My 'real name' is Cieran Desouza.

Pre-targeting:

I was born with health problems that more or less defined my childhood from 0-8. My parents argued a lot, my home

was acceptable though barely, my time at school wasn't great; I left at 16 with no qualifications. I worked from

16-19 doing bits and pieces of computer work cash-in-hand (I was 19 in 2009).

Most of the trouble started around 2009-2010 I think, when I was involved with left-wing politics after being

introduced to political documents and such online. I was involved with a fairly innocuous left wing group that

just did local politics, but, online at least, I was always suspected of something more sinister by the left-

wingers..I think. It's possible the authorities suspected me at this point as well, as I was quite a naive late-

teen and got into a lot of arguments, threatened others and got threatened etc. I was working cash-in-hand as a

computer tech loading software on people's computers; some legal some not so. I was also claiming welfare

throughout this period.


Anyway, I left the groups of far-left anarchists and joined a bunch of stalinists; they were a rather intriguing

bunch. I managed to fall in with particularly unpleasant character who named himself after one of the Stalinist

satellite state's intelligence services (God knows who he was involved with, idk who any of them were involved

with). I think the first stage of the targeting started when I echoed the thoughts of some of the Stalinists on

the site, and said that it was "good", that a certain anarchist had died at the hands of the police (killed). In

retrospect, this was a very nasty thing to say and it's certainly not something I *really* believed. Anyway, they

banned me and I noticed small things started happening after this. All of that happened in Jun/Jul 2010.


I think the next stage started after I got banned from another political forum in early 2011 for starting

arguments with one of the administrators about their right-wing political views, I was being a pain and started

filing lots of spam complaint
s via the system. As I said, I was an irritating kid.

After that, I left all that online political stuff alone for a year or two.

My life wasn't good in 2011-12, but it started to get really bad in late 2012; life was tough and random people

were becoming increasingly aggressive for no apparent reason, they also seemed to know random things about me,

but it wasn't so bad.

In Feb 2013, I became homeless for a brief period of time (maybe 5-6 months in total, only about 1 month actually

out on the streets). After that, I went back to live with my Mum/Brother (Jun 2013) and was no longer doing cash

in hand work; I was completely unemployed and inactive and have been ever since (other than occasional

volunteering at the church from Feb 2016 onwards). I wasn't even claiming welfare for a long time, so wasn't even

contributing to my Mum's household. I  only started claiming welfare (due to being unwell, from the mysterious

health issues) from Oct 2013 and claimed it on-and-off from Oct 2013 until the present day. I got very bitter

about the entire experience of being homeless and most of all my Dad being homeless etc. I started getting

involved in nasty stuff online again, similar to 2008-2011 but I was sort of egged on by a bunch of rather nasty

trolls to become one of them, I ended up getting involved with a crowd of very evil, very nasty people

masquerading as trolls, who I always suspected of being organised criminals due to the stuff they talked about

doing, they go on chatrooms and other media, talk to each other in real life etc... The main guys in the crowd's

pseudonyms were 'roy' and 'matt'. There was also another group of supposed 'chatters' who masqueraded as trolls,

who in a seperate chatroom; their names were 'kun', 'whizz' and a few others; I managed to piss them off too, by

making a 'whizz' jealous by half-chatting up his fiance and heavily insulting both of them and a few others; I

thought they were no good. That was around Oct-Nov 2013. My computer 'mysteriously' died as did the second one I

bought after all of this. I didn't realize how evil the first group of guys truly were until about Mid-2014; they

had shared some literature about a 14 year old girl being raped by her brother. Then they started verbally

abusing a chatter who said he was an 8 year old boy. I admit that, for a while I was a part of this abuse and

that's a great source of disgrace for me, but I was still bitter at the time... Anway, I woke up and thought

"Imho this was evil, sick stuff"... so I called them out on it and turned on them, I pissed a lot of them off;

but I had passively let the abuse go on for too long, so I was complicit in letting them get away with it. That's

a bad thing but I see my mistakes now.

In Mid-2014, I was still bitterly trolling chatrooms despite having turned on those other posters, but I think I

was already targeted by then, it wasn't so bad though. In July 2014, I started posting jokes that could be

construed as 'anti-homosexual' - they weren't intended to be too malicious, they were tongue in cheek - in a gay

chatroom.....  anyway, I posted a fake advert saying "any gay lads up for meeting a wheelchair-bound jihadi

suicide  bomber in bradford? pm me" maybe with slightly different wording, I don't remember. It was honestly just

a joke, it may be construed as being malicious and anti-disabled etc but it was just an absurd joke - someone

even contacted me to say they found it funny, and he was gay, it was still bitter and nasty and not an

appropriate thing to say and I accept that now. I got another message from someone else saying "your not funny,

stop what your doing", but being a bitter troll I just fronted it out and kept telling him to get lost, he

threatened me with prison and the security services etc but I thought he was just joking at first, until he said

something really nasty that involved personal info (I have an insecurity about my Dad ruling over my life....),

he said something like "you fuck your dad". After that, I just said the truth...that my life is terrible, that I

go and troll these chatrooms because I'm bitter about everything, hate everything etc. He sort of offered me the

chance to stop and I said I'm going to post it again, being a angry, bitter, stubborn, obnoxious, irritating etc,

and I did. After that, he said "now you're going to have it, I know a guy in the security services (mi5 etc) and

they're going to do stuff to you". I suspect the guy behind this was a friend of the guy who's fiance I talked

to.. his name was 'kun'. He had the exact same posting style as 'kun'.

After that, the online and offline harassment became very extreme, I had all kinds of people suddenly turning on

me and it's lasted to this day. What can I say, I was very irritating, obnoxious, arrogant and bitter... and

didn't know when to just stop for my own good, and there's not much else to say. But people have done far worse

things and have suffered no consequence. The organised criminals masquerading as trolls, and the other group of

people who participate in harassing other innocent people, bullying and intimidation are far far nastier than I

have ever been to anyone. And they started attacking me simply because I spoke out against them, I do regret

posting the joke though - that was wrong, but it doesn't beget the extreme form of harassment I've been receiving

for so many years.

The extreme harassment has lasted from 2014 until today and it's the worst it's ever been today. They have

targeted all my phones, all the computers I've had, they've sent countless actors/stalkers after me, they've told

my family things about me/coerced them into attacking me, they've coerced everyone else I know, friends, church

etc. It's easy to be dragged into being a troll on the internet when you're bitter, but there's really no

defence; it was extremely pathetic and crap of me to carry out that utter, indefensible idiocy.

I stupidly tried joining a political forum and just posting about that, but was quickly driven off by the extreme

trolling (people were registering as different names just to troll me etc). So from Oct 2014-Aug 2015, I remained

in the same flat/apartment. I mostly isolated myself and refrained from too much posting online, just read books

and stuff and exercised etc, tried to improve my health and tried to improve my mentality; get over my bitterness

etc. I did say to the guys "ok what I did was wrong, you were probably right to warn me",  but they completely

ignored me and continued regardless.

In Aug 2015, I moved out into my own apt/flat; they had already pre-warned my new flatmates about me. So my

flatmates were acting funny towards me straightaway, but it was mostly ok, they were mostly quite nice actually,

except for one of my flatmate's friends.

I was still being stalked, harassed etc online but I re-started posting about politics on the old forum (whilst

trying to refrain from being abusive, despite being consistently hounded and trolled..), needless to say this

didn't last long; after the abuse started I relapsed into abusing people back and was removed from the forum

around Jan/Feb 2016 (rightly so). Then I was attacked for my political beliefs continuously. I had also,

stupidly, joined a seperate political forum around Oct 2015; left the forum quickly thereafter though. In Dec

2015, I had a temporary flatmate; a girl, she left after 2 weeks and a new flatmate moved in, a decent bloke who

I got one with really well.

In Feb 2016, I had also joined the orthodox church; everything was fine and life was really good; it felt like

the harassment was almost non-existent from about March 2016 - Jun/Jul 2016; then my flatmate moved out and a new

guy moved in.....  I noticed life turned sour again. The extreme harassment began in Jul 2016 a month after the

new flatmate moved in; I was, stupidly, posting about politics online from March - Jun 2016 without issue; and I

remained on there until about Oct 2016 without much of an issue; but again the trolls started to become abusive

from Jul.. and I, rather stupidly retaliated. l ended up leaving because the trolls were being passed so much

personal information about me and were attacking me with every fibre of their being; they were registering

multiple accounts on the site just to try and attack me etc....

My flatmate started constantly trying to harass me throughout this period as well, but we were sort of friendly

at the same time; I'd attack back and he'd back down, so we kind of kept things level. The harassment outside, at

the church, online, at other places etc was still fairly bad, but it was getting worse; things came to a head

around April 2017 when people started being openly abusive and I had to delete a lot of facebook friends and stop

talking to quite a few people I knew in real life as well.

My flatmate's child kept wanting attention from me; he had ADHD and possibly other undiagnosed mental issues, not

sure (we suspected he may be sociopathic because he had no contrition when it came to physically abusing animals

and making fun of my flatmate's girlfriend having a miscarriage...), but he did fairly insane things and was very

rude and abusive towards me, his Dad was very abusive towards him but he let me discipline his child as well

(sort of), he'd let me be extremely abusive towards him verbally; occasionally I'd shove him with cushions, but

there were quite a few times when I went too far; similar to his Dad. IThere were times when I gave him a minor

electric shock on his finger with a bugbat, flicked him, shoved his head (I didn't shove him that hard..) etc. I

justified this because I thought he was sociopathic and his Dad was doing worse things to him... but there is no

justification. This was pretty bad and I didn't feel good about doing it, really. I just didn't know how else to

stop him from doing completely insane things, things that I have never witnessed another child do in my life -

and he wasn't even my child. My flatmate went way too far and poured multiple buckets of freezing cold water over

his child; I tried to tell him that he was going way too far...this resulted in his child being taken away from

him by the child's mother..

I also avoided church from april/may - aug; when I started going again I noticed the harassment increased 200%;

they must have been passed a lot of exaggerated/faked information about me because they started being pretty

nasty for no apparent reason, and they knew things about me that they shouldn't have known. This has continued

and is at its worst at the moment; in Sept/Oct they made a real effort at poisoning my Mum/Bro against me (but I

believe my brother has been in on all of this since 2014...) and it seems it started to have an effect; because

they started saying things to me that they shouldn't know, they also started getting very nasty for no apparent

reason.

Last sunday (29th Oct), a guy came to the church saying he was homeless; he started telling me all kinds of

things he knew about me, that I had said in confession; things that I had told very few people, he refused any

kind of aid I or the church offered him. Someone took a flash-photo (it was a massive flash) from the balcony

whilst me and the apparently homeless guy were standing outside in the street. I also think someone tried to run

me over a few weeks ago when I was walking down a dark country lane.. I have been sent death threats, have been

repeatedly trolled, had all kinds of electrical devices damaged/disabled, have had people shout threats in the

street, have had people attempt to come up to me and physically intimidate me, have had things changed on the

computer, so that I'm listening to edited material; I've had websites edited to look different on my screen,

they've even modified bible passages so that they say different things! This is an extreme type of

harassment/stalking/killing.

I admit that there are times when I've lashed out, after being heavily insulted and attacked, both against

innocents and against perps. I've also, in anger, verbally abused a homosexual orthodox man; but I apologised for

and retracted that - and he accepted my apology; I was just angry and lashing out against anything, once again in

bitterness. In most cases, I wasn't entirely sure what was going on at the time, but now I'm dead-certain of

what's happening and I can see clearly why, how this is happening and I'm fairly certain of who is carrying this

out.


Seraphim