~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~ 03/05/11 A.F. - Friday - Year of the PiG - August 3, 2014 Lately it feels like I've been running into a boy named Okumo Naoya more often, which I guess is a little weird. Like in the Hot Springs? I don't really mind so much, since he's kinda fun to tease. It's fun to see him overreact when I called him naked and he's just in his boxers. Though, he surprised me too. I barely know him, but he was willing to comfort and reassure me about the aging seal and the fact that my former teammates are now adults. Maybe it Naoya just felt //compelled// to comfort me or something... I still find it strange. And I wish I hadn't just spilled everything either... Kaguya are supposed to be strong, but I keep getting stuck in the same rut... Oh. And also for some reason he declared me his "rival". Do rivals normally hold hands? ~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~ 03/11/11 A.F. - Thursday - Year of the PiG - August 6, 2014 Weak people always complain about being weak. The shinobi that act poor and defenseless are the most suspicious. Acting like prey will only get you treated like prey, and you'll quickly get gobbled up. And if I understand that, why don't others? Eugh... that girl just frustrates me so much... I can't stand being around her because she acts all meek. First acting one way, then another? I don't know her. How do I know whether or not it's just an act? And that just frustrates me further. I left right after that. ... What's weird though is after Naoya went and looked for me. At my house. With yakitori. And it was obvious that he's deathly scared of my mom, so... even more weird... Eugh. Why did he have to talk like that in front of me? Why did I have to kiss him? I didn't care, but he seemed to care. It was his fault though! Why did he have to stir me up with all this talk about fighting and testing ourselves out in the Marshes? Maybe he isn't as smart as he looks... I'll probably never live down the embarrassment. But no one will ever know. ~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~ 03/19/11 A.F. - Friday - Year of the PiG - August 11, 2014 Clan business is clan business. If something happens inside of a clan, they're expected to take care of it themselves. It isn't the village's issue. But how is it I can't keep my big nose out of it... Whatever was going on between Sei-san and Naoya-kun was their business, but you didn't have to be an Okumo to know it was trouble. Right now Naoya can't even keep his own brood in check, but Sei acts like he's as big a threat as Meruin-sensei. Which makes zero sense at all. I should have left them alone to deal with it themselves. But I stepped in and defused it before the whole thing just blew up. Does that mean I don't have any confidence in Sei or Naoya? I don't know... The thing's Sei said... It really hurts in my chest. I hate it. ~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~ 03/27/11 A.F. - Saturday - Year of the PiG - August 15,2014 I saw Hayase-chan, Kazumi-kun, and Naoya-kun in the Marketplace today. Spring is finally hear and today was the first chance to wear my new yellow sundress. I felt really pretty in it, but I don't think Naoya really noticed. Oh well. It was fun though. Sticky dango and having some fun with friends... I haven't gotten to do that in a long time. I really hope I can do this more in the future... Having friends like this, moments like this, isn't it what we're fighting for? ~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~ 03/30/11 A.F. - Tuesday - Year of the PiG - August 17, 2014 Today started out to be a fun day. And... well... The cookies went off well enough for an encouragement, for Hayase-chan at least. And I'm fine with that. That's the point of it, isn't it? Cookies are a reward for learning how to walk on walls. And competing with Naoya pushed her further I think. She left right after she got the cookies, and I was proud of her. But after Naoya-kun... he pushed me into a spar with him. And the way that he had... He was goading me... Why is it that my strength is constantly underestimated... No one really believes that this small girl could possibly be as strong as she says. They think I lie. What's worse, Naoya-kun was almost killed because of me... Carrying him to the hospital... is probably one of the worse experiences ever... I just feel so guilty. ~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~ 04/01/11 A.F. - Thursday - Year of the PiG - August 18, 2014 It's been a couple of days since I carried Naoya-kun to the hospital. He has his own room, but he hasn't even woken up... I'm so worried. I brought several bentos for him to eat, but because he's been asleep this whole time, they've just been going to waste. I also stay with him for several hours, hoping that he'll wake up. But... I really hope that he wakes up soon... Eugh. I hate the waiting... ~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~ 04/04/11 A.F. - Sunday - Year of the PiG - August 19, 2014 Last Sunday I was in the Blood Marsh, even though I wasn't supposed to be. I just... wanted to kill things. I didn't care what. But I was careful to stay close to the entrance of the marshes just in case. Still... I guess it shouldn't be a surprise that Sei found me. He wanted to talk, to apologize. He also tried to convince me to remove the faulty aging seal on the back of my head. It wasn't really fair though... he held my back against his chest and wrapped me in his arms. It was so unfair, to use that against me. He knows that I can't do anything against that... I don't know if he wants me to remove it for me, or for him... but I don't like that he can use my insecurity against me... Or that he knowingly does it. I had hoped that Sei-kun would never do that, but... this Sei-kun... I don't know him any more. ~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~ 04/28/11 A.F. - Wednesday - Year of the PiG - August 31, 2014 It's been a couple of weeks since I almost killed Naoya-kun. And... I guess I've been avoiding him a little... It's just so frustrating, and I feel so guilty. I wouldn't thought that eventually it would get better, but... Well whatever. I met him by a river in the Oasis, and soon we talked about it. Openly. Turns out Naoya-kun was just about as frustrated about it as I was, just for different reasons. And I can understand where he's coming from. In the end though, he held my hand... I'm not even sure what that means, but it felt odd. I kinda liked it. His hand was bigger than mind and it was a little comforting. Like when I hold Tsiro-niisan's hand. Maybe it's a little different though. Anyways. I'm just happy that we're talking again. ~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~ 04/30/11 A.F. - Friday - Year of the PiG - September 1, 2014 The mission was rather straightforward. Get supplies to Sunagakure, eliminate any problems or obstacles along the way, and keep an eye out for any possible Silence appearance that might pop up. Though I kinda doubted that would really happen. Normal escort missions are usually boring anyways, and eight out of ten times nothing happens. I guess this trip was one of those few instances though... With as many people as there was assigned to this mission, I really wondered if the Silence was stupid enough to attack the caravan. That would be a yes. They attacked at nightfall. With arrows. And a giant snake. Suna. It figures. After I killed the masked shinobi that dared to kill me, I went after the snake. The thrown blade missed it, and the giant snake fled across the desert oasis, but the group leader made the mistake of picking up my bone sword. While I tried to run after them when they fled like cowards, the sword didn't dig into the shinobi's arm quite like I had hoped. But good news! There was still enough fragments that I knew without a doubt that I could track them. Maybe possibly find their hide out! How neat would that be?! ~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~ 05/03/11 A.F. - Monday - Year of the PiG - September 3, 2014 Today was... tiring. The flower field is so piece and quiet, sometimes it's my home away from home. One of the secret places at least. But it isn't really all that surprising that Sei-kun found me. It's in the middle of the Oasis after all. I'm pretty sure that it's near where the Okumo clan secretly 'nest', or whatever it's called. Anyways. i think he was disappointed that the Mizukage sided with me, that not removing the aging seal was for the best. But as usual, I can't tell what he's really thinking. Why is it that Okumo have to act so mysterious? Is it a requirement or something? It's just annoying. Anyways. We had a spar, and even though neither one of us went all out, I still ended up losing. No surprise there. I keep asking myself if I get stronger and beat him, would he finally respect me? I'm pretty certain that none of the other shinobi take me seriously. I'm so small that I catch people off guard. After Sei left, Naoya popped up. Which again, shouldn't have been much of a surprise, but for some reason it was. I had the impression that he might have been worried for me, like Sei had put a genjutsu or something along those lines. Either way... his concern was touching. Even sweet. I think that side of him is kinda cool. ~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~ 05/18/11 A.F. - Tuesday - Year of the PiG - September 10, 2014 A normal Tuesday lunch... that's what it was supposed to be. The sakura trees are in bloom, and I thought it would be nice if I had a picnic under the cherry blossoms. I sent out invitations to everyone, but... only Naoya-kun arrived... At first I felt sort of bad, just being the two of us, but then it turned out sorta fun. I felt less disappointed and started to enjoy myself even. Though for some reason, Naoya-kun had the impression that the lunch was just us... Did I somehow give that impression? I wonder why he would think that... It's not like I did it on purpose... And somehow I got urged into eating an offered bite from his chopsticks, and his constant teasing... It's just embarrassing. It feels like he's toying with me for his amusement. The one thing led to another and I agreed to make him apple dumplings for every hit he manages to get when we spar, though I'm still trying to figure out how that happened. I think he took advantage of the moment I was most weak... Oh well... The few times that he flushed... it was cute... ~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~ 05/20/11 A.F. - Thursday - Year of the PiG - September 11, 2014 I'm really excited. Juushin and Hayase are coming over for a slumber party. It's my first ever slumber party. I have drinks and special snacks, and we stayed up in my room while we talked and stuff. And we gossiped too. Somehow got around to talking about boys we 'like like', and... I ended up sharing mine. Turned out Hayase-chan and I like the same boy, and I was worried that she would hate me at first, but I think... it's kinda cool. We share something in common now. I wonder if that means we're really friends now. I hope so... ~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~ 06/13/11 A.F. - Sunday - Year of the PiG - September 21, 2014 It was kinda by chance that I even found Hayase and Naoya-kun at all. They were on Mist Lake when I saw them at first, and when I took a seat on the beach, they started sparring. I think because I just sat at the edge watching it made it seem like I was sneaking or something... but I wasn't. But watching them push each other... it felt weird. I was a little envious. I could push Naoya and Hayase into near exhaustion, but that's it. It's all one direction... I'm not sure how I can ipmrove any more than I have without a partner. A real partner that can push me as much as I push them. Eugh... it's so frustrating... I need to kill something now. ~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~ 06/30/11 A.F. - Wednesday - Year of the PiG - October 2, 2014 Hayase-chan, Naoya-kun and me did some training today at Bioluminescent Lake. Hayase was the one that actually called us out, which I thought it was a little weird, but whatever. We did a little bit of a three-way spar, which was a little fun but not much of a challenge for me. Mostly I attacked from on top of the lake so that it would either force Hayase to do long range attacks or for her to come out to me. Which meant that she had to work on her water walking. I think it was a little bit of a success. Even drew a little bit of blood, not even enough for stitches. And hinting that there might be bentos for hard work could modivate her too. I really hope so. I think Hayase can be really strong someday. I'm not sure how she can't see that. ~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~ 07/02/11 A.F. - Friday - Year of the PiG - October 3, 2014 Part of me thinks that Hayase is scared of being seen. Does she really think that she isn't my friend? Or maybe it scares her more to realize that she really is my friend. I can understand that it's kinda like a defense mechanism, to protect herself from being hurt, but it's also not worth it. It robs you of people that really do want to be your friend. Though even as I write this... I know that I have to keep my aloof mask in place... ~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~*~~ 07/06/11 A.F. - Tuesday - Year of the PiG - October 5, 2014 The mission was... off. All day it was off. I henged, just like he wanted, and of course I attracted unwanted attention when I was supposed to 'blend in'. But I also knew that if I told Naoya and argued, he wouldn't have listened. At all. He's so frustrating. And then //all day// he was weird. Wouldn't look me in the eye the whole time we were on the ship. Baka... What am I supposed to do with an annoying pest like him...