hey, i decided to eschew waiting for you on irc to send you a more formal PM. In hopes I would come across as more sincere this way. Before this starts i'd like to say do not get mad at shade for telling me about this, as he told me it in confidentiality.

Now i have always considered myself one of the less dickish firemods, because I find it really hard to be mean to people nowadays and afterwards i feel like absolute garbage about it. this happened with my behaviour on IRC with you in #insidescoop. I felt so bad after the fact that I tried immediately apologizing, but I think I must have come off as insincere as you replied with nothing but searing remarks about me.

Now I may not be a fancy OU guy or someone who can do art, in fact i lack talent at most things. But there is one thing I do think I am pretty good at and it's building relationships. I really dislike the fact that you see me as a member of the peanut gallery, because I do not go out of my way to be a shit disturber at all. In fact most of my posts in the Inside Scoop Forum (outside of promotion threads) are usually serious. Yes I know i have made a few questionable posts - and i do regret them all.

The last thing I want to talk about is the fact that I am extremely self concious, so hearing this quite seriously threw me for a loop. I absolutely love this forum, I love everyone on it, I love firebot. But sometimes its hard to go unanswered for a long period of time. I may not be a member of this forum who gets any respect (in fact i think im probably the least respected mod on the entire forum) but that shouldn't dq me from talking about site stuff. I put more work into my part of the forum than a lot of people do to theirs, I have organized tonnes of events, such as movie nights, tournaments, karaoke contests etc. But even if they don't find some success I find myself constantly trying to make firebot a better forum, and the fact that im still not treated as a serious user really irks me. I'm a moderator just like everyone else.

I know this is coming off a little salty, but i honestly regret the decisions i made and i really need to put my foot in my mouth sometimes. I hope you can find it within yourself to forgive me, as i really like you and the other members of SS, and i don't want to be seen in a tarnished light

- Love RODAN; The Cucklord