azilla: no
azilla: im not doing that
Not Gardener: or whatever it is you want to do
azilla: youll see
Not Gardener: so long as you dont do anything drastic
azilla: suicide
Not Gardener: dont do that
Not Gardener: youre a great guy azilla, this game should not be a reason for ending your life
Not Gardener: youre 15
Not Gardener: thats remarkably young
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Not Gardener: to even talk about it is saddening
Not Gardener: no matter how bad it might seem life will get better
Not Gardener: especially considering how young you are
Not Gardener: i dont know what youre day to day life is
Not Gardener: but you have caring parents that only want the best for you from what ive seen
Not Gardener: they want to make sure youre doing well and make good choices
Not Gardener: youre still my friend azilla
azilla: not for long
Not Gardener: it should be for long
Not Gardener: do you have a history of depression by chance?
Not Gardener: maybe in your family or some such?
Not Gardener: or have things been going rather poorly even before the team
azilla: never been in a depression
Not Gardener: well thats good
Not Gardener: you seem like a cheerful guy
azilla: not anymore
Not Gardener: this shouldnt be something you cant bounce back from
Not Gardener: azilla
Not Gardener: its one team
Not Gardener: this shit happens
azilla: it was my last thing
Not Gardener: last thing for what?
Not Gardener: azilla you love tf2
azilla: ii like it
azilla: dont love it
Not Gardener: fair enough
Not Gardener: even still
Not Gardener: you have friends and you have a solid base in many classes
Not Gardener: you just need to choose one or two you really want to push
Not Gardener: you cant excel as a jack of trades
azilla: neither
Not Gardener: really?
azilla: im done with life
Not Gardener: do i not count as a friend?
Not Gardener: youre done with life?
azilla: tired of always being thrown under this bus
Not Gardener: azilla youve barely even been through life
azilla: im crying right now
Not Gardener: i know
Not Gardener: i heard you before
azilla: here ill be right back
azilla: gonna go get the shotgun
Not Gardener: dont
Not Gardener: azilla
Not Gardener: do not
Not Gardener: do anything
Not Gardener: stupid
Not Gardener: call you parents
Not Gardener: for the love of god
Not Gardener: dont you fucking dare
Not Gardener: YOU ARE 15 YEARS OLD
Not Gardener: YOU HAVE ALL OF LIFE IN FRONY OF YOU
Not Gardener: WOMEN
Not Gardener: JOBS
Not Gardener: FRIENDS
Not Gardener: FAMILY
Not Gardener: FOR THE LOVE OF FUCK
Not Gardener: WHY WOULD THIS PUSH YOU INTO THIS SITUATION
Not Gardener: FUCKING ANSWER ME
Not Gardener: WHAT HAS BEEN GOING ON IN YOUR LIFE
Not Gardener: THAT THIS WOULD BE THE LAST STRAW
Not Gardener: LET ME HELP YOU
azilla: hey
azilla: im back
Not Gardener: azilla
azilla: got the shotgun beside the chair
Not Gardener: please
Not Gardener: azilla
azilla: what
Not Gardener: call your parents
Not Gardener: please
Not Gardener: im begging you here
azilla: they are on vacation
Not Gardener: then call them
azilla: proably busy
Not Gardener: do not
Not Gardener: do this to yourself
azilla: ill just leave a note
Not Gardener: azilla please
Not Gardener: no
Not Gardener: azilla
Not Gardener: do not
Not Gardener: do this to me
azilla: trade
Not Gardener: do
Not Gardener: not
Not Gardener: fucking dare
azilla: TRADE
Not Gardener: NO
Not Gardener: I KNOW WHAT YOURE DOING
azilla had asked to trade with you, but you did not respond in time.
Not Gardener: I KNOW YOUR SERIOUS
Not Gardener: DO NOT FUCKING DO THIS
azilla: im going to die
Not Gardener: ISTEN TO ME
Not Gardener: NO
Not Gardener: YOURE NOT
Not Gardener: I HAVE BEEN THROUGH HELL IN MY LIFE
azilla: do you want my hat or not?
Not Gardener: LET ME HELP YOU THROUGH YOURS
azilla: its just going to sit in my account
Not Gardener: AZILLA
azilla had asked to trade with you, but you did not respond in time.
Not Gardener: I WANT YOU TO LIVE
Not Gardener: GOD FUCKING DAMMIT
azilla: i had one last thing
azilla: and i blew it
Not Gardener: AZILLA
Not Gardener: YOU DID NOT BLOW IT
azilla: like i do everything else
Not Gardener: NO
azilla: obviously
Not Gardener: NO
Not Gardener: YOU DIDNT
azilla: all 4 said you didnt want me
Not Gardener: WE SAID YOU WERE INEXPERIENCED
Not Gardener: FOR THE LOVE OF GOD
Not Gardener: THATS ALL
azilla: same thing
Not Gardener: AZILLA
Not Gardener: THAT DOESNT MEAN WE DONT LIKE YOU
azilla: want to say something before i go?
Not Gardener: you are one of the funniest guys ive ever met
Not Gardener: please
azilla: lies
azilla: im about to go
Not Gardener: really?
Not Gardener: RWEALLY?
Not Gardener: DO YOU KNOW
Not Gardener: HOW MUCH
Not Gardener: YOU HAVE MADE ME LAUGH
Not Gardener: I DONT WANT YOU TO GO
azilla: to late haha
Not Gardener: I LOOKED FORWQARD TO EVERY SCRIM
azilla: yea
Not Gardener: JUST TO SEE WHAT YOU WOULD SAY
azilla: just like when you threw me under the bus
Not Gardener: IT WAS THE REASON I FIRST FRIENDED YOU
azilla: lol
azilla: now your just lying
Not Gardener: NO
Not Gardener: I AM NOT
azilla: save your breath
Not Gardener: AZILLA
Not Gardener: DID YOU THINK
Not Gardener: I WAS FAKING THOSE LAUGHS
Not Gardener: DO YOU THINK
Not Gardener: I WOULD DO THAT
Not Gardener: im not that kind of person
Not Gardener: i may not think youre an expierenced medic
azilla: my eyes are starting to hurt
Not Gardener: but i never thought of you less as a friend
azilla: im stiill crying
Not Gardener: i know
Not Gardener: im here man
Not Gardener: just talk to me
azilla: why?
Not Gardener: tell me whats been going on
Not Gardener: just let me in
Not Gardener: let me help
azilla: no
azilla: its useless
Not Gardener: its not
Not Gardener: i promise
Not Gardener: please
Not Gardener: let me help
Not Gardener: ive been through this shit before
Not Gardener: i know the pain of feeling like nothing works out
Not Gardener: i know what its like to be angry
Not Gardener: and frustrated
azilla: ok
azilla: shotgun is loaded
Not Gardener: no
Not Gardener: dont azilla please
Not Gardener: im right here
Not Gardener: let me help
Not Gardener: PLEASE
Not Gardener: FOR THE LOVE OF GOD
azilla: your the last person i want to talk to
azilla: i spent a month
Not Gardener: azilla
Not Gardener: i know
azilla: trying my best
Not Gardener: I KNOW
azilla: and this is what i get?
Not Gardener: YOU WERE LEARNING
Not Gardener: AZILLA YOU MADE FRIENDS ABOVE EVERYTHING ELSE
azilla: i was being used
Not Gardener: NO
azilla: like i always am
Not Gardener: YOU WERENT
Not Gardener: no
azilla: im a dummy bag
Not Gardener: youre not
azilla: im stupid
azilla: worthless
Not Gardener: youre none of those things
Not Gardener: youre a good friend
azilla: also inexperinced
Not Gardener: youve made me laugh
Not Gardener: EXACTLY
Not Gardener: AZILLA
Not Gardener: YOURE 15
Not Gardener: please!
Not Gardener: youre so young there is so much to look forward to
azilla: if you thought ii was a good friend then why did you basically say ii was shit at medic and not good enough for you
Not Gardener: i never said that
Not Gardener: i said you were inexperienced
azilla: you did gardener
Not Gardener: I DID NOT
azilla: tell the team i said goodluck in open
Not Gardener: AZILLA
Not Gardener: just play with me
azilla: im going to sleep for good now
Not Gardener: dont
Not Gardener: azilla
Not Gardener: please
Not Gardener: dont
azilla: you guys can forget about me
azilla: like i was never here
Not Gardener: i cant
Not Gardener: because i knew you
Not Gardener: i knew you as a friend
Not Gardener: i still do
Not Gardener: you helped me meet great people
Not Gardener: please
Not Gardener: just talk to me
Not Gardener: call your parents
Not Gardener: a friend
azilla: no
Not Gardener: someone
Not Gardener: pleae
Not Gardener: just
Not Gardener: let me help you
azilla: i dont need any
Not Gardener: azilla
Not Gardener: you need to call your parents
Not Gardener: please
Not Gardener: just talk to them
Not Gardener: call a friend
Not Gardener: anything
azilla: dont have any
Not Gardener: dont turn your back on everything
azilla: you guys were it
Not Gardener: IM STILL HERE
Not Gardener: IM STILL YOUR FRIEND
azilla: and now you guys threw me under the bus
azilla: no your not
Not Gardener: yes i am
azilla: then why did you abandon me?
Not Gardener: I HAVENT
Not Gardener: IM HERE
Not Gardener: BEGGING YOU
Not Gardener: TO STAY ALIVE
Not Gardener: TRY TO CONVINCE YOU
Not Gardener: TRYING*
azilla: not working
Not Gardener: I REALIZED
Not Gardener: IM JUST ONE MAN AZILLA
Not Gardener: im just trying to help
Not Gardener: let me help
Not Gardener: tell me something about school
Not Gardener: tell me something
azilla: im taking governement
Not Gardener: how is that going?
azilla: like shit
azilla: like the rest of my life
Not Gardener: what about your other subjects?
azilla: shit
azilla: like the rest of my life
Not Gardener: i thought you said you had good grades like a week ago
azilla: who cares
Not Gardener: clearly you do!
Not Gardener: what school do you go to?
azilla: not telling
Not Gardener: fine
Not Gardener: how about your name atleast
Not Gardener: all i know you by is azilla
azilla: my real mame is azilla
Not Gardener: your last name?
azilla: faggot
Not Gardener: dont do this to me man
Not Gardener: youre still my friend
azilla: im gone man
azilla: have a happy life
Not Gardener: let me help you
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Not Gardener: GOD DAMMIT
Not Gardener: AZILLA
Not Gardener: PLEASE
Not Gardener: DONT DO THIS