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- Pabs entered for the first time
- Pabs: heyo
- mar: tbf im not sure what you want me to say
- Scratch: HEY LOOK THERE HE IS
- Pabs: sorry i was a little busy but i'm here now
- Scratch: PABLO START US OFF PLEASE
- mar: i mean exo already knows everything i said which is fine
- mar: and i already know what she thinks
- Pabs: i didn't see the tumblr message calling me here either so
- Helena: did you see my message on your talk page or
- mar: yes
- Helena: alright
- mar: and i dont really want to talk to you because i quite honestly find you unpleasant and i know you feel the same way and we dont have to get along
- Pabs: as far as i'm concerned i just kinda wanna clear up any animosity, i admit i probably held a grudge over stuff that i now know is a little inaccurate so i'm sorry for that
- mar: but i think that its not right to go about it the way we do esp. because of how much division i think its causing
- mar: bc ive tried a lot with you but i think you mostly dont forgive or really apologize
- Helena: i try to forgive where im wrong
- mar: bc when i had the argument with scratch i did realize i was wrong, but the way you came in was definitely not a positive approach to a problem either
- Helena: tbh i feel like you don't forgive or really apologize either; i dont know if it's just mre or not
- Pabs: basically snick had told exo about, what at the time, seemed to just be "marina is bullying snick and spark got involved", but now i know it was more of a two-sided discussion than that and i admit, i kind of clung to that anyways and it affected my opinions too much
- mar: i made a blog apologizing explicitly and you refused to forgive me is the thing, and im not particularly sure what ive done to hurt you so badly anyway
- Helena: i admit i was not a positive approach in that situation or that blog
- Pabs: maybe there's some things we just don't agree on but i wanna drop all the grudges and admit that i was wrong
- mar: well helena can you at least tell me what youre holding a grudge over still
- Pabs: (just so it's clear i know you're talking to helena but i just wanted to get that out there)
- mar: bc i do try to analyze myself and improve a lot, which i think i did with that argument bc ive made up with scratch and i dont know if he holds it personally now, but we've been pretty friendly recently
- Helena: <afk for a sec>
- Scratch: i dont hold it that personally
- Scratch: im still conditioned to be kinda antagonistic and frankly thats my issue and mine alone
- mar: and just. to be totally honest i feel like your grudge against me is still carrying over from when i was a crat
- Scratch: so im sorry for whatever bullshit that causes
- Athena entered for the first time 11 seconds ago
- Athena: sorry im late
- mar: and correct me if im wrong but it seems like since then youve really only seen me ever in one mindset which is that im an antagonist and that i hurt people and you jump on me without knowing MY full story
- what they throw lo cee blow entered for the first time
- Athena: regarding the bullying; i overreacted, i was either scared, being jerkish, or both. i lost contact with fanskypo so i clung to pab and exo and i wish i knew beforehand that there was no turning back
- Athena: if i knew what the consequences were going to be, maybe i would have remained silent
- Pabs: i don't think it was wrong to try and talk to people about it but in hindsight it was an overreaction ab
- Athena: it was also dreb who passed me logs, wanted to know if anyone was talking about me. of course i should have remained silent, they wouldn't talk about me that way. then i overreacted to a stupid joke, then action unfolded overnight
- Pabs: and i'm sorry for holding a grudge over that very misinformed viewpoint
- mar: pablo tbh the whole thing for you was: im not really sure why you were mad about me
- mar: like youre allowed to be but... it just seemed out of nowhere
- Athena: i wish i had the full blast of the blow, i should have been told with myself present to 'fuck myself'. of course, i had a school bedtime, so i just laid in bed, guilty, knowing the next day wasn't going to be pretty
- Pabs: it's kind of multiple factors and i'm sorry that it came out of nowhere
- Scratch: (gonna go afk, im not involved rn)
- Pabs: like i said, i heard about what athena said about you bullying her - i know it's misinformation now but at the time it was easy to get upset over it
- Helena
- i think it was a thing that came from the era that you were a crat like you said, we were always fighting over stuff and what not and it just... never really went away for me. you attacked me a lot, i attacked you a lot, and it just kept going because we don't agree about some things
- i never felt respected or really anything that wasn't at least scorn from you and your friends
- i overreact a lot and i burnt a bridge that keeps getting burnt
- we dont communicate on a level where we can both understand each other and i think a part of that comes from fear of doing so at least on my part because when we disagree it seems like it suddenly elevates over time to be a huge argument
- Athena: i felt absolutely horrible when i read both chatzy and skype logs after that. i tried to make up for my actions by attempting to refriend marina and others, but scars are scars, and scars don't die
- mar: athena im not even slightly upset w/ you lol
- Helena: and im so tired of fighting but then i see a message from you talking about lapis as a joke and i just feel sick to my stomach
- Athena: i was told i apologize too much, i do, im just...auugh im sorry hhh
- Pabs: plus really, and i'll be honest here, my grudge is more with spark, i avoid talking about him as others can vouch for me but i think i was projecting my feelings about him onto you since you two are pretty good friends and i'm sorry for that too, i know it's wrong for me to do that and i'm trying to be better so i want to clear things up and apologize
- Athena: marina: i did dumb crap, i just wanted to explain what happened on my end so it was clear
- jasper: she wasnt talking about lapis as a joke if you meant today
- mar: well you were saying there were scars or something
- mar: but theres not
- Pabs: me or athena
- Helena: somebody was apparently
- jasper: the only joke she made about it was that it was made because of her being a sjw
- jasper: we talking about lapis
- jasper: *were
- Helena: Real Happy Scratch: according to marina, it was a "joke"
- mar: i dont know if anyone made a real joke unless that one was horribly malicious
- jasper: we were talking about why it existed
- mar: well
- Athena: i thought i wounded my friendships and that you guys would hold onto the dumb things i did...guess not
- mar: usage of "sjw" is ironic but it did begin to exist bc of how i was when i was crat
- Helena: i think it's outgrown it's original purpose; we use it for other things now
- Scratch: "the only joke she made about it was that it was made because of her being a sjw" i was referring to this
- Scratch: okay afk for real
- Helena: ah okay
- Helena: ive never called you a sjw
- jasper: oh well i took "talking about lapis as a joke" as if she was like insinuating that the wiki itself was a joke
- jasper: maybe i misunderstood you then exo
- jasper: my bad
- Pabs: i'm nor really up to date on what was said about lapis but i hope that i managed to apologize for how i've acted in general
- mar: well its fair for us to disagree and the only thing i really want is for us not to really hate each other and for all of our friends to not hate us
- Helena: i know it's ironic joking but still, i know you have different opinions but that doesn't make you a sjw
- mar: well i wasnt really implying anyone thought im an "sjw"
- Pabs: i held grudges for some pretty crappy reasons and i don't want to do that anymore, i may not want to hang out and we may not always agree but i don't want to just go around feeling like i'm mad at you
- Athena: im just glad you're not upset with me marina, or at least not much upset, you have been one of my greater friends in '15 and it was a shame to lose you (or so i thought i lost)
- Helena: ive held enough grudges, ones that dont even make sense anymore and i just want to get rid of them now
- mar: i dont really have any grudges against you i mostly just want to hear an apology
- Athena: anyway any grudges i hold now, which are very few, im going to drop.
- mar: bc ive apologized to you enough times and i want it to be over
- mar: and if it matters then im sorry for today, i mostly had some opinions i wanted to voice and i dont know if they were over the top or something
- mar: anyway i need to go soon
- Pabs: i want it to be over too, i'm trying to apologize and i hope you accept it
- marina entered for the first time 11 seconds ago
- Athena: this is going to sound dumb but these logs aren't going on fantendo right? just curious
- marina: i mean no
- marina: they shouldnt have a reason to
- Athena: ok good; didn't want indigo to have access to these as im not allowed to be up beyond my bedtime
- Athena: i know that sounds dumbbb
- Helena: i apologize for the things i've done in the past, i admit i was at fault for the blog and the skype thing with scratch
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