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6 months. 

Here's a short summary of our relationship, and how it's turned out. I also included a story about you. I hope the summary is accurate, and that the dates match up to what happened. I was doing this by memory. So bear with me if it's innaccurate.  

August 5th 2010

Actually... Let me rewind a bit. Over the last little while up until this date I can say I was lonely. I felt sad, depressed, and everything in betwen. We all want that person in our life that will make the difference. The person that will make us feel what we've never felt before. I wanted that. None of my past relationships (if I can call them that) really mattered to me. I never really felt anything or cared. I just thought it would be better having someone. Truth is, false feelings made everything worse. I ended every relationship I had due to feeling nothing. No love. 

August 5th 2010

My 20th birthday. I decided at this point I'd make some changes. I figured I'd try my hardest to find that girl I've always dreamed of having. After this point I had one relationship which lasted four days. Not once was I happy. Not once did I want to continue this. I ended it. Quickly. I decided that maybe something is wrong with me. Maybe I'm not what anyone would look for. Maybe I wouldn't amount to anything. As time went on, I was somewhat content. I was somewhat okay with how things were going. As December approached, I was getting sad again. I was becoming unhappy. I was depressed. I wanted to be with that special person for Christmas. The beginning of December came with no success. Now, I move on to a significant moment. 

December 10th 2010. 

It's 11:09 PM. I wake up feeling weird. I had a strange feeling. I sat for two minutes wondering about things. Pondering life. 11:11 PM hits. A huge life changer. My exact words at this time were "I wish for that perfect girl. I don't wanna be alone for the holidays. I want someone who I can call mine.". I sat for another minute thinking. I then fell asleep. 

December 11th 2010. 

My big day. I woke up feeling like it would be a good day. The morning progressed. Time went on. Nothing happened. Later that day it happened. There she was. Out of nowhere she came into my life. We started talking. This same day we decided we'd be together. We'd give it a go and see if we'd work. Was my wish answered? Did my dreams come true? Yes. After talking to this amazing girl for hours, I had fallen for her. I fell hard. You know like when you fall and smash your face and break your nose. You'd have to fall hard. That's how hard I fell.... LOLWTF. But honestly, in all seriousness, I experienced love for the first time. I loved it. Ever millisecond of it. I never wanted this feeling to end. We both wanted each other badly. Something I never experienced. I will admit, at first I was a bit skeptical based on the way things were going. But I was in love. So I decided this girl was important so I'd see how it went. Time passed. I got my wish to have someone for Christmas. Our love grew stronger. She became my world. Next, another big event happened. 

December 30th 2010. 

We left to go on a trip to Florida. I knew it was gonna be hard. It was. I missed her so much. At this point I knew it was meant to be. I knew my love was real. This was it. My first love experience. The trip was fun, but torture being away from her. Never again do I wanna be away from her.  

January 9th 2011. 

A new year. A day before her birthday. We returned from our trip and told each other how hard it was. Being away for that long. Our love stayed true. Not once did I think she'd do anything wrong while I was gone. I trusted her with everything. 

January 10th 2011. 

Her birthday. I was so proud. She turned 18. I was so happy because this is a significant age. Our relationship now became legal. Not that there was anything wrong when it wasn't. Wink ;). 

January 11th 2011. 

One month. Up to this point I was starting to ser that we could work. I realized that maybe this girl is accepting me for who I am. Maybe I actually am something. I still didn't believe this was real. I thought it was all a dream and that I'd soon wake up to my reality. We took it to the next level and started voice chatting. This to me was a huge factor for our relationship. I heard the most adorable voice. The cutest girl ever. I never wanted that first chat to end. Sadly, it had to. But more would follow. More time passed, and now everything really starts. 

February 11th 2011. 

Move ahead to our two months. I'm still in awe at this girl. I can't even put into words how she makes me feel. This is now my longest relationship. It's what I wanted. I wouldn't have wanted my longest relationship with anyone else. Love has taken over both of us. Now everything starts turning. We start having numerous fights and breakups. They start off small, and short. We don't let anything stand in our way though. We get back together and apologize. Love allows us to keep it together. By now, we've had a few voice chats over skype and I built up enough courage to allow her to hear me say those three words. The three words we all long to hear; "I love you". It was hard for me because I'm so shy, but she deserved those words. She was the only one I'd ever say it to. I loved that moment. I now get butterflies when she speaks to me. I still do to this day. More of this would follow.      

March 11th 2011.

We've now been inseparable for three months. It all hit me hard. This girl is my dream girl. She's everything I'd ever want. I knew at this point she was the one. That person that we  all strive for is all mine. I want her forever. We've both made a promise of forever. We'd never leave each other. I do my best to be what she wants me to be, but I still be myself. I then see our relationship going downhill. It starts looking bad. The fights get worse, the breakups last longer. Somehow though, we push through. I realize I need her in my life. Love keeps us strong. It keeps us together.  

April 11th 2011.

Four months. Everything seemed to take a turn for the worst somehow. We've fought alot by now. It seemed as though maybe it wasn't meant to be. Suicidal thoughts started. A love/hate relationship began. It wasn't so much hating each other, but hating the way things were going. If she wasn't so perfect, I may have been able to just let it end. But she's too perfect. It managed to turn positive. The situations were fixed. We worked everything out. We we're together again. Planning our future we both so badly wanted. This girl is my all. My everything. I knew I had to devote all my time and effort to her. I wanted to do everything for this girl. I realize that girls like this never happen to anyone. I got so lucky. She's the cutest thing on this earth. Nothing even compares. No one could ever come close to making me feel how she does. I want more. 

May 11 2011.

It's now been five months. By this time our love won't allow us to be broken apart.. Or so it seemed. Many mistakes were made. Hurt was brought into our relationship. I didn't mean or intend to make these mistakes or hurt her. Things just happened. Still, I refuse to let her get hurt. Even if somehow she'd hurt me, I'd put my heart into making sure she's not hurt. Up to five months have been the rockiest. We've had so many more fights. But even after all the arguing, fighting, and pain we're still together after 149 days. I have no regrets. I mean, I'm with my dream girl what is there to regret? How could I regret being with someone so beautiful; so perfect? I will admit, I regret any pain I caused her, any problems I've caused, or any arguments that have started because of me. 

June 11th 2011. 

Fast forward to now. Six months of being with someone so amazing. We've now had the worst of the worst happen. Fights were bad. Breakups were long. Pain was caused. It seemed as though maybe it would all end. All be done. Over. I knew I had to change at this point. I had to do everything I could to show her I cared. I had to show her she was still my top priority. I did. It was now back to us planning our future. It's been great recently because we've decided to work through problems when they arise instead of arguing. It's paid off really well. Sure, stuff still happens here and there, but it's all becoming perfect again. The need for each other is growing. I now see things differently. I know I had to change while still being myself to make this work. I changed for the better and it paid off. Six months with my baby. My perfect, beautiful baby. The best girlfriend ever. I love her.  

 

Kara, the six months with you have been the most amazing days I've ever had. I wouldn't have wanted to spend them with anyone else. I wouldn't take back one moment. Maybe the fights and pain I'd take back, but other than that, it's all been so perfect. It's all been amazing. You've been perfect; nothing less. For a while, my life wasn't going as well as I'd have liked. I was making bad decisions. It seemed as though the world was against me. When you came into my life, it made everything better. I had to straighten things up for you. You turned me cute.  A lot of the cute things (as you call them) I've said, I never thought I could say. But you deserve all of it. Anything cute I've said to you was well said. No one else deserves it. I wouldn't ever want to say those three words to anyone else. Two words to describe you: 

per·fect

[adj.,pur-fikt; v., per-fekt]

- adjective 

1. without flaws 

2. excellent

beau·ti·ful

[-tuh-fuhl]

- adjective 

1. having beauty; delighting the senses or mind 

2. wonderful

Both of these words describe you perfectly. Flawless. Having beauty. Every moment with you is one moment in my life that I'd never wanna take back. You, and our relationship are my main focus. The two most important things I have in my life. I cherish these the most. That's why I can't have us not be together. No one like you would ever come my way again. No one could make me feel like you do. I'd never love someone like this again. Perfectness seemed to not exist anywhere. You're the rare exception. I love it. There isn't one thing I'd change about you. You're flawless. I can honestly say, you make me the happiest I've ever been. Sorry if any of this is repetative, but I'm having trouble describing you, and how I feel. There's no words to describe you. I love everything about you. As time moves on, my love for you gets stronger. Sometimes you may feel like I have an obsession with you. I don't. Don't see it that way. Look at it as more of me being in love and not wanting to ever lose you. I don't ever wanna spend a moment away from you. My need to have you with me becomes what seems like a necessity. Every time we talk on skype or the phone I feel the butterflies again. My heart beats so fast. I honestly cannot wait til we meet. There's that one moment everyone wants in their life. That perfect moment they never want to end. The first time we're together, that's what I envision. The moment I first lay eyes on you, the day I spend with you, the night I get to lay in bed and hold you is that moment. I want to wake up, and be able to see your face. The cutest face ever. I'll never want it to end. Nothing though, will beat our first kiss. I'll be sooo shy and nervous. :$ it'll be the most butterflies ever kissing the most beautiful girl on the earth. That's the moment I've longed for. We'll be so cute together, it won't be possible to make us get away from each other. I won't even know what hit me. I'll be paralyzed by beauty; by perfectness being near me. Anyways, I seem to be rambling on and on. I honestly love you more than anything. Let's make our forever be reality. Not just a dream. As my life moved on, I got older. I started seeing my life as a puzzle. As time passed, a new piece was inserted. But, it was like the last piece was missing. I couldn't complete the puzzle. I needed one more piece. I searched for so long for the missing puzzle piece. I grew tired, exhausted, and depressed from not having this final piece. Finally, I found you; the missing piece. You completed my puzzle; my life. Often times I wonder how I got so lucky. Wow. My perfect, beautiful baby is mine forever. My vision of the perfect girlfriend has gone from being in my dreams, to being my reality. Never in my life would I hve thought I'd have this. Me, out of all people. I love you so much baby. Stay perfect. Stay beautiful. Stay mine forever. 

Happy six months. <3

xoxo Gossip Girl loljk. 

Love with all my heart,

Jordan

June 11th 2011.