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So my life took an extremely unexpected turn. When I was down in the dumps and thought that there was really no point to anything anymore and "why should I bother" and "I'm better off being alone" - she came along. Sometimes I worry that I act overboard with her, and I get a bit anxious with my actions (mostly the affectionate ones) but it's just .. It's like, my wish came true. I had wished that maybe one day I would meet someone like Sami and then .. I met her. Right when I thought I wouldn't anymore. It was odd, we clicked almost instantly, with the other role player in the group who I talked to I was completely different. I was my quiet persona, the one I put out when I'm shy and I meet someone new- but with Sami it was different. I somehow knew to act myself right away, and we talked for what felt like minutes even though they were hours. She's so cute, I can't even begin to explain how cute she is. I honestly have to stop, smile, and laugh because of just how adorable she can be. I was surprised, to be honest, when she had written she was beginning to develop feelings for me. I think it's the first time in a long time I've liked someone and they've honestly returned those feelings. She thinks I'm wonderful, beautiful, funny, cute, sweet .. She treats me like a princess, and it makes me so happy. I wish I had a better word to use than happy, because it's just. Even when I see her post on tumblr I get extremely happy. It might be a combination of the fact her icon is Dead Master, but when I see her it just brings me a lot of joy and I get all giggly and hope she talks to me. Is that weird? I hope not. I was so happy when she said I could be the BRS to her DM, I get all excited when she calls me BRS or Mato. She just .. She makes me really happy. She remembers the little things, and she stays up with me until really late even though she has to go to bed and she knows it. I think everytime I'm around her, there's this huge grin across my face. Did I also mention that she and I have so much in common it's a little scary? (In a cool way of course). I could list off how much we have in common but the list would end up being gigantic. The one I noticed early on though that made sense to me later was the worry about creeping the other person out. I do that all the time when I like someone, and I had wanted to say that to her several times but tried to stop myself. It made me laugh, it's nice to have someone who I can relate to a lot. It helps me feel connected, like I'm not alone. I haven't known her very long, but I wish and hope with all my heart she and I can remain close for a very long time. I want to know all sides of her, the derpy dorky side, the kind side, the angry side, the sad side, the sappy side, and the deep side. Though I think the more I find out about her, the more I might fall for her. She really is wonderful .. I have to stop for a moment and hope this isn't a dream. Actually I pinched myself three times today because I was worried that I was dreaming. I almost started crying too because I didn't want to wake up. I can be a little pathetic sometimes, it seems. I don't know, I just .. I feel like maybe all my waiting was finally worth it. That I've met someone incredibly special, wonderful, and important. I hope I can help her out with college, too .. I mean, I may not know the source material but I'm a pretty bright girl. I can try, at least .. I also hope I can make her smile a lot, because she deserves to smile! She deserves to receive every bit of happiness and love in the world! So, I'll try .. I'll try my best to make her happy! And when she needs someone to help her out, to listen, or to vent to, I'll be there. Because she's Sami, and she's important to me.

 

Oh, she's also really pretty .. Her voice is really cute too.

 

Th-That's not the point though!

 

Oh well, I had to write out everything somewhere .. There's probably a lot that I missed, but I think I covered most of it.

 

Besides Sami my life has been going well. My mom is getting better and nothing's really all that bad. Maybe things are turning up finally!