By: a guest on May 8th, 2012
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I’d say the first thing that fucked me up was when I was in elementary school. I was mocked and bullied because I had quite a big nose for my age. I also got my fair share of punches for never being able to shut up in class. I’d constantly yell out the answers when everybody was patiently raising their fingers. When I was in second grade I got switched to third grade because the fuckers figured I was hyperintelligent or some bullshit. I was still in elementary school when my father died. I never really talked to anyone about it and just moved on. Rough times were had when I moved to a new school upon entering the 5th year of school. I made some friends mostly outsiders and the popular kids were still mocking me because of my nose and never standing up for myself. I adapted the role of being the clown and at this point I literally had no shame (get your head out of the gutter, I wasn’t walking around naked). It seemed to work as they left me alone and mocked some other poor soul. I switched classes yet again when it was time for my 7th year of school. I found 2 really great buddys, one which was a natural and the other was a distinction between an alpha and beta. He was confident and surely good looking but he didn’t really have leader qualitys. The natural was incredibly good at school (His father is a dentist, his mother does something with taxes. They put a lot of pressure on him, but he was able to cope with it quite good). The other guy was also quite decent. I, still being the fucking clown, fucked up my grades and had to switch schools after I failed my 8th year (Before that 2 girls joined our small group, it was okay but I felt a little bit awkward talking with them like they were always belittling me). You may see that there’s a pattern of never really keeping any friends for more than 2 years. New school was okay, I never really spoke to anyone, just this one guy who had bad grades and eventually failed the class, leaving me again with no friends. The next year the alpha of the class slowly started introducing me into his group. I wasn’t popular but I was sorta accepted. He got kicked out of school for taking drugs on a trip. 9th year of school and I’m back at 0. I got into the group of 1 natural, 1 alpha and 1 beta with a gf, by befriending the beta. He introduced me to the group and they welcomed me quite well. Now I’ve become a bit more cocky and the alpha is a sorta close friend now (Bear in mind that the natural is the AMOG not the alpha). The natural accepted me but the beta starts sensing a threat. He’s been posturing me and trying to establish dominance over me for quite a while now. This is where I’m at.
16 years old, a total of 3 friends, never getting invited to anything.