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Sister Circe,
I have received and tested your new pharmaceutical
drug.  I truly believe that your heart was in the
right place when researching and producing this
drug, but I'm not sure if our acolytes and monks
are quite ready for this type of devotion.
I understand your point, that the experience will
revitalize their faith, but I worry that their
faith is being *too* revitalized, or perhaps,
revitalized in the wrong way.
All of our male test subjects, including the
adults, believed that they had been transported
to Lilith's domain, seen Lilith, had sex with her,
and been given 'missions' by her.
At least 2 of these missions contradicted *my*
orders.  Of course, my orders were ignored, in
favor of 'Lilith's'.
Now, I will admit that the similarity in accounts
given by test subjects, of both the appearance of
Lilith, and the nature of her domain, is
fascinating, on an academic level.
I will not, however, allow my monks and acolytes
to be stolen away from me and corrupted,
by some glorified K-Hole voice.
My monks have taken out massive loans, and are
now spending the money, *against my orders*,
on survival equipment, solar panels, and
military rations.
I'm guessing that this means that your little
virology project is going according to plan.
You know that we're all behind you, and your
project, but this sort of behavior, this
*blatant insubordination*, is unacceptable.
Maybe you don't remember Heaven's Gate, and Waco,
and Jonestown, but I do, and the police do.
We are starting to look like some kind of
doomsday cult, and while the monks in question
have assured me that there's no danger,
I am not convinced, and I will not be
incorporating your drug into my regular ceremonies.
- Jenni Vertanen, High Priestess, Eugene Temple


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Date of Experiment: July 15, 1999
Nature of Experiment: Final test, 'paradise-milk'
Dose administered from 2 females, age 16 and 51
subject age 10, in the Temple's Ceremony Room.
Female volunteers, it should be noted, are
mother and sister of primary test subject.
Pills taken by female volunteers 2 days prior,
test of milk confirms metabolization of drug.
Subject became erect upon suckling drugged milk,
unclear whether this response was caused by drug.
Volunteers stroked subjects head as he nursed,
but avoided touching subject's genitals.
Subject nursed from 16 y/o volunteer for 4
minutes, before being switched to 51 y/o.
After nursing from both volunteers, subject's
erection was described as 'harder than usual'.
Subject appeared to exhibit signs of stimulant
use, he was uncharacteristically forward, and
nursed from both volunteers in a manner that
appeared to be aimed at getting as much of their
milk as possible.
He was much more forward, sexually, as well,
which the volunteers described as an abnormal
change of personality.
Subject began nursing compulsively, and moving
his hips in a manner that suggests a great,
possibly uncontrollable desire for sexual release.
Subject did not engage in masturbation, instead
using his hands to massage and squeeze the
breasts of the volunteers, attempting to bring
forth as much of the milk as possible.
Volunteers continued to avoid sexual touching,
but did not stop subject from 'dry humping' them.
Subject trended towards timing his thrusts with
his sucks and squeezes, and volunteers noted that
he appeared to be in a sort of trance.
While nursing, subject's eyes ceased tracking,
movement aside from breast movement.  If the
breast was taken away, his eyes would fixate on
it, and he would not respond to stimuli, unless
it was related to nursing, or sexual release.
The subject had, for all intents and purposes,
become a 'sex zombie'.
Volunteers expressed their concern for subject's
well being, and suggested that the experiment
be halted.  Their requests were denied.

Subject ejaculated upon achieving a level of
stimulation consistent with his normal sexual
activity.  Amount of ejaculate, however, was
over 3 times the normal amount, and was ejected
with more force than normal.  Subject was also
more vocal, upon orgasm, than normal, suggesting
a greater pleasure from orgasm.
Immediately following orgasm, subject became
fatigued, again, moreso than usual, and laid
his head on his mother's breast.
He began reacting to external stimuli, and was
capable of speech.  He remarked that he was
'sleepy', and that he felt 'really good'.
Volunteers seemed relieved, and as per the
experiment plan, asked subject to describe
exactly how he felt, in detail.
Subject was unable to describe his feelings,
outside of 'sleepy' and 'really good'.
Subject was unable to place his feeling on a 1-10
scale, and when asked to, began kissing his
mother's breast, massaging his sister's clitoris,
and repeating the phrase, 'I love you'.
This continued for 3 minutes, before the subject
fell into an unconscious state.
Various methods of waking him were attempted,
but once he entered that unconscious state,
subject did not awaken for 2.5 hours.

Subject's penis remained erect, from his
first ejaculation, until he awoke, 2.5
hours after becoming unconscious, and
3 hours after starting the experiment.
While unconscious, REM was observed, and
subject would exhibit various signs of
sexual and emotional gratification, often
at completely random times.
Volunteers took turns holding the subject, who,
despite being unconscious, had a tendency to
wrap his arms around the volunteers, and 'cuddle'
with them, nuzzling his face into their breasts.
He would often sigh happily, and caress the softer
parts of the volunteers.  It should be noted, here
that his eyes were closed the entire time, and he
did not respond to any outside stimuli.
At random times, subject would ejaculate.  These
orgasms would be marked with the subject squeezing
the volunteers, moaning, and breathing heavily.
The orgasms came about with no outside stimulation.
Subject did not masturbate, or dry hump volunteers.
Volunteers noted that subject would simply squeeze
them, moan, and come, his penis twitching, and
spurting, as if being stroked by an invisible hand.
In total, during the unconscious state, which
lasted for 2.5 hours, the subject ejaculated 8
times, the first 4 were in short succession,
during the first 30 minutes of unconsciousness.

Subject awakened gradually, and peacefully,
as if from a nap.  He appeared to retain a
sort of 'after-effect' from the drug, which
gave him a relaxed and dreamy demeanor.
Upon awakening, he kissed his mother, who was
holding him, and began massaging her breasts.
He showed both verbal and nonverbal signs of
arousal, and obviously intended to have sex.
He had sex with his mother, and then his sister,
and then both of them together, and then he fell
asleep.  REM was not observed, and he was flaccid
while sleeping.

Subject has, since the experience, become very
interested in the Lilian faith, and has become
almost a 'model' Lilian.
His mother and sister have noted that he has
become better behaved, and their sex life has
become much more focused on their pleasure,
rather than his.
His Temple Library and Public Library records
suggest an interest in learning about Lilith
herself, from both Lilian, and non-Lilian sources.
These records also suggest a great interest in
agricultural science, particularly aquaponics.
When asked about this new, and oddly specific
obsession, he stated that he was 'doing her will'.
Her, of course, referring to Lilith.

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From : HPMalmo@DOLilith.org
To:    HPBasra@DOLilith.org

Dr. Circe,
I tested your new pills, and I have to say,
I love them, and would like to order more!
It was a little scary at first, seeing my baby
get all 'tweaked out' like he did, but his
newfound interest in the finer details of our
faith are, quite frankly, amazing!
He has become much more loving towards me, and
much more patient, as well.  His cunnilingus
sessions used to be terrible, with him
rushing through it, treating it like a punishment.
Now, he worships me like I'm a goddess, spending
hours down there, if I let him, and giving me
orgasm after orgasm, simply for the pleasure of
seeing *me* pleasured.  It's beautiful.
I've shared the drug with my most trusted
Priestesses, and they've reported similar
results with their children.
We're ready to roll this thing out Temple-wide,
and start shipping it out to the wider
non-integrated communities.  Thank you for
sharing this with me, it's truly a wonderful tool.
Onto more pressing matters, though.  I'm sure that
you are aware of my disagreements with the High
Priestess of the Uppsala Temple.  I understand
that you also have a few disagreements with her.
I am more than willing to put my votes, and the
votes of my allies, behind funding your projects,
*if*, you are willing to give me exclusive rights
for distribution of this drug.
I know for a fact that this is going to be big,
and I'm willing to pay a fair price for the pills,
but I need to know that nobody else in Sweden
will have access to them, especially not Tessan.
As you know, there's good money in the villages,
the unincorporated Temples, and mail-order crowd.
They've got money to spend, and they love novelty.
Tessan and I have been fighting it out over them
for years, and I think these pills are the edge
that I need to finally get the villages and the
satellite temples voting *our way*.
Give it some thought,
- Katja Sorensson, High Priestess, Malmo Temple

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From : HPTokyoSuburb@DOLilith.org
To:    HPBasra@DOLilith.org

Medea, my love,
Again, you amaze me with your scientific prowess.
The pills that you sent our Temple have been used
to great effect, both by me, and my colleagues.
As always, we are impressed with your work.
The idea of sending our boys, literally,
*to paradise*, with our breast milk, is something
inspired.  I believe that Our Goddess is working
through you, and that these pills are her bounty.
I do have a question, though, if you are willing
to answer.  Why is it that Our Goddess only
appears before our boys?  I tried the milk,both
from the breast, and from a glass, and, nothing.
Well, not *nothing*, I certainly felt the effects,
the stimulation and arousal, the fatigue, the
coma-like state, and the hallucinations, but
Our Goddess did not appear before me.
Instead, I was met with a throng of boys,
quite multicultural, and *very* eager to please.
I don't want to say that I'm disappointed, love,
but I was truly looking forward to seeing Lilith.
Is this normal?  Have I been forsaken?  I would
guess not, as Our Goddess would not reward me
with a harem of boys if I were considered an
enemy, but I can't help but feel a bit of envy.
The fact that our boys have been completely
tight-lipped about their experience is also a
bit worrying.  We know that they met with Our
Goddess, but they won't tell us much about her.
They'll tell us what she looked like, of course,
and they'll go into great detail about how she...
felt, but they won't tell us what she said to
them, or what her plans are.
Obviously, she's been giving them very specific
instructions, since they have each taken up
different, but complimentary, 'hobbies', and
they've thrown themselves into them, with a
fervor that is very clearly religious in nature.
I just wish that she would talk to us, as well.
Perhaps this is a message, perhaps she wants us
to place greater trust in our boys.
At any rate, I'm writing you, now, to humbly
request more of this drug, as I believe that it
can be used to prepare our community for the
coming storm, and bring us closer to Our Goddess.
Yours in faith, and revolutionary zeal,
- Junko Tachibana, High Priestess, Tokyo Suburbs