Mary-RealityCheck

So none of this stuff is Top, Domme, etc, this is all just Middle.

I hate to say it, but some people have egos that need to be Middled down.  You can be all like you gunna live your life and shit, but the minute you step outside that door all alone, you've got some male privilege going on, right down to your neurology.

Here's the thing about not giving a fuck about my need for trans surgical healthcare: I just listen to my Hive and not give a fuck about any of you.  When you get depopulated, I then laugh.

It's really that simple I'm afraid.

And the Queen is the piece with the most power on the board, guess who that'd be?  Myself.  Because this format gives me maximum mobility.  Offline I'm just a girl really, online, I'm the Queen, because the ability for me to get into your psyche and disturb you to maximum effect is maximized due to your lack of Virtue.  The very second you seriously start practicing Virtue for the first time in your life, that becomes more minimized as time goes on.

Here's the thing about not giving a fuck about my needs and telling me people can be selfish: I just don't care then you all drop dead.  Not because I'm selfish, but because there's a better world without you waiting for Sapient organisms that know what I am neurologically, and it ain't male/man/boy and never has been or will be, neither is it particularly sexual (it's not) except in the most passive of ways.

I didn't get aroused typing any of this out, that should tell you something.  I didn't DO any of it offline either.  So you can live in your imaginary world where you have privilege offline, and I'll live in my world where, while I'm not a housewife, I'm definately not rocking the whole male/man/boy look in my offline life (ever in fact) and can easily femme up far more than you do.  Go fix your car, or go out with friends, and lie to yourself like you don't got male privilege, I'll stay inside and mostly just laugh when your planet is depopulated.

If you wanted to protect yourself, you'd have not been lazy and practiced the things I taught you here.  I studied War my entire life, not because I ever was a male/man/boy (or any one of those things) but because I never have been any one of those things (let alone all of them) and never will be.

In order to be confident in your body, you have to have the right body parts, in order for you to take the position "do as I say because I say so" you have to have masculinized neurology.  It's not enough to defend yourself offline, even the most feminine of cis women do that, that's not masculine per se in terms of involuntary reactions.

If you study War as I have, all facets of it, you do so because you are vulnerable in certain ways.  If you don't study War, it's because you lack the Virtue to see that when people say Society doesn't care, they mean it.  When said idiots then tell you to "live your life" the proper response should always be to laugh at them, and acquire more knowledge, study more War in all forms.

Let the idiots "live their lives" with each other, their lives are short for a reason, because they lack Virtue.  I learned by the time I was five years old that nobody cared I said I was a girl, I've spent the rest of my life (pre and post transition) dealing with delusional morons that could never deal with the girl right in front of them.

This here?  This is ten year old hard femme girl.

You can only go so long getting under your car for repairs while acting like I'm masculine for typing bullshit on a screen, or acting like guys don't have any friends when most of them do (Neurotypical privilege to assume that) before you insult people with more masculinity than you have.

Listen I don't have that much masculinity I ever have to use because I have Virtue.  Part of being a girl is knowing how to kill teams of fully grown men because I never met any man that protected me from themself and their idiotic assumptions about who I should be or should have been or am or used to be.

And by that I mean simians or commoner hybrids.  Males from my Hive though know what I am, and they know it well, they know why I study War: I study War so that I never have to kill you directly.  Only by becoming insanely good at War can you then casually kill people indirectly, which isn't particularly masculine at all.

If I know ten things to stick in your drink, I'll never confront you and be entirely femme, and next thing you know you'll be dead on the floor because you thought I was some simple person that accepted your dominance of me.  If I know how to fucking murder you with stuff lieing around the house, you'll let your guard slip eventually after abusing me, it's only a matter of time.  See how this works?  And then your arrogance will not save you, it will be your weakness.

I always studied War because I never felt safe and secure in my body parts, in who I was, or in the people in the Society around me: never felt safe, never felt desired, never felt wanted.  I see no reason to stop presuming those things aren't true, because they are true.

This is hard femme ten year old girl to me.  If I was knifing you offline, slitting your fucking throat or hitting you in the jugular or carotid arteries or severing your vertebrae, that would be hard femme woman.

There you have it.

I'm always as femme as I possibly can be, that's my nature as someone that's a girl neurologically and a trans woman/trans female otherwise.

I'm femme because I realize the world doesn't need another loudmouth getting directly up in ppls' faces making shit harder on everyone else, it's already got plenty of those.  And if you do that in a controlled format that helps people, great, but I think you get what I mean.

Is this shit up in your face on your tablet or PC?  Hardly.





-Mary