Dustin:
Didn't mean to piss you off man lol, I had ak which i hate and a mini with no zoom. If I thought there would be a full squad there waiting with the hotspot buildings unlooted then I wouldnt have went there. Its w/e tho. Hope your move goes well.

Philip:
that's not really what initially pissed me off
just the gayness of the situation
coming out from looting the building i needed nothing from
only to get shot in the back instantly
but then there's the fact that you call me out specifically for doing shit exactly similar to this situation
but it's ok since you explained your reasoning
well i explain my reasoning every time
but you just dont listen to it or dont agree and do your own thing anyways

Dustin:
tbh I realize that going there had some risk to it, the past few days i havent been going so tryhard because tryhard season is coming up in 2 days

Philip:
ok i get it, you don't like an AK and mini
but those are clearly capable of at least killing people with
then you can loot your hearts content
i understand your original logic
but then you break your own logic and try to rationalize
so i've gotten tired of pointlessly arguing
so i just dont anymore
and then you get upset about me not saying anything
well it's because it's pointless for me to anyways i'll just go along with you cuz that's the path of least resistance at this point

Dustin:
well I will try to curtail that in the future, then

Philip:
but wasting time and mental focus arguiing back and forth accomplishes nothing so that's why i'll just take a step back mostly now

Dustin:
I will admit I have been unnecessarily argumentative and like i said I will make an active effort to curtail that in the future

Philip:
sall good
still love ya man
but it is quite true that it is incredibly frustrating to play with you at time

Dustin:
I am frustrated at times by things you do but I think I make a bigger deal out of them than I should, I enjoy playing with you
But yea i did start playing league again
i wont play that much probably
but my school has a uLoL team that competes with other universities nationwide
and im pretty confident I can get on it
tryouts are on the 29th so i need to relearn new items and champs first

Philip:
that'd be cool
i can't get back on the league train tho
ame just frustrates me too much

Dustin:
Oh i dont blame you lol
pubg is way more fun atm for me anyeays
anyways*

Philip:
he frustration outweighs the satisfactory moments for me

Dustin:
but i always wanted to play in a structure competetive environment

Philip:
yeah it's a completely different way of gamepaly
one i think i could have potentially had more success in cuz i particularly enjoy the tactical and coordination elements of the game
but since that was simply impossible to accomplish in solo queue and even amateur 5v5 groups it only set up for disappointment
and i well acknowledge at this point as i've gotten older i don't have nearly the same mechanical skill at games as i used to
i'll never be in the top echelon like wow and cs to an extent again
o i've accepted that and don't have to feel like i gotta win everytime to be the best, i just wanna have fun doin it

Dustin:
im usually satisfied if i can get inside the top 5%
makes me feel like a polished turn as opposed to a fresh dump
turd*

Philip:
yeah... but maybe this is just me getting older saying this but... what do you really accomplish in doing that? it's not good enough to actually get you anywhere in a real competitive/professional scene, you've invested a ridiculous amount of time, effort, energy into it, while also possibly neglected other areas of life, and when it's all said and done and you move on to the next game whatever it is, you have nothing concrete to show for it

Philip:
you haven't developed any real useful professional or personal improvement
yeah there are some great memories, many of which i cherish as some of my most enjoyable when looking back
but then i start to think, what if i invested all of that time and focus into something that actually contributed to lasting personal development inabd accomplishments
and*
so anyways yeah that's sort of the mindset i've been drifting towards lately and i've gotta say i'm in one of the best states of mind and sense of fulfillment and purpose in a long time, if not ever
i don't mean to sound critical at all or anything if it's coming off that way

Philip:
i mean i totally get it, i went thru it all myself. that's just how i've started to change and maybe that just comes with age? really though i think it's simply more due to the fact that i'm in a position where i'm actually happy with where I am personally, professionally, and ...well not quite financially but trending upward with that lol

Philip:
ultimately what it finally came down to was finding something i cared about more than being the best at gaming
i used to not see any point in playing a game unless it was to be the best at it

Dustin:
I have never thought i could be anywhere close to the best or even approaching a professional level
but being good to a point scratches a competetive itch
ive never really ignored actual priorities in life
well, not since community college at least lol

Philip:
again, mostly just basing off my own experience and things i've started to recognize now from a different perspective
i never said ignoring actual priorities, but neglecting other aspects of life that you could potentially benefit and develop more from is what I was getting at
just being in an actual professional organizational environment constantly for the past 2 months has made me recognize a lot of shortcomings I have that i was never even aware of didn't consider because it never mattered before
i'm sure you got a lot of that being in the marines tho