Necrodium: -he chuckles softly- I want to talk to you about something privately.
Emmaline: otay
Necrodium: -he chuckles- I think you'll like the conversation. -he walks over and sits on the couch, patting the spot next to him- Come sit.
Emmaline: -she walks over and sits down next to him- okies o.o
Necrodium: -he chuckles- I have to admit, despite what I was saying in my room earlier... the temptation to offer you another trial is very, very real.
Necrodium: But before that can happen, I think we should have a serious discussion.
Emmaline: okies -nods listening-
Necrodium: My biggest concern isn't little space.
Necrodium: -he frowns softly, trying to make sure he chose his words carefully-
Necrodium: For lack of a better way to put it... I think you may harbor stronger feelings for me than I am capable of returning. And that worries me.
Necrodium: Because the absolute last thing I want to do is hurt you.
Emmaline: i understand what maybe you think i have stronger feelings?
Necrodium: Is that what made me think that? Just want to be sure I understand your question correctly.
Emmaline: no i mean why do you think i have stronger feelings for you then the feelings you have for me?
Necrodium: Its more a fear than anything I can base on fact. I care about you a lot, but I don't see anything more than IMVU or online working for us. -he smiles softly- I only bring this up because I am very, very seriously considering offering you a trial again, if you want one, but I only want to do it if its handled the right way, and that I'm not going to hurt you.
Emmaline: i understand all i want is imvu anyway i might comunicate thru kik with you but i dont want more then that o.o
Emmaline: i like you but im not looking for rl long distance relationship
Necrodium: -chuckles- Kik is fine, I see it really as an extension of IMVU.
Emmaline: ok good me too XD
Necrodium: Neither am I.
Emmaline: ok awesome XD
Necrodium: -he chuckles- What I"m saying I guess, is I would like to take you under trial, with the understanding that I would be your Dom everywhere (albiet how that plays out in your day to day life is something we would discuss), but its not more than a D/s relationship. -he chuckles- my neuroticness makes me lay everything out as clearly as I can.
Emmaline: its ok i like honesty and straightforward and spelled out lol
Emmaline: you do know i am talking to jason as in he may become my bf in rl soon
Necrodium: I wasn't aware it had moved that far. -he chuckles-
Necrodium: I don't want anything we have to interfer with your RL.
Emmaline: yeah we still just talking but he admited hes falling for me and i like him he knows im into bdsm hes never tried it and we still have alot to discuss but i wanted be upfront about it thats why i said imvu and online only and kik lol
Emmaline: like i already have trust with you so i know i could talk to you freely about how im feeling and be there for each other and you can keep me in line which i know i need XD
Necrodium: -nods- That would be fine, so long as if you do end up in a relationship, nothing would change on IMVU or kik. I don't like the idea of taking you on only to have you return the collar when Jason moves forward.
Emmaline: i understand and id let him know about imvu and stuff when we talk face to face i dont like to hide things im very open honest person
Necrodium: -he nods- Meaning if I did take you on trial, and at some point after that under collar, you would tell him so?
Emmaline: yes
Necrodium: And if he wasn't okay with that?
Emmaline: and he would know it was only online and kik and wouldnt interfer with our relationship and vise versa
Necrodium: I know thats a tough question to put to you. But I'd rather face the tough questions now than later.
Necrodium: Say you guys are going to get together. You tell him about me, and lets say by that time I've given you a collar.
Necrodium: He says he doesn't like it.
Necrodium: What then?
Emmaline: id try and explain it to him and let him see it doesnt effect me and him and it makes me happy and he doesnt have anything to fear
Necrodium: Worst case scenario. That doesn't work. Then what? -he smiles- Im only asking because if we move forward, I want it to be with the understanding of what might be.
Necrodium: I'm not asking nor expecting you to pick something online over him, I just want you to consider the possibility that that may be what happens.
Emmaline: i understand give me minute to think about it
Necrodium: Of course.
Emmaline: well i guess worse case senerio id have to see how serious me and him were because i made a commitment to you and a collar means alot to me and i wouldnt just leave or toss it away without good reason ot ask to be released unless i felt like it was best for both involved. to me its serious thing when you are collared and its a bond that should be respected. if he didnt understand id have to take serious thought at that time and probably discuss it with you if it came up. me and him arnt even dating and just soon to meet and if we date it still gonna go slow not like gonna move intogether in first week lol i have history with you and trust you and know you care bout me and have my best intrest at heart just like i do you we have a bond me and him havent developed yet and i would never just pick one person over another. i know it be a tough situation and honestly i cant give a 100% answer of how it would go or what would happen because theres many possiblities i mean even if me and jason dont work out later on you might get gf and go thru same thing its change you take when you have online life and a real one ya know?
Emmaline: wow that was long lol
Necrodium: -he nods- I do. I only asked that question because I wanted you to consider very carefully how this might end.
Necrodium: I think you and I both know it wont be something that lasts forever.
Emmaline: well yeah i mean nothing does
Emmaline: everything has a beginging and a end theres nothign saying in a year or five we still both be on imvu or anything ya kno
Emmaline: but cant stop living in present because of fear of future
Necrodium: -he chuckles and nods- I know. Its just better, especially for two people like us who have history, to discuss these things ahead of time. It makes the pain when it finally comes a lot less.
Emmaline: yeah i know and im not naive about how this may end but i also know no matter how it does your always gonna be my friend Adam
Necrodium: -he chuckles softly- I never said you were Naive, Emma. I just want to make sure we've discussed it beforehand. I don't want to hurt you.
Emmaline: i know ^.^
Emmaline: and i dont wanna hurt you either
Emmaline: im not only one who could get hurt :P
Necrodium: -he chuckles- True.
Necrodium: -he nods- Well, I think that covers the majorly serious points... -he chuckles- Would you like to talk more specifics?
Emmaline: well what changed your mind? me changed clothes?
Necrodium: -he shook his head- Just spending more time with you. I've been thinking on it for awhile now, actually. Since shortly after we reconnected.
Emmaline: lol but you kept saying oh no cant :P
Emmaline: told you im addicting XD
Necrodium: -he chuckles softly- I've just been wanting to be sure I'm making the right choices.
Emmaline: i understand im only teasing :P
Necrodium: -he chuckles- Did you want to talk more seriously about what a trial, and eventual collar might look like, then?