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  1. [11:08 AM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: is this a new server?
  2. [11:42 AM] DotaFish: Yes
  3. [12:32 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: oki
  4. [12:32 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: why amn't staff?
  5. [12:33 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: not asking for it im just asking your reasoning
  6. [12:34 PM] DotaFish: I'm looking for people who I know I've seen act as staff and I'm looking for people who don't act on emotions
  7. [12:34 PM] DotaFish: I don't want people to be kicked/banned because somebody's feelings were simply hurt
  8. [12:34 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: you think id do that?
  9. [12:35 PM] DotaFish: Yes
  10. [12:35 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: i really wouldnt.
  11. [12:36 PM] DotaFish: You are always emotional
  12. [12:36 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: i act on impulse but i wouldnt do something as dumb as that(edited)
  13. [12:36 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: lmao
  14. [12:36 PM] DotaFish: I don't want emotional people as staff
  15. [12:36 PM] DotaFish: Don't take it personally
  16. [12:36 PM] DotaFish: I just need a logical body
  17. [12:36 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: tells an "emotional person" to not take it personally(edited)
  18. [12:36 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: ok
  19. [12:37 PM] DotaFish: Besides
  20. [12:37 PM] DotaFish: You get into a lot of trouble with the staff on Angela's and you get snarky towards them
  21. [12:37 PM] DotaFish: So I don't see staff like qualities
  22. [12:37 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: examples
  23. [12:38 PM] DotaFish: It takes 3 people 10 minutes to get you to make a legitimate apology about something
  24. [12:38 PM] DotaFish: And you only apologize when you realize you're like seconds away from being kicked
  25. [12:39 PM] DotaFish: You escalate simple situations to that point as well
  26. [12:39 PM] DotaFish: Something I don't want staff to do
  27. [12:39 PM] DotaFish: I hate escalation
  28. [12:39 PM] DotaFish: It is unnecessary
  29. [12:45 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: is that why we're not as good friends as we were before i showed you that part of myself?
  30. [12:45 PM] DotaFish: I've known that part of you as long as we've been friends
  31. [12:46 PM] DotaFish: And no, that's not why
  32. [12:46 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: then what is it
  33. [12:49 PM] DotaFish: That's a topic for another time
  34. [12:49 PM] DotaFish: But
  35. [12:49 PM] DotaFish: For now
  36. [12:49 PM] DotaFish: That's why you are not staff
  37. [12:49 PM] DotaFish: Because you don't have staff qualities
  38. [12:49 PM] DotaFish: Think of it like an actual job
  39. [12:54 PM] DotaFish: hugs
  40. [12:59 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: okay
  41. [1:00 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: so now its time for you to tell me why im not as good a friend as i was before
  42. [1:00 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: please
  43. [1:01 PM] DotaFish: I will when I get home
  44. [1:03 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: heck.
  45. [1:03 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: im sorry
  46. [1:03 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: in advance.
  47. [1:04 PM] DotaFish: For wha?
  48. [1:05 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: for whatever you're going to tell me
  49. [1:05 PM] DotaFish: Ah
  50. [1:09 PM] DotaFish: Well don't be sorry
  51. [1:13 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: i cant be sorry for lowering my position in the eyes in my friends?
  52. [2:34 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: can you say the words now?
  53. [2:37 PM] DotaFish: Not now
  54. [2:37 PM] DotaFish: I have to settle down
  55. [3:00 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: o-oh
  56. [3:00 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: okay..
  57. [6:18 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: ill just go fuck myself then
  58. [6:18 PM] DotaFish: hm?
  59. [6:18 PM] DotaFish: Sorry, I completely forgot
  60. [6:18 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: ok
  61. [7:09 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: so
  62. [7:09 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: are we just gonna like
  63. [7:10 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: never talk about it again then
  64. [7:10 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: just tell me so i can drop it
  65. [7:10 PM] DotaFish: idk
  66. [7:11 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: dies
  67. [7:11 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: are we even friends
  68. [7:11 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: do you even want to be
  69. [7:11 PM] DotaFish: Yes
  70. [7:11 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: are we as close as we ever were
  71. [7:11 PM] DotaFish: no
  72. [7:11 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: is it because of me
  73. [7:12 PM] DotaFish: Why did you ask that question
  74. [7:12 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: tell me, you were wrong about the thing about being an admin im sure you're wrong in whatever reasoning youre using to not tell me
  75. [7:12 PM] DotaFish: If I say yes you're going to get extremely sad
  76. [7:12 PM] DotaFish: Are you even prepared to hear me answer that
  77. [7:13 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: refer to previous statement
  78. [7:13 PM] DotaFish: I am not wrong
  79. [7:13 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: you are thought
  80. [7:13 PM] DotaFish: You couldn't even follow rule #2 on michelle's server
  81. [7:13 PM] DotaFish: You told me I need erecting~
  82. [7:13 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: and what did i immedeately do after
  83. [7:13 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: i recognized my mistake, right
  84. [7:13 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: but
  85. [7:13 PM] DotaFish: Yeah
  86. [7:13 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: thats not the point
  87. [7:14 PM] DotaFish: But you also keep getting on me about it
  88. [7:14 PM] DotaFish: Even on the server
  89. [7:14 PM] DotaFish: You were going to report one of my friends and you asked me if that's an admin like quality
  90. [7:14 PM] DotaFish: No, it is not
  91. [7:14 PM] DotaFish: to answer your question
  92. [7:14 PM] DotaFish: Constantly bugging me about it is not an admin like quality
  93. [7:14 PM] DotaFish: Accepting that you do not have certain qualities is an admin like quality
  94. [7:15 PM] DotaFish: Telling me I am wrong with my reasoning when it is my server and I know what I'm looking for in my admins
  95. [7:15 PM] DotaFish: Is not an admin like quality
  96. [7:15 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: oh
  97. [7:15 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: well
  98. [7:15 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: i hate authority figures anyway
  99. [7:15 PM] DotaFish: I'm not going to try to sugar coat it
  100. [7:15 PM] DotaFish: I want you to know the truth
  101. [7:16 PM] DotaFish: And you have sealed your fate with your hatred of authority figures
  102. [7:16 PM] DotaFish: I do not discriminiate between friends and people who actually have the qualities I'm looking for
  103. [7:16 PM] DotaFish: I don't care if it's my friend or not
  104. [7:16 PM] DotaFish: That's why sarr isn't admin
  105. [7:16 PM] DotaFish: That's why endy isn't admin
  106. [7:16 PM] DotaFish: That's why you're not admin
  107. [7:16 PM] DotaFish: You are not alone in my friends who are not admins
  108. [7:16 PM] DotaFish: And continuing to bug me about it all day really does not make me want you as admin
  109. [7:17 PM] DotaFish: When I have stated already that no, you are not going to be admin
  110. [7:17 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: honestly thats why i have major anxiety when i ask my friends for literally anything.
  111. [7:18 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: im sorry
  112. [7:18 PM] DotaFish: Nuh
  113. [7:18 PM] DotaFish: Don't be sorry
  114. [7:18 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: no
  115. [7:18 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: i gave you shit for not making me admin
  116. [7:18 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: in a discord server that wont matter when we meet
  117. [7:18 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: none of this shit will
  118. [7:18 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: online anyway
  119. [7:18 PM] DotaFish: Yeah
  120. [7:18 PM] DotaFish: You can still talk to me and others
  121. [7:18 PM] DotaFish: But
  122. [7:19 PM] DotaFish: I take the staff position very seriously
  123. [7:19 PM] DotaFish: brb
  124. [7:19 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: and i understand why you dont trust me enough.
  125. [7:28 PM] DotaFish: Why's that?
  126. [7:29 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: because you trust me enough to get close to me, but you dont trust my interactions with other people
  127. [7:29 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: even though im p close with everyone else
  128. [7:29 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: but i could see how you think we're not
  129. [7:30 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: just know michelle talked me through my blowing things up issue
  130. [7:30 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: i feel like its gonna get better
  131. [7:31 PM] DotaFish: Alright
  132. [7:32 PM] DotaFish: I'll watch ya then
  133. [7:33 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: do you feel like thats why nwhis wont budge either?
  134. [7:34 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: actually
  135. [7:34 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: can you tell me why you think we arent as close now?
  136. [7:53 PM] DotaFish: what do ya mean by nwhis not budging?
  137. [7:53 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: about admininnig his server
  138. [7:53 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: but the other question pls
  139. [7:54 PM] DotaFish: Nwhis takes it seriously on a similar level as me
  140. [7:54 PM] DotaFish: Anyway
  141. [7:54 PM] DotaFish: I suppose
  142. [7:54 PM] DotaFish: I will answer your question now
  143. [7:54 PM] DotaFish: But I dunno if you're going to like it
  144. [7:54 PM] DotaFish: I'm not going to sugar coat anything, alright?
  145. [7:54 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: ok
  146. [7:54 PM] DotaFish: alright
  147. [7:54 PM] DotaFish: Well
  148. [7:55 PM] DotaFish: It goes back a few months ago
  149. [7:55 PM] DotaFish: You have always come to me with problems and it's usually because somebody doesn't want to fuck you or be in a relationship with you
  150. [7:55 PM] DotaFish: And you claim to have nobody but you have everybody
  151. [7:56 PM] DotaFish: And when michelle said she wasn't attracted to you, it was quite bad
  152. [7:56 PM] DotaFish: I thought you had a huge problem
  153. [7:56 PM] DotaFish: But it was something as simple as michelle saying she did not want to be in a relationship with you
  154. [7:56 PM] DotaFish: Which seems to typically be your problem
  155. [7:56 PM] DotaFish: And nobody is ever enough
  156. [7:56 PM] DotaFish: Such as me
  157. [7:56 PM] DotaFish: Which is why you wanted to be poly
  158. [7:56 PM] DotaFish: Because you crave more
  159. [7:57 PM] DotaFish: I gave you my undivided attention and I was still not enough for you
  160. [7:57 PM] DotaFish: I didn't really have a choice whether to give you my undivided attention or not though because you never really let me talk to anybody else either
  161. [7:57 PM] DotaFish: You always thought I was fucking them
  162. [7:57 PM] DotaFish: Like michelle
  163. [7:57 PM] DotaFish: I've literally never fucked michelle and I don't plan to either
  164. [7:58 PM] DotaFish: But I let you cycle through like 3 doms
  165. [7:58 PM] DotaFish: And I let you fuck everybody
  166. [7:58 PM] DotaFish: You could not show me fairness though
  167. [7:58 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: could you not have brought this up..?
  168. [7:58 PM] DotaFish: I didn't want to hurt your feelings
  169. [7:58 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: wh
  170. [7:58 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: bangs head on a table
  171. [7:59 PM] DotaFish: Because you always have problems with somebody and I didn't want you to feel unloved
  172. [7:59 PM] DotaFish: But now it seems normal
  173. [7:59 PM] DotaFish: I feel like you've somewhat exploited my emotions because I feel you have merely clinged to me for emotional support
  174. [7:59 PM] DotaFish: For something that isn't even true nonetheless, like you not having anybody
  175. [8:00 PM] DotaFish: I have shown you my unconditional love
  176. [8:00 PM] DotaFish: But you just feel like I don't love you if I don't give you 100% of my attention
  177. [8:00 PM] DotaFish: Same for everybody else it seems
  178. [8:00 PM] DotaFish: I have other friends too
  179. [8:00 PM] DotaFish: I also have a life
  180. [8:01 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: im so sorry
  181. [8:01 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: i never meant for you to feel like that
  182. [8:01 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: im crying now, looking back at it
  183. [8:01 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: i fucking exploited you
  184. [8:01 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: what kind of a peice of shit am i
  185. [8:02 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: i deserve the deepest level of hell
  186. [8:02 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: im sorry
  187. [8:02 PM] DotaFish: No you don't
  188. [8:02 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: i love you
  189. [8:02 PM] DotaFish: You are not a piece of s hit
  190. [8:02 PM] DotaFish: But I accept your apology
  191. [8:02 PM] DotaFish: You will learn though that
  192. [8:02 PM] DotaFish: I'm not actually cute and cuddly as it may seem
  193. [8:03 PM] DotaFish: I am michelle but worse
  194. [8:03 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: what do you mean
  195. [8:03 PM] DotaFish: I'm not going to sugar coat anything anymore
  196. [8:03 PM] DotaFish: I'm going to be entirely truthful
  197. [8:03 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: please do
  198. [8:03 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: i want you to tell me when you have a problem
  199. [8:03 PM] DotaFish: But the difference between my truthfulness and michelle's truthfulness is that..
  200. [8:04 PM] DotaFish: I barely have any regards for how people feel
  201. [8:04 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: I didn't want to hurt your feelings
  202. [8:04 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: question mark?
  203. [8:04 PM] DotaFish: Because I wasn't being truthful with you
  204. [8:05 PM] DotaFish: But I feel like I'm done with the cute and cuddly phase
  205. [8:05 PM] DotaFish: I just want to be me now
  206. [8:05 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: i completely understand
  207. [8:05 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: im gonna miss the snuggly doat
  208. [8:05 PM] DotaFish: Eh
  209. [8:05 PM] DotaFish: It's not over
  210. [8:05 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: but if this is who he wants to be
  211. [8:06 PM] DotaFish: Like
  212. [8:06 PM] DotaFish: I'm still a fluffy horse
  213. [8:06 PM] DotaFish: But I just want to be able to speak my mind
  214. [8:06 PM] DotaFish: Angela's server has transformed me into an rp machine, and not somebody who speaks
  215. [8:06 PM] DotaFish: Because I can't talk there
  216. [8:06 PM] DotaFish: So I'll still be all cuddly and stuff
  217. [8:06 PM] DotaFish: But I'm also going to speak
  218. [8:06 PM] DotaFish: If you get what I mean
  219. [8:07 PM] DotaFish: And I don't think you'll like it very much
  220. [8:07 PM] DotaFish: So I'm sorry in advance
  221. [8:07 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: no, you're usually wrong in you assumptions about me, so we'll see
  222. [8:08 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: now
  223. [8:08 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: i wanna try this out
  224. [8:08 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: in your most truthful opinion
  225. [8:08 PM] DotaFish: Maybe you just don't realize some things about yourself
  226. [8:08 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: mayhaps
  227. [8:08 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: but
  228. [8:08 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: do you think we could ever get back back together, now that i know what was bothering you?
  229. [8:08 PM] DotaFish: no
  230. [8:09 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: guess whos not crying?
  231. [8:09 PM] DotaFish: not you
  232. [8:10 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: there you go what those assumptions
  233. [8:10 PM] DotaFish: Well are you crying?
  234. [8:10 PM] DotaFish: Typically you make jokes like that when something is wrong
  235. [8:10 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: woag diana is online now
  236. [8:11 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: heck
  237. [8:11 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: adhd is fun
  238. [8:11 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: but uh
  239. [8:11 PM] ~[☆ ⌜ Nilla ⌟ ☆]~: im sorry i fucked with you.
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