lost love

sometimes i still call just to hear the voicemails,
 checked you on the book , but you never  post well,
 i should've seen the papertrail,
 then i got the call and all the details, my face turned pale,
I didn't believe it , you left me with this burden,
 i didnt believe it , you left me hurting,
i just need to be alone, sip some patron,
 all the weed is gone,
   baby why have you forskanen me ,
 blinded by your beauty, i shouldve seen the pain beneath,
now you left me with that pain, sometimes i wanna do same thing , point a tec to my brain, i aint the same, look what youve made me become , i want all of this undone , a repeat so i can save you before you jumped from the seat, i feel so incomplete,
 the pain is bittersweet , knowing your right up in heaven where you post to be, but you left me alone , all i got is this muddy , the liquor, the bubbly, i dont want to no cudi, the feelin aint even funny,
 all i see is storms, and there wont be no sunny, im missin you , deeply with a passion, maybe i should take a knife and stab in ,
 to the heart, just to be next to you, buried in the same tomb, 6 feet under with you , im stuck to you like glue,
 maybe i'll see you, in heaven hell, hell it'll be a rendezvou, maybe i should do it on the weekend, when everbody sleepin,  all the blood leakin, the same way you cut your wrist, while wearin the necklace , i gave you, shouldve been on time to save you,
 all the blame is on me, all the pain i carry baby i sorry

hook:
  it hurts i know,
  it hurts i know,
 a bullet in my head,
 to release my soul,
 it hurts i know,
 it hurts i know,
 heart full of pain,
 i aint the same,
 i aint sane,