You Were Not There For Me, amateur translation of "Du var inte där för mig", by Lisa Ekdahl

I fell, but did you catch me? Oh, no
You turned around and left to go home
As I was brutally shattered,
You didn't turn around
Though you had asked me to jump
Though you had whispered, "Come!"

Afterwards, I don't think that you saw
How broken I was where I lay
I could be wrong but it looked as if you smiled
And I thought: if I die it will have been for that smile

And I remember looking down from a dizzying height
I saw you down there - smiling and content
I thought you had came out to meet me on the way
But halfway through the air I saw I was mistaken
You were not there for me

I fell as if believing me to be
Invulnerable, protected by you
I didn't know back then that a "yes" can turn to "no"
But halfway through the air I saw that you had changed your mind
You turned and left without hesitation
You left without meeting my eyes
I could be wrong but it looked as if you smiled
And I thought: if I die it will have been for that smile


And I remember looking down from a dizzying height... (repeat)