Im so so so so sorry again, i hope this convo will make sense of wtf is wrong with me.                                                -Zoe- i have to let him go and just be a friend and i tried that i thought i could do it again but i cant
Hayl- is that decision coming from the heart or the head?
Zoe- head
Hayl- what dos the heart say?
Zoe- you know you cant be trusted, you dont know what you want
Hayl-do you trust youself zoe?
Zoe-no
Hayl- why dont you trustt yourself?
Zoe- i dont want to hurt another person, my thoughts arent 100% on another person so i cant make them happy
Hayl-is the issue with tim or youself?
Zoe- myself, tim is amazing thats why i dont want him to put up with me
Hayl-say you did be friends with tim and all calmed down and another lad came along 3-4 years down the line do you think you will have the same problem with new guy?
Zoe-yup, i dont cope well with feelings, but they rarely happen so i dont think someone else will come along, id love to be friends with him he knows more than anyone but feels in the way but i dont want them but ill crush him if i do it again and stay friends because i know how he fell
Hayl- its your decision but i would stick it out as friends with tim . i wouldnt let him go because hes gold dust. i have never found someone that can understand me and if i do he will be the most dangerous person to me
Zoe-i dont know if he would want just friends with me because feelings.. ill keep denying them til they go i dont do feels i cant even take care of myself nevermind someone else. he knows i care more about him than me
that is why i cant do feels and let him down later down the line its easier to put a lid on the bucket now. but i couldnt be without him, he means the world but i just want like best friends no feelings.. just feels bleh
Hayl-lets say you finally got rid of your feelings for him and you were just friends with him and he was happy with that decision, how would you feel?
Zoe-id be okay with that because id still have him in my life
i dont know if he would be
Hayl-would you be dissapointed if there was no possibilities that you could go back out?
Zoe-im not ready for it at all... dating is weird to me..
Hayl-well you definately making the right decion by staying friends with him but its gonna be an issue for him
Hayls-why is it such an issue for tim?
Zoe-because feels
i havent said anything to him yet.. im going to send this convo see if he can make sense of my awkwardness
[22/03/2015 23:48:30] zoeehh -.-: and I threw up with nerves bc didn't wanna send this