How two tabs changed my perception on life and weed

OVERVIEW OF THE POST
This isn't your normal trip report. I put a lot of extra information in here so that it can be applicable to many people. Every time I read a trip report its just pointless bullshit, some of it is interesting, but none of it relates to my own personal life. I'm going to try and explain to the best of my ability every meaningful aspect of the trip and how certain events in my life could've and should've prevented a lot of unnecessary shit and saved my parents and I thousands of dollars.

16 QUESTIONS ABOUT LSD
I posted something the day before I took the two tabs and if I didn't post it and asked these questions, I probably would've ate a brownie and a tab and had another meaningless trip. I know I wrote a lot and I hope this can change someone's perspective on life and how you should live life to the fullest. If you plan on tripping anytime soon you really should read my other post '16 Questions about LSD'. I got some really great answers which led to me having the most insightful life changing trip that I believe will help whoever reads this.

DISCLAIMER
If you have your life together and you've traveled the world and don't have anything that you'd like to change in your life, and great friends in your life who are there to help you, don't read this. If you feel somewhat lost and don't know what you want out of your life, what makes you happy and/or what you're good at, then you really should read this (I'm sorry but I use a lot of parentheses). It's a lot of info but it's all meaningful and I wrote everything for a reason.

THE TRIP THAT CHANGED MY PERSPECTIVE ON LIFE
I smoke weed way too often and I've been living in such a comfortable environment for my entire life. I've been so lost recently (still am) and I have no idea what I want to do when I get older. This trip really opened my eyes as to how blind I was and how weed constantly made me lazy and not want to pursue any dreams, better myself physically, financially and mentally. I feel like this report can really help someone who is going through similar trials and tribulations.

PERSONAL INFO
I'm 19, going into my sophomore year of college and I now know that studying in Florida is not what I wanna do for the next several years. I thought that I'd go to college for the next 3 years and go into my dads business and eventually take over (my parents plan). I've been working at his office for the entire summer and recently I've been extremely unhappy everyday at work. It would make sense to do that because it's easy and he would be able to teach me the business and help me out.

BACKGROUND INFO
I've never done more than a single tab before. I was always worried that anything more would be too much and would change me for the worst. Every time I've done a single tab with my gf it was amazing and I couldn't ever imagine what two tabs would be like. Last time I tripped on L was a year and a half ago with her.

3 TRIPS IN 5 DAYS
So last weekend my parents went on a 6 day trip. I decided to trip 3 times. Once on Friday (1 gel tab) once on Sunday (1.7g in tea then 1.2 dry in honey and bread) and then 1g dry on the sandwich on Tuesday. None of the trips were memorable. I got visuals on Friday and Sunday, but I didnt have a nice trip mentally from any of them (I was smoking before, coming up, while peaking and while coming down). Smoking makes the visuals really intense but for me it makes me feel stupid and foggy in my head while tripping.

THE TRIP
So I said a long prayer and decided to take 2 tabs at 920 on Friday 7/31 (3 days after the 1g trip). My parents got home 20 mins later (I knew they'd be home at 940 since they were at a movie) and I got in an argument with my mom over some disagreement we had a couple days before. It didn't get resolved and we decided we'd talk about it tomorrow. I was telling her I wanna have a normal relationship with her and not what we have. She always tells me what to do and just asks questions, never talks about stuff that I find interesting.

COMING UP
Anyways, she all of a sudden didn't want my girlfriends dog to sleep with me tonight (he always sleeps with me and he's always great to have next to you since he cuddles you and is really cute & fluffy). I kept getting really weird vibes from my mom and I was constantly standing up and moving around while I was coming up for the first hour and I threw up and was already tripping visually right around 10. Luckily I had a grocery bag without a hole in it so I opened my door outside and left it out there for me to throw away later on.  I thought to myself, great my mom is acting shady and doesn't want me to sleep with the dog for some reason (they always bitch and complain about him waking them up in the middle of the night), I kept smelling the grotesque smell of vomit in my nose and now I'm all worried that my mom might've heard me open the door or throw up.

DIFFERENT KIND OF TRIP
This trip was so different than the previous one tab trip simply because I didn't smoke. Every time I wanted to go outside and smoke a j it began storming and raining really hard. I really felt like God was speaking through me and wanted me to tell my friends to be careful and try to stop smoking and selling so much.

SNAPCHAT AND DEALING
I was on snapchat messaging all my old friends that used to live in Maryland for probably 3 hours. I kept trying to convince my neighbor in FL to stop selling (coke and bud) and he is basically in a similar situation as me with having parents who caught him and gave him a warning. We both have to constantly hide shit from them and we both have had a lot of close calls (he doesn't smoke though). I've sold Mary for the past two-three years and really just do it to break even or make some money on an o. I made 300$ on a qp but that's the most I've ever made in 2 weeks from selling. I told him every time we sell something to someone we're simply risking losing thousands of dollars with lawyer fees, letting down our parents again and losing their trust, again. Simply because we're selfish and we are trying to make money the easiest way without doing any hard work.

THE JOURNEY
So the rain and thunder stops for the first time and I decided to walk .2 miles all the way down to the nicest house that's being built in my neighborhood that over looks the river.

THE WALK
I smoked a j in the middle of the street omw to the house and I really wasn't scared or worried of anyone seeing me since it was 5 in the morning. I had some headphones on and I was tokin and listening to sound cloud the entire way.

TRIALS AND TRIBULATIONS
Upon my arrival, it's completely flooded with sprinkler water. There were so many reasons why I shouldn't have trespassed (500$ fine for trespassing, ankle deep of muddy sprinkler water and the potential to step on something sharp like a nail).

WALKING AROUND THE HOUSE
I ignored all my fears and took my shitty sandals off and walked through this puddle that was 10 feet long and ankle deep with mud and sprinkler water. I was careful not to step on anything sharp like a nail or something. I managed to walk around the side of the house and there were all these things in the dirt that looked like faces and snakes, but i turned on my phone flashlight on and noticed it was just just hoses that looked like garden snakes. So I luckily found a chair and I go and finish the 2nd joint while on the phone with my old best friend from middle school. We had a great conversation and I remember almost everything.

THE VIEW
There were so many lights and amazing visuals looking out at all the colorful lights across the river from homes, high rises  and a bridge with cars traveling up and down. The water just looked so trippy and everything about that place was absolutely beautiful.

THE JAR THAT ALMOST COST ME 650$
So I'm standing on this guys dock and I'm wondering if I should I throw away the jar in my pocket or keep it in case I ever need it in the future. I kept telling myself that weed is fun and all but it always ends up being a necessity that I have to hide from my parents, girlfriend, and the cops. Recently, my girlfriend has lost interest in weed and went to go visit her family overseas for the summer.

JAR AND PAX
I try and put my phone in my pocket that the jars in and my phone fell out and came inches from falling off the dock and into the water. The only reason it fell out was because the jar was in my pocket. When I tripped earlier this summer on shrooms I got up and my pax 2 almost fell in the water since I was dabbing and smoking the entire time.

MARIHUANA
Don't get me wrong, weed is great and I'm probably gonna smoke again this year. But I really made an agreement with myself to cut down a lot since I really need it to be happy/hungry/not bored. Whenever I get into a habit of smoking weed regularly it becomes less and less fun and it feels like I'm just getting 'well' like heroin addicts.
I just fuck up a lot and can never think straight about important things that I need to accomplish. I always forget what I ate, did and it just feels like I'm 60 years old and have a shitty memory, which is pretty sad.

PERSONAL EFFECTS OF MARY JUAN
Weed makes me talkative and I can go on and on when I'm high but when I'm not I can be really dull and not fun to be around. I can make small talk with people but I just don't have any great stories to tell since I haven't experienced anything worth socializing about that I enjoy talking about. I have some cool stories but nothing that other people would find extraordinary or worth telling someone else. I prefer to hear people tell interesting stories and let them go on and on because it's just entertaining to listen to and sometimes it'll remind me of a similar story that I'll tell after he/she is finished their story.

LONG WAY HOME
So I decided to throw the jar and my two lighters in the water since I almost lost my phone due to the jar being in my pocket. It's just another thing that my parents could find. So after I take my shoes off and go through the puddle again, the song 'long way home' by Diplo came on and it made me realize that it was almost 6 and my dad gets up every morning right at 6 to feed the dogs (and he opens my door so he can feed the dog sleeping with me).

THE .2 MILE JOG
Jogging while tripping was the weirdest feeling. It felt like I weighed 300 pounds but I kept telling myself that it'll help me sleep since the last time I took a single tab I couldn't sleep until 12 hours later.

THE NEIGHBOR ACROSS THE CANAL
Earlier that month I was outside tripping on shrooms on my dock and dabbing and I looked at my neighbors house that appeared to be floating on the river and all of his lights were on (3 or 4 in the morning) and I can see the reflection of his TV from my dock playing some really weird trippy shit.

THE COMPLIMENT
Earlier on the same day I took the two tabs, I I was planting dirt for our flowers and I saw my neighbor kayaking pass my house and he is wearing this really trippy shirt and he said hey and I was like hey I like your shirt.

THE WEIRD DESIRE TO BE PRODUCTIVE
He looked down and was like thanks (he seemed slightly confused since he was wearing a life vest and I could only see his sleeves). So something in me wanted to clean out the garage, give the dogs a nice walk and then give them a shower.

WALKING THE DOGS
I walked all three of our dogs while my parents were at dinner and the movie theater (instead of smoking or wasting time on the computer) and I see him outside in his driveway. If I didn't clean out the garage or take such a long time to plant and water the plants, he would've probably been inside when I walked down his street. I never walk all three of the dogs unless I'm walking them with my gf (it's very annoying walking three dogs by yourself). For some reason I wanted to walk them and take them down the guys street and I'm normally never productive if I have the house to my self... So I'm walking by him and he walks up to the dogs and starts petting them. I've never talked to him before and for some reason he approached me and I kept the small talk going and found out a lot about him.

CALLING THE NEIGHBOR OUT FOR TRIPPING
Towards the end of our conversation I was like I know this is weird to say but I'm gonna say it. I was tripping on my dock about a month ago and I looked over at your house and all your lights were on and I saw a reflection of your TV and it was playing some really trippy stuff. He pauses and has the biggest smile and kinda laughs (kinda scary tbh) and he was like yea I have an Apple TV and it zooms in and out of pictures whenever it is on standby. He was embarrassed to admit that he trips but he told me I would've never thought you tripped, are you one of those kids who wake up at 2 every day? I told him i was pretty normal I just smoke and trip but I have a job, go to college and wake up at around 8-9 every day. He was like well good for you have fun while you're still young. That was very meaningful for him to say and I'll elaborate at the end of the post.

THE JOG BACK HOME (CONTINUED)
So on my way home, I see his house lights are all on across from the canal. He is watching the trippiest shit ever (stuff that'd give someone a seizure) and I just laugh to myself since we have both tripped at the same time at least two times now (maybe more).

ARRIVING BACK HOME
I get home right before 6 and of course the sprinklers are on. So walking through more mud and sprinklers, I now smell like shit and my sandals and feet feel and smell disgusting. I go to the bathroom and wash my feet in the sink with soap and water (something I've actually never done before) and right once I got back to my bedroom my dad comes in moments later to feed the dogs.

STUDYING OVERSEAS
Over the past week or so I've been contemplating going to another continent to study and last night really made my decision final. My dad has recently been saying that he wants me out of the house and my mom said it to me a couple days ago.

THE MORNING AFTER
So the next morning I woke up around 1130 and I had less than 5 hours of sleep. I walked straight into my moms room and managed to talk to my mom for over an hour (normally our conversations are less than a min unless I got caught with smoking or selling).

THE CONVERSATION
I simply told her, if I died today, would you regret not having a friendship with me? For some reason I was tearing up a little when I was writing this (it was definitely the afterglow), but I started crying when I said this to her and so did she and I just told her how I wanna get out of this area and meet new people, have an adventurous life and stop being such a burden on their lives.

TYPE B PERSONALITY
It was so nice to be able to talk to her about something that wasn't pointless small talk.
I'm really introverted and I can count all my best friends on one hand, the rest are just acquaintances since they don't ever try and keep in contact or hang out.

YOLO
Life is a trip. It's so unpredictable but if you're nice to people, have good morals and just do the right thing, good things really will come your way.

GOD
I really believe in God. Throughout my life I really wasn't that much of a believer. Being raised from Christian parents and being forced to go to church really made me never wanna go.

WHAT GOD HAS DONE FOR ME
He has helped me with so many things in my life. I never had a girlfriend throughout high school until my senior year. I prayed to have the confidence to talk to this girl in my math class (honestly most beautiful girl ever) and sure enough we started talking and the snowball effect happened and next thing you know we are best friends. 2 months later we're in a relationship then 2 more months later she is living with my parents and I.

HER IMPACT ON MY LIFE
She has really transformed my life for the better. I'm a much better talker now, I don't have as many friends as I'd like to but I really don't care because I have her and there's nobody worth being friends with where I live. She's the one that made me realize that where I live isn't that great. It's cool how theirs nice beaches within 30 mins and the convenience factor of a lot of things. The only thing is, America has made me so lazy and I hate that about myself. She has always wanted me to study somewhere else with her other than where we live but now I truly understand why she wants a change in environment for us.

HIGH SCHOOL FRIENDS
All my friends in high school were just temporary friends since there were only 60 kids or less in each grade. I have hung out with several friends from high school but I never really wanted to be there. I would much rather be at home with my gf or by myself (when I was single).

MY ADVICE
Live life like the way you want to and not the way society or your parents think you should. Yes you shouldn't do whatever the fuck you want just to have fun, but try and better yourself so you can eventually travel the world and do fun things in your life without stressing about spending your money frugally.

HAVE A COOL STORY THAT YOU ENJOY TELLING PEOPLE
Yes money is material and it's not worth working a shitty job that you hate going to which makes you miserable. Have a job that you love (I don't know what I love yet, but I'm hoping to find out within the near future). Everyone in my high school went to colleges in Florida and Ivy League schools. Being able to say that you studied in a different continent is something so cool to be able to tell people and it's not normal (at least not normal since I don't know anyone personally who has done it other than my gf).

MY HOPES FOR THE FUTURE
I'm hoping I meet some good friends wherever I decide to study. Having stories to tell that are interesting (not tripping stories or close calls with getting arrested or whatever) can get you far in life. I haven't met anyone that significant in Florida (except for my gf) that I would consider an amazing friend, but hopefully God can put some more people in my life that'll really benefit me for the better.

MORNING AFTER
So the morning after I tripped when I was talking to my mom, I told her that my friend Cam lives in New York and she got all excited and was like really?! Then I said exactly, being able to tell people that you moved to a different location than where you grew up from to pursue a dream or whatever is such an intriguing story that often leads to other conversations which allows you to know who you're talking to better and possibly can lead to a friendship that can lead you to discovering what you really love in life and what you want to do or to meeting one of his/her friends that can have a great impact on your life.

HOW I FELT THEN AND NOW
It's so crazy how smart I felt and still feel compared to taking one tab and smoking before taking it, while coming up and peaking. If you really wanna have a good and significant trip and not just a fun, meaningless trip, don't smoke until you're coming down. I was always under the impression that weed just made the trip better and made things more trippy when in reality it only makes the visuals more intense and makes your thoughts scattered. Being sober while tripping allows you to organize your thoughts in your head in such a way that's amazing. Holding conversations with anyone is extremely easy (at least for me).

SMOKING DAILY
If you find yourself smoking just to get through the day or so you could just enjoy a movie or become more talkative, you know it's a bad habit. I've been aware for a while (especially my gf) and I just talk myself into smoking because I always have a lot and it's easy to. I have over 20 brownies and I can just easily take a couple nibbles and be good for hours. I typically have close to an O so I talk myself into just smoking a quick j or bowl whenever the moment is right.

THE PAX
When I used to have my pax, my gf and I would just constantly hit it whenever we were in the car. It was just a habit we formed, we used to smoke a bong in my car while driving before I got in the accident and we just thought we were unstoppable. It was so small and convenient. I could easily play 18 holes while hitting it most the time and it'd still have half its battery life afterwards.

$MOKING MY MULA AWAY
Yes you can smoke all time easily but eventually you'll get caught or you'll miss an opportunity of a lifetime because you were high at home fucking around. Weed really helped keep me entertained throughout high school and college but the amount of money that I would have if I never smoked would maybe be over 10,000$ instead of a 1000$. I forgot so many cool and funny memories just because I was always high.

MY OLD CAR
I used to have a 2012 white Audi A5 with black rims and I totaled it because we were on our way to go to AT&T so we could smoke on our way home. We didn't need to go to AT&T and my dad didn't want us to go since it was almost 9 but we wanted to go and toke.

GOD GIVING ME MY FIRST WARNING
Luckily my bong, scale, jar with several bags of weed in it and Molly were all hidden away in the trunk. On our way to the store a guy ran a red light and we hit him head on going 60.

TALKING TO THE POPO
There were about 10 cops around us and the cop was asking me all these questions and trying to make it seem like I ran the red light when the guy already admitted that he ran it. I was kinda high and extremely nervous since my gf couldn't talk and I had several felonies and misdemeanors in my trunk. The car was totaled and they took it to a junk yard.

THE NEXT DAY
I went to the junk yard the next day in my moms car and got everything out. Why didn't they search my car? I said so many prayers in the ambulance for my gf and that they wouldn't find anything (since they could've seized the car).

INJURIES FROM THE ACCIDENT
My gf wasn't wearing her seat belt (she normally always does) and she cracked her head on the windshield. She was unconscious for 5 minutes (couldn't talk at all and curled up on the floor underneath the glove department and she didn't remember anything about that night). I fractured my wrists and lower back and she got a concussion and really messed up her back, IT band, knee, ankle, shoulder and she suffers from headaches nearly everyday. She goes to the chiropractor 3 times a week and I feel extremely shitty about her always being in pain since we could've easily just stayed home that night.

THE SECOND WARNING
Fast forward 3 weeks. I'm still driving in my moms car (she's driving a rental since I'm not old enough) and we are still smoking, even though she just had a concussion not too long ago. We smoke in her car and we were smoking a bong at our house. Sure enough my mom comes home early from work and we thought she'd be home later. We are both high af and they don't think she is somehow (it was pretty obvious). I managed to hide the jar with a half o in it under the cushion that we were sitting on and so she just threw away the bong and didn't really ask where the weed was.

THE NEW CAR
They were mad but got over it really quick. They got me a nice 2011 dark blue Audi (same brand) for a good price (didn't lose any money since the insurance covered 90% of the cars value). The day I got the car I decided to get some lean for the first time and roll a lean blunt in the dorm living room (was living on campus at the time).

THE THIRD WARNING
These two African American girls knocked on the door and said we can smell it from out here. I laughed and I don't remember what I said to them.

WE GO AND SMOKE THE BLUNT AND COME BACK
Sure enough someone smelled it outside our room and they called the campus police. My gf and I were playing call of duty with 2 other 'friends' and we heard a loud bang on the door. Stupid high me goes and opens the door without trying to hide anything.

THE ROOM SEARCH
It was such a mess and I couldnt even find the molly and try to throw it away. So they found my bowl (didn't take it for some reason and I still have it to this day) molly, half o, scale, wax vape pen, cough syrup and they could've taken the 20 weed brownies we had, but luckily they didn't think they were weed brownies for some reason.

THE AFTERMATH
I was charged for meth since it came up for methamphetamine, even though it was purple molly crystals (30,000) bond, the half O my mom didn't find (1500) and paraphernalia (1500). So it cost 6000$ to bail me out (you pay 10% of the actual price) and it cost 3000$ for the lawyer. Luckily my lawyer got it so I dont have to take a diversion program (lighter version of probation) and in a couple months it'll be cleared off my record.

THE NEW LIFE
So after that they sold my car and got me a new VW that they picked out for me. It's a nice car with no special features but it's better than no car. I'm lucky that they still got me a car, pays for my insurance, food and still loves me.

THINKING IM UNTOUCHABLE
I had so many warnings to stop smoking but I chose to ignore all of them. I got caught twice this summer (within a month) and I still smoked the night I got caught and the next day. I got arrested 9 months ago and I stopped smoking for a month after I got arrested (I was trying to get clean). Then my old shitty friend came in town and wanted to smoke. My gf and I were a month sober and felt really good about. We were so clear headed and going to church and giving money to church but my piece of shit 'friend' peer pressured me into smoking again. Yes I could've said no but I just wanted to do it since several people I know said the diversion program allows you to fail ur first piss test.

FRIENDS
Some friends are shit and might be fun to hang out and talk with in the moment, but you really have to ask yourself, is it worth losing so much in your life just because you wanna have a friend who smokes and has similar interest and thoughts as you?

MAROIN
Weed is addictive for me. I get used to that high and when I'm not high i just feel bored and somewhat lifeless.

PURPOSE FOR POSTING THIS
I really hope this post can have a positive impact on someone's life. Weed has been involved in my every day life for the past 3-4 years and I'm ready to move on and grow up.

THE WORLD IS TO BIG TO STAY IN ONE PLACE YOUR ENTIRE LIFE
The world is such a big and beautiful place. Staying in your comfort zone is only nice for so long until you realize you're not bettering yourself. Putting yourself in uncomfortable positions that you don't wanna be in is the only way to better yourself and get to the point in life where you're happy with what you're doing, who your friends with and where you are in life.

SHITTY FRIENDS
If you find yourself surrounded by friends who are just there to get high with you, are they really good friends? Could you imagine hanging out with them sober? If not then maybe you should try and find better friends that have a positive influence on your life. I really don't have any friends that are a good influence on my life (except my gf). All my great friends live in Maryland, everyone else in Florida that I've met is just fake and will not hit you up unless they or one of their friends are looking for bud.

CONCLUSION
So basically if you find that all your friends just smoke or buy from you, they're not real friends, cut them out of your life. They don't need to be in it because they're not going to be there for you when everything is shitty for you. I am so lucky to have found a forgiving girlfriend that doesn't just always wanna get high and fucked up and forget everything. I was a bad influence on her ever since we've met since all we did was smoke and have fun.

GO WITH YOUR GUT FEELINGS
If you feel lost in life just try to pray. Talk to God like he's your friend and just ask for help, guidance and/or wisdom. If you plan on tripping sometime soon, don't plan out what you wanna do like I did the other 3 trips. Just do it and let whatever happens happen. The 3 times I tripped when my parents were gone I made a list of shit for me to do. I went in the hot tub, would take a shower, go lay outside and watch stuff on YouTube and smoke throughout the entire trip. It was such a waste of a tab and 4gs of shrooms but I learned from it.

NOT PREPARING FOR A TRIP
The last time I tripped I just took the two, did some laundry, argued with my mom then went in the bedroom and laid in my bed for 7 hours. 5 Hours before I was just cleaning up around the house and just did productive things instead of trying to set up my room or bookmarking trippy websites. However, I would recommend making a playlist on YouTube and definitely watch any music video from Flume, Chet Faker and listen to pink floyds album dark side of the moon and just watch the screen as the musics playing. I was suggested to listen to Pink Floyd in my first post and boy was it worth it.

FOOD FOR THOUGHT
Life is so short and unpredictable. If you died today, would you be happy with the way you lived your life? Live life the way you want to and not the way your parents or friends are living or telling you to live yours. Take your flip flops off, roll up your pants and get out of your comfort zone. Be yourself, don't pretend to be someone you're not, and just be nice to everyone in your life and honestly great things will come your way. I have no regrets in my life because if I didn't make all the mistakes I did, my life would be different. I could still be living on campus and just living my life on autopilot.

GIVING TO CHURCH
I decided yesterday that I'm going to start giving 10% of what I make each week to church. When I was giving to church after I got arrested so many great things happened in my life. My lawyer managed to get everything completely expunged off my record (he's the best lawyer in town and he didn't think he was going to be able to make it happen) and my gf managed to make 2500$ by selling her dads old golf clubs to my uncle. The pastor at my church said if you give 10% of what you make God will return the favor ten-fold meaning if you give 30$ he'll give you back 300$. Eventually I stopped giving and I just never had over 1000$ in my bank account until this summer.  I'm not telling you to give to church but I'm just letting you know how it really benefited my life when I started giving to church when my life was really shitty. I only go to church when I'm forced to and when things aren't going so great in my life. I'm going to start going on my own no matter how great things are going in my life.

IM NOT TRYING TO TELL YOU WHAT TO DO
I'm really not trying to tell you to go to church, become a Christian and stop smoking ganja but if someone who is reading this is going through a bunch of similar shit right now and doesn't know what to do, maybe you could try to talk to God or just make some small changes in your life that are attributing to making you unhappy or lost in life.

UNCOMFORTABLE POSITIONS
It's gonna be hard to travel the world when you're older since you might have responsibilities (wife, kids, pets or a job). My neighbor who was tripping at the same I was told me this and it's so true. I don't wanna turn 30 and have any regrets in my life, thus, I'm going to have a different outlook on my life and live it to the fullest. Don't be afraid of putting yourself in uncomfortable positions because of the fear of failure and embarrassment (walking over the muddy puddle with no shoes on, getting the confidence to talk to my dream gf).

THE QUOTE
I read a quote somewhere a while ago that said, 'your life starts when you step out of your comfort zone'. I now completely understand it and I hope everyone who managed to read the entire post can take something from this and cut off people that don't belong in your life, stop bad habits and start living the life that you want to live.

THE GOAL
My goal in writing this is to learn from my mistakes so you don't have to find out on your own terms. Weed is cool just do it in moderation, try not to buy from someone sketchy, and hang out with good people (not someone you wouldn't wanna introduce to your best friend).

FIN
Hopefully this post will have an impact on someone's life. Let me know if you have any questions or comments about anything. If you managed to read this entire thing, thank you(: Let me know cuz it'll make me feel like I didn't waste a good amount of time out of my weekend writing this for nobody to read except for myself.