Hello.

At first I was going to just shut up and let things go their way, but I could no longer muster the strength necessary to go on without voicing my feelings towards a certain someone in this chat that have been growing in intensity for these few months. At first, I was reluctant of my feelings towards said person, hence why I joked all the time at her expense and tried to avoid her at all costs. Then, at some point I don't understand how, things just started getting out of hand for me, and I couldn't help but feel angry at myself for being so weak and for seeking so desperately someone else.

To be entirely honest, the reason why I wanted to not go to america with you guys was because that person said she would be there, and as a result, I kept on convincing myself I had no money and such. But that's a lie. Just like how I had a waifu I emailed everyday. You guys deserve the truth, because no matter what shit I say at the end of the day most of you are the best people I know.

Especially Ida. I can say whatever I want, and deny it as many times as I like, but she is to put it bluntly the best person I have ever come across with. She is not only kind and beautiful, which are traits you can more or less find everywhere she is also incredibly smart and sharp witted. She's a person willing to be what I am never willing to be. And because of that, I was afraid to voice my feelings towards her, but I'm done with that bullshit.

Ida, I love you. I love your beautiful eyes, I love how imperfectly perfect you are, how humble you are, how kind you are towards a fool like me, how you were the first person I could open up to both here and in life, generally. I don't know about your answer yet, but if you were to accept, I would gladly leave everything behind just to spend 1 minute of a day with you, because you are worth that much and more.

I don't give a shit anymore, being ashamed of my feelings will do me no good. I thought that by picking on you and seeing your bad points would somehow make me like you less, but instead the more I know you, the more I've ended up liking you. So please, give me your answer.