since i was a kid i was fucked up alot i was molested i was raped and i hid it for 7 years without telling a single soul then my dad fell off a tree and broke acouple of ribs and he couldnt move for couple months which made his back worse than ever he went to the doctors to check to see if there was anything that he could do doctor said he had to undergo major surgery for 8 hours my dad said okay he did the surgery so he could atleast walk which he can do now but he has a shitton of metal in his back thats tying up 5 of his back colums or whatever they are called the same day of his surgery my brother fell and broke a bone right next to his knee in half so i stayed in the hospital for 10 days i slept there i ate there i did everything there and i had to go from hospital to hospital visiting my dad and living in a hospital with my brother i didnt have noone to talk to since my mom was with my dad and ever other sibling of mine is little  i had to take all this shit on my own 1 year after all of this shit i couldnt handle it i started having suicidal thoughts i get contacted on discord by an rf user that was new to me never seen him before or spoke to he sends me some random pic of a skype chat with a pair of tits in the chat so  i was like oh wow thats dank i was like who is it he said its some girl so i was like cool hook me up? he sent me her skype i go and add her
after adding her i go back to discord where i asked him of her age and he told me her age turns out she was underage so the photo he sent me counts as cp so i was like wtf dont send me anymore of this shit thats fucked up so  this girl started talking to me on skype i told her this guy is sending people pics of her naked she had a friend in the call that was faking to be a police officer to try to scare me not to share the photos with anyone else but i was laughing because his name on skype was like hoe house or something so i decided to help this girl and her friend dox this other kid and scare him so he doesnt share her nudes with anyone else so i did couple days of talking with this girl i started feeling safe and liked so i keep on talking everyday we started talking for 5 hours a day and chatting all the time day after day after day we started to talk for 9 hours a day i started to like this girl this girl started to grow on me every day my likeness started to grow more and more some of the stuff that happend to me has happend to her so i connected with her i related to what has happend with her day after day i fell in love with her we used to have these skype call's in the middle of the night at like 3 am or 4 untill 6 am my time just us talking laughing and then one night she asks me if i love her and i said yes yes i do love you thats where it started we started talking like lovers we spoke for 12 hours a day from when she got home untill she fell asleep in our call she would wake up in the morning wake me up and we would talk untill she gets to her school and as soon as she gets in her bus she would call me and we would talk untill she falls asleep again we did this for 3 months straight every single day untill 10 days ago we had a solid relationship untill i said lets play league this is where everything started she invited a couple of people from her old league acount and adds them to the skype they were good lol players and we played a couple of games with them they seemed nice we continued to play couple times a day this is when i see them get intrested in her this is where i start to worry that shes going to go to this guy instead of me she starts attracting him by doing different things and he starts to like her and she likes him i was like nice she getting more friends thats amazing
untill 1 day she was like im sorry im going to sleep i was like okay we going to skype she said no i knew something was up that night so i was like hey u talking to anyone she said no im tired i have to sleep ill call u at 4:15 so i said okay i wake up at 4:00 and waited i saw that the other guy was online so i was like oh cool so i sit there waiting looking at my phone screen waiting for her to wake up and call me i waited for 15 minute the time was 4:16 she calls me we start talking but when she called me i checked the guys skype as soon as she called me his skype went offline so i knew she was in a call with him i asked her she lied so i said u know what its okay i made her mad i deserved this untill this started getting more frequent we would all be in a call and she would ignore me and give him all her attention i was like okay she just wants to make new friends untill i knew she was snapping him she said she was friends with benefits with him i was like o okay thats cool i dont mind as long as u dont lie to me she started leaving calls at night and joining other calls with them and lying to me about it this is where we started to fight every single day we would get into a fight and im sooo badly in love with this person that i would forgive them everytime they did something to me i continued to let things slide untill we had an honest chat on snap chat where she said that she trusts this guy that she has only known for less than 10 days more than me now this is where i get mad and i got my suicidal thought's again i was about to do it in the morning i was waiting for my parents to leave so that i could run away and die somewhere where noone could find me i was stupid i fell in love with this girl i told her everything about me i told her things that ive never told one person in this universe she made me happy and i loved it i loved the affection i loved everything about her i was there for her when she was there for me she was the shoulder that i would lean on she was the person that i would tell anything to and wouldnt be judged id just be loved even more till this minute of me writing this i still love her no matter what she did no matter what she is going to do to me  i love her and i always will and this is my story that is all there is about me to say or that i could think of thanks for everyone that was there for me when i needed them thanks for everything and im sorry im sorry for causing everyone pain  im sorry for being cancer i just wanted attention  this is me Good Bye