i'm leaving soon.
everyday i get more and more sure.
i have a plan ready. everything is perfect, but me. 
i'll be ready soon.

i just remembered her.
she cared a lot for me, she really did.
i treated her like people would treat a penny.
i tossed her aside like she was worthless.
i made her worthless to a lot of people.
she tried her best with me,
and i ruined it.
i ruined everything.
again and again.
she's probably dead by now.
i'm sorry.
i deserve all of this, though.
you cannot treat people how you would treat a penny.
she had worth.
she told me she was worthless.
now i see that she is like the crown jewels.
i am not worthy of her.
i had her, and i lost her.
i am sorry.

all i want from you people, 
is to remember me.
some days, look at a picture of sweden, 
and think of me in the back of your mind.
if you see a cat, think of me.
cry for me.
it's all i could ever want.
wish i was still with you.
and i will be.

i'm leaving soon.
if no one reads this,

that's fine. 

i am not worthy of having my words read.

but please remember me some days.

and i'll be back.