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  1. [02.05.2016 18.48.26] Jen ♥: I really fucked up Pup
  2. [02.05.2016 18.48.31] Jen ♥: i am so scared
  3. [02.05.2016 18.50.47] Puppeh: Whats up???
  4. [02.05.2016 18.51.22] Jen ♥: not sleeping for over 30 hours....being talking into shit and everything else has really fucked things up
  5. [02.05.2016 18.52.17] Jen ♥: i need the hell out of my situation
  6. [02.05.2016 18.52.26] Jen ♥: i can't stop shaking
  7. [02.05.2016 18.53.08] Puppeh: You need to sleep doll.
  8. [02.05.2016 18.53.15] Jen ♥: i am quitting imvu
  9. [02.05.2016 18.53.30] Jen ♥: if Daddy and i aren't together i can't handle being on there
  10. [02.05.2016 18.53.44] Jen ♥: i love HIm so much
  11. [02.05.2016 18.53.50] Jen ♥: He is my Everything
  12. [02.05.2016 18.53.54] Puppeh: Then Why did you leave him doll?
  13. [02.05.2016 18.53.57] Jen ♥: i don't know what the hell i was thinking
  14. [02.05.2016 18.54.20] Jen ♥: idk...i want to scream i don't know what happened
  15. [02.05.2016 18.54.56] Puppeh: You should talk to him. He cant thing clearly. Neither can you. Tell ender how it is and then talk to beau.
  16. [02.05.2016 19.02.20] Jen ♥: i am trying to get out of it
  17. [02.05.2016 19.02.32] Jen ♥: Thank You Pup
  18. [02.05.2016 19.02.45] Puppeh: Need some assistance?
  19. [02.05.2016 19.06.16] Jen ♥: i just can't stop shaking i am talking to Her on skype
  20. [02.05.2016 19.08.05] Puppeh: To who ?
  21. [02.05.2016 19.08.22] Jen ♥: Miss Raine
  22. [02.05.2016 19.08.39] Puppeh: What is she saying?
  23. [02.05.2016 19.09.19] Jen ♥: She wants to know why i see this as wrong as what has changed my mind
  24. [02.05.2016 19.09.48] Puppeh: Tell her ur heart is not in it.
  25. [02.05.2016 19.10.58] Jen ♥: Thank You Pup
  26. [02.05.2016 19.11.56] Puppeh: Ofc :)
  27. [02.05.2016 19.20.44] Jen ♥: :/
  28. [02.05.2016 19.21.41] Puppeh: Talk to ne
  29. [02.05.2016 19.21.43] Puppeh: Me*
  30. [02.05.2016 19.33.26] Jen ♥: i am trying to get out of this fucking collar
  31. [02.05.2016 19.33.36] Jen ♥: bullshit
  32. [02.05.2016 19.33.40] Puppeh: They wont let you??
  33. [02.05.2016 19.33.41] Jen ♥: sorry i never cuss
  34. [02.05.2016 19.33.54] Puppeh: Its fine <3
  35. [02.05.2016 19.34.02] Jen ♥: omg finally
  36. [02.05.2016 19.34.11] Puppeh: Hm?
  37. [02.05.2016 19.34.21] Jen ♥: i am out of it
  38. [02.05.2016 19.34.54] Puppeh: Good. How does it feel now?
  39. [02.05.2016 19.34.59] Puppeh: Can i see what raine said?
  40. [02.05.2016 19.35.02] Jen ♥: i don't like upsetting people
  41. [02.05.2016 19.35.23] Jen ♥: ya
  42. [02.05.2016 19.37.57] Jen ♥: i am going to take a break from IMVU
  43. [02.05.2016 19.38.11] Puppeh: I surgest you talk to beau.
  44. [02.05.2016 19.38.19] Jen ♥: i am now
  45. [02.05.2016 19.38.30] Puppeh: Good
  46. [02.05.2016 20.00.35] Puppeh: Everything going good?
  47. [02.05.2016 20.04.44] Jen ♥: Yes thank You Pup
  48. [02.05.2016 20.04.53] Puppeh: Thats good :)
  49. [02.05.2016 20.04.59] Jen ♥: Daddy and i are good
  50. [02.05.2016 20.05.11] Jen ♥: i just can't handle being away from Him and He had to go
  51. [02.05.2016 20.05.21] Jen ♥: so i miss Him so much
  52. [02.05.2016 20.05.42] Puppeh: Good! Now if somone ever comes to try and take you from him again. I will Kill them.
  53. [02.05.2016 20.05.57] Jen ♥: i understand Pup
  54. [02.05.2016 20.07.21] Jen ♥: i still feel so sick to my stomach
  55. [02.05.2016 20.07.34] Jen ♥: i was shaking and crying so hard
  56. [02.05.2016 20.07.49] *** Puppeh smiles softly and holds my arms open "Hey. Dont be sad." ***
  57. [02.05.2016 20.13.46] Jen ♥: ::goes into Your arms wrapping my arms around You:: Thank Yous Pup...i am glad Daddy and i are okay...omg i could have lost Hims forever. i just need to be off IMVU for a while, this was really all upsetting to me words can't describe. i need to rest this has totally drained me
  58. [02.05.2016 20.13.55] Jen ♥: i can't think straight
  59. [02.05.2016 20.14.16] Jen ♥: this has taken a lot of energy
  60. [02.05.2016 20.15.16] *** Puppeh smiles and strokes his fingers trought her hair "take the time you need. I'll watch the room til ur back, but i woud like to make a request. Unmod ender and raine." ***
  61. [02.05.2016 20.20.28] Jen ♥: Can You please talk to Darra for me/
  62. [02.05.2016 20.20.29] Jen ♥: ?*
  63. [02.05.2016 20.20.43] Jen ♥: Yes i will unmod Them
  64. [02.05.2016 20.31.48] Jen ♥: i need to rest a little bit all this has made me sick going to lay down for a little bit
  65. [02.05.2016 20.33.13] Puppeh: I will talk to darts :) rest Well doll you deserve it.
  66. [02.05.2016 20.53.32] Puppeh: Darra*
  67. [02.05.2016 23.57.54] Jen ♥: i feel so much better i got some sleep
  68. [02.05.2016 23.58.05] Jen ♥: i am remembering more clearly everything that happened now
  69. [02.05.2016 23.58.10] Jen ♥: i can tell Daddy now
  70. [02.05.2016 23.58.18] Jen ♥: so need to send Him another message
  71. [01.05.13] Jen ♥: Are You there I want to send You something
  72. [01.05.41] Jen ♥: Maybe it will explain a little more what happened
  73. [01.08.38] Jen ♥: PUPPEH
  74. [02.35.04] Jen ♥: i was really led astray by Them and i feel They had alterior motives for putting me under Their protection wanting me to be Their sub all along and that is upsetting to me that isn't right or fair. Well, i was already having a hard time with the sub i am. Being the babygirl room was getting hard for me when Sir Ender said i wasn't a little. It made sense because i am not cutsie like they are. i don't say all that cutsie stuff especially like Your glitterbug. she is adorable! and i am also not like the others so i was feeling very insecure and feeling like You weren't going to want me anymore and i was getting really insecure with that. i am a different type of little but i am a little at times. right now my little is away and i am talking to You like a full grown adult and that worries me thinking You will not like me anymore. my little is not always out, but it is more out around You than anyone because i feel more comfortable with You. Anyway...back to what i was going to say...it got to where i couldn't handle being in the babygirl room because of what Sir Ender said and this reality now questioning that wow i might not be a little and now Daddy is going to leave me and i think that is what They wanted because i grew very uncomfortable in there and asked if W/we could all move to the other market. So, we did they were there before i even finished talking about it. i was like oh wow okay. When W/we were there Sir Ender told me the kind of Dom i needed and i was so broken at this point and vulnerable and totally led astray i feel and yes taken from You, but this is my fault too. i also didn't sleep for at least 30 hours and i didn't eat i was in pain on pain pills and muscle relaxers i was all messed up in the head from the babygirl room, worried about being a little, worried about You not accepting me, so it just all happened. BUT once it did and when i had to write that on my profile card i started getting nervous and having doubts and thinking i made a mistake and it also didn't feel right but then i told myself this was my training i guess this is what i was supposed to do but then reminded me great i am a robot again. i didn't feel comfortable with Them or safe. i went to bed right after feeling very tired and drained from the hard hit of negative emotion and then the heaviest emotion was realizing i lost You and having to tell You and Pup signed on and i went to Him and it was hard enough telling Him. i cried myself to sleep and talking to You today i was shaking and crying i threw up twice after You and i got off Skype i was crying again because i missed You i don't like being away from You. Now that i am put back together had sleep away from the brainwashing whatever You want to call it, i can think without influence and i can't believe what i did and beating myself up over it and omg the humiliation and the hurt i caused You its torture. i keep crying off and on. i am starting to cry again i miss You i am so sorry. i am so so so so fortunate blessed and glad You took me back omg i don't know what i would have done thank You so much i will take any punishment You give me. i know it will be so bad but i can't imagine it being worse than this it is still affecting me i am sick to my stomach i still haven't eaten i am a crying mess my heart hasn't stopped aching my chest is so tight my head is filled with everything that has happened and the hurt i caused and the replay of hearing how i hurt You how You had to step away and that You cried that is torture. i only want to make You proud and make You smile. i talked to my roommate and He was upset. i even told Him how You wrote Them a letter. Of course He took Your side in everything and was very glad You took me back. He said that if They were real Doms this would not have happened they led me astray and took advantage of the situation and as i said above having ulterior motives for putting me under protection. i will NOT go under Their protection or Anyones. i trust YOU COMPLETELY i do not need Anyone but You and i will do that Diary and anything else You ask of me. i TRUST YOU DADDY AND LOVE YOU WITH ALL THAT i AM. i don't deserve to ask for anything but i do hope one day You can forgive me so this isn't between U/us. i am really sorry Daddy. i hope this explains more.
  75. [02.43.59] Jen ♥: Hopefully this explains it i think i was just really led astray
  76. [02.44.10] Jen ♥: its my fault though
  77. [05.03.57] Puppeh: Doll That was a very long text to write at 5 am xD
  78. [05.04.08] Jen ♥: sowies Pup
  79. [05.04.15] Puppeh: But Well done :) i'm glad you opened up ti him :)
  80. [05.04.19] Jen ♥: and good morning wow I was just thinking about YOU
  81. [05.04.32] Puppeh: xD
  82. [05.04.33] Jen ♥: Sir Dark is really upset with Them
  83. [05.04.47] Jen ♥: how they manipulated me and took advantage of me
  84. [05.04.47] Puppeh: Understandable
  85. [05.04.53] Jen ♥: just everything
  86. [05.05.02] Jen ♥: He said i should have saw the signs though
  87. [05.05.32] Jen ♥: What are Your thoughts on it?
  88. [05.07.35] Puppeh: On what x.,..,.x?
  89. [05.07.53] Jen ♥: about Sir Ender and Miss Raine
  90. [05.07.57] Jen ♥: what happened
  91. [05.10.27] Puppeh: I knew What they were doing. So when i spoke to beau i told him what i had observed and everything. Thats Why i wanted his skype. What they did was wrong. I should not have left you in there with them because i saw what they were doing when i was in ther allready.
  92. [05.10.30] Puppeh: There*
  93. [05.11.12] Jen ♥: Oh crap Pup i didn't know that. i didn't see it. Did You ever get a hold of Daddy?
  94. [05.11.28] Puppeh: I did b
  95. [05.11.59] Puppeh: But he was in the hospital and i had to catch Planes before i had time to talk to him
  96. [05.12.11] Jen ♥: Ahw i am sorry to hear that
  97. [05.12.21] Jen ♥: He is still in the hospital :'(
  98. [05.13.08] Puppeh: I know i spoketo him yesterday
  99. [05.13.18] Jen ♥: Ohs
  100. [05.13.40] Jen ♥: i am still so depressed and crying off and on
  101. [05.13.59] *** Puppeh holds arms open ***
  102. [05.14.37] Jen ♥: ::huggles You tightly snuggling into Yous:: Thank Yous Pup i feel sooo ashamed and soooo humiliated
  103. [05.14.52] Jen ♥: i hurt Daddy
  104. [05.15.02] Jen ♥: really bad
  105. [05.16.09] *** Puppeh holds you tightly and cradles you "hun. Dont beat urself up" ***
  106. [05.19.16] Jen ♥: ::snuggles into Yous resting my head against Yous chest:: i am Pup i can't help it its just so much. i am having breakdowns every couple hours. Miss Raine sent me a message asking if i wanted to go back under Their protection i said no ... that Daddy would never ever hurt me and always protect me
  107. [05.19.47] Jen ♥: Thank You very much, but i don't want to be under protection at this time i understand it's important, but i feel completely safe with Daddy. He will never ever hurt me no matter what happens. He has and will always have my best interest at heart. He is a really good Dom and man.
  108. [05.20.23] Jen ♥: She never wrote back
  109. [05.20.33] Jen ♥: Good.
  110. [05.26.12] *** Puppeh strokes his fingers trought her hair "and when it comes down to it. When Beau aint in the room. I mostly am. And i'm not letting anyone make my brothers little girl cry. Then the peacefull pup goes full warhead." ***
  111. [05.33.17] Jen ♥: ::closes my eyes resting against Yous feeling safe:: Thank Yous Pup i feel safe with Yous. i like that Yous are always in the room. i wish Daddy could be there like that, too. Thank Yous for relaxing me. i am so lucky Pup that Daddy took me back. i don't even want to think about how i would be. i am crying again i feel so bad i hurt Him. i know You want me to remove Them as mods from the room i need to do that i just haven't be able to bring myself to sign on. It's too soon. i will return when Daddy does.
  112. [05.34.39] *** Puppeh nods and kisses her forhead softly "take the time you need doll, take everything in you and beau's pace." ***
  113. [05.36.28] Jen ♥: Thank You Pup. How are You feeling?
  114. [05.37.06] Puppeh: I am incredebly tired. Boyfriend woke me up @ 5 cuz he was going 2 work
  115. [05.37.11] Puppeh: Boytoy*
  116. [05.37.52] Jen ♥: Oh wow. i am glad You made it safely there.
  117. [05.38.21] Jen ♥: Just make sure You pee right after sex so You don't get a bladder infection with all that sex You are having and lots of showers
  118. [05.38.32] Puppeh: Same. Almost missed the last flight xD
  119. [05.38.38] Jen ♥: Yikes
  120. [05.38.50] Puppeh: Pee right 0...o???
  121. [05.38.56] Jen ♥: Yes and before sex too
  122. [05.39.02] Jen ♥: before and after
  123. [05.39.28] Jen ♥: we call it shishi but i think all of you call it pee
  124. [05.39.30] Puppeh: 0...o erhhhh Maybe?
  125. [05.39.37] Jen ♥: NO MAYBES SAY YES
  126. [05.39.43] Puppeh: Maybe.
  127. [05.39.47] Jen ♥: meh
  128. [05.40.03] Jen ♥: i am crying and trying to help You i don't need this crap
  129. [05.40.33] Puppeh: I'm sorry D; i was trying to be derpy 2 make you smile. I do all That before sex
  130. [05.40.40] Jen ♥: Ahwws sowies
  131. [05.41.04] Jen ♥: that is good i worry about Yous
  132. [05.41.11] Jen ♥: i am glad You are having a good time
  133. [05.41.30] Puppeh: No need to :) we shower once a day. Ofc sex in the shower <...< >...>
  134. [05.41.58] Jen ♥: Lol
  135. [05.43.03] Jen ♥: How is Your pain today?
  136. [05.44.06] Puppeh: Erh i'm not on top of my game tbh Dx
  137. [05.45.07] Jen ♥: Whats going on?
  138. [05.45.30] Jen ♥: and i am not surprised with how active You have been
  139. [05.47.48] Puppeh: I'm tired xD in pain from being twisted everywhere
  140. [05.48.31] Jen ♥: The tiredness makes the pain worse, too
  141. [05.48.42] Jen ♥: and You don't sleep well on top of it
  142. [05.49.58] Jen ♥: i am sorry to hear You are in so much pain. Can You take something for i?
  143. [05.50.02] Jen ♥: it?*
  144. [05.50.53] Puppeh: Nah but i'm fine :) Been trought worse
  145. [05.51.19] Jen ♥: You're strong and amazing Pup i always tell You that and its true
  146. [05.51.46] Puppeh: Sometimes Maybe
  147. [05.52.00] Jen ♥: You are just modest
  148. [05.52.12] Jen ♥: i hope Daddy gets better
  149. [05.52.18] Jen ♥: He is really sick
  150. [05.53.21] Jen ♥: He did say earlier when i was talking to Him that You talked to Him...i didn't know that was Skype though.
  151. [05.53.25] Puppeh: He will
  152. [05.54.02] Jen ♥: He said You said something about Them telling me that He was leaving or something like that?
  153. [05.54.08] Jen ♥: Does that make sense?
  154. [05.55.29] Puppeh: They told you he was leaving you and That he didnt love you anymore.
  155. [05.55.38] Jen ♥: WHAT? THEY DID?
  156. [05.55.49] Jen ♥: i missed that
  157. [05.56.11] Puppeh: Good. You didnt need to see it either.
  158. [05.56.15] Jen ♥: omg wtf
  159. [05.56.25] Puppeh: Calm down.
  160. [05.56.37] Jen ♥: omg
  161. [05.56.39] Jen ♥: why?
  162. [05.57.02] Puppeh: Hun. Breath. You are back with him all That matters is you and him.
  163. [05.57.12] Jen ♥: what if He changes His mind and leaves me?
  164. [05.58.07] Jen ♥: my tummy hurts so bad
  165. [06.01.33] Puppeh: He wont. Trust him doll
  166. [06.02.22] Jen ♥: i do trust Him i am just feeling really insecure and sad and lost and broken and all the above
  167. [06.06.57] Puppeh: And That is something you should push on ender. Not Beau. His heart is big and you have 99% of it. I stole 1% because i'm his brother ;P
  168. [06.11.34] Jen ♥: So true and i do trust Daddy very much just going through a hard time right now but i am very happy W/we are together again i feel complete and whole i just miss Him i never do well when i am away from Him. You know that. i go through Pup withdrawals too ya know. And i am pretty sure You have more than 1% of HIs heart He might just not admit to it :P
  169. [06.13.40] Puppeh: Haha :P i know you go trought withdrawls when it comes to me. Thats cuz i'm sturdy as a rock :3 ps. I'm getting burger for breakfast
  170. [06.17.03] Jen ♥: Lol. Yesh Yous are. i feel very safe with Yous i don't feel comfortable when Yous are not there unless Daddy is of course. i am talking about when Daddy is away. A BURGER? Well not surprised i guess, You have been working up quite an appetite ;P
  171. [06.17.38] Jen ♥: i am going to get some sleep i am sick to my tummy
  172. [06.17.55] Jen ♥: Talk later thank Yous for being there for meh huggles tight
  173. [06.18.35] Puppeh: Sleep Well cutie :3
  174. [06.18.51] Jen ♥: Thankies have a good day ^.^
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