[20:13:11] Mystery: hey it's me BMC
[20:13:12]  [/feels]
[20:13:26] DrunkCanadian: BMC!
[20:13:35] Its good to see you friend
[20:13:35] Mystery: I feel like trash
[20:13:43] DrunkCanadian: Whats up?
[20:13:48] Mystery: I was thinking about you the other day
[20:13:53] oh a bunch of fucking shit
[20:14:04] fucking people
[20:14:44] DrunkCanadian: Why do you feel like shit tho?
[20:14:59] I thought you quit v4c
[20:15:14] then again, ive been absent here alot
[20:15:17] Mystery: yeah well nothing fucking matters
[20:15:21] so fuck it all
[20:18:56] DrunkCanadian: Don't say that bmc
[20:19:10] Mystery: dude im sick of caring
[20:19:14] every time I care it's wasted
[20:19:16] so why fucking care?
[20:19:20] why
[20:20:04] DrunkCanadian: Its it because you think nobody cares about you?
[20:20:07] Mystery: no
[20:20:27] just nobody cares about me the way I hope
[20:20:35] DrunkCanadian: Cause i care bro
[20:20:50] What do you mean by that?
[20:21:08] Mystery: anytime I meet someone special
[20:21:11] I'm not special to them
[20:21:15] whats the fucking point
[20:21:48] look it doesnt matter I've been up and down and all over when it comes to talking about why I'm fucking depressed
[20:21:50] it makes no difference
[20:22:39] DrunkCanadian: Dude you can't give up
[20:22:54] Mystery: hear that one
[20:23:02] "oh you just gotta try"
[20:23:15] "maybe things wont get better in a week or a month or a year"
[20:23:16] DrunkCanadian: I know what youre  talking about
[20:23:35] im a kissless virigin bmc
[20:23:53] Mystery: at least you dont know what it's fucking like
[20:23:57] at least you havent been fucking used
[20:24:01] and thrown away
[20:24:15] at least you havent had people tell you they love you and then fuck off out of your life
[20:24:31] or loved someone and not had it reciprocated and then you're left realizing oh yeah
[20:24:33] im a fucking loser
[20:24:39] a complete fucking loser
[20:24:43] since day fucking one
[20:25:02] dude fuck muslims
[20:25:17] DrunkCanadian: but youre not a loser
[20:25:25] Mystery:  [/feelsmeh]
[20:25:38] DrunkCanadian: fuck i dont know what to say
[20:25:43] Mystery: if this is what winning looks like
[20:25:53] of course you dont
[20:25:56] and dont bother
[20:26:05] it doesnt fucking matter, im not looking for advice
[20:26:11] I appreciate you as my friend
[20:26:17] and thank you for caring and all
[20:26:23] but lately I wish nobody fucking cared
[20:26:28] im sick of this fucking halfway bullshit
[20:28:56] DrunkCanadian:  [/feel]
[20:29:07] Mystery: i really want to fucking die
[20:29:11] but nobody will let me
[20:29:14] DrunkCanadian: No
[20:29:28] Mystery: ive wanted to for so long
[20:29:38] I didnt think id make it to 2012 much less 2016
[20:30:26] DrunkCanadian: We lost bubba this  year
[20:30:40] I dont want to fucking loose someone else
[20:30:46] Mystery: oh come the fuck on
[20:30:52] everyone was a fucking dick to him
[20:31:01] and then everyone acts like they were best buds
[20:31:11] DrunkCanadian: We'll i wasnt a dick to him
[20:31:15] Mystery: a few people were kind to him
[20:31:27] but thats what he wanted
[20:31:29] he wanted to die
[20:31:31] so what
[20:32:27] whatever
[20:32:27] DrunkCanadian: I cant stop you bmc
[20:32:31] Mystery: I'm done fucking wallowing
[20:32:34] this is fucking stupid
[20:32:44] DrunkCanadian: but all i can say is you can fucking get through this
[20:32:54] Mystery: yeah, I wont kill myself
[20:32:56] im too pussy
[20:33:01] DrunkCanadian: you gotta meet diffrent people