are you ok
[1/18/2015 10:59:05 PM] Shivy: jack told me that you're upset
[1/18/2015 10:59:10 PM] Shivy: you made joy upset...
[1/18/2015 11:09:33 PM] Joy ♥♥: you said you wanted to forgive me.
[1/18/2015 11:09:39 PM] Joy ♥♥: forget*
[1/18/2015 11:09:43 PM] Joy ♥♥: sorry.
[1/18/2015 11:09:45 PM] Shivy: i said i wanted to.
[1/18/2015 11:09:49 PM] Shivy: i didnt say i would.
[1/18/2015 11:10:03 PM] Joy ♥♥: yeah, i'm in a call with him.
[1/18/2015 11:10:23 PM] Shivy: is there anything for me to say
[1/18/2015 11:10:28 PM] Shivy: or are just upset me with and i need to go?
[1/18/2015 11:10:48 PM] Joy ♥♥: i'm not upset with you, i'm upset with myself
[1/18/2015 11:11:01 PM] Shivy: you don't need to be i tried to leave on a good note
[1/18/2015 11:11:06 PM] Joy ♥♥: i've been blaming myself for the past half hour with jack.
[1/18/2015 11:11:07 PM] Shivy: if you don't want me to leave
[1/18/2015 11:11:12 PM] Shivy: i'll get over it and be friends with you
[1/18/2015 11:11:15 PM] Shivy: just stop being upset
[1/18/2015 11:12:00 PM] Joy ♥♥: it'd make you sad.
[1/18/2015 11:12:08 PM] Shivy: it makes me sad that you're upset.
[1/18/2015 11:12:19 PM] Shivy: so tell me what I need to do so you're not upset
[1/18/2015 11:14:26 PM] Joy ♥♥: up2u
[1/18/2015 11:14:40 PM] Joy ♥♥: quote coco
[1/18/2015 11:14:42 PM] Joy ♥♥: C;
[1/18/2015 11:14:43 PM] Shivy: up2u
[1/18/2015 11:14:48 PM] Joy ♥♥: up2u
[1/18/2015 11:14:51 PM] Shivy: no
[1/18/2015 11:48:06 PM] Joy ♥♥: hi
[1/18/2015 11:48:15 PM] Shivy: hi
[1/18/2015 11:48:25 PM] Joy ♥♥: whats up nigga
[1/18/2015 11:48:32 PM] Shivy: i am sitting here
[1/18/2015 11:48:36 PM] Shivy: weaboo
[1/18/2015 11:48:42 PM] Joy ♥♥: noobs
[1/18/2015 11:48:44 PM] Joy ♥♥: le
[1/18/2015 11:48:45 PM] Joy ♥♥: nooble
[1/18/2015 11:48:46 PM] Joy ♥♥: yes
[1/18/2015 11:48:48 PM] Joy ♥♥: typos
[1/18/2015 11:48:52 PM] Shivy: muy typo
[1/18/2015 11:48:58 PM] Joy ♥♥: MUY TYPO
[1/18/2015 11:49:05 PM] Shivy: yes
[1/18/2015 11:49:45 PM] Joy ♥♥: im tired
[1/18/2015 11:49:53 PM] Shivy: sleep if you want sleep
[1/18/2015 11:50:04 PM] Shivy: i was going to sleep at 11 but right before i layed down i was told you were upset
[1/18/2015 11:50:12 PM] Shivy: so rip
[1/18/2015 11:50:59 PM] Joy ♥♥: rip in kill
[1/18/2015 11:51:06 PM] Joy ♥♥: go 2 sleep faggot
[1/18/2015 11:51:06 PM] Shivy: rip in weaboo
[1/18/2015 11:51:09 PM] Shivy: no faggot
[1/18/2015 11:51:31 PM] Shivy: are you going to be ok
[1/18/2015 11:52:00 PM] Joy ♥♥: yes
[1/18/2015 11:52:13 PM] Shivy: nooble
[1/18/2015 11:52:19 PM] Joy ♥♥: nooble
[1/18/2015 11:52:26 PM] Shivy: weaboo
[1/18/2015 11:52:27 PM] Joy ♥♥: this is exactly what i wanted thank you
[1/18/2015 11:52:31 PM] Joy ♥♥: weaboo
[1/18/2015 11:52:34 PM] Shivy: faggot
[1/18/2015 11:52:54 PM] Joy ♥♥: dick
[1/18/2015 11:52:57 PM] Shivy: vagina
[1/18/2015 11:53:05 PM] Joy ♥♥: cocksucker supreme overlord
[1/18/2015 11:53:12 PM] Shivy: no ty
[1/18/2015 11:54:01 PM] Joy ♥♥: im sleepyyyyyy
[1/18/2015 11:54:20 PM] Shivy: go sleep
[1/18/2015 11:55:32 PM] Joy ♥♥: ok i am now
[1/18/2015 11:56:09 PM] Joy ♥♥: goodnight
[1/18/2015 11:56:49 PM] Shivy: sleep well
[1/19/2015 2:27:28 AM] Shivy: I'm so sorry that you were upset and crying, but I need to learn to care about myself instead of others. If you're upset, then you're upset. If we're too busy for a relationship then we're too busy to be friends. There is no point to a forced friendzone we can't even talk; we just have a awkward silence where I sit there and wonder why I'm in the call. This is harsh but at least you can relate to how I felt when you left 6 times. I left one time for a few hours and you left for weeks; where I would wonder what I did and then I would type that I'm sorry and then It'd start again. I care about your health and I don't want you to cry or anything but I've been sitting here trying to sleep for the last 2 hours just crying and wondering why and I've decided that even if you're upset I need to be able to make myself happy and stop relying on others. It's kinda pathetic actually how much I've relied on you and other people to make me feel secure about myself. I wouldn't have sent another message like this but honestly; If I didn't I would just ignore you or at least try to. As harsh as this sounds I was only willing to be your friend so you would stop balling your eyes out. But you'll be fine, really when you think about it like I did the friendship won't even matter. We're not going to meet;we're not going to talk much, dnd we don't matter to each other at all or at least soon we won't. It's kinda funny I guess I remember talking to  people and telling them the max it would ever last was a month lol. It's not that you're a bad person but you said you understood and you don't seem to. If you can leave 6 times then I'm sure I can leave.In all seriousness this should have just never happened; it was a mistake and will always be looked at one. A lesson I guess I'm not sure what to call it. I don't want to go back and forth like we use to with not talking for a week and then not talking again. There's just no reason to be friends other than making you happy and I have no reason to make you happy anymore. It's dumb, if I have to I might just have to block both of you (you and jack) so I can actually get over something without being told at 11 at night my ex girlfriend is balling her eyes out because of something I've said. Probably going to regret doing this and I already feel like trash but that feeling won't go away for a while even if you  don't end up sending this. I just don't see any progress at all if we stay friends; I would just end up saying something that would make you leave since you have no reason to care. Crossroad choice and I need to stay down this route. I only said I would forget you because I'm upset and I don't see myself being happy at all with this. I was planning on just not talking to you at all for a few days and seeing if you would leave yourself so I would have nothing to regret. I guess this is why I shouldn't have became friends with some random person on a forum all 3 times that happened they all ended. Justin,Fesk,You and probably others if I'm dumb enough. I just don't know what to do if we were to even stay friends calling each other weaboos and noobles isnt really appealing to me at all. Please forget this happened; it was a mistake that made us both upset in the end. I'm sorry but there's no real nice way to put anything; we're just not compatible and there's no reason to wait for the bomb to go off. Sorry about the grammar not much effort was put into it since its 2 am, at least try to be happy please though I doubt there's a nice way to say goodbye. I said goodbye before because I wanted an ending and I still want one if it's heartless. Please don't blame yourself, just blame this ever happening in general instead of being upset forget it happened or try to. I'll remember you and will 9/10 chance regret sending this but it needs to be sended. going to block you both so I don't have to deal any reaction when I get up it's better to leave without ever knowing what they think. Don't hate me I'm just doing what I still believe needs to be done.
[1/19/2015 2:36:02 AM] Shivy: if you didnt read the tl;dr then you and jack are blocked and i need to get over it oxox bye
[1/19/2015 2:36:10 AM] *** Shivy blocked Joy ♥♥ ***