[23:31] <Carbohydrates> heya
[23:31] <CapnBeeb> what up
[23:31] <Carbohydrates> just got home, munchin on donuts, cat's being a shit
[23:31] <CapnBeeb> kitty plz
[23:32] <CapnBeeb> You got a few for some personal business?
[23:33] <Carbohydrates> of course
[23:33] <CapnBeeb> Alright
[23:33] <Carbohydrates> I'm not gonna say "what's going on" cause I know
[23:33] <Carbohydrates> bun filled me in when I got home
[23:33] <CapnBeeb> Alright
[23:33] <CapnBeeb> Yeah
[23:34] <CapnBeeb> I know where she's coming from, and that my negativity drags folks down around me
[23:35] <CapnBeeb> And I do -not- wanna make this some kinda wedge between you two and fuck everything to hell
[23:35] <Carbohydrates> hey no worries on that one
[23:35] <Carbohydrates> listen
[23:35] <Carbohydrates> we're two different people and we have our own independent thoughts and opinions
[23:36] <Carbohydrates> and that's fine
[23:36] <CapnBeeb> I just wanna know if I can somehow make things up here
[23:36] <Carbohydrates> weeeeellll
[23:37] <Carbohydrates> I am getting the impression that she does not wish to continue to be friends with you is the thing
[23:37] <Carbohydrates> which, again, does not affect me
[23:37] <CapnBeeb> Yeah
[23:38] <Carbohydrates> like, i read yalls' chat log
[23:38] <CapnBeeb> I didn't even think to ask you if you could sort me out with resume stuff
[23:40] <Carbohydrates> you were asking if coming here was still an option? I don't know if it might have been if it'd come up again in the last five months, but I do know she's not interested anymore
[23:40] <CapnBeeb> Yeah
[23:41] <CapnBeeb> I didn't want to pressure you during your move
[23:41] <Carbohydrates> but you never brought it up
[23:41] <Carbohydrates> or, more to the point, you never pursued it
[23:42] <CapnBeeb> Yeah
[23:42] <Carbohydrates> and like to me, that's a bummer, but it doesn't affect that I enjoy chatting with you and junk
[23:42] <Carbohydrates> but to bun, she's already got a lot of negativity and her own personal struggles
[23:42] <CapnBeeb> Of course
[23:43] <Carbohydrates> and she doesn't like seeing somebody... not take actions to advance the state they're in? I'm trying to phrase this civilly
[23:43] <Carbohydrates> it bothers her much more personally
[23:43] <Carbohydrates> sooooo that's about where y'all stand I guess
[23:43] <CapnBeeb> That's understandable
[23:45] <CapnBeeb> I had been thinking of asking you about moving in recently, not sure what stopped me
[23:51] <CapnBeeb> I don't know
[23:52] <CapnBeeb> Kinda wish Bun had told me this sooner, really motivated me to get my shit together, but
[23:52] <CapnBeeb> I don't know, I'm just making excuses
[23:53] <Carbohydrates> it's not her responsibility
[23:53] <CapnBeeb> Yeah
[23:56] <CapnBeeb> Honestly, let me know if I piss you off
[23:56] <CapnBeeb> You're important to me
[23:57] <Carbohydrates> I don't get upset about it like bun does my dude
[23:57] <Carbohydrates> I believe she has every right to feel how she does and I encouraged her to tell you everything today
[23:57] <Carbohydrates> better to be honest
[23:57] <Carbohydrates> to me it's just like
[23:57] <CapnBeeb> Yeah
[23:58] <CapnBeeb> It was so sudden to me, she's impressed me as the more direct and immediate approach type
[23:58] <CapnBeeb> But I get what she means
[00:00] <Carbohydrates> it's been a building frustration for her though
[00:00] <Carbohydrates> it's not like today she suddenly decided she's super mad about it
[00:01] <CapnBeeb> Right
[00:02] <Carbohydrates> it's more like - we had a plan, an option at least, and it didn't go anywhere, and she continued to see "I hate it here" type posts and shit on tumblr and was like "well if it sucks that bad then do something about it"
[00:02] <Carbohydrates> but that's a super direct and confrontational thing to say
[00:02] <CapnBeeb> Honestly
[00:02] <CapnBeeb> It would've spurred me
[00:03] <CapnBeeb> But I get it
[00:04] <Carbohydrates> but what it comes back to is
[00:04] <Carbohydrates> it's not her responsibility
[00:04] <CapnBeeb> Been hanging on to my guns for a go/no go
[00:04] <CapnBeeb> Yeah
[00:05] <Carbohydrates> like dude we're not gonna throw up a green light and be like "everything is in place let's do this shit" because we're not in charge of your life. do you get what I'm saying? all we did was offer you an option, not put ourselves in charge of life planning. that's the big sticking point right now
[00:05] <Carbohydrates> and I may be repeating myself
[00:05] <CapnBeeb> Right, it was on me to ask
[00:05] <Carbohydrates> yeah.
[00:07] <Carbohydrates> well
[00:07] <Carbohydrates> more than just to ask
[00:07] <Carbohydrates> to come up with the plan
[00:07] <CapnBeeb> Yeah
[00:07] <CapnBeeb> Get the ball rolling
[00:07] <CapnBeeb> Do something
[00:08] <Carbohydrates> yeah. man honestly I was kinda bummed that bun isn't interested in being friends anymore, but that's her choice
[00:09] <Carbohydrates> and I guess if nothing else it allowed her to be her most honest tonight
[00:09] <CapnBeeb> Yeah
[00:14] <CapnBeeb> So I suppose that's that then
[00:16] <Carbohydrates> if you want her to come around, like if you value yalls' friendship enough to pursue that, then she's gonna need time
[00:16] <CapnBeeb> Yeah
[00:16] <Carbohydrates> she doesn't hold a grudge per se but she's also not fast to forget things
[00:17] <CapnBeeb> I thoroughly enjoyed hanging out with her and care about her as much as you, just don't want to make things worse
[00:18] <Carbohydrates> give it time then
[00:19] <CapnBeeb> Alright