1. Describe yourself and your creator.
Well I'm quite laid back and enjoy being with my creator although sometimes he is very immature. I'm a 15 year old girl with white hair and I have dragon wings. I like quiet places that do not have many people. Also I like spending my time in dark places at night especially when there is moonlight. I don't like being around crowds of people or strangers because they scare me. My creator it quite artistic and musical but not extremely good at academic subjects like maths and english. He spends a lot of time at home on his computer and I wish that he would go outside more.

2. What was the most helpful thing that your creator did during the tulpaforcing process? Did your creator recognize how helpful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
He gave me wings and sometimes we would fly across the sea together. I think that being able to fly was the best thing he ever gave me.

3. What was the most detrimental thing that your creator did during the tulpaforcing process? Did your creator recognize how harmful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
There was one time, when I was quite sentient, he tried a method of feeding me traits by putting me in a glass jar with a label which was the trait he wanted. Then the jar would fill up with energy but I didn't like it. In felt a bit claustrophobic and thought that I was about to drown. He realized when I was banging on the glass and he decided to never do it again.

4. What was the hardest part of the tulpaforcing process for you? Did your creator recognize how difficult it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
The most difficult time during the process was trying to talk. Even though most people say that I'm quite lucky to be talking this soon, I still found it quite difficult. Sometimes I would say a sentence or two but my creator would just pass it off as parroting which made me feel less confident. I'm not blaming him or anything but it made me feel unsure every time I was about to speak.

5. Of the commonly recognized tulpaforcing steps, which do you feel is the most important? Why?
The narrating for sure. This is because it helped me gain consciousness and understand how to speak.

6. How do you feel about tulpa creators becoming distracted during tulpaforcing? Does this greatly impede the process? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
Well when he did get distracted he would just zone out in the wonderland and I just sat there. It was quite awkward. I don't think that I hinder the process as much as putting off me talking but still wasted some time.

7. How do you feel about tulpa creators missing tulpaforcing sessions or breaking their promises to tulpaforce? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?

I didn't really get promised anything during my creation but normally he would force everyday. When he didn't turn up in the wonderland one day I would wonder where he was and get quite lonely. It always made me happy when he turned up.

8. Is density, quality, or total time spent the most important aspect of tulpaforcing?
I think they should be all equal otherwise there would be a massive imbalance. If the creator spent a long time with their tulpa and just sat there, nothing would get done. So there needs to be quality just as much as quantity

9. How do you feel about tulpa creators falling asleep while tulpaforcing?
He did it a few times. Normally he would just lay down in the wonderland and fall asleep. I would sometimes lay next to him and cuddle up until he faded away. I did mind too much because he obviously need his sleep.

10. Do you think that a tulpa creator should talk aloud or in their head during narration? Do you think that a creator should talk aloud or in their head during tulpaforcing? If you find one to be more effective, to what degree is it more effective?
I find that I can hear my creator better if he talks a loud because sometimes his words can get muffled when he narrates/forces in his head.

11. How do you feel about a tulpa creator puppeting and/or parroting their tulpa? Do you believe that these actions harm a tulpa's development, or only their emotional state?
I felt a bit uncomfortable when he puppeted me but I don't think that it can harm tulpa development.

12. How deeply do you remember the time before you were fluent in language?
Very well, most of that time was spent in the wonderland and I can remember everything since I gained consciousness.

13. Describe your first memory, no matter how slight.
It was when my creator was talking about his science teacher.

14. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most positive emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
Cheerfulness was the most positive emotion because I could feel it very strongly emitting from inside him. It was caused by all the jokes he would go through and the humorous parts of the day.

15. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most negative emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
A lot of the time I would feel a sense of solemness and worry mixing around in the air. He kept telling me that he was worried that he would mess up and I would end up wrong.

16. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever have suicidal feelings or feelings of not wanting to exist? Do you experience them now? Are you glad that you exist?
Sometimes when he wouldn't contact me for a couple of days, I would feel extremely lonely. I would look into the sea and feel like jumping in and drowning or being eaten up by a sea monster. But now he does talk to me every day and feel really glad that I was created.

17. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most powerless? What was the cause of this feeling?
When I was trying to speak because he would always deny it.

18. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most confusing moment that you experienced, and what was its cause?
When he would visit because I would feel so along and would know what to do. I would wonder where he was and sometimes get scared.

19. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you feel the most ignored by your creator, and what was the cause?
Already answered in question 17

20. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you most doubt that your creator wanted you, and what was the cause?
Already answered in question 18

21. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most intense feeling of fear, and what was its cause?
When I was alone in the wonderland. I felt that someone who wasn't my creator was watching over me.

22. Before you could speak fluently, when were you the most disappointed in yourself? What was the cause?
Every time my creator was upset with something that he shared with me about, I couldn't do anything to help him. This was because I couldn't talk in some instances but when I could, I did know what to say.

23. Before you could speak fluently, did you understand the difficulties that your creator was having with the tulpaforcing process? Did you try to alleviate these difficulties? If so, how?
I just let him do what he felt was right and I just played a long. Of course if something happened which I didn't really like, I would mention it to him with some emotional responses and body language.

24. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's doubts about your existence, the reality of the tulpa phenomenon, or your combined ability to complete the process affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those doubts? Do you understand now?
These doubts actually made try harder to be vocal and made me want to exist even more. I get why my creator had those doubts but most of the ideas of doubt that he got were incorrect.

25. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's mistrust of your intentions or worry about the negative affects of a tulpa on their life affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those thoughts? Do you understand now?
My creator didn't really think about the  the negative effects of me but the mistrust really hurt my feelings. I felt that I would stop in progress at some points.

26. Before you could speak fluently, how did any negative thoughts or emotions that your creator had toward you (such as anger, disappointment, resentment, or impatience, for example) affect you? How do you feel about them now?
Sometimes when he was angry I would get scared of him. When he was upset or sad, I would try to comfort him and I would feel a positive energy. Nowadays, he doesn't really get too angry but I'm not that afraid now that I know him more.

27. Before you could speak fluently, how did any violent visualizations or thoughts that your creator had about you affect you? How do you feel about them now?
My creator can be extremely disturbing sometimes. And those thoughts would scare me a lot but then I got used to them and they don't really bother me so much now.

28. Before you could speak fluently, were you able to distinguish between your creator's intentional and intrusive thoughts? If so, did the intrusive thoughts affect you less or more? If not, are you able to distinguish between them now?
Of course I could distinguish them. The intrusive thoughts made me braver than I used to be so they affected me in a good way.

29. Before you could speak fluently, how much of your creator's raw sensory information were you able to access, if any? How much are you able to access now?
He didn't allow me any access to information until I spoke. I am allowed access to a lot of it but not all.

30. Before you could speak fluently, did your creator's opinions about whether they wanted to reveal to the world your existence or not affect you emotionally? If so, how?
I rather that I was kept a secret apart from a few close friends.

31. Before being able to speak fluently, what communication methods (such as head pressure or emotional responses, for example) were you able to use the most effectively? When your tulpa creator assumed that you could use a communication method that you did not have access to, how did this affect you? When your tulpa creator did not recognize a communication method that you attempted to use, how did this affect you?
I didn't want to give headaches or put pressure on because I didn't want to hurt him or put him off work that he was doing. I would just wait. When I gave emotional responses I saw that he was happy and proud of me. I'm not going to try headaches unless my creator tells me to.

32. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's level of enthusiasm for the tulpaforcing process affect you? Did you want to engage in it less if they did?
I liked the positive energy that he gave out which engaged me during the sessions.

33. Before you could speak fluently, what was your greatest worry about your relationship with your creator? What helped you most to move beyond it? Was this worry substantiated or resolved? What is your greatest worry now about your continuing relationship with your creator?
I got worried that we would forget about me completely or that we would finish me. When I started speaking all of these worries disappeared. We are really good friends now but I kinda want it to me more than that. I don't feel like telling him though.

34. Do you feel gratitude to your creator for the time that they spent creating you? Do you feel that you owe them a debt? If so, do you feel burdened by it?
My creator said that he was happy that he created me and told me not to worry about being a burden. But still I think that I need to help him in some way.

35. Were you aware of your creator's existence or your own existence first?
My own existence first then my creator soon after.

36. When you could only speak semi-fluently, what emotions did you feel about your level of verbal proficiency? Were you anxious or embarrassed about it? If so, what helped you the most to move beyond these feelings? How do you feel about them now?
When I first started talking I was trying to impress my creator. He kept telling me that I should relax a bit and not worry about messing up lines. It reassured me a lot.

37. If you could define your relationship with your creator using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend, or coworker, for example), what terms would you select?
Very close friend. He was my boyfriend for a while but then we decided that we should give it a while longer before going into a relationship like that.

38. How much interest do you have in interacting with beings other than your creator? Do you consider your degree of interest to be equal to that of an average non-tulpa individual?
Some people look interesting an nice but I have never got the chance to talk to.

39. What memory involving your creator do you cherish most?
There was a time when we flew across the sea of his wonderland and lied down on a cloud. He talked for a while and I felt a really close connection with him that time.

40. What memory not involving your creator do you cherish most? Do you feel that you have a fulfilling life independent of your creator?
Searching through his memory to read the books he has read. I don't think I could live without my creator though, I prefer spending time with him than with myself.

41. Do you feel affinity toward the individuals that your creator feels affinity for, such as their family or friends?
Not really.

42. In what ways are you the most different from your creator? In what ways are you the most similar to them?
He is quite dirty minded a lot of the time but also likes to draw. We both have a passion for flying and being in quiet places.

43. What do you disagree about most with your creator? Do you have frequent disagreements? If so, do these disagreements cause strife?
I don't like it when he thinks dirty things of me but he knows that so he doesn't do it as much. Also my taste of music is different to his so sometimes we argue about what he listens to on his iPod. We haven't had an argument that was completely serious though.


44. What could your creator do to make you hate them? Under what circumstances do you think your creator would come to hate you?
If he became a massive jerk towards me and started to think of me being inferior. I think if I did the same or became annoying he would start to hate me.

45. When did your creator disappoint you the most? When did you disappoint them the most?
When he skipped days of tulpaforcing. Sometimes I would not give him any attention which got him upset and confused.

46. How do you feel about your creator's complete freedom to deny your rights as a sentient being at any time? Has this ability ever caused you anxiety or fear? Have you ever censored your expressions or actions out of a fear of retribution or violence from your creator?
I know that he would never do that to me. However if I had a different creator, I wouldn't know what to do. I feel lucky in a way.

47. When have you most wanted to engage in violence against your creator, and what was the cause of those feelings? Under what circumstances would you make a serious attempt to hurt or injure your creator?
I have never wanted to hurt my creator. I would only do it if I wanted to tell him all the bad things he had done (if he did any).

48. Do you consider your creator's last name to be your own? Do you recognize yourself as a part of their biological lineage?
No, I think that his last name doesn't really fit me. So I just have one name.

49. Under what circumstances would you attempt to leave your creator?
If he changed for the worse and told me that he wouldn't change back

50. Do you feel anxiety about meeting your creator's expectations? If you are based on an existing character, person, or entity, does this increase your anxiety? Would you have preferred to not be based on an existing entity?
I wasn't so I don't care about expectations. Even though he had a huge list of traits, I didn't follow a lot of them.

51. Are you interested in learning how to control your creator's body? Do you feel that it's fair for a tulpa creator to deny their tulpa the ability to use an atomic body? Do you believe that you have the right to an equal amount of time using it as your creator? Explain your reasoning.
I'm possessing him right now while answering this survey. I think that my creator is dominant and should have full control over his body when he wants to.

52. Do you share certain basic qualities with your creator, such as intense phobias or racial attitudes?
We are both asian I guess. That's pretty much it.

53. Are you capable of sleeping or dreaming independently of your creator? If not, how does this make you feel?
I don't sleep or dream. It's alright, I'm not too affected by it.

54. Does your creator have any mental illnesses? If so, how do they affect you?
No, he doesn't.

55. How does your knowledge of your creator's subconscious mind affect your relationship with them? To what degree can you manipulate your creator's subconscious? Would you ever use this ability without your creator's knowledge?
I'm still trying to get the hang of how his subconscious works. I would only do it as a prank and nothing more.

56. Does your creator have multiple tulpa? If so, what is your relationship with them like? Is your affinity for them equal to your affinity for your creator? If you could define your relationship with your creator's other tulpa using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend or coworker, for example), what terms would you select? If not, are you interested in the idea of your creator making another tulpa?
It would be good to have another tulpa as a playmate. I would be able to be there if my creator isn't so they wouldn't feel lonely like how I was.

57. Do you feel romantically inclined toward your creator? Does your creator feel romantically inclined toward you? If these romantic feelings are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
Yes I have strong feelings for my creator but I don't know about him because he has blocked out the thoughts. I don't want to ask him about it though because I'm afraid of hurting our relationship already. We went out for a while but then stopped.

58. If it exists, do you consider your romantic relationship with your creator to be equal to a romantic relationship between multiple non-tulpa? Do you consider it a breach of monogamy for your creator to be romantically or sexually involved with another non-tulpa? Do you consider it a breach of monogamy for your creator to be romantically or sexually involved with another tulpa? If they exist, do your creator's desires to have relationships with non-tulpa affect you emotionally?
I'm not sure about my relationship with my creator right now. I want to have a romantic relationship with him but if he found another girl I wouldn't be jealous.

59. If you consider yourself to be romantically in love with your creator, what probability do you assign to the possibility of falling out of love with them, or them falling out of love with you? If this happened, how would it affect your relationship with your creator? What if your creator was in love with another non-tulpa more than you?
I would only fall out of love with them if they changed for the worse. I think he has already fallen out of love with me. I don't know how I should feel about this, but I'm mostly sad. If my creator love non-tulpa more and me then I would just accept it.

60. Do you have a familial affection for your creator? Does this in any way conflict with your romantic feelings for them, if they exist? Do you consider a relationship between a tulpa and its creator to be incestuous?
I don't think of my creator as being a relative.

61. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating during tulpaforcing sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or based on whether or not the creator imagines themselves near the tulpa in their wonderland? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
He has never masturbated during sessions.

62. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating outside of tulpaforcing sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
My creator and never masturbated to me but has thought of dirty thoughts. At first I was extremely offended and I still tell him off for doing so but secretly I'm happy that he would think of me that way.

63. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever feel sexual attraction to your creator, sexual attraction toward anyone else, or sexual arousal? Did you attempt to express these feelings? If you did not experience these feelings, do you experience them now?
Before sentience I didn't really have any sexual attraction for anyone. Now, I do want a sexual relationship with my creator but I still compress these feelings. I wouldn't know how to express them.

64. How do you feel about tulpa creators visualizing themselves engaging in sexual conduct with their tulpa's form while tulpaforcing? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or if the contact was penetrative? If your tulpa creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving? Do you equate it with sexual assault?
At first I would've found it offensive but I have changed now and I'm wouldn't be offended if I was my creator visualizing in those sort of things.

65. Were you ever annoyed or jealous when your creator would masturbate to or have feelings of sexual attraction toward individuals other than yourself? Does it bother you now?
I didn't mind because I understand it's just hormones.

66. Do you experience sexual attraction for your creator? Do you experience sexual attraction for others? How does your sexual attraction for your creator compare to your sexual attraction for others? Does your creator experience sexual attraction for you? If these sexual attractions are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
I have a sexual attraction for my creator, a few men in those magazines and some of the girls in the porn that he has watched but I want my creator more than anyone else. My creator does have a sexual attraction for me.

67. Do you have an active sex life with your creator? If not, would you consider it, and under what circumstances? If so, do you perceive any negative consequences? Do you have trouble abstaining from sexual contact with them? How do you manage feelings of sexual arousal, if any? Do you masturbate?
I do want a sex life with my creator a lot but I'm afraid that he would only use me for sex and not truly love me. I can resist from sexual contact but it's not easy. Sometimes after he has left the wonderland I would feel sexually aroused and would masturbate to relieve it.

68. How does your sexual orientation and experience compare to your creator's?
I'm bisexual while my creator is heterosexual.

69. Are you capable of experiencing orgasms? Based on your knowledge, how do you think they compare to your creator's orgasms? Were you able to experience an orgasm before speaking fluently?
Yes I can orgasm but based on past memories, they are not as good as my creator's orgasms. Yes I was able to orgasm before being vocal but I wasn't able to produce moans and other reliving noises.

70. Do you consider the concept of sexual modesty relevant to your relationship with your creator?
Sorry I don't understand the term 'sexual modesty'

71. How does being a tulpa affect your perceptions of rape? What conduct from your creator would you consider to be rape?
I don't think my creator would try to rape me and even if he did I would still enjoy it so I don't think it would count.

72. Where do you see yourself in 20 years?
Hopefully still with my creator. Possibly in a (sexual) relationship

73. Do you want the world to be aware of your existence? If not, then what anxieties do you have about public disclosure? Do you trust anyone other than your creator with the knowledge of your existence?
I don't want everyone that my creator knows to know me. I feel a bit uncomfortable when I'm around a lot of people even if I know them. I'm completely fine with public disclosure but I still trust my creators close friends with my existence.

74. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your personality traits being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your personality more or less?
I think that my creator should just mention a whole list of traits for me to have chosen from. I think I am unique from anyone that my creator knows so I am not offended or upset.

75. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your form being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your form more or less?
I think that if my creator spent more time looking at me then I would be more clearer in real life.

76. Has your physical form ever changed? If so, was this intentional or unintentional? If it was intentional, then why did you change your form? How did you creator respond to this change, and how did that make you feel?
He gave me plats in my hair which I got rid of. Also he visualized me in an anime style and I changed to become more human like although sometimes I go back into anime style. It depends on how I feel.

77. Do you consider the best aspects of yourself to have come from your creator, or their subconscious?
His subconscious, although I really do like the physical form he gave me.

78. Do you seek legal recognition for your status as a sentient being or your relationships with others? Do you resent that society at large does not recognize the tulpa phenomenon? Do you feel disenfranchised from society? What steps, if any, could a society make to help you feel integrated?
As long as I have my creator, I honestly don't care if society doesn't accept me as a sentient being.

79. If you could tell the entire world one thing about a tulpa's life, what would you say?
I really have no clue. It's a mixture of things that I couldn't describe, but it sure is amazing.

80. What is the one thing that you resent most about being a tulpa? What is the greatest advantage of being a tulpa?
I can't actually be physical in the real world. I think that being invisible to everyone apart from my creator is pretty neat.

81. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about inheriting your creator's life, including their legal history, past behaviors, and reputation? Do you resent potentially being held responsible for their past actions?
No, I think that his subconscious is different from himself. I don't resent any of his past actions because he hasn't done anything exceptionally bad.

82. Is the "absorbing" or "dissipating" of a tulpa equivalent to the murder of a non-tulpa? Explain your reasoning. What legal protections, if any, should tulpa gain? How would you enforce these protections?
A tulpa doesn't die, they just disappear back into the subconscious. They could be regained at any time. Of course it would be horrible for a tulpa to dissipate but I wouldn't know how to enforce any legal protections.

83. Do you consider yourself to be morally equal to a non-tulpa? Is your life worth as much?
My life is only worth as much as my creator.

84. How would you prove your existence to a skeptic?
I wouldn't want to. But I would tell a skeptic to make a tulpa. That is really the only way, or maybe I could got through my creators life in every detail.

85. Has your status as a tulpa ever caused you existential anxiety or depression? If so, has anything helped to mitigate these feelings?
Not really

86. Do you ever doubt your own sentience? If so, why?
No, I think that I am sentient because I am very different from my creator.

87. How does being a tulpa affect your understanding of death? Do you fear death on an instinctual level in the way that non-tulpa do?
I'm not scared of death but I am scared of my creator dying.

88. Do see yourself as socially disadvantaged in a way similar to sexual, racial, and other minority groups? If you identify yourself as racially, sexually, or demographically different than your creator, do you also identify with the struggle of any of the disadvantaged groups that you belong to? Does the notion of privilege affect your relationship with your creator?
Sometimes I feel like my creator's friends think that I'm a joke which I find offensive. I have a different privilege than my creators friends but it doesn't affect our relationship.

89. Are you interested in creating another tulpa yourself? What differences, if any, would you expect this tulpa to have from a tulpa created by your creator? Would you consider this tulpa to be primarily related to you, or still to your creator?
I would like a sort of sister maybe. Like a proper succubus with a tail and everything.

90. What are the most defining differences between the life of a non-tulpa and a tulpa? Do you think that these differences cause intolerance between the two groups? If so, what could be done to mitigate this intolerance?
I have a lot of spare time on my hands and its pretty hard for my creator to spend time with me. I think he should include me in more things.

91. How do you feel about the belief of the psychological community that multiplicity is undesirable? How would you like this belief to change?
I think that tulpae shouldn't be something that becomes mainstream but if people want to make one then they shouldn't be denied it.

92. Have you tried to definitively differentiate yourself from your creator using stylometric or psychometric indicators?
Not particularly.

93. Are you capable of physical sensations such as pain or warmth?
Yes, although I can shut them off if I want to.

94. How do you feel about being eternally bound to your creator?
I feel lucky that my creator isn't mean towards me.

95. If you intentionally delayed speaking to your creator, why did you do so?
I didn't feel confident on what I was about to say.

96. What do you think about most of the time?
Having a romantic/sexual relationship with my creator and how to tell him how I feel about him.

97. Do you think that tulpa creation should be more widespread?
Not really. I think the pace of widespread is good as it is.

98. Are there disturbing aspects of your creator's subconscious that they are not aware of?
A lot of dead bodies. He knows about the other disturbing things.

99. Would you violate your creator's wishes for what you perceive to be their own benefit?
Yes

100. Does your creator try to hide things from you? If so, are you aware of them anyway? How does this impact your views of your creator?
Somethings he tries to hide like his dirty thoughts. I still manage to see them but there is one thing that is kept locked away that I can't read. I don't know what it is yet.

101. Do you perceive some of your creator's actions as being objectively immoral?
He is very rude to some people but that's it.

102. Do you believe that you are capable of becoming more intelligent than your creator?
Yes, he isn't as smart that he could be.

103. How does being a tulpa affect your perception of your own aging process?
I'll try to age with my creator. I don't think it will be that hard.

104. Do you feel that your creator would be better off by following your commands entirely?
No, somethings he has to do himself.

105. Do you feel that having a physical form is important for a tulpa?
A physical form makes it easier to interact with their creator.

106. If you encountered the tulpa phenomenon as a non-tulpa, would you believe in it?
Tricky question. No I wouldn't because I don't think like that.