in the current state, because it affects me a lot when I'm on the server. It also doesn't help that I've come to have different views on certain people due to things that happened in the past, and I am just not interested in being around them, but that's just my view on things, and I don't blame them overall, despite my less than pleasant opinion of them, as it's personal and not universal. With those two things mentioned, I simply wanted to let people know that I am most likely quitting for good, and I doubt there's any way I'll return unless things are the way I want them to, but I am not gonna ask a server to change things just for my sake, that's not something I'd ever feel good about, though I am hopeful that things are going to change one day, but even if they change, there may still be other personal issues I have, that prevent me from enjoying the game.
I just want to thank each and everybody I've met and talked to, because every single person has made an impact on me in one way or another, and I would not be who I am now if it weren't for you. I will still be on the discord, and every once in a while in the discord chat or on the server to check things out, but I most likely will not be returning, and if I do there's a chance it may not be on pokeverse, but rather one of the other pixelmon+ servers, if it comes down to the views I've developed on certain individuals, whom I will not be naming nor wish to make up with them, because both of my issues are heavily connected with the other, and even if both were to be resolved, it could be at the extent of loosing one or more people that I either currently or have cared about, and I don't know if I'd ever be able to feel good about things if they had to feel the consequences, though I can't say what the future holds.
This is not a goodbye from everything, and I can still just as much be contacted on discord, and I won't be abandoning anybody that I have made a bond with, I just felt that an update was appropriate, as I've been debating on how to phrase it for a while now, and just wanted to give a proper thank you and goodbye to everybody.
Take care everybody, I hope to see you all one day
~Madsi6