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{19:06:48} <Rikako_Asakura> Lumi, whose nickname were you stalking anyway?

{19:07:08} <Lumindia> Orange... There are a few people in #touhou I miss... Orange was one of them.

{19:07:20} <Lumindia> and when you say it like that, it sounds negative

{19:07:35} <Rikako_Asakura> You realize that stalking Orange has seriously creeped her out, right?

{19:07:47} <Lumindia> in #wtf, the only people there are Set, Sunny, Kaguya, and Rumia

{19:08:02} <Lumindia> wait... what?

{19:08:44} <Lumindia> How have I been creeping her out? I haven't been in #touhou for nearly a month

{19:09:05} <Rikako_Asakura> Lumi, you come off as a harassing stalker without any sense of personal space.

{19:09:53} <Lumindia> ...

{19:09:58} <Lumindia> really?

{19:10:15} <Rikako_Asakura> Yes.

{19:10:43} <Lumindia> I... wow... I guess there was more to their decision than I thought

{19:10:44} <Rikako_Asakura> Your at times NSFW emoting was what got you banned from #touhou, and your insistence on doing that to Orange made her really really uncomfortable any time you were around.

{19:11:22} <Lumindia> And she never said anything... God, I feel awful now... ;-;

{19:12:06} <Rikako_Asakura> That's because Orange hates upsetting people and she doesn't know how to confront people who are bothering her. She's very innocent and kind, and isn't so socially adept.

{19:12:19} <Rikako_Asakura> And unfortunately people enjoy teasing her because of that.

{19:12:41} <Lumindia> I never meant to upset her or make her feel uncomfortable...

{19:12:44} <Rikako_Asakura> Someone named Jealous Phoenix really abused this about her a long time ago, and the moderators had to step in when he decided to try sexually soliciting her.

{19:12:54} <Rikako_Asakura> And that you were doing many of the same things that JP did were really bothering her.

{19:13:03} <Lumindia> ...........

{19:13:30} <Lumindia> ._.

{19:14:02} * Lumindia sighs

{19:14:38} <Lumindia> I... I wish there was some way I could apoligize to her... but attempting to apoligize would probably only make things worse

{19:15:00} <Rikako_Asakura> Most likely, yes.

{19:16:02} <Rikako_Asakura> What you really need to do is just leave her alone.

{19:17:59} <Lumindia> I... when she's active, can you tell her that I'm really sorry for what I've done to her, and that I never meant to creep her out?

{19:18:38} <Lumindia> If you don't want to, I understand... I just don't want to leave a poor final impression on everyone

{19:21:09} <Rikako_Asakura> It just baffles me that you couldn't see her obvious discomfort with you. -.-

{19:22:01} <Lumindia> It's blatantly obvious in hindsight... I realize that now...

{19:23:54} * Rikako_Asakura hugs you.

{19:24:13} <Rikako_Asakura> We all make mistakes... its very difficult to rescind some of those, however..

{19:24:31} <Rikako_Asakura> Do you truly have nowhere else to you, Lumi?

{19:25:19} <Lumindia> I... no... I have three other networks I frequent... I just.. *sigh* I want to make it up to everyone that I've bothered in #touhou... somehow...

{19:26:01} <Rikako_Asakura> Sometimes, it just takes a lot of time.

{19:26:37} <Rikako_Asakura> I made a lot of idiotic mistakes last fall and caused a lot of people to dislike me, and eventually left PoIR on a bad note. But I did come back and everyone embraced me in the end, once they saw who I really was.

{19:26:37} <Lumindia> I... Am I better or worse than JP was?

{19:26:49} <Rikako_Asakura> Much better. you're just an idiot, JP was a deliberate stalker.

{19:26:55} <Lumindia> xD

{19:27:12} <Lumindia> That makes me feel a bit better...

{19:27:23} <Lumindia> At least you realize I wasn't doing this on purpose...

{19:27:46} <Rikako_Asakura> When Orange first talked to me about this a few months ago, it seemed like it was on purpose. >.<

{19:27:51} <Rikako_Asakura> But anyway...

{19:28:18} <Lumindia> And... in honesty, it wasn't just her I was trying to get ahold of... I was also trying to find anyone else that was connected to #touhou in any way so I could apoligize to them

{19:28:25} <Lumindia> and her nick was the only one I remembered

{19:30:57} <Rikako_Asakura> Okay. Just... don't bother Orange, please.

{19:31:15} <Rikako_Asakura> Anyone but her. She's already had too much grief from too many people.

{19:31:32} <Lumindia> Okay. Just let her know that I'm sorry... If she wants to talk to me, she can do it on her own.

 

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{19:33:00} <Lumindia> I just found out more info on why I was banned from #touhou ...

* Looking up Yukari user info...

{19:33:07} <Yukari> Hello, Lumindia

{19:33:16} <Lumindia> Hi.

{19:33:56} <Yukari> Do you have any queries about that, or something else?

{19:34:32} <Lumindia> I... How much of the decision was based on the whole pony/hugging thing, and how much of it was based on me bothering Orange?

{19:35:50} <Yukari> Part of it was the hugging thing, but there was a significant majority due to bothering Orange, admittedly. We didn't want to mention her name because of potential backlash.

{19:36:26} <Lumindia> I understand... At the time, I might have reacted poorly to that information...

{19:37:04} <Lumindia> But I talked to Rikako about it after finding her channel.

{19:37:34} <Lumindia> ... quick question, you don't mind swearing in PMs, do you?

{19:38:19} <Yukari> Not at all.

{19:38:26} <Lumindia> Okay good

{19:38:42} <Lumindia> (continuing) And APPARENTLY Orange has had to deal with some creepy shit in the past as well...

{19:38:50} <Lumindia> Which I was completely unaware of until today.

{19:38:58} * Yukari nods.

{19:39:25} <Lumindia> I never realized how much of an impact my actions were having on her...

{19:40:28} <Lumindia> Her reactions, at the time, didn't seem to indicate anything to me, but in hindsight, it's blatantly obvious...

{19:41:06} <Yukari> If you haven't gathered much of it, Orange is extremely nonconfronational to the point of breaking down in tears before having to do so

{19:42:03} <Lumindia> I... wow... I feel so bad MY eyes are starting to tear up.

{19:43:12} * Yukari sighs. To be fair, the only warning the mods gave you about all of this was really a long time ago

{19:43:31} <Lumindia> Yeah... think it was like, 6 months ago or so?

{19:43:39} <Lumindia> I remember some kind of warning...

{19:43:44} <Yukari> We should have told you to cut that stuff out more often than gone directly to bans, but we'd hoped you'd get the picture before then

{19:43:54} <Lumindia> No one had said anything...

{19:44:10} <Lumindia> No, BAD lumin... THINK before you speak

{19:44:16} <Lumindia> *thwaps self*

{19:44:47} <Yukari> No-one had said anything directly obviously, I think was the problem.

{19:45:26} <Lumindia> Yeah... That's one of my problems... I tend not to notice things like that unless people directly point them out to me or it's blantantly obvious what their intentions are

{19:45:33} <Yukari> And unfortunately, especially not Orange, yeah

{19:46:13} <Lumindia> And it's not just her I feel bad about bothering... It's everyone I may have caused grief for, regardless of how much/how often it was

{19:46:41} <Yukari> Orange is the kind of doormat who will let people walk all over her even when she's horribly uncomfortable with things. I think it was mostly her who got the brunt of it

{19:47:18} <Yukari> I have to say that probably the majority didn't think you THAT annoying

{19:47:35} <Yukari> Or rather, more annoying than actually outright creepy

{19:49:08} <Yukari> Personally? While you did seem to have some annoying bits (mostly about the ponies) you were ok to talk to. Unfortunately I'm very open-minded about everyone, so I'm more of an open case