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  1. Never tell your password to anyone.
  2. 27 February 2015
  3. Garry: My phone's battery is at 1% now, it'll switch off anytime now...
  4. Garry: Uff, such bad timing with it...
  5. The Recovering Sayaka: Not neccessarily.
  6. The Recovering Sayaka: I am more than comfortable to wait for a proper time to talk to you.
  7. The Recovering Sayaka: Provided you are referring to your desire to converse with me, as reason for your discomfort with the situational timing?
  8. The Recovering Sayaka: Regardless, I hope you find peace in your slumber, knowing that the likelyhood of me still existing within the space of 24 hours is fairly large.
  9. The Recovering Sayaka: Beyond the alternative, of course.
  10. Garry: Well that's good to hear! ^_^
  11. The Recovering Sayaka: This phone is an implacable entity, it would seem.
  12. The Recovering Sayaka: Ah, oh dear. I used that word incorrectly.
  13. The Recovering Sayaka: A considerably egregious error on my part.
  14. Garry: Greetings and salutations
  15. Garry: I want to say I'm sorry for going without a word last night
  16. Garry: My battery died after all and my phone shut down
  17. Garry: I'll impatiently wait until you come online again ^-^
  18. The Recovering Sayaka: Might I query you on what would bring you to apologize, when we both understand the exact conditions for your inability to offer a properly timed parting message?
  19. The Recovering Sayaka: But, I have returned, and I will in turn, await your change of status.
  20. Garry is now Online.
  21. Garry: Ah, well I know it was clear for both of us that our chat wouldn't last that long, but I always feel like apologizing for anything that happened or that will happen...
  22. The Recovering Sayaka: And thus, we have one behavioural quirk in common.
  23. The Recovering Sayaka: I trust your sleep was pleasant, and punctuated with comforting thoughts?
  24. Garry is now Online.
  25. Garry: It was kind of hard to fall asleep at first since most of them time I just don't feel sleepy
  26. Garry: But yeah, it was a refreshing sleep after all ^_^
  27. The Recovering Sayaka: I suppose that's somewhat reassuring, at least.
  28. The Recovering Sayaka: It would again appear you are restricted to your Phone, which greatly limits the speed of your responses.
  29. Garry: Ah no, I'm not PC right now
  30. Garry: *im on
  31. Garry: Uff, i have times when I fuck up words and all that
  32. Garry: Lots of sorries for those moment...
  33. The Recovering Sayaka: I forgot precisely what reason, if you offered it, which prevents you from using your Desktop.
  34. The Recovering Sayaka: Something tells me your location is merely a facade.
  35. The Recovering Sayaka: You're truly Canadian.
  36. Garry: Oh?
  37. Garry: I'm not a Canadian though ^_^
  38. The Recovering Sayaka: You're currently sporting the stereotyped personality of one.
  39. The Recovering Sayaka: But, yes. I do indeed know that.
  40. Garry: Also, if you're refering to the location I put on my steam profile, United Kingdom, I don't live there either. But I guess you figured that out since before the country's name I wrote "Place I wish to live in''
  41. The Recovering Sayaka: Oh, dear. That's of great misfortune to be brought to light on.
  42. The Recovering Sayaka: But, I'll do my best to forget about it.
  43. Garry: Ah, no. It's okay. Lots of people actuallt thought I'm from the UK because they probably didn't read what I wrote before it or did not pay attention to what I wrote
  44. Garry: It's not a big deal ^_^
  45. The Recovering Sayaka: A very minute arrow, it would seem.
  46. The Recovering Sayaka: Yes, not a deal of greatness to you, personally.
  47. Garry: I find it rather amusing and also cute when people missunderstand something
  48. The Recovering Sayaka: I feel it's justified in this case.
  49. Garry: Yeah
  50. The Recovering Sayaka: Hmmmph.
  51. The Recovering Sayaka: I need to consider how best to proceed.
  52. The Recovering Sayaka: Ah, the Phone icon appears to have left my client.
  53. Garry: Haha ^_^
  54. The Recovering Sayaka: I hadn't realized quite how...humourous I was.
  55. Garry: I wouldn't really call it humourous though
  56. Garry: It just seemed adorable to me ^-^
  57. The Recovering Sayaka: I see...
  58. The Recovering Sayaka: So you have access to a Desktop now.
  59. Garry: Yeah, I do
  60. The Recovering Sayaka: Then I will need to briefly consider how best to begin this conversation.
  61. Garry: Well it seems to be that we already are in a conversation
  62. Garry: So I'm not sure if there's any need to ''begin'' it since it already started
  63. The Recovering Sayaka: I see. You need to me to explain the many vague statements I make.
  64. The Recovering Sayaka: I speak of course, of starting discussing matters of actual introduction, detailing ourselves, our behaviours, hobbies, talents, and other such common matters.
  65. Garry: No, I know what ya meant. But most of the time I speak with new people we just go with the wave, there's no need to have a good begining with me
  66. Garry: You could just go with it, without thinking of a way to begin knowing eachother
  67. Garry: You can just jump anytime at anything you'd like to know about me
  68. The Recovering Sayaka: I'm a person of considerable formality, if that was not already evident enough.
  69. The Recovering Sayaka: I don't believe digging my nose into matters of sensitive topics will result in any good.
  70. Garry: Well it was but I was just trying to give you an idea of how I work ^_^
  71. The Recovering Sayaka: This, coming from numerous unfortunate experiences.
  72. Garry: Ah
  73. The Recovering Sayaka: Even those who told me I was free to do such, and then immediately turned around to offer hostility when asked.
  74. Garry: I'm not like the others. I don't mind what you ask or want to know of me. I'll never judge you for anything nor ever going to be hostile with you
  75. The Recovering Sayaka: I would advise you not to make statements which can be questioned later.
  76. The Recovering Sayaka: Only the sands of time, in the metaphorical hourglass of time, can provide us with the answer.
  77. Garry: I know it takes time to see if I truly mean what I say but I'm just trying to show you that I think you're a really awesome person and that I'd like us to be good friends
  78. Garry: I'm not trying to make any false statements
  79. The Recovering Sayaka: Alas, because of one of my many irrational fears, paranoia, I can see you as no more than a support worker to assist me with my depression for the immediate moment.
  80. The Recovering Sayaka: I am certain you will break those misconceptions with relative ease, and reveal yourself to be a true friend.
  81. Garry: I will try to stay besides you for as long as you feel comfortable with my presence and I'll try to aid you whenever you feel sad or downed
  82. Garry: They will of course be times when I won't be online since the difference in our time zones are big
  83. Garry: But I'll try to be here with you as long as I can
  84. The Recovering Sayaka: Then it may finally prove wise to begin what we've started.
  85. The Recovering Sayaka: I will offer you a barrage of questions.
  86. Garry: I'm ready to respond to any questions you'd have! ^_^
  87. The Recovering Sayaka: Where are you located?
  88. Garry: Europe. In a rather medium sized country called Romania
  89. The Recovering Sayaka: What is your desire to live in England?
  90. Garry: I love the English language and beeing around English speaking people. Plus I think I'd be way more happier in England rather than in my country
  91. The Recovering Sayaka: I'd hate to shatter your opinion, but this country, at least in my experience, is nothing spectacular.
  92. The Recovering Sayaka: Given your name, I presume you are male in nature?
  93. Garry: Yes, I'm truly a male
  94. Garry: Also, I know England it's not spectacular
  95. The Recovering Sayaka: Ah... another crushing blow.
  96. The Recovering Sayaka: But it would take a blind person to think otherwise.
  97. Garry: I'm not going there because "Oh wow, they're paying way more better than here'' or anything related to that
  98. Garry: It's just hard to explain why, but I'm attracted to that country
  99. The Recovering Sayaka: So be it.
  100. Garry: I know that if I ever go there, some people might dislike me since a quarter or so of the british population hates European imigrants
  101. Garry: But well, I'm used to people hating me
  102. The Recovering Sayaka: You may be gravely underestimating the quantity of unjustified racists that are prevailent within our country.
  103. Garry: Yeah, I'm sorry about that
  104. Garry: But I saw on news how some brits from Channel 4 made a documentary about Romanian imigrants there in England and it was rather insulting
  105. Garry: They just put us in a bad light, not showing the good parts of us or anything like that
  106. The Recovering Sayaka: I have a particular distaste towards the country, but I have no capability to leave.
  107. Garry: They just kind of made fun of us
  108. The Recovering Sayaka: But we've deviated a substancial degree from what we were originally intending to discuss.
  109. The Recovering Sayaka: I feel I've put you off this country enough.
  110. Garry: Yeah...
  111. The Recovering Sayaka: As per what I said earlier, the news that you are indeed male is a crushing blow to my subconcious.
  112. Garry: Oh, why so?
  113. Garry: Did you thought I'm a girl?
  114. The Recovering Sayaka: I did.
  115. The Recovering Sayaka: I tend to leave vague clues to it, rather than list it out in clear terms on my profile.
  116. Garry: Ah
  117. Garry: You wouldn't be the first to think I'm a girl, to be honest
  118. Garry: It's okay ^_^
  119. Garry: I know I might act or talk in a girlish manner...
  120. The Recovering Sayaka: Your chosen mannerisms suggest it.
  121. The Recovering Sayaka: Precisely.
  122. Garry: But that's just kind of how I am
  123. Garry: I sometimes wish I was actually a girl
  124. Garry: I think I'd fit better as one rather than beeing a boy
  125. Garry: But eh, this is how my life proved to be
  126. The Recovering Sayaka: This is starting to sound awfully familiar.
  127. The Recovering Sayaka: And not in a good fashion.
  128. Garry: Oh
  129. The Recovering Sayaka: As per Dead Master.
  130. Garry: Ah...
  131. Garry: He's... uh... one of the person you said you've ''failed''...
  132. The Recovering Sayaka: Fail is a such a light word to describe it.
  133. Garry: *hugs you*
  134. The Recovering Sayaka: I spared using a considerably worse word, so that my concious mind wouldn't be disgusted at every sight of it.
  135. Garry: Hey, it's okay...
  136. The Recovering Sayaka: Virtual illusory hugs are meaningless to me.
  137. The Recovering Sayaka: As is ERP.
  138. The Recovering Sayaka: And reassuring is not to supportive, either.
  139. Garry: Ah, I understand...
  140. The Recovering Sayaka: I do hope you realize the undertaking you're attempting to solve through your direct intervention here.
  141. Garry: sigh... probably not
  142. Garry: I know you're probably beating yourself for what happend
  143. The Recovering Sayaka: Would you like me to elaborate, and clear it up, so that we may proceed with the unfriending, before we invest anything further in this practically fruitless endeavour of friendship?
  144. Garry: Oh?... :c
  145. The Recovering Sayaka: I'll take that as a reluctant request to hear more.
  146. The Recovering Sayaka: At the least, you seem bemused.
  147. Garry: Well I'd like to hear more of what happend but what's with the unfriending thing though?
  148. Garry: I wouldn't want to remove you
  149. The Recovering Sayaka: I was about to continue, and you'll soon understand why.
  150. The Recovering Sayaka: This is more for your benefit, not mine.
  151. Garry: Okay...
  152. The Recovering Sayaka: The person you are attempting to assist is a metaphorical brick wall.
  153. The Recovering Sayaka: I am an irrational, overly kind and manipulated individual, one who is resistant to accept change.
  154. The Recovering Sayaka: I am considerably perverted in nature, and treat everyone as female, provided they have a cute anime girl to represent their avatar, even when presented with indisputable evidence, such as a direct statement from the person in question, such as you.
  155. The Recovering Sayaka: On the very basis of having a cute anime girl for a picture, I will do my utmost to devote all my time and money to them, regardless of whether or not they are deserving of it.
  156. The Recovering Sayaka: Over this Christmas period, I added about £140 to my Steam account.
  157. The Recovering Sayaka: Approximately £15 was spent on myself, and £120 went to friends on my list who had anime avatars, regardless of how deserving they were of it.
  158. The Recovering Sayaka: My best friend, the one I've for longest on my list, recieved nothing.
  159. The Recovering Sayaka: It would also appear I am unable to properly accept a breakup, and consider any and all failings in said relationship to be attributed to my own action, and none on their part.
  160. The Recovering Sayaka: But, that's venturing in Dead Master territory.
  161. The Recovering Sayaka: Perhaps I should hand the mic back to you. I'm sure you have much to say.
  162. Garry: Hey, look, I don't mind how you are. I like you alot. Even after what you just told me about how you are and what you did on christmas with those money, it all shows just how much of a great person you are.
  163. Garry: So what if you did not bought your best friend a gift. You bought gifts to lots of other people and that makes you a wonderful person
  164. The Recovering Sayaka: Don't cover up misguided and ill concieved actions under the guise of being a 'Great Person'
  165. The Recovering Sayaka: Gifts to people who did not deserve them, when I was hoping to buy the majority of my wishlist for myself.
  166. The Recovering Sayaka: Oh, right. I forgot an important part.
  167. The Recovering Sayaka: I recieved three gifts in return, out of the 25 of so I purchased.
  168. The Recovering Sayaka: And of those three, I eventually disposed of one to yet another person with an Anime avatar.
  169. The Recovering Sayaka: This self destructive habit has left me with practically no new games on my account in three months.
  170. Garry: Yes, I know, it left you with no profit at all but you still did a great thing, okay
  171. Garry: As you said, you gave gifts to people who didn't really deserved it
  172. Garry: And that shows how good you are
  173. The Recovering Sayaka: This isn't working.
  174. Garry: sigh...
  175. The Recovering Sayaka: Either that, or you're just attempting to reassure me in a fashion I don't agree with.
  176. The Recovering Sayaka: A good person would have the foresight and knowledge to devote that money to people who deserved it.
  177. The Recovering Sayaka: Any old fool with cash to burn can throw it away on misguided affairs, in the pursuit of 'Love'.
  178. The Recovering Sayaka: The difference is substancial.
  179. The Recovering Sayaka: Are you capable of seeing this from my viewpoint, or need I elaborate further?
  180. Garry: Okay, so lemme see. You think it was wrong to give those people the gifts they didn't deserve
  181. Garry: Is that it?
  182. The Recovering Sayaka: At the very least, one could construe what you appear to be doing as encouragement to further waste money, under the guise of being good.
  183. The Recovering Sayaka: Over those who deserve it, and over myself when I have numerous gifts I would like to play myself? Yes.
  184. The Recovering Sayaka: I have such little self worth and respect, that I spend my time on others before myself.
  185. The Recovering Sayaka: At such ridiculous margins.
  186. The Recovering Sayaka: Not that it matters eitherway.
  187. The Recovering Sayaka: I have lost interest in just about every form of entertainment I used to find enjoyable.
  188. Garry: I know what you mean
  189. The Recovering Sayaka: My game library is full of games I simply cannot find the energy to play.
  190. Garry: Yeah
  191. The Recovering Sayaka: The only thing I find 'Enjoyable' these days, is seeing the reactions of others towards positive things.
  192. Garry: Ah...
  193. The Recovering Sayaka: Although, as I am but a poor College student, my time and money are drawing ever more limited.
  194. The Recovering Sayaka: I'm at about the breaking point.
  195. The Recovering Sayaka: Alright, time for your involvement, I don't like to dominate conversations.
  196. Garry: Ugh, I gotta go eat now
  197. Garry: It probably may seem to you now that I'm trying to escape from this or something like that
  198. Garry: But I don't
  199. Garry: I'll come back as fast as I can, I promise!
  200. Garry is now Away.
  201. The Recovering Sayaka has changed their name to The Recovering Sayaka - Away.
  202. Garry is now Online.
  203. Garry: Hey, I'm back
  204. Garry: Sorry for taking so long but I had to help my grandparents with house work
  205. The Recovering Sayaka - Away has changed their name to The Recovering Sayaka.
  206. The Recovering Sayaka: Cool.
  207. The Recovering Sayaka: Let's return to dissecting my problems then.
  208. Garry: Yeah
  209. Garry: Let's
  210. The Recovering Sayaka: It was your turn, when we left off.
  211. Garry: So I saw you thought I'm trying to encourage you to further spend money under the pretext of you beeing good. I wasn't trying to do that, not even a bit. All i wanted to say is that it was nice of you to do it but I didn't, I don't and won't encourage you to spend money for other people.
  212. The Recovering Sayaka: Alright.
  213. The Recovering Sayaka: Regardless, if it continues, I'll be without any money.
  214. Garry: Look, I know it's probably hard to do this, it was hard for me too, but you should stop caring so much about others. I still care about people more than myself most of the time, but I learned I have to think about myself too sometimes because if I always put someone else way more before me, it'll only end up bad.
  215. Garry: One of the downs of beeing a nice person and caring alot about others is that you attract manipulative types of people or people who fake beeing your friends just to obtain free stuff or attention
  216. The Recovering Sayaka: Would it help to inform you that I have Autism?
  217. Garry: Kind of already figured that out since you told me some time ago that you respond hard to change
  218. Garry: I deducted you may have it but I never asked since it would've been rather rude of me to aks it...
  219. The Recovering Sayaka: Goodness, no.
  220. The Recovering Sayaka: I am a practical person.
  221. The Recovering Sayaka: I will dig deep into my subconcious, tell you anything, if it will prove beneficial to the conversation.
  222. Garry: Well that's good to hear
  223. The Recovering Sayaka: Do your best not to consider any questions as rude.
  224. Garry: But I have to warn you though, I'm just 15 years old, i probably won't really get that high to your expectations level
  225. Garry: But I try my best
  226. The Recovering Sayaka: I am aware of your exact intentions, and will look beside anything offensive for that reason.
  227. The Recovering Sayaka: Older and more qualified people than you have tried and failed to answer the same question.
  228. The Recovering Sayaka: I'm 18.
  229. Garry: Aww...
  230. The Recovering Sayaka: I just realized that I probably discouraged you from trying.
  231. Garry: Oh
  232. Garry: No you didn't!
  233. Garry: It's just sad to hear they failed to help you
  234. The Recovering Sayaka: It may prove beneficial to inform you that I have yet to go into counselling.
  235. The Recovering Sayaka: They didn't fail me.
  236. The Recovering Sayaka: Keep in mind the way my sentence is formatted on my profile.
  237. The Recovering Sayaka: It reads 'I have failed'
  238. Garry: Seriously now, you didn't failed anyone
  239. Garry: Okay, I'll say it: They are the ones who failed YOU
  240. Garry: Because if they were truly your friends, they wouldn't have got mad at you and leave you for the thing sthat happened
  241. The Recovering Sayaka: Your logic is flawed.
  242. The Recovering Sayaka: Individuals can only handle a certain amount of frustration before losing interest in a person.
  243. The Recovering Sayaka: They all had substancial reserves of patience, yet I crossed the threshold.
  244. The Recovering Sayaka: Unless, you expect a true friend to be incapable of feeling the slighest whim of frustration.
  245. Garry: I'm not feeling that at all
  246. Garry: You wouldn't be able to frustrate me not even a bit
  247. Garry: Since I love talking to you alot!
  248. The Recovering Sayaka: I sense the euphoria of meeting a new person will soon wear off.
  249. The Recovering Sayaka: From my experience, Steam 'Friends' are wonderful for the first few days, yet it grows thinner, as you run out of material.
  250. Garry: It's really nice to have a coherent and formal chat after hours of talking to pigs who keep using ''u'' instead of ''you'' and that don't know the difference between your and you're.
  251. The Recovering Sayaka: That was me once.
  252. The Recovering Sayaka: I wouldn't look down upon them.
  253. Garry: I'm not though
  254. The Recovering Sayaka: Not everyone wants to pick up a substancial and largely unneccessary selection of extra words.
  255. Garry: I know
  256. Garry: I don't really want that either
  257. Garry: But I have times when I would just like to have a nice talk without fucked up words and grammar
  258. The Recovering Sayaka: No argument here.
  259. The Recovering Sayaka: Why not pool our efforts into a lighter topic of discussion momentarily?
  260. The Recovering Sayaka: Your profile does not appear to list your interests.
  261. Garry: Sure thing
  262. Garry: Ah
  263. Garry: Because I don't have too many interests to be honest
  264. Garry: Plus they're just kind of boring
  265. Garry: And also most people won't probably even read all things I write on my profile
  266. The Recovering Sayaka: I do.
  267. Garry: I know you did
  268. The Recovering Sayaka: Believe me, I actively seek out people like you with detailed profiles, and I read them through thoroughly.
  269. The Recovering Sayaka: But that's more a case of ensuring I'm not wasting my time.
  270. The Recovering Sayaka: I only just recovered from making that mistake.
  271. Garry: Ah, I understand
  272. Garry: Still, I'm saying ''most people'' not because I know no one would read my profile, but because I had lots of people sending me friend requests without even reading my profile where i say that i'd appreciate a comment because why they added me and also because they added me without even reading half of my profiel. They just point blank added me because I had a high level and never really talked with me or because they thought I'm a girl and tried hitting on me.
  273. Garry: Also i think i just fucked up some verbs and times in what i just wrote up there
  274. The Recovering Sayaka: Then it may prove helpful to know that I'm undoubtedly going to do the same, and attempt to become romantically involved with you.
  275. Garry: Well to be honest, I don't really have a problem with that if it comes from you
  276. Garry: I like you alot already
  277. The Recovering Sayaka: What makes the other attempts different?
  278. Garry: I just don't appreciate when I get hitted on by people I don't even know anything about
  279. The Recovering Sayaka: You mean, it's an immediate thing in their situation?
  280. The Recovering Sayaka: We've only been briefly introduced.
  281. The Recovering Sayaka: Neither of us have significantly involved ourselves in the discusion.
  282. Garry: I know
  283. The Recovering Sayaka: Then, I suppose I shall have to do my best to not proceed down such an avenue for as long as I can restrain myself.
  284. Garry: Ah, no!
  285. The Recovering Sayaka: Even knowing that you're male...and younger than me.
  286. Garry: You don't have to restrain yourself from anything
  287. Garry: I like you exactly how you are.
  288. The Recovering Sayaka: No. What you know is the persona that I have adopted for the immediate moment.
  289. The Recovering Sayaka: You don't know if I'll change in the future.
  290. The Recovering Sayaka: And you're certainly unaware of my capabilities.
  291. Garry is now Offline.
  292. Garry is currently offline, they will receive your message the next time they log in.
  293. Garry is now Online.
  294. Garry: Sorry, it was a minor power outtake
  295. Garry: I'm back now
  296. The Recovering Sayaka: I think I forced Dead Master into submission by sending him so many gifts, even knowing that he could not repay me.
  297. The Recovering Sayaka: You needn't apologize.
  298. Garry: Ah no
  299. Garry: You don't have to blame yourself for it
  300. Garry: I'm sure you haven't done that
  301. The Recovering Sayaka: Would you like me to send you an assortment of links?
  302. Garry: Sure
  303. The Recovering Sayaka: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1DBHRyLi7ipyPJMGunJ7WzcpCKyhKmGHmCso-ZSGD01I/edit?usp=drive_web
  304. The Recovering Sayaka: Image source: http://imgur.com/a/JRjCx
  305. The Recovering Sayaka: Pictures composed in Photoshop.
  306. The Recovering Sayaka: This is the work of his favourite artist.
  307. The Recovering Sayaka: This was to be sent to him of Valentines day, but he asked for it early. It was received on the fifth of this month.
  308. Garry: It's the story supposed to be about you and Dead Master?...
  309. The Recovering Sayaka: He changes his name a lot.
  310. The Recovering Sayaka: I went with Dead Master because that's the name he was under once our fate was sealed.
  311. Garry: Oh, I understand...
  312. Garry: The story was rather happy but knowing how it is going for you with him now... It's actually more of a sad one
  313. The Recovering Sayaka: I didn't feel it was enough, so I made him this a few days afterwards to actually present to him on Valentines Day.
  314. The Recovering Sayaka: http://imgur.com/a/jYmUb
  315. The Recovering Sayaka: The pictures took an hour or so to make individually, in case you were otherwise unaware of Photoshop.
  316. Garry: I was aware of Photoshop
  317. Garry: Oh? What's with the ending with the blood and bullets... I see the bullets heading towards your direction
  318. Garry: Were you supposed to die there?
  319. The Recovering Sayaka: I presented this to him a few nights before Valentines day.
  320. The Recovering Sayaka: I had a bigger image planned to follow that.
  321. Garry: Ah
  322. The Recovering Sayaka: The real turning point was the fact that we broke up on Valentines day.
  323. The Recovering Sayaka: The day I had been planning for a week.
  324. The Recovering Sayaka: It could have been any other day, but no.
  325. The Recovering Sayaka: I cried a substancial amount over it.
  326. The Recovering Sayaka: And as per my name, I'm over the grieving stage, and into the stage of recovering.
  327. Garry: God... I'm so sorry to hear that
  328. The Recovering Sayaka: Also, I spent about £20 and installed two games in order to play with him.
  329. Garry: I know how it feels to lose the person you love exactly during valentine's day, it happened to me too
  330. The Recovering Sayaka: My condolences.
  331. The Recovering Sayaka: Hopefuly, you handled yours in a less pathetic fashion.
  332. Garry: Hey, come on now
  333. Garry: What's so pathetic if you cried a long ammount of time?
  334. Garry: Males can cry and have feelings too ya know
  335. The Recovering Sayaka: I put all my time and energy into them, under the false premise of love.
  336. Garry: There's no shame in that
  337. The Recovering Sayaka: I knew it wasn't going anywhere. I knew we were both male.
  338. The Recovering Sayaka: But it was the picture.
  339. The Recovering Sayaka: The picture of the cute anime girl.
  340. Garry: Yes, I know how it is
  341. Garry: I do that too
  342. Garry: And trust me, that's not pathetic, okay?
  343. Garry: There are many more people out there on steam who do this
  344. Garry: And it's a pretty normal and common thing in here
  345. The Recovering Sayaka: They don't have the resources to go to the lengths that I do.
  346. The Recovering Sayaka: So they have less to lose.
  347. The Recovering Sayaka: Oh. I also forgot to mention the main reason we were together.
  348. Garry: I actually have a friend who has your resources
  349. Garry: Oh?
  350. The Recovering Sayaka: We had a story going, if I was to write it out, it would probably be 25k in length.
  351. The Recovering Sayaka: We spent hours writing it together each day thoguh Steam.
  352. The Recovering Sayaka: I have 90% of our chatlogs saved.
  353. Garry: Oh :c
  354. Garry: I'm not sure if that's supposed to be good or bad...
  355. The Recovering Sayaka: Sad in the sense that I often read back over them, just to look at the moments I made him happy.
  356. The Recovering Sayaka: Happy in the sense that I may one day finish the story.
  357. The Recovering Sayaka: And bring closure to it.
  358. Garry: Yeah...
  359. Garry: I kind of have a thing like you too
  360. The Recovering Sayaka: So that should make you aware of the lengths that I will go to for a person.
  361. Garry: I saved most of the chat logs from people that bullied me in a text file
  362. Garry: And almost everytime i feel sad i go and read them and I get even worse
  363. Garry: And yeah, that does make me aware of the lenghts you'd go to for a person
  364. Garry: And I'll sure as hell go the lenght for you probably even more than you'd do
  365. The Recovering Sayaka: Ah.
  366. The Recovering Sayaka: But you haven't told of me your skills.
  367. The Recovering Sayaka: So I can only speculate that your 'Lengths', are entirely text based.
  368. The Recovering Sayaka: And not monetary wise, or production wise.
  369. Garry: They're monetary too
  370. Garry: But since i don't have a huge allowance nor getting money from parents I'm kinda limited to 10-20 euros per 1-2 months
  371. The Recovering Sayaka: That's more than I have to spend.
  372. The Recovering Sayaka: If you are truly as you say, having overcame your depression, then you won't fall into the same pit as me.
  373. The Recovering Sayaka: As such, you will refrain from sending me gifts until I deserve them.
  374. Garry: I would actually love to buy you something right now
  375. Garry: I have 11 euros in my steam wallet right now
  376. The Recovering Sayaka: Justify it.
  377. Garry: Alright
  378. Garry: http://puu.sh/ggz6n/436e7761cc.png
  379. The Recovering Sayaka: ...?
  380. Garry: I'd glady buy you anything as long as it falls into the 11 euros maximum price
  381. The Recovering Sayaka: A display of your available funds are not a justification.
  382. Garry: :c
  383. The Recovering Sayaka: I am asking what self worth their exists in purchasing me a game.
  384. Garry: I thought you wanted me to prove that I have the money
  385. Garry: Uff, i'm an idiot
  386. The Recovering Sayaka: Only if you label yourself as one.
  387. Garry: This is not about self worth though. I really like you and I'd just want to show how much
  388. Garry: And I'd also like to see you happy
  389. The Recovering Sayaka: Sending me a gift will only make me feel unworthy.
  390. Garry: But you are worthy of it
  391. The Recovering Sayaka: Listen, I'm not communicating this very clearly.
  392. The Recovering Sayaka: I find happiness from helping others, and cheering them up.
  393. Garry: That's what I do too
  394. The Recovering Sayaka: I openly berate and belittle myself if I consider myself before others.
  395. The Recovering Sayaka: I honestly think Counselling is the smarter choice.
  396. The Recovering Sayaka: You go ahead without approval and purchase me a game, I will actively refuse it.
  397. Garry: Oh...
  398. Garry: I understand
  399. Garry: But still, if you ever need something, you can just ask me
  400. Garry: I'd gladly help you with anything!
  401. The Recovering Sayaka: The interesting part about 'Help', is the fact that it's not a concrete solution.
  402. The Recovering Sayaka: It has the potential to fail.
  403. The Recovering Sayaka: And in this case, that is exactly true.
  404. Garry: Well I don't really care about that
  405. Garry: I'm still not giving up on you no matter what you'd say
  406. The Recovering Sayaka: So you're just going to sit on the outskirts while I actively ignore you.
  407. The Recovering Sayaka: If we have no chemistry as friends, and our only tie is depression, what use is there in being friends?
  408. The Recovering Sayaka: What value, purpose and meaning is there?
  409. The Recovering Sayaka: Not to get all philisophical on you, but, it is true.
  410. Garry: Oh? :c
  411. Garry: But I thought we're already friends
  412. Garry: I find you really interesting and wonderful
  413. Garry: But I guess you don't really think we could be friends...
  414. The Recovering Sayaka: I'm not one of those who can easily engage in a discussion about anything.
  415. The Recovering Sayaka: That's the present and emerging issue here.
  416. The Recovering Sayaka: It should already prove apparent by now that I'm vastly unique to most.
  417. Garry: Yeah
  418. Garry: I know
  419. Garry: And that's why I also like you
  420. The Recovering Sayaka: Your appreciation is misplaced, it would seem.
  421. The Recovering Sayaka: In time, you'll come to see me for who I am, provided I choose to use it on you.
  422. Garry: And I'd still like you.
  423. Garry: And yes, I probably know you might think it's not possible for me to predict the future, if i'll like you or not
  424. Garry: But you don't know either how much I like you and what I'd do just so we could become good friends
  425. The Recovering Sayaka: I know that Dead Master seemed to keep up the facade of liking me.
  426. The Recovering Sayaka: And then on Valentines Day, told me that he had tried to offer me 'Hints' to disuade me, and make me realize that he actually disliked being loved.
  427. The Recovering Sayaka: I don't remember any sort of hints, and I don't see myself as blind.
  428. Garry: Look, I know it must've been hard for you... But trust me, I'm not using any facade here nor did or ever will
  429. Garry: I'm just saying the pure truth.
  430. The Recovering Sayaka: Overall, I just have a lingering sense of paranoia over trust following the incident.
  431. The Recovering Sayaka: It's been practically less than two weeks.
  432. Garry: Yeah, I was about to say that I know you probably have some problems with trusting others
  433. Garry: But it's okay, you'll feel better with time. I'm telling you from my own experience. Yes, you'll surely beat yourself for it at feel sad for some time but eventually you'll start feeling better. Yes, I also know you told me that reassuring you won't help at all but I just can't help it.
  434. The Recovering Sayaka: Experiences vary.
  435. The Recovering Sayaka: And it seems I've had different encounters to you.
  436. The Recovering Sayaka: Only time will time me how much truth lies in waiting.
  437. Garry: I know
  438. Garry: I just hope you're going to see that I really mean what I told you
  439. The Recovering Sayaka: So until then...Remain completely silent.
  440. Garry: Oh?
  441. The Recovering Sayaka: You don't seem to be capable of helping me. We've both seemingly agreed to waiting, to see if it improves on its own.
  442. The Recovering Sayaka: And as such, we have no further purpose here.
  443. Garry: Sigh...
  444. Garry: Well... Okay then...
  445. The Recovering Sayaka: Finally accepting the difficulty of talking to me, after being aware, I believe?
  446. Garry: What
  447. Garry: Hell no
  448. The Recovering Sayaka: Then what's with the sigh.
  449. Garry: Kind of sad and dissapointed to hear you'd like me to stay silent
  450. The Recovering Sayaka: You can try to talk to me. If I find it interesting, I may just respond.
  451. The Recovering Sayaka: It appears you misconstrued my intention.
  452. Garry: Yeah... I guess I kinda did
  453. Garry: I'm just sorry I couldn't get up to your expectations
  454. The Recovering Sayaka: To be honest, you still have yet to propose a topic about anything other than the business we have.
  455. The Recovering Sayaka: Provided you like my style of communicating, I can do my best to teach you it.
  456. Garry: Ah, so you're not able to talk about stuff if we don't have a topic at all
  457. The Recovering Sayaka: Scroll up.
  458. The Recovering Sayaka: "The Recovering Sayaka: I'm not one of those who can easily engage in a discussion about anything."
  459. Garry: I know
  460. Garry: I know
  461. Garry: I saw that
  462. Garry: I just wanted to make it clear
  463. The Recovering Sayaka: My apologies.
  464. The Recovering Sayaka: I need to be less vague.
  465. Garry: Since I have a friend that's kind of like you
  466. Garry: He has autism too
  467. The Recovering Sayaka: It's a wide spectrum.
  468. Garry: And also needs to have a topic before trying to chat
  469. The Recovering Sayaka: Autistic individuals may share similar traits, but they are vastly different.
  470. The Recovering Sayaka: I should know.
  471. The Recovering Sayaka: I go to a group dedicated to autism every so often.
  472. The Recovering Sayaka: The variations you see are just sad.
  473. The Recovering Sayaka: I'm lucky to not be more severe.
  474. Garry: Yes, I already noticed it while thinking of you and my friend
  475. The Recovering Sayaka: Point made then.
  476. The Recovering Sayaka: Mention a subject anytime, I'll contribute as best I an.
  477. Garry: You share similar traits with him but as persons, you both are completely different
  478. Garry: So yeah
  479. Garry: Bunneh: aight
  480. Bunneh: i already knew u were weird
  481. Bunneh: ayy
  482. Bunneh: bring more beer
  483. Bunneh: beech
  484. Bunneh: oi
  485. Bunneh: im da baws in da haws
  486. Bunneh: u know how the king is better than the queen in poker
  487. Bunneh: yeh
  488. Bunneh: ur da jack
  489. Bunneh: Im watchin yu
  490. Garry: Ugh, fuck me. This is exactly the kind of people I talked about...
  491. The Recovering Sayaka: I don't like to dabble into others privacy without their consent.
  492. Garry: That's barely even any privacy...
  493. The Recovering Sayaka: I cannot speak of my distaste as to how many rules of good writing that sample breaks.
  494. The Recovering Sayaka: I suppose.
  495. Garry: It's just dumb talking...
  496. Garry: I wouldn't send any chats about private stuff or anything like that
  497. The Recovering Sayaka: Alright then.
  498. The Recovering Sayaka: TF2, L4D2 Or Garry's Mod time?
  499. Garry is now Away.
  500. The Recovering Sayaka: I see.
  501. Garry is now Online.
  502. Garry: Sorry, I had to go eat
  503. Garry: also, i guess tf2 time :T
  504. The Recovering Sayaka: So be it.
  505. Garry: Oh?
  506. The Recovering Sayaka: I'll open it.
  507. The Recovering Sayaka: So we can play together.
  508. Garry: Oh ^_^
  509. Garry: also, i see you have lots of hours played in nekopara, pyrite heart and other games
  510. Garry: But I'm not sure you actually played them THAT much, right?
  511. Garry: You're just idling I think
  512. The Recovering Sayaka: Do you have any idea as of yet, how perverted I am?
  513. Garry: I do though
  514. Garry: I know you told me you're a perverted person ^_^
  515. The Recovering Sayaka: Then make an educated guess as to what I keep them open for.
  516. Garry: Well I didn't really thought you'd keep them open for that
  517. Garry: But to be honest, I kinda find it cute ^_^
  518. Garry is now playing Team Fortress 2. Click here to join.
  519. Garry: I'm guessing you like the versus saxton hale game mode :3
  520. The Recovering Sayaka: Marginly so.
  521. The Recovering Sayaka: I dislike the game in general, but it was the choice you made.
  522. The Recovering Sayaka: So I'll stick with it for an hour or so.
  523. Garry: Ah :c
  524. Garry: I understand...
  525. Garry: Ya know, we can play something else if you dislike playing tf2 ^-^
  526. The Recovering Sayaka: No.
  527. Garry: I don't want to keep you on something you don't like to do...
  528. Garry: But well, if you say so, okay then
  529. Garry is now playing Team Fortress 2. Click here to join.
  530. Garry: Well I'll be going to take a bath now
  531. The Recovering Sayaka: Farewell, then.
  532. The Recovering Sayaka: I'll await your return.
  533. Garry: I won't be able to play on the pc anymore though
  534. Garry: My dad has a strict curfew when it comes to this stuff
  535. Garry: But well, I'll see you later ^_^
  536. The Recovering Sayaka: I see.
  537. The Recovering Sayaka: After recently being just about the only interest in games I've had recently, you ought to pick up Town of Salem.
  538. Garry is now Online.
  539. Garry: Hm?
  540. The Recovering Sayaka: http://store.steampowered.com/app/334230
  541. Garry: Ah no, what game you're talking about
  542. Garry: *i know what
  543. Garry is now Online.
  544. Garry: So Town of Salem is the only interesting game you found recently?
  545. The Recovering Sayaka: Yes.
  546. Garry: Hm. Why so?
  547. The Recovering Sayaka: Community interaction.
  548. Garry is now Online.
  549. Garry: Ah ^_^
  550. Garry is now Online.
  551. Your state is set to Offline.
  552. Garry is now Offline.
  553. Lost connection to Steam, will rejoin chat automatically when connection regained.
  554. Connected again and rejoined chat.
  555. Garry is now Offline.
  556. The Recovering Sayaka: Alas, why did I forget to wish you goodnight...
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