[12:13 PM] Bunyip: Kill me dude
[12:13 PM] Bunyip: You know
[12:13 PM] Bunyip: When you're sad or whatever
[12:13 PM] Bunyip: But you don't have time to be sad
[12:14 PM] Bunyip: Because real life
[12:14 PM] shaw: yeah
[12:14 PM] shaw: so you're internally sad
[12:14 PM] shaw: and you have to pretend to be okay
[12:14 PM] shaw: but ur not and it makes u more sad
[12:14 PM] shaw: but you just have to deal with it
[12:14 PM] shaw: coz life and society
[12:14 PM] shaw: which makes u more sad
[12:14 PM] shaw: same dude
[12:14 PM] Bunyip: Okay cool
[12:14 PM] Bunyip: Just checking
[12:14 PM] Bunyip: Are you okay though
[12:14 PM] shaw: bud i've written a suicide note on my birthday last year
[12:14 PM] shaw: everything ur going thru
[12:15 PM] shaw: ive been through/still going through
[12:15 PM] shaw: like lowkey dont tell anyone
[12:15 PM] shaw: but i wanna die on the 27th of march this year lmao
[12:16 PM] Bunyip: And I'm not even really going through anything it's not even like. I've been through worse.
[12:16 PM] Bunyip: But I just
[12:16 PM] Bunyip: School is so annoying
[12:16 PM] Bunyip: Wow I sound like a whiny little bitch
[12:16 PM] Bunyip: But my life is just day after day of going through the motions lmao
[12:17 PM] shaw: you live with it so long that ur day never ends
[12:17 PM] shaw: its just one consistent waste of time
[12:17 PM] shaw: an empty void of numbness
[12:17 PM] Bunyip: And and like I never have any motivation to study and shit
[12:17 PM] shaw: i can relate to ur mean/sarcasm tho
[12:18 PM] Bunyip: So I end up failing shit or doing bad
[12:18 PM] Bunyip: And then get in more shit
[12:18 PM] Bunyip: Plus my sleep schedule is fucked
[12:18 PM] Bunyip: So I just go to school and sleep all day in the library
[12:18 PM] Bunyip: But it's not good sleep so even when I get home at 7pm I'm still tired
[12:18 PM] Bunyip: And as of today I'm officially broken up with my girlfriend
[12:18 PM] Bunyip: So that's a yay too
[12:19 PM] Bunyip: It's weird
[12:19 PM] Bunyip: We barely talked for like almost 2 months now
[12:19 PM] Bunyip: It's been bad
[12:19 PM] Bunyip: And I like
[12:19 PM] Bunyip: Kinda stopped caring
[12:19 PM] Bunyip: Not on purpose
[12:19 PM] Bunyip: But idk I'm fucked in the head
[12:19 PM] shaw: atleast you had it face to face or spoke to her
[12:19 PM] Bunyip: From my first girlfriend I guess
[12:19 PM] Bunyip: Yeah, over text
[12:20 PM] Bunyip: But now that it happened
[12:20 PM] Bunyip: Like
[12:20 PM] Bunyip: She said it
[12:20 PM] shaw: i went away for work and when i came home to nothing
[12:20 PM] shaw: not a word
[12:20 PM] Bunyip: It's like I guess it's what I wanted
[12:20 PM] Bunyip: But now that she actually said it and it's real
[12:20 PM] Bunyip: Everything I ever felt came back
[12:20 PM] Bunyip: From where I had buried it over this past while
[12:20 PM] Bunyip: So that's kinda shitty
[12:21 PM] Bunyip: But meh, not a big deal
[12:21 PM] Bunyip: It's just that a few months ago she used to be my only source of happiness
[12:21 PM] Bunyip: And we talked every day
[12:21 PM] Bunyip: For for a little while everything was good
[12:21 PM] Bunyip: Even though I only saw her irl once or twice a month
[12:21 PM] Bunyip: Cuz she's at school like 200km away
[12:22 PM] Bunyip: But now I'm back to how it's pretty much always been
[12:22 PM] Bunyip: Where I have like nothing
[12:22 PM] shaw: i know what ur feeling man
[12:22 PM] Bunyip: Just. Living.
[12:22 PM] shaw: not even living lol
[12:22 PM] shaw: just existing
[12:22 PM] Bunyip: ^
[12:22 PM] Bunyip: And please try not to die
[12:22 PM] Bunyip: You're cool
[12:22 PM] Bunyip: Who will I talk to
[12:24 PM] shaw: i dunno man
[12:24 PM] shaw: i just exist on autopilot
[12:24 PM] shaw: talking to you and mia is the most i speak lol
[12:25 PM] shaw: i just like not wasting effort in doing the pointless
[12:25 PM] Bunyip: Hey that's all I do too