why do we lie?
who are we protecting?
honesty is obsolete,
the truth is heavily outspoken,
we lie to ourselves.
buy fancy watches and take public transit to expensive restaurants.
we fool ourselves;
we fool each other,
no ones really happy.
but we feel like we're supposed to be content,
so we pretend,
our parents told us it should all be a certain way,
the world tells us it should all be a certain way.
I'm supposed to be happy
I'm supposed to be 27 and successful with two kids and a wife that I sometimes fight with but could never leave because I love her
because I "love" her
"love" her
the word burns the sides of my throat and slits the corners of my mouth
like a lie that stings the tongue
or a bee that pricks the finger.
but nothing is like this.
it will never be like this.
and I should accept that.
and you should accept that.
we should all just stop fucking lying and try to look at things realistically.
talk to each other,
be honest,
everyone's tired of lying,
and we're all tired of being lied to.

the world doesn't disappear every time you close your eyes.