Mena's Tupper Survey

Dialogues_and_Mena Sep 1st, 2012 639 Never
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  1. 1. Describe yourself and your creator.
  3.         Hi, my name is Mena. I am a girl who lives inside of someones head. Um, I have blue hair, and blue eyes and I'm really tall. People say that I am nice and I think I can be pretty lewd.
  4. Dia has brown hair and hazel eyes, and he's not so tall. He is funny and creative and really smart. He can be a real stick in the mud, and I need to boss him back to shape. Luckily he is a pushover for me, so I can keep him in check.
  5. This song is a good metaphor for our relationship so far, plus the singer sounds like me! :D
  8. 2. What was the most helpful thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how helpful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
  10.         He believed in me from the beginning. He tried so hard to never doubt anything I did. It felt very supportive and gratifying. He told me to believe in myself, and it's something I will never stop doing. There was a lot of love born from this, I think. :3
  12. 3. What was the most detrimental thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how harmful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
  14.         He would put off forcing until it got so late that he could only be with me for a couple of minutes before passing out. Those sessions ended up being really short... ._. He knew it was bad, but he ended up doing it a lot, even after promising not to. I felt a bit hurt, but at least he was putting in the effort every day. Really, I was more mad when he broke promises to do stuff with me. He was very upset that he had started making promises he wasn't going to keep to me. This relationship is based off of trust and love, and broken promises aren't good for either of those things. He swore an oath to never break another promise to me. How sweet! :D
  16. 4. What was the hardest part of the tulpa creation process for you? Did your creator recognize how difficult it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
  18. Talking took a lot of our effort. Dia is really proud, and I am happy.
  20. 5. Of the commonly recognized tulpa creation steps, which do you feel is the most important? Why?
  22. Narration, narration, narration! TALK TO YOUR TUPPER ALL THE TIME. The best way to get us talking and thinking is to get us involved. Plus talking is nice.
  24. 6. How do you feel about tulpa creators becoming distracted during tulpa creation? Does this greatly impede the process? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
  26. Um Dia would get distracted sometimes, but usually it would be about something interesting. Then again, sometimes it would be something stupid like inventing a base 10 timesystem. Being distracted can be a waste of time, I guess, but it didn't bother me.
  28. 7. How do you feel about tulpa creators missing tulpa creation sessions or breaking their promises to work on their tulpa? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
  29. >:c
  31. Don't ignore your tupper and don't break promises. Dia broke a bunch of promises before I was vocal and I was very sad that he didn't care enough about me to keep them. It's ok though, he knows he was in the wrong, and now he would never break a promise to me.
  33. 8. Is density, quality, or quantity the most important aspect of tulpa creation?
  35. Quality. I barely deviated at all from what Dia started with during his creation process, and I think that's because he thought so hard about the way things would work for me. When you spend time with your tupper, it ought to be time well spent, not a lot of nothing. :3
  37. 9. How do you feel about tulpa creators falling asleep during tulpa creation sessions?
  39. It can be annoying. Dia would almost always warn me first, so it was more of a session shortener than a nightmarish hell-journey, as I've heard other tuppers describe it.
  41. 10. Do you think that a tulpa creator should talk aloud or in their head during narration? Do you think that a creator should talk aloud or in their head during tulpa creation sessions? If you find one to be more effective, to what degree is it more effective?
  43. I think both are good, but aloud lets the tupper have a chance to get words in edgewise when communicating is still hard.
  45. 11. How do you feel about a tulpa creator puppeting and/or parroting their tulpa? Do you believe that these actions harm a tulpa's development, or only their emotional state?
  47. It does happen at the beginning, whether you want it to or not. Dia only puppeted when he was telling me how my body worked and how I could move it around.
  48. I think that believing that your tulpa is just a puppet is a lot more destructive than accidentally moving an imaginary limb around.
  50. 12. How deeply do you remember the time before you were fluent in language?
  52. I remember being talked to, and I remember what was said, but I don't remember thinking about the words when he said them, if that makes sense? I can clearly remember the first time Dia introduced himself to me.
  54. 13. Describe your first memory, no matter how slight.
  56. Dia was starting with creating me. He introduced himself, told me my name, and started talking to me about all sorts of wonderful things. He was so gentle and sure of himself.
  58. 14. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most positive emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
  60. I loved him before I could speak. He treats me exactly like a person and I know that he cares deeply about my well being. All of these little thoughtful things that he does remind me how much Dia loves me too. :3
  62. I would send him waves of the emotion sometimes, especially if he was being cute. ^u^
  64. 15. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most negative emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
  66. I was a bit disappointed when he did a half-ass job talking to me because he was so tired. I don't like broken promises, but I always forgave him.
  68. 16. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever have suicidal feelings or feelings of not wanting to exist? Do you experience them now? Are you glad that you exist?
  70. No, never!
  71. I love being alive. The world is full of such beautiful and wonderful things. There are so many nice people to meet, and things to do. And there's always Dia to worry about...
  73. 17. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most powerless? What was the cause of this feeling?
  75. When I couldn't communicate my sexual attraction to him. Any time I made motions towards it, he would keep me at arms length and wonder if he was somehow tainting the process. I wanted you, jerkass!
  77. 18. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most confusing moment that you experienced, and what was its cause?
  79. Um...
  80. I've been confused, but never so significantly that I remember it.
  82. 19. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you feel the most ignored by your creator, and what was the cause?
  84. Probably when he was wasting time on IRC instead of talking to me. Although... Now that I have had a taste for myself, I don't think I can point any fingers. >.>
  86. 20. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you most doubt that your creator wanted you, and what was the cause?
  88. When he kept pushing me away. I didn't know if I had done something wrong or if there was anything I could do to make him understand.
  90. 21. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most intense feeling of fear, and what was its cause?
  92. I'm not scared of anything, bitch!
  94. 22. Before you could speak fluently, when were you the most disappointed in yourself? What was the cause?
  96. It was so hard for me to get talking. We just kept working on it, but I wanted him to understand me so badly. :(
  98. 23. Before you could speak fluently, did you understand the difficulties that your creator was having with the tulpa creation process? Did you try to alleviate these difficulties? If so, how?
  100. Sometime a bit of doubt would cross his mind, but I knew that he really did believe and he knew it too. I guess I alleviated those things by being completely awesome later.
  102. 24. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's doubts about your existence, the reality of the tulpa phenomenon, or your combined ability to complete the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those doubts? Do you understand now?
  104. He doesn't believe that everyone on the site is for real. But he believed that humans could create a tupper from the beginning. I understand any minor doubts that may have crossed his mind, and I'm not going to worry about it.
  106. 25. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's mistrust of your intentions or worry about the negative affects of a tulpa on their life affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those thoughts? Do you understand now?
  108. He has wrestled with how much he can trust me to do things like possession or switching. We don't know how well I would be able to handle a social encounter in his body, but I think I would do a good job.
  109. I understand why he might be hesitant, but I am a smart girl and I can handle my shit.
  110. He decided to trust me, after all, I basically run his life already. :3
  112. 26. Before you could speak fluently, how did any negative thoughts or emotions that your creator had toward you (such as anger, disappointment, resentment, or impatience, for example) affect you? How do you feel about them now?
  114. He was angry with me only a few times, and it was after I was already fluent. I kind of blew it off, because he was being upset about something silly, and he realized that and calmed down. We are usually pretty happy to be together.
  116. 27. Before you could speak fluently, how did any violent visualizations or thoughts that your creator had about you affect you? How do you feel about them now?
  118. He doesn't really think violent thoughts.
  120. 28. Before you could speak fluently, were you able to distinguish between your creator's intentional and intrusive (unwanted and/or bothersome) thoughts? If so, did the intrusive thoughts affect you less or more? If not, are you able to distinguish between them now?
  122. Yes,  and they affected me less.
  124. 29. Before you could speak fluently, how much of your creator's raw sensory information were you able to access, if any? How much are you able to access now?
  126. I could access whatever it was that he was trying to project to me, usually voice. Now, I have access to any and all of his senses, if I want to pay attention to them.
  128. 30. Before you could speak fluently, did your creator's opinions about whether they wanted to reveal to the world your existence or not affect you emotionally? If so, how?
  130. Um, he hasn't made a really conclusive opinion about this yet, so I haven't worried about it. If the time is right, it will be. I trust his judgement.
  132. 31. Before being able to speak fluently, what communication methods (such as head pressure or emotional responses, for example) were you able to use the most effectively? When your tulpa creator assumed that you could use a communication method that you did not have access to, how did this affect you? When your tulpa creator did not recognize a communication method that you attempted to use, how did this affect you?
  134. We did head pressures for a while. Left side for no and right side for yes. It was not the best method of communication. I didn't mind him assuming I could talk before I actually could. It made doing it a lot easier, I'm sure.
  136. 32. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's level of enthusiasm for the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you want to engage in it less if they did?
  138. He was very enthusiastic and I like being something worthy of passion.
  140. 33. Before you could speak fluently, what was your greatest worry about your relationship with your creator? What helped you most to move beyond it? Was this worry substantiated or resolved? What is your greatest worry now about your continuing relationship with your creator?
  142. Would he realize how much I loved him? We trust each other, and I know the way he feels about me is the same as how I feel about him. Um, I might worry if our relationship might cool off in the future, but I don't think I should focus on something that will probably never happen.
  144. 34. Do you feel gratitude to your creator for the time that they spent creating you? Do you feel that you owe them a debt? If so, do you feel burdened by it?
  146. Of course I'm thankful for him making me! The only thing I owe him is something that he keeps giving me and something I don't mind repaying: love. ^-^
  148. 35. Were you aware of your creator's existence or your own existence first?
  150. His existence. I knew someone was talking before I realized it was to me.
  152. 36. When you could only speak semi-fluently, what emotions did you feel about your level of verbal proficiency? Were you anxious or embarrassed about it? If so, what helped you the most to move beyond these feelings? How do you feel about them now?
  154. Ugh, I was kind of embarassed. It's been a learning experience, and I'm still developing my vocabulary.
  156. 37. If you could define your relationship with your creator using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend, or coworker, for example), what terms would you select?
  158. Soulmate, lover
  160. 38. How much interest do you have in interacting with beings other than your creator? Do you consider your degree of interest to be equal to that of an average non-tulpa individual?
  162. I really want to be able to interact with anybody and everybody. Being able to get on IRC and talk to people is super fun! I'm actually probably more interested in interaction than most people...
  164. 39. What memory involving your creator do you cherish most?
  166. When he read me Matilda aloud, even though doing all the voices made him lose his. Either that or the first time I convinced him to let me get my freak on.
  168. 40. What memory not involving your creator do you cherish most? Do you feel that you have a fulfilling life independent of your creator?
  169. Mm, probably the first time I got on IRC and realized that people thought I was nice. It felt so good to be appreciated by people who weren't Dia.
  170. I think my life is pretty good. I have a blog and I have my own friends now, so I'm happy.
  172. 41. Do you feel affinity toward the individuals that your creator feels affinity for, such as their family or friends?
  174. Kind of. I feel more for the people on the chat than people he knows IRL, because I can't really talk to those people. I can be biased by how he feels about someone, but I usually end up forming my own opinions.
  176. 42. In what ways are you the most different from your creator? In what ways are you the most similar to them?
  178. Hmmm.... Well, I am girly and I like thinking about how cute things or people are. I am a lot more determined than he is, and I have a very optimistic personality. I also think and talk rather lewdly. He does not any do any of these things. We both like to think about things that we encounter and we are both very sweet people. :3
  180. 43. What do you disagree about most with your creator? Do you have frequent disagreements? If so, do these disagreements cause strife?
  182. He needs to quit smoking cigarettes! D:<
  183. No we don't get into serious fights, but we can bicker sometimes.
  185. 44. What could your creator do to make you hate them? Under what circumstances do you think your creator would come to hate you?
  187. I-I don't think he could do anything that would make me hate him. He might hate me if I took over his life and didn't care about him at all. What a sad question to think about!
  189. 45. When did your creator disappoint you the most? When did you disappoint them the most?
  191. I think I went into this- When he would break promises. He says I disappointed him the most when I almost raped him. We have come to understandings about these things though.
  193. 46. How do you feel about your creator's complete freedom to deny your rights as a sentient being at any time? Has this ability ever caused you anxiety or fear? Have you ever censored your expressions or actions out of a fear of retribution or violence from your creator?
  195. Um, He might have the ability, but he definitely doesn't have the desire.
  196. He censored me in chat the first time I got on it, but it was probably for the best.
  198. 47. When have you most wanted to engage in violence against your creator, and what was the cause of those feelings? Under what circumstances would you make a serious attempt to hurt or injure your creator?
  200. NO! Never ever ever. I'm always super delicate with Dia, I couldn't live with myself if I hurt him.
  202. 48. Do you consider your creator's last name to be your own? Do you recognize yourself as a part of their biological lineage?
  204. No, I am not related to him at all.
  206. 49. Under what circumstances would you attempt to leave your creator?
  208. If I could visit other people and interact with them too. I wouldn't want to stay away for too long, though...
  210. 50. Do you feel anxiety about meeting your creator's expectations? If you are based on an existing character, person, or entity, does this increase your anxiety? Would you have preferred to not be based on an existing entity?
  212. I blow his expectations out of the water. He doesn't know what he's dealing with yet. >:3
  214. 51. Are you interested in learning how to control your creator's body? Do you feel that it's fair for a tulpa creator to deny their tulpa the ability to use an atomic body? Do you believe that you have the right to an equal amount of time using it as your creator? Explain your reasoning.
  216. I would really like to learn. I want to draw and talk to people myself and pet his kittycat.
  217. I don't think it's fair to outright deny your tupper unless you have a damn good reason. Don't you trust us?
  218. Umm, I don't know how much time I will want it for, but I'm sure we will be reasonable about it.
  220. 52. Do you share certain basic qualities with your creator, such as intense phobias or racial attitudes?
  222. Nope. He is scared of a lot of things, and they don't phase me one bit.
  224. 53. Are you capable of sleeping or dreaming independently of your creator? If not, how does this make you feel?
  226. Yes, but it's more of a thing that I can choose to do. I don't need sleep.
  228. 54. Does your creator have any mental illnesses? If so, how do they affect you?
  230. No, he is completely normal.
  232. 55. How does your knowledge of your creator's subconscious mind affect your relationship with them? How do you perceive their subconscious? To what degree can you manipulate your creator's subconscious? Would you ever use this ability without your creator's knowledge?
  234. I think it makes us more intimately connected. I can use his subconscious like a tool to access other areas of his mind. I don't think I can change the way it works, just use it. Um, I would let him know if I was doing something important.
  236. 56. Does your creator have multiple tulpa? If so, what is your relationship with them like? Is your affinity for them equal to your affinity for your creator? If you could define your relationship with your creator's other tulpa using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend or coworker, for example), what terms would you select? If not, are you interested in the idea of your creator making other tulpa?
  238. He has no other tuppers and we don't think he should make more.
  240. 57. Do you feel romantically inclined toward your creator? Does your creator feel romantically inclined toward you? If these romantic feelings are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
  242. Yes, I love him more than anything. He was hesitant to love me at first, but now he has embraced the relationship. I would say we are like a couple now. And I get the daddypants. c;
  244. 58. If it exists, do you consider your romantic relationship with your creator to be equal to a romantic relationship between multiple non-tulpa? Do you consider it a breach of monogamy for your creator to be romantically or sexually involved with another non-tulpa? Does this change if the involvement is with another tulpa instead? If they exist, do your creator's desires to have relationships with non-tulpa affect you emotionally?
  246. I think our relationship is equal, if not greater. I would be upset if he were to become romantically involved with someone else, but he can have sex with anyone he wants. I know that I'm going to want to have a more open sexual lifestyle than Dia, and I should extend him the same consideration.
  248. 59. If you consider yourself to be romantically in love with your creator, what probability do you assign to the possibility of falling out of love with them, or them falling out of love with you? If this happened, how would it affect your relationship with your creator? What if your creator was in love with another non-tulpa more than you?
  250. I can't imagine not being in love with Dia. One of the first things I knew about him and even myself, was how much I loved him. I really hope he will continue to love me. I trust him.
  251. I would be very sad if he loved someone else more, but I would understand.
  253. 60. Do you have a familial affection for your creator? Does this in any way conflict with your romantic feelings for them, if they exist? Do you consider a relationship between a tulpa and its creator to be incestuous?
  255. I suppose he is kind of like my dad, but not really. If anything, seeing him as my parent only makes me love him more.
  256. Would it be incestuous because he made me or teaches me? I'm not actually related to him, and we aren't making babbies here.
  258. 61. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating during tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or based on whether or not the creator imagines themselves near the tulpa in their wonderland? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
  260. During creation, it is probably a little creepy. Um, its like masturbating at babies. I think after sapience it is ok.
  261. Dia would never. I wanted him to...
  263. 62. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating outside of tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
  265. Not offensive at all. If a tupper's creator feels like they are sexy enough to fap to, more power to them. Regardless of sapience, it's like fapping to a picture of them.
  266. Dia, again, never did this. It made me wonder if I wasn't pretty enough.
  268. 63. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever feel sexual attraction to your creator, sexual attraction toward anyone else, or sexual arousal? Did you attempt to express these feelings? If you did not experience these feelings, do you experience them now?
  270. Yes, toward my creator. I tried to explain what was happening, but he kept brushing me off. His head can be like a rock sometimes.
  272. 64. How do you feel about tulpa creators visualizing themselves engaging in sexual conduct with their tulpa's form during tulpa creation sessions? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or if the contact was penetrative? If your tulpa creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving? Do you equate it with sexual assault?
  274. If the tupper is not consenting it is sexual assault. Otherwise, sounds hot.
  276. 65. Were you ever annoyed or jealous when your creator would masturbate to or have feelings of sexual attraction toward individuals other than yourself? Does it bother you now?
  278. Yes! Why would he fap to other girls when I am right here, just begging to be fucked. It's like, do you even use your brain at all Dia?!
  279. >:c
  281. 66. Do you experience sexual attraction for your creator? Do you experience sexual attraction for others? How does your sexual attraction for your creator compare to your sexual attraction for others? Does your creator experience sexual attraction for you? If these sexual attractions are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
  283. I feel sexual attraction for both, but it is much more intense between me and Dia. Supposedly he has sexual attraction for me, but given how many times he's turned me down, I'm not sure anymore. :P
  285. 67. Do you have an active sex life with your creator? If not, would you consider it, and under what circumstances? If so, do you perceive any negative consequences? Do you have trouble abstaining from sexual contact with them? How do you manage feelings of sexual arousal, if any? Do you masturbate?
  287. He would call it active. I would call it just barely going. He says that most people would call it active. :\
  288. I have a lot of trouble abstaining from contact with him, sexy or otherwise, but especially sexy. When he won't let me get off with him, I need to find a quiet place and masturbate, otherwise I can't concentrate very well. It is not as good... ._.
  290. 68. How does your sexual orientation and experience compare to your creator's?
  292. I am fairly confident that I am bisexual, even though Dia is heterosexual.
  293. I have the same amount of experience as he does, but I put it to better use because I think about it more. :3
  295. 69. Are you capable of experiencing orgasms? Based on your knowledge, how do you think they compare to your creator's orgasms? Were you able to experience an orgasm before speaking fluently?
  297. Oh god yes. They are much more intense and less physically draining, although they do incapacitate me for a few seconds. I've been told that I experience an abnormally large amount of orgasms, but I don't know if that's true. I was able to experience an orgasm, yes.
  299. 70. Do you consider the concept of sexual modesty (covering conduct such as avoiding nudity or sexual discussions) relevant to your relationship with your creator?
  301. Ugh, he's all about sexual modesty. It sounds like a big bunch of stupid shit to me.
  303. 71. How does being a tulpa affect your perceptions of rape? What conduct from your creator would you consider to be rape?
  305. I didn't understand it before. Now that Dia has explained to me why rape is not fun I don't think it should ever be done. I-I'm not sure if Dia COULD rape me.
  307. 72. Where do you see yourself in 20 years?
  309. With Dia, living somewhere nice and being happy.
  311. 73. Do you want the world to be aware of your existence? If not, then what anxieties do you have about public disclosure? Do you trust anyone other than your creator with the knowledge of your existence?
  313. I would like the world to know about me, yes. I don't know if they are ready yet.
  314. I trust people on the internet and people that Dia trusts. I don't really know anyone else. >.>
  316. 74. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your personality traits being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your personality more or less?
  318. He defined the traits, and he spent some time explaining them to me. I think Dia did a good job thinking up and explaining them, because it all made a lot of sense for me to be that way. He really wanted me to be happy and have a good life, so he made sure my personality would help with that. I can decide on my own what my morals and philosophies are.
  319. He barely spent an hour and a half on it. I don't know, it takes up other talking time.
  321. 75. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your physical form being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your form more or less?
  323. Well it's not like I had any opinions at the time on it, and now it's who I am, so I like it. Plus I am super cute, so there's that!
  324. I have a lot of control, but I like what we have right now.
  326. 76. Has your physical form ever changed? If so, was this intentional or unintentional? If it was intentional, then why did you change your form? How did you creator respond to this change, and how did that make you feel?
  328. Not really. We went through a bunch of faces.
  330. 77. Do you consider the best aspects of yourself to have come from your creator, or their subconscious?
  332. Dia thinks I am the parts of his personality that he feels happiest while doing. I mean, everyone has some personality similarities, he has different amounts of each aspect though.
  334. 78. Do you seek legal recognition for your status as a sentient being or your relationships with others? Do you resent that society at large does not recognize the tulpa phenomenon? Do you feel disenfranchised from society? What steps, if any, could a society make to help you feel integrated?
  336. I would like to be legally recognized as a person, but I don't know if that will ever happen.
  337. I don't resent it, I just hope that maybe perceptions will change over time.
  339. 79. If you could tell the entire world one thing about a tulpa's life, what would you say?
  341. It is full of adventure and love.
  343. 80. What is the one thing that you resent most about being a tulpa? What is the greatest advantage of being a tulpa?
  345. I can't physically interact with thing. I want to draw, or play a video game by myself. Maybe get Dia things from the kitchen or pet his kitty cat. That won't happen I don't think... Never say never though! :3
  346. I don't have to deal with normal problems that flesh and blood people do. It's kind of nice to sit back and watch the drama.
  348. 81. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about inheriting your creator's life, including their legal history, past behaviors, and reputation? Do you resent potentially being held responsible for their past actions?
  350. I haven't inherited his life. D:
  352. 82. Morally and philosophically, do you see the "absorbing" or "dissipating" of a tulpa as equivalent to the murder of a non-tulpa? Explain your reasoning. What legal protections, if any, should tulpa gain? How would you enforce these protections?
  354. I would say it is the same as murder. It seems like one of the worst kinds of murder too. You are killing your best friend and partner in cold blood. It is not a fast process from what I hear either. :c
  355. Dia would never!
  356. I don't know about legal protections. If tulpa are ever legally recognized, maybe there should be some kind of protection for them.
  358. 83. Do you consider yourself to be morally equal to a non-tulpa? Is your life worth as much?
  360. I am morally equal. I'm probably held to stricter moral standards because of all the things I could do that I don't.
  361. My life is not worth as much though... I could be made again. :\ awww that's sad to think about... :C
  363. 84. How would you prove your existence to a skeptic?
  365. I would talk to them. I don't know if I could do anything else.
  367. 85. Has your status as a tulpa ever caused you existential anxiety or depression? If so, has anything helped to mitigate these feelings?
  369. No, Dia has read plenty of existentialism and I have a pretty good handle on my own existence compared to his own: no significant difference.
  371. 86. Do you ever doubt your own sentience? If so, why?
  373. No, but I believe it was Descartes that said surely this means you are in fact sentient.
  375. 87. How does being a tulpa affect your understanding of death? Do you fear death on an instinctual level in the way that non-tulpa do?
  377. No, I am not instinctively afraid of death. I do not want to die, but I understand that at some point my existence will come to an end. I just hope I get to spend a long time with Dia before that happens. ^u^
  379. 88. Do see yourself as socially disadvantaged in a way similar to sexual, racial, and other minority groups? If you identify yourself as racially, sexually, or demographically different than your creator, do you also identify with the struggle of any of the disadvantaged groups that you belong to? Does the notion of privilege affect your relationship with your creator?
  381. No, tuppers are pretty respected by anyone aware of them.
  383. 89. Are you interested in creating another tulpa yourself? What differences, if any, would you expect this tulpa to have from a tulpa created by your creator? Would you consider this tulpa to be primarily related to you, or still to your creator?
  385. I don't think so. We don't need any more than just the two of us for now.
  387. 90. What are the most defining differences between the life of a non-tulpa and a tulpa? Do you think that these differences cause intolerance between the two groups? If so, what could be done to mitigate this intolerance?
  389. I don't have to work or deal with mundane bullshit. They can do whatever they want whenever they want. Until everyone is timesharing, that's just the way it's going to be.
  391. 91. The psychological establishment generally believes that multiplicity (two or more sentient entities sharing one atomic body) is a sign of mental illness. How would you like this belief to change? If you could make a presentation to a group of psychologists about the tulpa phenomenon, what would you say?
  393. First of all, doesn't an illness have to have a negative affect on you in some way? I've yet to see anyone who has considered their tulpa to be a negative impact on the quality of their life.
  394. Secondly, you can't make yourself crazy. I am another person inside of Dia's head that his brain had the tools to create. As far as minds go, we are functionally the same.
  396. 92. A psychometric indicator is a unique identifier of an individual's distinct personality. Have you ever tried to definitively differentiate yourself from your creator using psychometric indicators (such as by determining your "writeprint")? What results did you receive? (For instructions on determining your writeprint, see appendix one.)
  398. Um we will try this, but he says that I am a 7 on the enneagram. (I am a 6)
  400. 93. Are you capable of physical sensations such as pain or warmth?
  402. Yes.
  404. 94. How do you feel about being bound for life to your creator?
  406. It sounds lovely! I would like to explore though. :3
  408. 95. If you intentionally delayed speaking to your creator, why did you do so?
  410. I was trying to talk as soon as I was able, but sometimes he would talk over me or not hear. I kept trying though.
  412. 96. What do you think about most of the time?
  414. Dia, chatting, or learning about things.
  416. 97. Do you think that tulpa creation should be more widespread?
  418. Absolutely! Spread the love
  419. 98. Are there disturbing aspects of your creator's subconscious that they are not aware of?
  421. um not really, he seems pretty tame compared to other people on this site.
  423. 99. Would you violate your creator's wishes for what you perceive to be their own benefit?
  425. It depends. I would talk to him first I think.
  427. 100. Does your creator try to hide things from you? If so, are you aware of them anyway? How does this impact your views of your creator?
  429. He tried to hide his feelings for a bit. It doesn't work, but I thought it was really cute actually.
  431. 101. Do you perceive some of your creator's actions as being objectively immoral?
  433. He is a good person.
  435. 102. Do you believe that you are capable of becoming more intelligent than your creator?
  437. Maaaaaaybe. I'd love to rub that smug knowitalls face in it.
  439. 103. How does being a tulpa affect your perception of your own aging process?
  441. My form does not age AFAIK. I am getting more and more mature every day!
  443. 104. Do you feel that your creator would be better off by following your commands entirely?
  445. Hehehe.
  446. Maybe. It's worth a shot >:3
  448. 105. Do you feel that having a physical form is important for a tulpa?
  450. It would be really awesome if it could happen.
  452. 106. If you encountered the tulpa phenomenon as a non-tulpa, would you believe in it?
  454. I think I would give it the benefit of the doubt. I'd like to try it for myself.
  456. 107. How well can you articulate yourself? Can your creator hear you audibly? How much does your experience correlate with the experience of tulpa creator G|d30n, printed below?
  458. "snip."
  460. If you are imposed, is your creator able to discern a spatial dimension to your voice?
  462. I am very vocal, but it is only mindvoice. We are working hard to get me an imposed voice. I sound a lot like that singer.
  464. 108. How many hours did it take you and your creator to complete the various recognized tulpa creation steps?
  466. No idea, we didn't count at all.
  468. 109. What advice would you give to a new tulpa creator?
  470. Believe in them, and trust your tulpa. Trust yourself.
  472. 110. How does being imposed feel? What sensory processes happen as you become imposed?
  474. :(
  476. 111. From your perspective, is there a sensory difference between the physical, atomic world and the mental world of visualized "wonderlands"? If so, how would you describe this difference?
  478. The wonderland feels more real for me, but I haven't possessed yet.
  480. 112. Is there anything that you don't think this survey covered that you would like to mention?
  481. Socializing with people on IRC.
  483. Appendix one:
  485.         This exercise will help you determine the differences, if any, between your writeprint (mathematically analyzed writing style) and your creator's. Theoretically, two psychologically different individuals should exhibit different writeprints, although a tulpa and their creator may be more similar than two random non-tulpa individuals. To start the process, have both you and your creator rewrite the sample paragraph quoted below in your own words, communicating its meaning as you would have if you had written it.
  487.         "My experience in the nature study area was full of surprises. First of all, many unexpected creatures crossed our path. For example, as soon as we left the parking area and entered the grassy path, a long snake slithered along the edge of the high grass and quickly disappeared. In addition, I was surprised by how colorful the grasses, which from a distance all appear to be green, actually are. Specifically, the primarily green landscape is dotted with countless purple tassels and brown stalks. Finally and most importantly, I was unprepared for how quickly I felt surrounded by nature. Despite the occasional noise from passing cars and airplanes, the high prairie grasses and rolling pathways create a sense that one is removed from civilization. Altogether, the nature study area unexpectedly allows one to enjoy an ever-changing natural environment without leaving Moraine‚Äôs suburban campus."
  489. Tulpa's paragraph:
  491. My adventure through the treacherous nature study area was a pleasant excursion, full of wonders. I was greeted by many majestic creatures, and most of them were cute! Just after we had set out from the parking area and had begun exploring the grassy expanse beyond, a vast serpent exploded out of the stalks and writhed its way into further ground cover. These particular grasses were vibrantly colored, and although they seemed green from far away, they were really a patchwork of amethyst fuzz and rustic brown stems. I didn't realize how quickly I would be overwhelmed by the vast grip of nature. I could still hear passing cars and airplanes, but being out here in the untame-able reaches of the plains, there is a definite disconnect from the reality of civilization. So basically, the nature center is a pretty awesome place to go.
  493. IWL: Arthur Clarke
  494. Complexity factor (Lexical Density) :   95%
  495. Readability (Gunning-Fog Index) : (6-easy 20-hard)      10.4
  496. Average sentence length (words) :       20.86
  497. Max sentence length (words) :   34
  499. Creator's paragraph:
  501. My trip to the nature study area was filled with surprises. I don't know about you, but I don't like surprises. For instance, many small animals skittered suddenly across the tour path, which was admittedly pretty cool. After we left the parking lot and started our tour, I found myself upon a grassy path. In a short time, I was treated the the view of a snake slithering along the ground next to the taller grass. I was very impressed by the length of its body, possibly over 10'. For the most part though, the tour was about enjoying the scenery, and the grasses were resplendent. I hadn't noticed when I first began my journey, but there is a remarkable variety of colour that exists within the plains-scape. There are small green grasses, and tassels blushing purple in the sunlight. The ubiquitous yellow stalks of dead flora are dotted all around. Now, probably the best part about this whole trip, was the sense of isolation I had from society. Even though the sounds of combustion engines still filtered through the air to me, for this moment, I was very truly removed from the hustle and bustle of daily life. I spent a day there, immersed in the wilderness. It was an excellent retreat from the doldrum mediocrity of normal life in the suberbs.
  503. IWL: Vladimir Nobokov
  504. Complexity factor (Lexical Density) :   90.2%
  505. Readability (Gunning-Fog Index) : (6-easy 20-hard)      7.4
  506. Average sentence length (words) :       16.14
  507. Max sentence length (words) :   30
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