Sedric Lightbury 1800mg DPH

"Downed 1800mg DPH few minutes ago.
Before you ask - I am not trying to an hero. But I do wish to get as close to death as possible. Doors are locked. Phone is off. Wish me luck.

Let`s see how this goes, shall we?"

other poster: "Suicide? Or just having tea with Death?"

"Tea wit h death is what I`m aiming for.
typing this took me way longer than it should havr
Not ure if I1`ll be able to post later on....trip repport will be here. If I stay alive, that is"

*a few posts later*

"Ii weiht 162lb
tre keyboard is breathinng and I cant hear anything"

*still later*

"aaasm i acgthullytying this"
(translation: I am actually typing this)

"

    Holy fucking fuck.

    I`m alive. I have never appreciated that fact more than I do now. FUCK. Still having some visual

    distortions, am feeling SICK, but mostly down now...

    Before I start the trip report, I should warn you kids not to do this much DPH. No matter what. I did it, I`ve

    seen it, you dont have to follow my stupidity. You dont want to go there. Trust me.

    So, about 30 minutes after taking the pills, I started feeling heavy. The feeling was getting increasingly stronger. I tried my best to keep my mind blank, but failed and started freaking out after gaining approx 400lb and having my ears ring so badly I couldn`t hear anything else, including my own voice when I tried talking. Then, for a short moment, my vision went black and white, then flashed back to normal again. After this, the ringing began to go away, and after it was gone, the visuals kicked in. Hardcore.

    First thing I remember - my ceiling, walls and floor were melting and I was being pulled down by an enormous force. However, moving wasn`t too difficult after a bit of trying. Every shadow in my room was crawling with insects. Apart from a big juicy taco right above my head, there was a cluster of centipedes on the floor and some of them were runing around the table.They wouldnt go away when touched. The longer I stared, the more of them would appear, untill I wasnt in my room anymore - everything around me was a moving, living mass. I don`t remember what else happened in this stage, or how did I escape it, but after it went away, some innanimate objects appeared to be breathing and I was afraid to touch them. [ex: keys of the keyboard.]

    I had an extremely dry mouth, so I got up and went to get myself a glass of water. It didn`t help much, but I drank a lot anyway. After finishing the third glass, I heard music coming from the other room, so I went there to check it out. First thing I noticed, there was a human-sized creature standing in the corner. I assumed it was a doll. It would lose it`s parts [arms, legs, head] from time to time, but as soon as I looked away and looked back again, it was whole again. I was afraid to touch it, because I was sure it would hurt me. The doll stayed in that corner diassembling and assembling itself again and again during this whole stage of the trip.

    Second thing I noticed - there was a man dressed in black, his head burried in shadows, sitting on the sofa, and several other people/creatures wandering around, then fading later. Not all of them went away tho - some shadow figures got more human-like in time, and I had some conversations with who I thought were my friends. Everything was extremely realistic. I could touch, hear and smell them. But after a while most of them went away, but the dark man on the sofa stayed where he was. So I went up to him and sat down as well. I couldnt see his face, but didnt pay much attention then. I believe this, my friends, was the hatman himself. All the interaction we had was a handshake and a bit of talking. I said hi to him and he said "Hello, Serdic" back. Then, I asked if I was going to die. He was quiet for a while, then said "Don`t go to Eiriel." After those words, there was a sudden flash of light and I found myself standing in the kitchen with a broken glass on the floor. I went to check the room I was meant to be at. Nothing was there. Suddenly, I felt that the message I got was very important and I HAD to tell others. So I went back to the room, to my computer, and tried to post the phrase on this thread, only to find out I was standing at the other side of the room, facing the wall later. Then I would go back to the computer and repeat what I did, but it would always end the same. I was stuck in a loop. This was extremely terrifying. I think nothing during this trip scared me as much as the thought of being stuck in that loop forever. After this repeated about 6 times, I sent "am I actually typing this", which, surprisingly, got trough. I was extremely relieved.

    Then, another flash followed, and I would hear people knocking at my door, I would go and let them in. We talked Then, one of the guests turned out to be my father. Which is dead. I repeat, everything I saw and heard was extremely realistic, and I took it as reality. I was paralyzed by horror for a moment when I realized I was dead. It was so clear now. I took too much DPH. Too much to come back from where it took me. I asked my father if I was dead. He said no, then I asked how can I be here with him, and he answered "if you can be, you are not dead". We mostly just sat together quietly ignoring the others [they were going on with their own conversations] when a young dark haired man came up to me and offered me a cigarette. I took it and smoked for a bit. It would always become a new, freshly lit one after taking my attention off it for a while. Suddenly, the room went silent. I looked around to see what was up - everyone was gone. My room window was covered with moths now. I figured the people in my room were those moths from the very beginning. After yet another flash, I was laying on my floor, with a sahara desert for a mouth and a mild headache. I managed to go and lay down on the bed. There are many blackouts from this point. Basically, all I can remember are whispers "don`t go to Eiriel" repeating from time to time [I realized I was the one saying that] tacos crawling on my sheets and visual distortions of the room. My thoughts wouldn`t stop bothering me. I thought I could hear screaming. I felt heavy and sick. I probably fell asleep at some point, but I have no clue what I did beforeneath because there are just way too many gaps and no one to tell the story from a different angle."

my faith in humanity=completely restored