Fuck X2?

Alright just a fair warning, this is going to be a pastebin about me bitching about X2 regarding my frustrations about the game. Basically over the last couple days i have begun to seriously contemplate whether or not i want to even bother with X2 anymore. I know im only 5 seconds away from greatness, but that 5 seconds starts to feel longer and longer every day. The grind for a decent Spogne is getting tedious as fuck and thats honestly never been an issue for me. Its always been annoying, but ive understood that its part of the game. Lately though its been a lot more rough. Even still thats not enough to make me quit. Honestly its not even really the game that pisses me off so much. It's how I fuck up runs. If i lose a run to something with some actual difficulty (i.e Serges fight, that shit is hard as fuck, or even Gator shoryu) i am totally fine with that. But when im -10 coming out of Serges and i miss 2 fucking press neons to lose 8 seconds, and yes thats actually happened that is what fucking kills me. All in all X2 has become so much more of a chore to run than it used to be and im getting sick of it. Its way to stressful and im not sure if i want to keep subjecting myself to it. The only thing thats keeping me here is the fact that im SO FUCKING CLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOSE. 5 seconds is not a lot of time and when ive been -17 out of Centipede lol. 33 is free as fuck. Its highly unlikely that ill stop playing before 33, but it is a possibility if this keeps up.  Gonna take tomorrow to seriously contemplate whether or not ill continue. If youve somehow made it to the end of this without leaving please do me a huge favour and next time you watch my stream please enter chat by saying "pickle banana shits". Thanks in advance and thanks for reading :)