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- ๐ฉ๐๐๐จ ๐ฅ๐ก๐๐ฎ๐ก๐๐จ๐ฉ ๐๐จ ๐ ๐๐ค๐ฃ๐ฉ๐๐ฃ๐ช๐๐ฉ๐๐ค๐ฃ ๐ค๐ ๐ฅ๐๐ง๐ฉ ๐. ๐ก๐๐จ๐ฉ๐๐ฃ ๐๐๐ง๐ ๐๐๐ง๐จ๐ฉ:
- https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLQvqRSMw0IrP8k83AEarikczUlWwGzwrS&disable_polymer=true
- ๐ฟ๐ฒ๐ฎ๐ฑ ๐ฏ๐ฒ๐ณ๐ผ๐ฟ๐ฒ ๐น๐ถ๐๐๐ฒ๐ป๐ถ๐ป๐ด! ๐ฐ๐น๐ถ๐ฐ๐ธ ๐๐ผ ๐ฒ๐ ๐ฝ๐ฎ๐ป๐ฑ.
- ๐๐ต๐ฒ๐๐ฒ ๐ฟ ๐ฎ๐น๐น ๐ถ๐ป ๐ผ๐ฟ๐ฑ๐ฒ๐ฟ ๐๐ถ๐บ๐ฒ ๐ฝ๐ฒ๐ฟ๐ถ๐ผ๐ฑ ๐๐ถ๐๐ฒ. ๐ฑ๐ผ๐ป๐ ๐๐ต๐๐ณ๐ณ๐น๐ฒ.
- more songs will be added. these ones aren't necessarily in order. didn't want to mess up the order of part I by adding these songs to that playlist
- ๐ฌ๐จ๐ง๐ ๐๐จ๐ฆ๐ฆ๐๐ง๐ญ๐๐ซ๐ฒ ๐๐ง๐ ๐๐ฑ๐ฉ๐ฅ๐๐ง๐๐ญ๐ข๐จ๐ง๐ฌ
- ๐ญ. ๐ฏ๐น๐ฎ๐ป๐ธ๐ฒ๐ - ๐ผ๐ต ๐ฏ๐ฒ ๐ฐ๐น๐ฒ๐๐ฒ๐ฟ
- a bit of a general prelude. felt like i am hopeless, just hiding from my fears, mistakes, thoughts, people, trauma, abuse etc. feeling like a slave to my mental illnesses, feeling the need to guard myself from what i just mentioned to save myself, put up walls, isolated, but at the same time i needed a friend to care. pulling the same shit over again, which then continues into song #2
- ๐ฎ. ๐๐ฎ๐น๐ธ - ๐ณ๐ผ๐ผ ๐ณ๐ถ๐ด๐ต๐๐ฒ๐ฟ๐
- i kept starting over and over. trying again and again and failing. applies throughout these past years (and my life). applies for before, during, and after 4m. mostly related to substance use, self harm, and other stuff but also emotion, mental, and thought wise.
- ๐ฏ. ๐๐ฎ๐ธ๐ฒ ๐ถ๐ ๐ผ๐๐ ๐ผ๐ป ๐บ๐ฒ - ๐๐ต๐ผ๐๐๐ฎ๐ป๐ฑ ๐ณ๐ผ๐ผ๐ ๐ฐ๐ฟ๐๐๐ฐ๐ต
- before, during and after 4m. i thought you hated me and i deserved to be abused and i just wanted you to stay even if you abused me.
- ๐ฐ. ๐ฒ๐๐ฒ๐ฟ๐ ๐ฑ๐ฎ๐ ๐ถ๐ ๐ฒ๐ ๐ฎ๐ฐ๐๐น๐ ๐๐ต๐ฒ ๐๐ฎ๐บ๐ฒ - ๐ป๐ถ๐ป๐ฒ ๐ถ๐ป๐ฐ๐ต ๐ป๐ฎ๐ถ๐น๐
- i was always waiting on a reply from you or for you to come online, crying, feeling empty, wanting to die, every day felt the same. this goes for before, during, and after 4m. the stagnancy of my life and same shit every day was extremely painful especially while missing you or just wanting you to be my friend.
- ๐ฑ. ๐ฟ๐ถ๐๐ฒ๐ฟ - ๐ผ๐ต ๐ฏ๐ฒ ๐ฐ๐น๐ฒ๐๐ฒ๐ฟ
- general feeling of love me even though i am broken, i feel rejected, if i die will it make it better?", i would die by you, and a feeling of even though i've been neglected and hurt by you and hurt you as well, that i could still die happy from you being in my life, hurting me or not. goes with the "i want to be abused" feeling.
- "๐๐๐ฃ'๐ฉ ๐๐๐ก๐ฅ ๐'๐ข ๐๐๐๐ก๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ก๐๐ ๐ ๐ ๐ง๐๐๐๐๐ฉ rejected by you and the world
- ๐จ๐ค๐ข๐๐ฉ๐๐ข๐๐จ ๐ ๐๐๐๐ก ๐จ๐ค ๐๐๐ข๐ฃ ๐๐๐ง๐๐ก๐๐๐ฉ abandoned, neglected, hurt, lonely
- ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐๐๐ฉ๐๐ ๐ข๐ ๐๐ฃ ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐จ๐๐ก๐ฉ๐๐๐จ๐ฉ ๐ค๐ ๐ฉ๐๐๐ง๐จ made me cry a lot
- ๐ฌ๐๐๐ฃ ๐'๐ข ๐จ๐๐ ๐ฉ๐๐๐ฎ ๐จ๐๐ค๐ฌ ๐ข๐ ๐๐ค๐ฌ ๐ฉ๐ค ๐๐๐๐ ๐ข๐ฎ ๐๐๐๐ง๐จ" feared death as to stay alive to see if you'd come back, but in my sadness it felt like death was the only way out
- derelict - in a very poor condition as a result of disuse and neglect, a person without a home, job, or property.
- ๐ฒ. ๐ฒ๐ ๐๐ฟ๐ฎ๐ผ๐ฟ๐ฑ๐ถ๐ป๐ฎ๐ฟ๐ ๐ด๐ถ๐ฟ๐น
- about me. in past when i was younger, also in recent years. crying and feeling suicidal and alone. male and female pronouns are used and i like to think of that as me throughout my life
- ๐ณ. ๐น๐ผ๐๐ฒ ๐๐ผ๐ ๐ป๐ผ๐ - ๐ผ๐ต ๐ฏ๐ฒ ๐ฐ๐น๐ฒ๐๐ฒ๐ฟ
- after, before, and during 4m, after overdose. general song for how i felt about you. before rl: i didn't understand why you were upset, hurt, mad, etc. i didn't know what you were feeling. i wanted you to tell me and let me help you and i wanted to protect you. i didn't know, everything about you seemed so distant and confusing. i wanted you to let me in and let me keep you safe and hear you talk about yourself. this is still how i feel but i am much less uncertain about how you feel now and now i know why you were upset, it was because you loved me
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