vulnicura lyrics

stonemilker

a juxtaposition in fate
find our mutual coordinate
moments of clarity
are so rare
i better document this
at last the view
is fierce
all that matters is
who is open-chested? and
who has coagulated?
who can share? and
who has shut down the chances?

show me emotional respect
oh respect, oh respect
i have emotional needs
oh needs
i wish to synchronise our feelings
our feelings
what is it that i have
that makes me feel your pain?
like milking a stone
to get you to say it

who is open? and
who has shut up? and
if one feels closed,
how does one stay open?
we have emotional needs
oh needs, oh needs
i wish to synchronise our feelings
our feelings
show some emotional respect
oh respect

a juxtaposition in fate
find our mutual coordinate

_____

lionsong

maybe he will come out of this
maybe he won't
somehow i'm not too bothered
either way

maybe he will come out of this loving me
maybe he will come out of this
i smell declarations of solitude
maybe he will come out of this

vietnam vet comes after the war
lands in my house
this wild line doesn't fit in this chair

maybe he will come out of this loving me
maybe he won't
i'm not taming no animal
maybe he will come out of this

once it was simple
one feeling at a time
it reached its peak then transformed
these abstract, complex feelings
i just don't know how to handle them
should i throw oil on one of these moods?
but which one?
the joy peak?
humour peak?
frustration peak?
anything peak?
for clarity

maybe he will come out of this loving me
maybe he won't
i'm not taming no animal
maybe he will come out of this

maybe he will come out of this
maybe he won't
somehow i'm not too bothered either way

somehow i'm not bothered either way
i refuse
it's a sign of maturing
to be stuck in complexity
i demand all clarity

maybe he will come out of this
or he will feel solitaire
somehow i'm not too bothered
i'd just like to know

_____

history of touches

i wake you up in the middle of the night
to express my love for you
stroke your skin and feel you
make it i can feel all of you
at the same moment

i wake you up in the night, feeling
this is our last time together
therefore sensing all the moments
we've been together
being here at the same time
every single touch
we ever touched each other
every single fuck
we had together
is in a wondrous time lapse
with us here at this moment
the history of touches
every single archive
compressed into a second
all with us here as i wake you up

_____

black lake

our love was my womb
but our bond has broken
my shield is gone
my protection is taken
i am one wound
my pulsating body
suffering being

my heart is enormous lake
black with potion
i am blind, drowning
in this ocean

my soul torn apart
my spirit is broken
into the fabric of war
he is woven

you feel my limitless emotions
i am bored of your apocalyptic obsessions
did i love you too much?
devotion bent me broken
so i rebelled
destroyed the ?

i did it for love
i honoured my feelings
you betrayed your own heart
corrupted that organ

family was always our sacred mutual mission
which you abandoned

you have nothing to give
your heart is hollow
i am drowned in sorrows
no hope in sight
of ?
eternal pain and ?

i am a glowing shiny rocket
returning home
as i enter the atmosphere
i burn off
layer by layer

_____

family

is there a place
where i can pay respects
for the death of my family
show some respect
between the three of us
there is the mother and the child
then there is the father and the child
but no man and a woman
no triangle of love
so where do i go
to make an offering
i fall on my knees
lay my flowers
light the candles
so where do i go
to make an offering
to mourn our miraculous triangle
father, mother, child
father, mother, child

how will i sing us out of this
sorrow? build a safe bridge
for the child
out of this danger
danger

i raise a monument of love
there is a swarm of sound
around our heads
and we can hear it
and we can get healed by it
it will relieve us from the pain
it would make us a part of it
this universe of solutions
this place of solutions
this location of solutions

_____

once you fell out of love
our love couldn't carry you
and i didn't even notice, for
our love kept me safe from death

you doubted the light
and the shelter it can give
for in love we are immortal
eternal and safe from death

if i regret us
i'm denying my soul to grow
don't remove my pain
it is my chance to heal

we carry the same wound
but have different cures
similar injuries
but opposite remedies

after our love ended
your arms don't carry me
without love i feel the abyss
understand your fear of death

i will not forget
this notget
will you not regret
having love let go?

after our love ended
your spirit entered me
now we are the guardians
we'll keep her safe from death

love will keep us safe from death

_____

atom dance

we are each other's hemispheres

i am fine tuning my soul
to the universal wavelength
no one is a lover alone
i propose an atom dance

our hearts are coral reefs in low tide
love is the ocean we crave
restlessly turning around
and around
i am dancing toward transformation

learning by love to open it all
let this ugly wound weave (?)
we fear unconditional heart space
healed by atom dance

when you feel the flow as primal love
enter the pain and dance with me
we are each other's hemispheres

we aim at peeling off
dead layers of loveless love

no one is a lover alone
most hearts fear their own
becoming themselves fully
it scares them

when you feel the flow as primal love
enter the pain and dance with me

no one is a lover alone
no one
most hearts fear their own home

you are my second hemisphere, hemisphere
the atoms are dancing, dancing

no one is a lover alone
most hearts fear their own home
you are my second hemisphere, hemisphere

atoms are laughing at last
atoms are laughing at last
at last
at last
atoms are laughing

no one is a lover alone
no one is a lover alone
most hearts fear their own home
you are my second hemisphere
the atoms are dancing, dancing

_____

mouth mantra

my throat was stuck
my mouth was sewn up
banned from making noise
i was not hurt

my throat feels stuck
i was not allowed
i was not
i was not hurt
i was not hurt
i was not hurt

there is vocal sadness
i was separated
from what i can do
what i'm capable of

need to break up
this ??? habit
to sort things
i haven't done
i haven't done

vow of silence
i explore the negative space
around my mouth
it implodes
black hole
with jaw falling in
in falling jaw
i am not hurt
i am not hurt

this tunnel enabled
thousands of sounds
i thank this trunk
noise pipe
noise pipe

i have followed a path
that took sacrfices
now i sacrifice this scar
can you cut it out (?)

_____

quicksand

if find her abyss
show it respect
then a celestial net will grow above

when i'm broken i am whole
and when i'm hole i am broken

our mother's philosophy
it feels like quicksand
and if she sinks
i'm going down with her

placate her blackening (??)
steal from her spit (???)
we form a cloud over her
to the ???

when she's broken she is whole
and when she's whole she's broken

our mother's philosophy
it feels like quicksand
and if she sinks
i'm going down with her

?? this darkness up to the light
where choreographed implodes the air

when we're broken we are whole
and when we're whole we're broken

we are the siblings of the sun
let's step into this beam
every time you give up
you take away our future
and my continuity of my daughter
and her daughter
and her daughter
and her daughter